The History of Henry Esmond, Esq.
A Colonel in the Service of Her Majesty Queen Anne
Written by Himself
by
William Makepeace Thackeray
First published in 1852.
Contents
Preface.
BOOK I
The Early Youth of Henry Esmond, Up to the Time of His Leaving Trinity College, in Cambridge.
An Account of the Family of Esmond of Castlewood Hall.
Relates How Francis, Fourth Viscount, Arrives at Castlewood.
Whither in the Time of Thomas, Third Viscount, I Had Preceded Him As Page to Isabella.
I am Placed Under a Popish Priest and Bred to That Religion. — Viscountess Castlewood.
My Superiors Are Engaged in Plots for the Restoration of King James Ii.
The Issue of the Plots. — The Death of Thomas, Third Viscount of Castlewood; and the Imprisonment of His Viscountess.
I Am Left at Castlewood an Orphan, and Find Most Kind Protectors There.
After Good Fortune Comes Evil.
I Have the Small-Pox, and Prepare to Leave Castlewood.
I Go to Cambridge, and Do But Little Good There.
I Come Home for a Holiday to Castlewood, and Find a Skeleton in the House.
My Lord Mohun Comes Among Us for No Good.
My Lord Leaves Us and His Evil Behind Him.
We Ride After Him to London.
BOOK II.
Contains Mr. Esmond’s Military Life, and Other Matters Appertaining to the Esmond Family.
I Am in Prison, and Visited, But Not Consoled There.
I Come to the End of My Captivity, But Not of My Trouble.
I Take the Queen’s Pay in Quin’s Regiment.
Recapitulations.
I Go On the Vigo Bay Expedition, Taste Salt-Water and Smell Powder.
The 29th December.
I Am Made Welcome at Walcote.
Family Talk.
I Make the Campaign of 1704.
An Old Story About a Fool and a Woman.
The Famous Mr. Joseph Addison.
I Get a Company in the Campaign of 1706.
I Meet an Old Acquaintance in Flanders, and Find My Mother’s Grave and My Own Cradle There.
The Campaign of 1707, 1708.
General Webb Wins the Battle of Wynendael.
BOOK III.
Containing the End of Mr. Esmond’s Adventures in England.
I Come to an End of My Battles and Bruises.
I Go Home, and Harp On the Old String.
A Paper Out of the “spectator.”
Beatrix’s New Suitor.
Mohun Appears for the Last Time in This History.
Poor Beatrix.
I Visit Castlewood Once More.
I Travel to France and Bring Home a Portrait of Rigaud.
The Original of the Portrait Comes to England.
We Entertain a Very Distinguished Guest at Kensington.
Our Guest Quits Us As Not Being Hospitable Enough.
A Great Scheme, and Who Balked It.
August 1st, 1714.
TO THE RIGHT HONORABLE
WILLIAM BINGHAM, LORD ASHBURTON.
MY DEAR LORD,
The writer of a book which copies the manners and language of
Queen Anne’s time, must not omit the Dedication to the
Patron; and I ask leave to inscribe this volume to your Lordship,
for the sake of the great kindness and friendship which I owe to
you and yours.
My volume will reach you when the Author is on his voyage to a
country where your name is as well known as here. Wherever I am, I
shall gratefully regard you; and shall not be the less welcomed in
America because I am,
Your obliged friend and servant,
W. M. THACKERAY.
LONDON, October 18, 1852.
THE ESMONDS OF VIRGINIA.
The estate of Castlewood, in Virginia, which was given to our
ancestors by King Charles the First, as some return for the
sacrifices made in his Majesty’s cause by the Esmond family,
lies in Westmoreland county, between the rivers Potomac and
Rappahannock, and was once as great as an English Principality,
though in the early times its revenues were but small. Indeed, for
near eighty years after our forefathers possessed them, our
plantations were in the hands of factors, who enriched themselves
one after another, though a few scores of hogsheads of tobacco were
all the produce that, for long after the Restoration, our family
received from their Virginian estates.
My dear and honored father, Colonel Henry Esmond, whose history,
written by himself, is contained in the accompanying volume, came
to Virginia in the year 1718, built his house of Castlewood, and
here permanently settled. After a long stormy life in England, he
passed the remainder of his many years in peace and honor in this
country; how beloved and respected by all his fellow-citizens, how
inexpressibly dear to his family, I need not say. His whole life
was a benefit to all who were connected with him. He gave the best
example, the best advice, the most bounteous hospitality to his
friends; the tenderest care to his dependants; and bestowed on
those of his immediate family such a blessing of fatherly love and
protection as can never be thought of, by us, at least, without
veneration and thankfulness; and my sons’ children, whether
established here in our Republic, or at home in the always beloved
mother country, from which our late quarrel hath separated us, may
surely be proud to be descended from one who in all ways was so
truly noble.
My dear mother died in 1736, soon after our return from England,
whither my parents took me for my education; and where I made the
acquaintance of Mr. Warrington, whom my children never saw. When it
pleased heaven, in the bloom of his youth, and after but a few
months of a most happy union, to remove him from me, I owed my
recovery from the grief which that calamity caused me, mainly to my
dearest father’s tenderness, and then to the blessing
vouchsafed to me in the birth of my two beloved boys. I know the
fatal differences which separated them in politics never disunited
their hearts; and as I can love them both, whether wearing the
King’s colors or the Republic’s, I am sure that they
love me and one another, and him above all, my father and theirs,
the dearest friend of their childhood, the noble gentleman who bred
them from their infancy in the practice and knowledge of Truth, and
Love and Honor.
My children will never forget the appearance and figure of their
revered grandfather; and I wish I possessed the art of drawing
(which my papa had in perfection), so that I could leave to our
descendants a portrait of one who was so good and so respected. My
father was of a dark complexion, with a very great forehead and
dark hazel eyes, overhung by eyebrows which remained black long
after his hair was white. His nose was aquiline, his smile
extraordinary sweet. How well I remember it, and how little any
description I can write can recall his image! He was of rather low
stature, not being above five feet seven inches in height; he used
to laugh at my sons, whom he called his crutches, and say they were
grown too tall for him to lean upon. But small as he was, he had a
perfect grace and majesty of deportment, such as I have never seen
in this country, except perhaps in our friend Mr. Washington, and
commanded respect wherever he appeared.
In all bodily exercises he excelled, and showed an extraordinary
quickness and agility. Of fencing he was especially fond, and made
my two boys proficient in that art; so much so, that when the
French came to this country with Monsieur Rochambeau, not one of
his officers was superior to my Henry, and he was not the equal of
my poor George, who had taken the King’s side in our
lamentable but glorious war of independence.
Neither my father nor my mother ever wore powder in their hair;
both their heads were as white as silver, as I can remember them.
My dear mother possessed to the last an extraordinary brightness
and freshness of complexion; nor would people believe that she did
not wear rouge. At sixty years of age she still looked young, and
was quite agile. It was not until after that dreadful siege of our
house by the Indians, which left me a widow ere I was a mother,
that my dear mother’s health broke. She never recovered her
terror and anxiety of those days which ended so fatally for me,
then a bride scarce six months married, and died in my
father’s arms ere my own year of widowhood was over.
From that day, until the last of his dear and honored life, it
was my delight and consolation to remain with him as his comforter
and companion; and from those little notes which my mother hath
made here and there in the volume in which my father describes his
adventures in Europe, I can well understand the extreme devotion
with which she regarded him—a devotion so passionate and
exclusive as to prevent her, I think, from loving any other person
except with an inferior regard; her whole thoughts being centred on
this one object of affection and worship. I know that, before her,
my dear father did not show the love which he had for his daughter;
and in her last and most sacred moments, this dear and tender
parent owned to me her repentance that she had not loved me enough:
her jealousy even that my father should give his affection to any
but herself: and in the most fond and beautiful words of affection
and admonition, she bade me never to leave him, and to supply the
place which she was quitting. With a clear conscience, and a heart
inexpressibly thankful, I think I can say that I fulfilled those
dying commands, and that until his last hour my dearest father
never had to complain that his daughter’s love and fidelity
failed him.
And it is since I knew him entirely—for during my
mother’s life he never quite opened himself to me—since
I knew the value and splendor of that affection which he bestowed
upon me, that I have come to understand and pardon what, I own,
used to anger me in my mother’s lifetime, her jealousy
respecting her husband’s love. ’Twas a gift so
precious, that no wonder she who had it was for keeping it all, and
could part with none of it, even to her daughter.
Though I never heard my father use a rough word, ’twas
extraordinary with how much awe his people regarded him; and the
servants on our plantation, both those assigned from England and
the purchased negroes, obeyed him with an eagerness such as the
most severe taskmasters round about us could never get from their
people. He was never familiar, though perfectly simple and natural;
he was the same with the meanest man as with the greatest, and as
courteous to a black slave-girl as to the Governor’s wife. No
one ever thought of taking a liberty with him (except once a tipsy
gentleman from York, and I am bound to own that my papa never
forgave him): he set the humblest people at once on their ease with
him, and brought down the most arrogant by a grave satiric way,
which made persons exceedingly afraid of him. His courtesy was not
put on like a Sunday suit, and laid by when the company went away;
it was always the same; as he was always dressed the same, whether
for a dinner by ourselves or for a great entertainment. They say he
liked to be the first in his company; but what company was there in
which he would not be first? When I went to Europe for my
education, and we passed a winter at London with my half-brother,
my Lord Castlewood and his second lady, I saw at her
Majesty’s Court some of the most famous gentlemen of those
days; and I thought to myself none of these are better than my
papa; and the famous Lord Bolingbroke, who came to us from Dawley,
said as much, and that the men of that time were not like those of
his youth:—“Were your father, Madam,” he said,
“to go into the woods, the Indians would elect him
Sachem;” and his lordship was pleased to call me
Pocahontas.
I did not see our other relative, Bishop Tusher’s lady, of
whom so much is said in my papa’s memoirs—although my
mamma went to visit her in the country. I have no pride (as I
showed by complying with my mother’s request, and marrying a
gentleman who was but the younger son of a Suffolk Baronet), yet I
own to A DECENT RESPECT for my name, and wonder how one who ever
bore it, should change it for that of Mrs. THOMAS TUSHER. I pass
over as odious and unworthy of credit those reports (which I heard
in Europe and was then too young to understand), how this person,
having LEFT HER FAMILY and fled to Paris, out of jealousy of the
Pretender betrayed his secrets to my Lord Stair, King
George’s Ambassador, and nearly caused the Prince’s
death there; how she came to England and married this Mr. Tusher,
and became a great favorite of King George the Second, by whom Mr.
Tusher was made a Dean, and then a Bishop. I did not see the lady,
who chose to remain AT HER PALACE all the time we were in London;
but after visiting her, my poor mamma said she had lost all her
good looks, and warned me not to set too much store by any such
gifts which nature had bestowed upon me. She grew exceedingly
stout; and I remember my brother’s wife, Lady Castlewood,
saying—“No wonder she became a favorite, for the King
likes them old and ugly, as his father did before him.” On
which papa said—“All women were alike; that there was
never one so beautiful as that one; and that we could forgive her
everything but her beauty.” And hereupon my mamma looked
vexed, and my Lord Castlewood began to laugh; and I, of course,
being a young creature, could not understand what was the subject
of their conversation.
After the circumstances narrated in the third book of these
Memoirs, my father and mother both went abroad, being advised by
their friends to leave the country in consequence of the
transactions which are recounted at the close of the volume of the
Memoirs. But my brother, hearing how the FUTURE BISHOP’S LADY
had quitted Castlewood and joined the Pretender at Paris, pursued
him, and would have killed him, Prince as he was, had not the
Prince managed to make his escape. On his expedition to Scotland
directly after, Castlewood was so enraged against him that he asked
leave to serve as a volunteer, and join the Duke of Argyle’s
army in Scotland, which the Pretender never had the courage to
face; and thenceforth my Lord was quite reconciled to the present
reigning family, from whom he hath even received promotion.
Mrs. Tusher was by this time as angry against the Pretender as
any of her relations could be, and used to boast, as I have heard,
that she not only brought back my Lord to the Church of England,
but procured the English peerage for him, which the JUNIOR BRANCH
of our family at present enjoys. She was a great friend of Sir
Robert Walpole, and would not rest until her husband slept at
Lambeth, my papa used laughing to say. However, the Bishop died of
apoplexy suddenly, and his wife erected a great monument over him;
and the pair sleep under that stone, with a canopy of marble clouds
and angels above them—the first Mrs. Tusher lying sixty miles
off at Castlewood.
But my papa’s genius and education are both greater than
any a woman can be expected to have, and his adventures in Europe
far more exciting than his life in this country, which was passed
in the tranquil offices of love and duty; and I shall say no more
by way of introduction to his Memoirs, nor keep my children from
the perusal of a story which is much more interesting than that of
their affectionate old mother,
RACHEL ESMOND WARRINGTON.
Castlewood, VIRGINIA,
November 3, 1778.
BOOK I
The Early Youth of Henry Esmond, Up to the Time of His Leaving
Trinity College, in Cambridge.
The actors in the old tragedies, as we read, piped their iambics
to a tune, speaking from under a mask, and wearing stilts and a
great head-dress. ’Twas thought the dignity of the Tragic
Muse required these appurtenances, and that she was not to move
except to a measure and cadence. So Queen Medea slew her children
to a slow music: and King Agamemnon perished in a dying fall (to
use Mr. Dryden’s words): the Chorus standing by in a set
attitude, and rhythmically and decorously bewailing the fates of
those great crowned persons. The Muse of History hath encumbered
herself with ceremony as well as her Sister of the Theatre. She too
wears the mask and the cothurnus, and speaks to measure. She too,
in our age, busies herself with the affairs only of kings; waiting
on them obsequiously and stately, as if she were but a mistress of
court ceremonies, and had nothing to do with the registering of the
affairs of the common people. I have seen in his very old age and
decrepitude the old French King Lewis the Fourteenth, the type and
model of kinghood—who never moved but to measure, who lived
and died according to the laws of his Court-marshal, persisting in
enacting through life the part of Hero; and, divested of poetry,
this was but a little wrinkled old man, pock-marked, and with a
great periwig and red heels to make him look tall—a hero for
a book if you like, or for a brass statue or a painted ceiling, a
god in a Roman shape, but what more than a man for Madame
Maintenon, or the barber who shaved him, or Monsieur Fagon, his
surgeon? I wonder shall History ever pull off her periwig and cease
to be court-ridden? Shall we see something of France and England
besides Versailles and Windsor? I saw Queen Anne at the latter
place tearing down the Park slopes, after her stag-hounds, and
driving her one-horse chaise—a hot, red-faced woman, not in
the least resembling that statue of her which turns its stone back
upon St. Paul’s, and faces the coaches struggling up Ludgate
Hill. She was neither better bred nor wiser than you and me, though
we knelt to hand her a letter or a wash-hand basin. Why shall
History go on kneeling to the end of time? I am for having her rise
up off her knees, and take a natural posture: not to be for ever
performing cringes and congees like a court-chamberlain, and
shuffling backwards out of doors in the presence of the sovereign.
In a word, I would have History familiar rather than heroic: and
think that Mr. Hogarth and Mr. Fielding will give our children a
much better idea of the manners of the present age in England, than
the Court Gazette and the newspapers which we get thence.
There was a German officer of Webb’s, with whom we used to
joke, and of whom a story (whereof I myself was the author) was got
to be believed in the army, that he was eldest son of the
hereditary Grand Bootjack of the Empire, and the heir to that honor
of which his ancestors had been very proud, having been kicked for
twenty generations by one imperial foot, as they drew the boot from
the other. I have heard that the old Lord Castlewood, of part of
whose family these present volumes are a chronicle, though he came
of quite as good blood as the Stuarts whom he served (and who as
regards mere lineage are no better than a dozen English and
Scottish houses I could name), was prouder of his post about the
Court than of his ancestral honors, and valued his dignity (as Lord
of the Butteries and Groom of the King’s Posset) so highly,
that he cheerfully ruined himself for the thankless and thriftless
race who bestowed it. He pawned his plate for King Charles the
First, mortgaged his property for the same cause, and lost the
greater part of it by fines and sequestration: stood a siege of his
castle by Ireton, where his brother Thomas capitulated (afterward
making terms with the Commonwealth, for which the elder brother
never forgave him), and where his second brother Edward, who had
embraced the ecclesiastical profession, was slain on Castlewood
Tower, being engaged there both as preacher and artilleryman. This
resolute old loyalist, who was with the King whilst his house was
thus being battered down, escaped abroad with his only son, then a
boy, to return and take a part in Worcester fight. On that fatal
field Eustace Esmond was killed, and Castlewood fled from it once
more into exile, and henceforward, and after the Restoration, never
was away from the Court of the monarch (for whose return we offer
thanks in the Prayer–Book) who sold his country and who took
bribes of the French king.
What spectacle is more august than that of a great king in
exile? Who is more worthy of respect than a brave man in
misfortune? Mr. Addison has painted such a figure in his noble
piece of Cato. But suppose fugitive Cato fuddling himself at a
tavern with a wench on each knee, a dozen faithful and tipsy
companions of defeat, and a landlord calling out for his bill; and
the dignity of misfortune is straightway lost. The Historical Muse
turns away shamefaced from the vulgar scene, and closes the
door—on which the exile’s unpaid drink is scored
up—upon him and his pots and his pipes, and the tavern-chorus
which he and his friends are singing. Such a man as Charles should
have had an Ostade or Mieris to paint him. Your Knellers and Le
Bruns only deal in clumsy and impossible allegories: and it hath
always seemed to me blasphemy to claim Olympus for such a
wine-drabbled divinity as that.
About the King’s follower, the Viscount
Castlewood—orphan of his son, ruined by his fidelity, bearing
many wounds and marks of bravery, old and in exile—his
kinsmen I suppose should be silent; nor if this patriarch fell down
in his cups, call fie upon him, and fetch passers-by to laugh at
his red face and white hairs. What! does a stream rush out of a
mountain free and pure, to roll through fair pastures, to feed and
throw out bright tributaries, and to end in a village gutter? Lives
that have noble commencements have often no better endings; it is
not without a kind of awe and reverence that an observer should
speculate upon such careers as he traces the course of them. I have
seen too much of success in life to take off my hat and huzzah to
it as it passes in its gilt coach: and would do my little part with
my neighbors on foot, that they should not gape with too much
wonder, nor applaud too loudly. Is it the Lord Mayor going in state
to mince-pies and the Mansion House? Is it poor Jack of
Newgate’s procession, with the sheriff and javelin-men,
conducting him on his last journey to Tyburn? I look into my heart
and think that I sin as good as my Lord Mayor, and know I am as bad
as Tyburn Jack. Give me a chain and red gown and a pudding before
me, and I could play the part of Alderman very well, and sentence
Jack after dinner. Starve me, keep me from books and honest people,
educate me to love dice, gin, and pleasure, and put me on Hounslow
Heath, with a purse before me, and I will take it. “And I
shall be deservedly hanged,” say you, wishing to put an end
to this prosing. I don’t say No. I can’t but accept the
world as I find it, including a rope’s end, as long as it is
in fashion.
When Francis, fourth Viscount Castlewood, came to his title, and
presently after to take possession of his house of Castlewood,
county Hants, in the year 1691, almost the only tenant of the place
besides the domestics was a lad of twelve years of age, of whom no
one seemed to take any note until my Lady Viscountess lighted upon
him, going over the house with the housekeeper on the day of her
arrival. The boy was in the room known as the Book-room, or Yellow
Gallery, where the portraits of the family used to hang, that fine
piece among others of Sir Antonio Van Dyck of George, second
Viscount, and that by Mr. Dobson of my lord the third Viscount,
just deceased, which it seems his lady and widow did not think fit
to carry away, when she sent for and carried off to her house at
Chelsey, near to London, the picture of herself by Sir Peter Lely,
in which her ladyship was represented as a huntress of
Diana’s court.
The new and fair lady of Castlewood found the sad, lonely,
little occupant of this gallery busy over his great book, which he
laid down when he was aware that a stranger was at hand. And,
knowing who that person must be, the lad stood up and bowed before
her, performing a shy obeisance to the mistress of his house.
She stretched out her hand—indeed when was it that that
hand would not stretch out to do an act of kindness, or to protect
grief and ill-fortune? “And this is our kinsman,” she
said “and what is your name, kinsman?”
“My name is Henry Esmond,” said the lad, looking up
at her in a sort of delight and wonder, for she had come upon him
as a Dea certe, and appeared the most charming object he had ever
looked on. Her golden hair was shining in the gold of the sun; her
complexion was of a dazzling bloom; her lips smiling, and her eyes
beaming with a kindness which made Harry Esmond’s heart to
beat with surprise.
“His name is Henry Esmond, sure enough, my lady,”
says Mrs. Worksop, the housekeeper (an old tyrant whom Henry Esmond
plagued more than he hated), and the old gentlewoman looked
significantly towards the late lord’s picture, as it now is
in the family, noble and severe-looking, with his hand on his
sword, and his order on his cloak, which he had from the Emperor
during the war on the Danube against the Turk.
Seeing the great and undeniable likeness between this portrait
and the lad, the new Viscountess, who had still hold of the
boy’s hand as she looked at the picture, blushed and dropped
the hand quickly, and walked down the gallery, followed by Mrs.
Worksop.
When the lady came back, Harry Esmond stood exactly in the same
spot, and with his hand as it had fallen when he dropped it on his
black coat.
Her heart melted, I suppose (indeed she hath since owned as
much), at the notion that she should do anything unkind to any
mortal, great or small; for, when she returned, she had sent away
the housekeeper upon an errand by the door at the farther end of
the gallery; and, coming back to the lad, with a look of infinite
pity and tenderness in her eyes, she took his hand again, placing
her other fair hand on his head, and saying some words to him,
which were so kind, and said in a voice so sweet, that the boy, who
had never looked upon so much beauty before, felt as if the touch
of a superior being or angel smote him down to the ground, and
kissed the fair protecting hand as he knelt on one knee. To the
very last hour of his life, Esmond remembered the lady as she then
spoke and looked, the rings on her fair hands, the very scent of
her robe, the beam of her eyes lighting up with surprise and
kindness, her lips blooming in a smile, the sun making a golden
halo round her hair.
As the boy was yet in this attitude of humility, enters behind
him a portly gentleman, with a little girl of four years old in his
hand. The gentleman burst into a great laugh at the lady and her
adorer, with his little queer figure, his sallow face, and long
black hair. The lady blushed, and seemed to deprecate his ridicule
by a look of appeal to her husband, for it was my Lord Viscount who
now arrived, and whom the lad knew, having once before seen him in
the late lord’s lifetime.
“So this is the little priest” says my lord, looking
down at the lad; “welcome, kinsman.”
“He is saying his prayers to mamma,” says the little
girl, who came up to her papa’s knees; and my lord burst out
into another great laugh at this, and kinsman Henry looked very
silly. He invented a half-dozen of speeches in reply, but
’twas months afterwards when he thought of this adventure: as
it was, he had never a word in answer.
“Le pauvre enfant, il n’a que nous,” says the
lady, looking to her lord; and the boy, who understood her, though
doubtless she thought otherwise, thanked her with all his heart for
her kind speech.
“And he shan’t want for friends here,” says my
lord in a kind voice, “shall he, little Trix?”
The little girl, whose name was Beatrix, and whom her papa
called by this diminutive, looked at Henry Esmond solemnly, with a
pair of large eyes, and then a smile shone over her face, which was
as beautiful as that of a cherub, and she came up and put out a
little hand to him. A keen and delightful pang of gratitude,
happiness, affection, filled the orphan child’s heart, as he
received from the protectors, whom heaven had sent to him, these
touching words and tokens of friendliness and kindness. But an hour
since, he had felt quite alone in the world: when he heard the
great peal of bells from Castlewood church ringing that morning to
welcome the arrival of the new lord and lady, it had rung only
terror and anxiety to him, for he knew not how the new owner would
deal with him; and those to whom he formerly looked for protection
were forgotten or dead. Pride and doubt too had kept him
within-doors, when the Vicar and the people of the village, and the
servants of the house, had gone out to welcome my Lord
Castlewood—for Henry Esmond was no servant, though a
dependant; no relative, though he bore the name and inherited the
blood of the house; and in the midst of the noise and acclamations
attending the arrival of the new lord (for whom, you may be sure, a
feast was got ready, and guns were fired, and tenants and domestics
huzzahed when his carriage approached and rolled into the
court-yard of the hall), no one ever took any notice of young Henry
Esmond, who sat unobserved and alone in the Book-room, until the
afternoon of that day, when his new friends found him.
When my lord and lady were going away thence, the little girl,
still holding her kinsman by the hand, bade him to come too.
“Thou wilt always forsake an old friend for a new one,
Trix,” says her father to her good-naturedly; and went into
the gallery, giving an arm to his lady. They passed thence through
the music-gallery, long since dismantled, and Queen
Elizabeth’s Rooms, in the clock-tower, and out into the
terrace, where was a fine prospect of sunset and the great darkling
woods with a cloud of rooks returning; and the plain and river with
Castlewood village beyond, and purple hills beautiful to look
at—and the little heir of Castlewood, a child of two years
old, was already here on the terrace in his nurse’s arms,
from whom he ran across the grass instantly he perceived his
mother, and came to her.
“If thou canst not be happy here,” says my lord,
looking round at the scene, “thou art hard to please,
Rachel.”
“I am happy where you are,” she said, “but we
were happiest of all at Walcote Forest.” Then my lord began
to describe what was before them to his wife, and what indeed
little Harry knew better than he—viz., the history of the
house: how by yonder gate the page ran away with the heiress of
Castlewood, by which the estate came into the present family; how
the Roundheads attacked the clock-tower, which my lord’s
father was slain in defending. “I was but two years old
then,” says he, “but take forty-six from ninety, and
how old shall I be, kinsman Harry?”
“Thirty,” says his wife, with a laugh.
“A great deal too old for you, Rachel,” answers my
lord, looking fondly down at her. Indeed she seemed to be a girl,
and was at that time scarce twenty years old.
“You know, Frank, I will do anything to please you,”
says she, “and I promise you I will grow older every
day.”
“You mustn’t call papa, Frank; you must call papa my
lord now,” says Miss Beatrix, with a toss of her little head;
at which the mother smiled, and the good-natured father laughed,
and the little trotting boy laughed, not knowing why—but
because he was happy, no doubt—as every one seemed to be
there. How those trivial incidents and words, the landscape and
sunshine, and the group of people smiling and talking, remain fixed
on the memory!
As the sun was setting, the little heir was sent in the arms of
his nurse to bed, whither he went howling; but little Trix was
promised to sit to supper that night—“and you will come
too, kinsman, won’t you?” she said.
Harry Esmond blushed: “I—I have supper with Mrs.
Worksop,” says he.
“D—n it,” says my lord, “thou shalt sup
with us, Harry, to-night! Shan’t refuse a lady, shall he,
Trix?”—and they all wondered at Harry’s
performance as a trencher-man, in which character the poor boy
acquitted himself very remarkably; for the truth is he had had no
dinner, nobody thinking of him in the bustle which the house was
in, during the preparations antecedent to the new lord’s
arrival.
“No dinner! poor dear child!” says my lady, heaping
up his plate with meat, and my lord, filling a bumper for him, bade
him call a health; on which Master Harry, crying “The
King,” tossed off the wine. My lord was ready to drink that,
and most other toasts: indeed only too ready. He would not hear of
Doctor Tusher (the Vicar of Castlewood, who came to supper) going
away when the sweetmeats were brought: he had not had a chaplain
long enough, he said, to be tired of him: so his reverence kept my
lord company for some hours over a pipe and a punch-bowl; and went
away home with rather a reeling gait, and declaring a dozen of
times, that his lordship’s affability surpassed every
kindness he had ever had from his lordship’s gracious
family.
As for young Esmond, when he got to his little chamber, it was
with a heart full of surprise and gratitude towards the new friends
whom this happy day had brought him. He was up and watching long
before the house was astir, longing to see that fair lady and her
children—that kind protector and patron: and only fearful
lest their welcome of the past night should in any way be withdrawn
or altered. But presently little Beatrix came out into the garden,
and her mother followed, who greeted Harry as kindly as before. He
told her at greater length the histories of the house (which he had
been taught in the old lord’s time), and to which she
listened with great interest; and then he told her, with respect to
the night before, that he understood French, and thanked her for
her protection.
“Do you?” says she, with a blush; “then, sir,
you shall teach me and Beatrix.” And she asked him many more
questions regarding himself, which had best be told more fully and
explicitly than in those brief replies which the lad made to his
mistress’s questions.
’Tis known that the name of Esmond and the estate of
Castlewood, com. Hants, came into possession of the present family
through Dorothea, daughter and heiress of Edward, Earl and Marquis
Esmond, and Lord of Castlewood, which lady married, 23 Eliz., Henry
Poyns, gent.; the said Henry being then a page in the household of
her father. Francis, son and heir of the above Henry and Dorothea,
who took the maternal name which the family hath borne
subsequently, was made Knight and Baronet by King James the First;
and being of a military disposition, remained long in Germany with
the Elector–Palatine, in whose service Sir Francis incurred
both expense and danger, lending large sums of money to that
unfortunate Prince; and receiving many wounds in the battles
against the Imperialists, in which Sir Francis engaged.
On his return home Sir Francis was rewarded for his services and
many sacrifices, by his late Majesty James the First, who
graciously conferred upon this tried servant the post of Warden of
the Butteries and Groom of the King’s Posset, which high and
confidential office he filled in that king’s and his unhappy
successor’s reign.
His age, and many wounds and infirmities, obliged Sir Francis to
perform much of his duty by deputy: and his son, Sir George Esmond,
knight and banneret, first as his father’s lieutenant, and
afterwards as inheritor of his father’s title and dignity,
performed this office during almost the whole of the reign of King
Charles the First, and his two sons who succeeded him.
Sir George Esmond married, rather beneath the rank that a person
of his name and honor might aspire to, the daughter of Thos.
Topham, of the city of London, alderman and goldsmith, who, taking
the Parliamentary side in the troubles then commencing,
disappointed Sir George of the property which he expected at the
demise of his father-inlaw, who devised his money to his second
daughter, Barbara, a spinster.
Sir George Esmond, on his part, was conspicuous for his
attachment and loyalty to the Royal cause and person: and the King
being at Oxford in 1642, Sir George, with the consent of his
father, then very aged and infirm, and residing at his house of
Castlewood, melted the whole of the family plate for his
Majesty’s service.
For this, and other sacrifices and merits, his Majesty, by
patent under the Privy Seal, dated Oxford, Jan., 1643, was pleased
to advance Sir Francis Esmond to the dignity of Viscount
Castlewood, of Shandon, in Ireland: and the Viscount’s estate
being much impoverished by loans to the King, which in those
troublesome times his Majesty could not repay, a grant of land in
the plantations of Virginia was given to the Lord Viscount.; part
of which land is in possession of descendants of his family to the
present day.
The first Viscount Castlewood died full of years, and within a
few months after he had been advanced to his honors. He was
succeeded by his eldest son, the before-named George; and left
issue besides, Thomas, a colonel in the King’s army, who
afterwards joined the Usurper’s Government; and Francis, in
holy orders, who was slain whilst defending the House of Castlewood
against the Parliament, anno 1647.
George Lord Castlewood (the second Viscount), of King Charles
the First’s time, had no male issue save his one son, Eustace
Esmond, who was killed, with half of the Castlewood men beside him,
at Worcester fight. The lands about Castlewood were sold and
apportioned to the Commonwealth men; Castlewood being concerned in
almost all of the plots against the Protector, after the death of
the King, and up to King Charles the Second’s restoration. My
lord followed that king’s Court about in its exile, having
ruined himself in its service. He had but one daughter, who was of
no great comfort to her father; for misfortune had not taught those
exiles sobriety of life; and it is said that the Duke of York and
his brother the King both quarrelled about Isabel Esmond. She was
maid of honor to the Queen Henrietta Maria; she early joined the
Roman Church; her father, a weak man, following her not long after
at Breda.
On the death of Eustace Esmond at Worcester, Thomas Esmond,
nephew to my Lord Castlewood, and then a stripling, became heir to
the title. His father had taken the Parliament side in the
quarrels, and so had been estranged from the chief of his house;
and my Lord Castlewood was at first so much enraged to think that
his title (albeit little more than an empty one now) should pass to
a rascally Roundhead, that he would have married again, and indeed
proposed to do so to a vintner’s daughter at Bruges, to whom
his lordship owed a score for lodging when the King was there, but
for fear of the laughter of the Court, and the anger of his
daughter, of whom he stood in awe; for she was in temper as
imperious and violent as my lord, who was much enfeebled by wounds
and drinking, was weak.
Lord Castlewood would have had a match between his daughter
Isabel and her cousin, the son of that Francis Esmond who was
killed at Castlewood siege. And the lady, it was said, took a fancy
to the young man, who was her junior by several years (which
circumstance she did not consider to be a fault in him); but having
paid his court, and being admitted to the intimacy of the house, he
suddenly flung up his suit, when it seemed to be pretty prosperous,
without giving a pretext for his behavior. His friends rallied him
at what they laughingly chose to call his infidelity; Jack
Churchill, Frank Esmond’s lieutenant in the Royal Regiment of
Foot-guards, getting the company which Esmond vacated, when he left
the Court and went to Tangier in a rage at discovering that his
promotion depended on the complaisance of his elderly affianced
bride. He and Churchill, who had been condiscipuli at St.
Paul’s School, had words about this matter; and Frank Esmond
said to him with an oath, “Jack, your sister may be
so-and-so, but by Jove my wife shan’t!” and swords were
drawn, and blood drawn too, until friends separated them on this
quarrel. Few men were so jealous about the point of honor in those
days; and gentlemen of good birth and lineage thought a royal blot
was an ornament to their family coat. Frank Esmond retired in the
sulks, first to Tangier, whence he returned after two years’
service, settling on a small property he had of his mother, near to
Winchester, and became a country gentleman, and kept a pack of
beagles, and never came to Court again in King Charles’s
time. But his uncle Castlewood was never reconciled to him; nor,
for some time afterwards, his cousin whom he had refused.
By places, pensions, bounties from France, and gifts from the
King, whilst his daughter was in favor, Lord Castlewood, who had
spent in the Royal service his youth and fortune, did not retrieve
the latter quite, and never cared to visit Castlewood, or repair
it, since the death of his son, but managed to keep a good house,
and figure at Court, and to save a considerable sum of ready
money.
And now, his heir and nephew, Thomas Esmond, began to bid for
his uncle’s favor. Thomas had served with the Emperor, and
with the Dutch, when King Charles was compelled to lend troops to
the States; and against them, when his Majesty made an alliance
with the French King. In these campaigns Thomas Esmond was more
remarked for duelling, brawling, vice, and play, than for any
conspicuous gallantry in the field, and came back to England, like
many another English gentleman who has travelled, with a character
by no means improved by his foreign experience. He had dissipated
his small paternal inheritance of a younger brother’s
portion, and, as truth must be told, was no better than a hanger-on
of ordinaries, and a brawler about Alsatia and the Friars, when he
bethought him of a means of mending his fortune.
His cousin was now of more than middle age, and had
nobody’s word but her own for the beauty which she said she
once possessed. She was lean, and yellow, and long in the tooth;
all the red and white in all the toy-shops in London could not make
a beauty of her—Mr. Killigrew called her the Sybil, the
death’s-head put up at the King’s feast as a memento
mori, &c.—in fine, a woman who might be easy of conquest,
but whom only a very bold man would think of conquering. This bold
man was Thomas Esmond. He had a fancy to my Lord Castlewood’s
savings, the amount of which rumor had very much exaggerated.
Madame Isabel was said to have Royal jewels of great value; whereas
poor Tom Esmond’s last coat but one was in pawn.
My lord had at this time a fine house in
Lincoln’s-Inn–Fields, nigh to the Duke’s Theatre
and the Portugal ambassador’s chapel. Tom Esmond, who had
frequented the one as long as he had money to spend among the
actresses, now came to the church as assiduously. He looked so lean
and shabby, that he passed without difficulty for a repentant
sinner; and so, becoming converted, you may be sure took his
uncle’s priest for a director.
This charitable father reconciled him with the old lord, his
uncle, who a short time before would not speak to him, as Tom
passed under my lord’s coach window, his lordship going in
state to his place at Court, while his nephew slunk by with his
battered hat and feather, and the point of his rapier sticking out
of the scabbard—to his twopenny ordinary in Bell Yard.
Thomas Esmond, after this reconciliation with his uncle, very
soon began to grow sleek, and to show signs of the benefits of good
living and clean linen. He fasted rigorously twice a week, to be
sure; but he made amends on the other days: and, to show how great
his appetite was, Mr. Wycherley said, he ended by swallowing that
fly-blown rank old morsel his cousin. There were endless jokes and
lampoons about this marriage at Court: but Tom rode thither in his
uncle’s coach now, called him father, and having won could
afford to laugh. This marriage took place very shortly before King
Charles died: whom the Viscount of Castlewood speedily
followed.
The issue of this marriage was one son, whom the parents watched
with an intense eagerness and care; but who, in spite of nurses and
physicians, had only a brief existence. His tainted blood did not
run very long in his poor feeble little body. Symptoms of evil
broke out early on him; and, part from flattery, part superstition,
nothing would satisfy my lord and lady, especially the latter, but
having the poor little cripple touched by his Majesty at his
church. They were ready to cry out miracle at first (the doctors
and quack-salvers being constantly in attendance on the child, and
experimenting on his poor little body with every conceivable
nostrum) but though there seemed, from some reason, a notable
amelioration in the infant’s health after his Majesty touched
him, in a few weeks afterward the poor thing died—causing the
lampooners of the Court to say, that the King, in expelling evil
out of the infant of Tom Esmond and Isabella his wife, expelled the
life out of it, which was nothing but corruption.
The mother’s natural pang at losing this poor little child
must have been increased when she thought of her rival Frank
Esmond’s wife, who was a favorite of the whole Court, where
my poor Lady Castlewood was neglected, and who had one child, a
daughter, flourishing and beautiful, and was about to become a
mother once more.
The Court, as I have heard, only laughed the more because the
poor lady, who had pretty well passed the age when ladies are
accustomed to have children, nevertheless determined not to give
hope up, and even when she came to live at Castlewood, was
constantly sending over to Hexton for the doctor, and announcing to
her friends the arrival of an heir. This absurdity of hers was one
amongst many others which the wags used to play upon. Indeed, to
the last days of her life, my Lady Viscountess had the comfort of
fancying herself beautiful, and persisted in blooming up to the
very midst of winter, painting roses on her cheeks long after their
natural season, and attiring herself like summer though her head
was covered with snow.
Gentlemen who were about the Court of King Charles, and King
James, have told the present writer a number of stories about this
queer old lady, with which it’s not necessary that posterity
should be entertained. She is said to have had great powers of
invective and, if she fought with all her rivals in King
James’s favor, ’tis certain she must have had a vast
number of quarrels on her hands. She was a woman of an intrepid
spirit, and, it appears, pursued and rather fatigued his Majesty
with her rights and her wrongs. Some say that the cause of her
leaving Court was jealousy of Frank Esmond’s wife: others,
that she was forced to retreat after a great battle which took
place at Whitehall, between her ladyship and Lady Dorchester, Tom
Killigrew’s daughter, whom the King delighted to honor, and
in which that ill-favored Esther got the better of our elderly
Vashti. But her ladyship, for her part, always averred that it was
her husband’s quarrel, and not her own, which occasioned the
banishment of the two into the country; and the cruel ingratitude
of the Sovereign in giving away, out of the family, that place of
Warden of the Butteries and Groom of the King’s Posset, which
the two last Lords Castlewood had held so honorably, and which was
now conferred upon a fellow of yesterday, and a hanger-on of that
odious Dorchester creature, my Lord Bergamot;
1 “I never,” said my lady,
“could have come to see his Majesty’s posset carried by
any other hand than an Esmond. I should have dashed the salver out
of Lord Bergamot’s hand, had I met him.” And those who
knew her ladyship are aware that she was a person quite capable of
performing this feat, had she not wisely kept out of the way.
Holding the purse-strings in her own control, to which, indeed,
she liked to bring most persons who came near her, Lady Castlewood
could command her husband’s obedience, and so broke up her
establishment at London; she had removed from
Lincoln’s-Inn–Fields to Chelsey, to a pretty new house
she bought there; and brought her establishment, her maids,
lap-dogs, and gentlewomen, her priest, and his lordship her
husband, to Castlewood Hall, that she had never seen since she
quitted it as a child with her father during the troubles of King
Charles the First’s reign. The walls were still open in the
old house as they had been left by the shot of the Commonwealthmen.
A part of the mansion was restored and furbished up with the plate,
hangings, and furniture brought from the house in London. My lady
meant to have a triumphal entry into Castlewood village, and
expected the people to cheer as she drove over the Green in her
great coach, my lord beside her, her gentlewomen, lap-dogs, and
cockatoos on the opposite seat, six horses to her carriage, and
servants armed and mounted following it and preceding it. But
’twas in the height of the No–Popery cry; the folks in
the village and the neighboring town were scared by the sight of
her ladyship’s painted face and eyelids, as she bobbed her
head out of the coach window, meaning, no doubt, to be very
gracious; and one old woman said, “Lady Isabel! lord-a-mercy,
it’s Lady Jezebel!” a name by which the enemies of the
right honorable Viscountess were afterwards in the habit of
designating her. The country was then in a great No–Popery
fervor; her ladyship’s known conversion, and her
husband’s, the priest in her train, and the service performed
at the chapel of Castlewood (though the chapel had been built for
that worship before any other was heard of in the country, and
though the service was performed in the most quiet manner), got her
no favor at first in the county or village. By far the greater part
of the estate of Castlewood had been confiscated, and been
parcelled out to Commonwealthmen. One or two of these old
Cromwellian soldiers were still alive in the village, and looked
grimly at first upon my Lady Viscountess, when she came to dwell
there.
She appeared at the Hexton Assembly, bringing her lord after
her, scaring the country folks with the splendor of her diamonds,
which she always wore in public. They said she wore them in
private, too, and slept with them round her neck; though the writer
can pledge his word that this was a calumny. “If she were to
take them off,” my Lady Sark said, “Tom Esmond, her
husband, would run away with them and pawn them.” ’Twas
another calumny. My Lady Sark was also an exile from Court, and
there had been war between the two ladies before.
The village people began to be reconciled presently to their
lady, who was generous and kind, though fantastic and haughty, in
her ways; and whose praises Dr. Tusher, the Vicar, sounded loudly
amongst his flock. As for my lord, he gave no great trouble, being
considered scarce more than an appendage to my lady, who, as
daughter of the old lords of Castlewood, and possessor of vast
wealth, as the country folks said (though indeed nine-tenths of it
existed but in rumor), was looked upon as the real queen of the
Castle, and mistress of all it contained.
Coming up to London again some short time after this retreat,
the Lord Castlewood despatched a retainer of his to a little
Cottage in the village of Ealing, near to London, where for some
time had dwelt an old French refugee, by name Mr. Pastoureau, one
of those whom the persecution of the Huguenots by the French king
had brought over to this country. With this old man lived a little
lad, who went by the name of Henry Thomas. He remembered to have
lived in another place a short time before, near to London too,
amongst looms and spinning-wheels, and a great deal of
psalm-singing and church-going, and a whole colony of
Frenchmen.
There he had a dear, dear friend, who died, and whom he called
Aunt. She used to visit him in his dreams sometimes; and her face,
though it was homely, was a thousand times dearer to him than that
of Mrs. Pastoureau, Bon Papa Pastoureau’s new wife, who came
to live with him after aunt went away. And there, at Spittlefields,
as it used to be called, lived Uncle George, who was a weaver too,
but used to tell Harry that he was a little gentleman, and that his
father was a captain, and his mother an angel.
When he said so, Bon Papa used to look up from the loom, where
he was embroidering beautiful silk flowers, and say, “Angel!
she belongs to the Babylonish scarlet woman.” Bon Papa was
always talking of the scarlet woman. He had a little room where he
always used to preach and sing hymns out of his great old nose.
Little Harry did not like the preaching; he liked better the fine
stories which aunt used to tell him. Bon Papa’s wife never
told him pretty stories; she quarrelled with Uncle George, and he
went away.
After this, Harry’s Bon Papa and his wife and two children
of her own that she brought with her, came to live at Ealing. The
new wife gave her children the best of everything, and Harry many a
whipping, he knew not why. Besides blows, he got ill names from
her, which need not be set down here, for the sake of old Mr.
Pastoureau, who was still kind sometimes. The unhappiness of those
days is long forgiven, though they cast a shade of melancholy over
the child’s youth, which will accompany him, no doubt, to the
end of his days: as those tender twigs are bent the trees grow
afterward; and he, at least, who has suffered as a child, and is
not quite perverted in that early school of unhappiness, learns to
be gentle and long-suffering with little children.
Harry was very glad when a gentleman dressed in black, on
horseback, with a mounted servant behind him, came to fetch him
away from Ealing. The noverca, or unjust stepmother, who had
neglected him for her own two children, gave him supper enough the
night before he went away, and plenty in the morning. She did not
beat him once, and told the children to keep their hands off him.
One was a girl, and Harry never could bear to strike a girl; and
the other was a boy, whom he could easily have beat, but he always
cried out, when Mrs. Pastoureau came sailing to the rescue with
arms like a flail. She only washed Harry’s face the day he
went away; nor ever so much as once boxed his ears. She whimpered
rather when the gentleman in black came for the boy; and old Mr.
Pastoureau, as he gave the child his blessing, scowled over his
shoulder at the strange gentleman, and grumbled out something about
Babylon and the scarlet lady. He was grown quite old, like a child
almost. Mrs. Pastoureau used to wipe his nose as she did to the
children. She was a great, big, handsome young woman; but, though
she pretended to cry, Harry thought ’twas only a sham, and
sprung quite delighted upon the horse upon which the lackey helped
him.
He was a Frenchman; his name was Blaise. The child could talk to
him in his own language perfectly well: he knew it better than
English indeed, having lived hitherto chiefly among French people:
and being called the Little Frenchman by other boys on Ealing
Green. He soon learnt to speak English perfectly, and to forget
some of his French: children forget easily. Some earlier and
fainter recollections the child had of a different country; and a
town with tall white houses: and a ship. But these were quite
indistinct in the boy’s mind, as indeed the memory of Ealing
soon became, at least of much that he suffered there.
The lackey before whom he rode was very lively and voluble, and
informed the boy that the gentleman riding before him was my
lord’s chaplain, Father Holt—that he was now to be
called Master Harry Esmond—that my Lord Viscount Castlewood
was his parrain—that he was to live at the great house of
Castlewood, in the province of ——shire, where he would
see Madame the Viscountess, who was a grand lady. And so, seated on
a cloth before Blaise’s saddle, Harry Esmond was brought to
London, and to a fine square called Covent Garden, near to which
his patron lodged.
Mr. Holt, the priest, took the child by the hand, and brought
him to this nobleman, a grand languid nobleman in a great cap and
flowered morning-gown, sucking oranges. He patted Harry on the head
and gave him an orange.
“C’est bien ca,” he said to the priest after
eying the child, and the gentleman in black shrugged his
shoulders.
“Let Blaise take him out for a holiday,” and out for
a holiday the boy and the valet went. Harry went jumping along; he
was glad enough to go.
He will remember to his life’s end the delights of those
days. He was taken to see a play by Monsieur Blaise, in a house a
thousand times greater and finer than the booth at Ealing
Fair—and on the next happy day they took water on the river,
and Harry saw London Bridge, with the houses and booksellers’
shops thereon, looking like a street, and the Tower of London, with
the Armor, and the great lions and bears in the moat—all
under company of Monsieur Blaise.
Presently, of an early morning, all the party set forth for the
country, namely, my Lord Viscount and the other gentleman; Monsieur
Blaise and Harry on a pillion behind them, and two or three men
with pistols leading the baggage-horses. And all along the road the
Frenchman told little Harry stories of brigands, which made the
child’s hair stand on end, and terrified him; so that at the
great gloomy inn on the road where they lay, he besought to be
allowed to sleep in a room with one of the servants, and was
compassionated by Mr. Holt, the gentleman who travelled with my
lord, and who gave the child a little bed in his chamber.
His artless talk and answers very likely inclined this gentleman
in the boy’s favor, for next day Mr. Holt said Harry should
ride behind him, and not with the French lacky; and all along the
journey put a thousand questions to the child—as to his
foster-brother and relations at Ealing; what his old grandfather
had taught him; what languages he knew; whether he could read and
write, and sing, and so forth. And Mr. Holt found that Harry could
read and write, and possessed the two languages of French and
English very well; and when he asked Harry about singing, the lad
broke out with a hymn to the tune of Dr. Martin Luther, which set
Mr. Holt a-laughing; and even caused his grand parrain in the laced
hat and periwig to laugh too when Holt told him what the child was
singing. For it appeared that Dr. Martin Luther’s hymns were
not sung in the churches Mr. Holt preached at.
“You must never sing that song any more: do you hear,
little mannikin?” says my Lord Viscount, holding up a
finger.
“But we will try and teach you a better, Harry,” Mr.
Holt said; and the child answered, for he was a docile child, and
of an affectionate nature, “That he loved pretty songs, and
would try and learn anything the gentleman would tell him.”
That day he so pleased the gentlemen by his talk, that they had him
to dine with them at the inn, and encouraged him in his prattle;
and Monsieur Blaise, with whom he rode and dined the day before,
waited upon him now.
“’Tis well, ’tis well!” said Blaise,
that night (in his own language) when they lay again at an inn.
“We are a little lord here; we are a little lord now: we
shall see what we are when we come to Castlewood, where my lady
is.”
“When shall we come to Castlewood, Monsieur Blaise?”
says Harry.
“Parbleu! my lord does not press himself,” Blaise
says, with a grin; and, indeed, it seemed as if his lordship was
not in a great hurry, for he spent three days on that journey which
Harry Esmond hath often since ridden in a dozen hours. For the last
two of the days Harry rode with the priest, who was so kind to him,
that the child had grown to be quite fond and familiar with him by
the journey’s end, and had scarce a thought in his little
heart which by that time he had not confided to his new friend.
At length, on the third day, at evening, they came to a village
standing on a green with elms round it, very pretty to look at; and
the people there all took off their hats, and made curtsies to my
Lord Viscount, who bowed to them all languidly; and there was one
portly person that wore a cassock and a broad-leafed hat, who bowed
lower than any one—and with this one both my lord and Mr.
Holt had a few words. “This, Harry, is Castlewood
church,” says Mr. Holt, “and this is the pillar
thereof, learned Doctor Tusher. Take off your hat, sirrah, and
salute Dr. Tusher!”
“Come up to supper, Doctor,” says my lord; at which
the Doctor made another low bow, and the party moved on towards a
grand house that was before them, with many gray towers and vanes
on them, and windows flaming in the sunshine; and a great army of
rooks, wheeling over their heads, made for the woods behind the
house, as Harry saw; and Mr. Holt told him that they lived at
Castlewood too.
They came to the house, and passed under an arch into a
court-yard, with a fountain in the centre, where many men came and
held my lord’s stirrup as he descended, and paid great
respect to Mr. Holt likewise. And the child thought that the
servants looked at him curiously, and smiled to one
another—and he recalled what Blaise had said to him when they
were in London, and Harry had spoken about his godpapa, when the
Frenchman said, “Parbleu, one sees well that my lord is your
godfather;” words whereof the poor lad did not know the
meaning then, though he apprehended the truth in a very short time
afterwards, and learned it, and thought of it with no small feeling
of shame.
Taking Harry by the hand as soon as they were both descended
from their horses, Mr. Holt led him across the court, and under a
low door to rooms on a level with the ground; one of which Father
Holt said was to be the boy’s chamber, the other on the other
side of the passage being the Father’s own; and as soon as
the little man’s face was washed, and the Father’s own
dress arranged, Harry’s guide took him once more to the door
by which my lord had entered the hall, and up a stair, and through
an ante-room to my lady’s drawing-room—an apartment
than which Harry thought he had never seen anything more
grand—no, not in the Tower of London which he had just
visited. Indeed, the chamber was richly ornamented in the manner of
Queen Elizabeth’s time, with great stained windows at either
end, and hangings of tapestry, which the sun shining through the
colored glass painted of a thousand lines; and here in state, by
the fire, sat a lady to whom the priest took up Harry, who was
indeed amazed by her appearance.
My Lady Viscountess’s face was daubed with white and red
up to the eyes, to which the paint gave an unearthly glare: she had
a tower of lace on her head, under which was a bush of black
curls—borrowed curls—so that no wonder little Harry
Esmond was scared when he was first presented to her—the kind
priest acting as master of the ceremonies at that solemn
introduction—and he stared at her with eyes almost as great
as her own, as he had stared at the player woman who acted the
wicked tragedy-queen, when the players came down to Ealing Fair.
She sat in a great chair by the fire-corner; in her lap was a
spaniel-dog that barked furiously; on a little table by her was her
ladyship’s snuff-box and her sugar-plum box. She wore a dress
of black velvet, and a petticoat of flame-colored brocade. She had
as many rings on her fingers as the old woman of Banbury Cross; and
pretty small feet which she was fond of showing, with great gold
clocks to her stockings, and white pantofles with red heels; and an
odor of musk was shook out of her garments whenever she moved or
quitted the room, leaning on her tortoise-shell stick, little Fury
barking at her heels.
Mrs. Tusher, the parson’s wife, was with my lady. She had
been waiting-woman to her ladyship in the late lord’s time,
and, having her soul in that business, took naturally to it when
the Viscountess of Castlewood returned to inhabit her
father’s house.
“I present to your ladyship your kinsman and little page
of honor, Master Henry Esmond,” Mr. Holt said, bowing lowly,
with a sort of comical humility. “Make a pretty bow to my
lady, Monsieur; and then another little bow, not so low, to Madame
Tusher—the fair priestess of Castlewood.”
“Where I have lived and hope to die, sir,” says
Madame Tusher, giving a hard glance at the brat, and then at my
lady.
Upon her the boy’s whole attention was for a time
directed. He could not keep his great eyes off from her. Since the
Empress of Ealing, he had seen nothing so awful.
“Does my appearance please you, little page?” asked
the lady.
“He would be very hard to please if it
didn’t,” cried Madame Tusher.
“Have done, you silly Maria,” said Lady
Castlewood.
“Where I’m attached, I’m attached,
Madame—and I’d die rather than not say so.”
“Je meurs ou je m’attache,” Mr. Holt said with
a polite grin. “The ivy says so in the picture, and clings to
the oak like a fond parasite as it is.”
“Parricide, sir!” cries Mrs. Tusher.
“Hush, Tusher—you are always bickering with Father
Holt,” cried my lady. “Come and kiss my hand,
child;” and the oak held out a BRANCH to little Harry Esmond,
who took and dutifully kissed the lean old hand, upon the gnarled
knuckles of which there glittered a hundred rings.
“To kiss that hand would make many a pretty fellow
happy!” cried Mrs. Tusher: on which my lady crying out,
“Go, you foolish Tusher!” and tapping her with her
great fan, Tusher ran forward to seize her hand and kiss it. Fury
arose and barked furiously at Tusher; and Father Holt looked on at
this queer scene, with arch, grave glances.
The awe exhibited by the little boy perhaps pleased the lady to
whom this artless flattery was bestowed: for having gone down on
his knee (as Father Holt had directed him, and the mode then was)
and performed his obeisance, she said, “Page Esmond, my groom
of the chamber will inform you what your duties are, when you wait
upon my lord and me; and good Father Holt will instruct you as
becomes a gentleman of our name. You will pay him obedience in
everything, and I pray you may grow to be as learned and as good as
your tutor.”
The lady seemed to have the greatest reverence for Mr. Holt, and
to be more afraid of him than of anything else in the world. If she
was ever so angry, a word or look from Father Holt made her calm:
indeed he had a vast power of subjecting those who came near him;
and, among the rest, his new pupil gave himself up with an entire
confidence and attachment to the good Father, and became his
willing slave almost from the first moment he saw him.
He put his small hand into the Father’s as he walked away
from his first presentation to his mistress, and asked many
questions in his artless childish way. “Who is that other
woman?” he asked. “She is fat and round; she is more
pretty than my Lady Castlewood.”
“She is Madame Tusher, the parson’s wife of
Castlewood. She has a son of your age, but bigger than
you.”
“Why does she like so to kiss my lady’s hand. It is
not good to kiss.”
“Tastes are different, little man. Madame Tusher is
attached to my lady, having been her waiting-woman before she was
married, in the old lord’s time. She married Doctor Tusher
the chaplain. The English household divines often marry the
waiting-women.”
“You will not marry the French woman, will you? I saw her
laughing with Blaise in the buttery.”
“I belong to a church that is older and better than the
English church,” Mr. Holt said (making a sign whereof Esmond
did not then understand the meaning, across his breast and
forehead); “in our church the clergy do not marry. You will
understand these things better soon.”
“Was not Saint Peter the head of your church?—Dr.
Rabbits of Ealing told us so.”
The Father said, “Yes, he was.”
“But Saint Peter was married, for we heard only last
Sunday that his wife’s mother lay sick of a fever.” On
which the Father again laughed, and said he would understand this
too better soon, and talked of other things, and took away Harry
Esmond, and showed him the great old house which he had come to
inhabit.
It stood on a rising green hill, with woods behind it, in which
were rooks’ nests, where the birds at morning and returning
home at evening made a great cawing. At the foot of the hill was a
river, with a steep ancient bridge crossing it; and beyond that a
large pleasant green flat, where the village of Castlewood stood,
and stands, with the church in the midst, the parsonage hard by it,
the inn with the blacksmith’s forge beside it, and the sign
of the “Three Castles” on the elm. The London road
stretched away towards the rising sun, and to the west were
swelling hills and peaks, behind which many a time Harry Esmond saw
the same sun setting, that he now looks on thousands of miles away
across the great ocean—in a new Castlewood, by another
stream, that bears, like the new country of wandering AEneas, the
fond names of the land of his youth.
The Hall of Castlewood was built with two courts, whereof one
only, the fountain-court, was now inhabited, the other having been
battered down in the Cromwellian wars. In the fountain-court, still
in good repair, was the great hall, near to the kitchen and
butteries. A dozen of living-rooms looking to the north, and
communicating with the little chapel that faced eastwards and the
buildings stretching from that to the main gate, and with the hall
(which looked to the west) into the court now dismantled. This
court had been the most magnificent of the two, until the
Protector’s cannon tore down one side of it before the place
was taken and stormed. The besiegers entered at the terrace under
the clock-tower, slaying every man of the garrison, and at their
head my lord’s brother, Francis Esmond.
The Restoration did not bring enough money to the Lord
Castlewood to restore this ruined part of his house; where were the
morning parlors, above them the long music-gallery, and before
which stretched the garden-terrace, where, however, the flowers
grew again which the boots of the Roundheads had trodden in their
assault, and which was restored without much cost, and only a
little care, by both ladies who succeeded the second viscount in
the government of this mansion. Round the terrace-garden was a low
wall with a wicket leading to the wooded height beyond, that is
called Cromwell’s Battery to this day.
Young Harry Esmond learned the domestic part of his duty, which
was easy enough, from the groom of her ladyship’s chamber:
serving the Countess, as the custom commonly was in his boyhood, as
page, waiting at her chair, bringing her scented water and the
silver basin after dinner—sitting on her carriage-step on
state occasions, or on public days introducing her company to her.
This was chiefly of the Catholic gentry, of whom there were a
pretty many in the country and neighboring city; and who rode not
seldom to Castlewood to partake of the hospitalities there. In the
second year of their residence, the company seemed especially to
increase. My lord and my lady were seldom without visitors, in
whose society it was curious to contrast the difference of behavior
between Father Holt, the director of the family, and Doctor Tusher,
the rector of the parish—Mr. Holt moving amongst the very
highest as quite their equal, and as commanding them all; while
poor Doctor Tusher, whose position was indeed a difficult one,
having been chaplain once to the Hall, and still to the Protestant
servants there, seemed more like an usher than an equal, and always
rose to go away after the first course.
Also there came in these times to Father Holt many private
visitors, whom, after a little, Henry Esmond had little difficulty
in recognizing as ecclesiastics of the Father’s persuasion,
whatever their dresses (and they adopted all) might be. These were
closeted with the Father constantly, and often came and rode away
without paying their devoirs to my lord and lady—to the lady
and lord rather—his lordship being little more than a cipher
in the house, and entirely under his domineering partner. A little
fowling, a little hunting, a great deal of sleep, and a long dine
at cards and table, carried through one day after another with his
lordship. When meetings took place in this second year, which often
would happen with closed doors, the page found my lord’s
sheet of paper scribbled over with dogs and horses, and ’twas
said he had much ado to keep himself awake at these councils: the
Countess ruling over them, and he acting as little more than her
secretary.
Father Holt began speedily to be so much occupied with these
meetings as rather to neglect the education of the little lad who
so gladly put himself under the kind priest’s orders. At
first they read much and regularly, both in Latin and French; the
Father not neglecting in anything to impress his faith upon his
pupil, but not forcing him violently, and treating him with a
delicacy and kindness which surprised and attached the child,
always more easily won by these methods than by any severe exercise
of authority. And his delight in their walks was to tell Harry of
the glories of his order, of its martyrs and heroes, of its
Brethren converting the heathen by myriads, traversing the desert,
facing the stake, ruling the courts and councils, or braving the
tortures of kings; so that Harry Esmond thought that to belong to
the Jesuits was the greatest prize of life and bravest end of
ambition; the greatest career here, and in heaven the surest
reward; and began to long for the day, not only when he should
enter into the one church and receive his first communion, but when
he might join that wonderful brotherhood, which was present
throughout all the world, and which numbered the wisest, the
bravest, the highest born, the most eloquent of men among its
members. Father Holt bade him keep his views secret, and to hide
them as a great treasure which would escape him if it was revealed;
and, proud of this confidence and secret vested in him, the lad
became fondly attached to the master who initiated him into a
mystery so wonderful and awful. And when little Tom Tusher, his
neighbor, came from school for his holiday, and said how he, too,
was to be bred up for an English priest, and would get what he
called an exhibition from his school, and then a college
scholarship and fellowship, and then a good living—it tasked
young Harry Esmond’s powers of reticence not to say to his
young companion, “Church! priesthood! fat living! My dear
Tommy, do you call yours a church and a priesthood? What is a fat
living compared to converting a hundred thousand heathens by a
single sermon? What is a scholarship at Trinity by the side of a
crown of martyrdom, with angels awaiting you as your head is taken
off? Could your master at school sail over the Thames on his gown?
Have you statues in your church that can bleed, speak, walk, and
cry? My good Tommy, in dear Father Holt’s church these things
take place every day. You know Saint Philip of the Willows appeared
to Lord Castlewood, and caused him to turn to the one true church.
No saints ever come to you.” And Harry Esmond, because of his
promise to Father Holt, hiding away these treasures of faith from
T. Tusher, delivered himself of them nevertheless simply to Father
Holt; who stroked his head, smiled at him with his inscrutable
look, and told him that he did well to meditate on these great
things, and not to talk of them except under direction.
Had time enough been given, and his childish inclinations been
properly nurtured, Harry Esmond had been a Jesuit priest ere he was
a dozen years older, and might have finished his days a martyr in
China or a victim on Tower Hill: for, in the few months they spent
together at Castlewood, Mr. Holt obtained an entire mastery over
the boy’s intellect and affections; and had brought him to
think, as indeed Father Holt thought with all his heart too, that
no life was so noble, no death so desirable, as that which many
brethren of his famous order were ready to undergo. By love, by a
brightness of wit and good-humor that charmed all, by an authority
which he knew how to assume, by a mystery and silence about him
which increased the child’s reverence for him, he won
Harry’s absolute fealty, and would have kept it, doubtless,
if schemes greater and more important than a poor little
boy’s admission into orders had not called him away.
After being at home for a few months in tranquillity (if theirs
might be called tranquillity, which was, in truth, a constant
bickering), my lord and lady left the country for London, taking
their director with them: and his little pupil scarce ever shed
more bitter tears in his life than he did for nights after the
first parting with his dear friend, as he lay in the lonely chamber
next to that which the Father used to occupy. He and a few
domestics were left as the only tenants of the great house: and,
though Harry sedulously did all the tasks which the Father set him,
he had many hours unoccupied, and read in the library, and
bewildered his little brains with the great books he found
there.
After a while, the little lad grew accustomed to the loneliness
of the place; and in after days remembered this part of his life as
a period not unhappy. When the family was at London the whole of
the establishment travelled thither with the exception of the
porter—who was, moreover, brewer, gardener, and
woodman—and his wife and children. These had their lodging in
the gate-house hard by, with a door into the court; and a window
looking out on the green was the Chaplain’s room; and next to
this a small chamber where Father Holt had his books, and Harry
Esmond his sleeping closet. The side of the house facing the east
had escaped the guns of the Cromwellians, whose battery was on the
height facing the western court; so that this eastern end bore few
marks of demolition, save in the chapel, where the painted windows
surviving Edward the Sixth had been broke by the Commonwealthmen.
In Father Holt’s time little Harry Esmond acted as his
familiar and faithful little servitor; beating his clothes, folding
his vestments, fetching his water from the well long before
daylight, ready to run anywhere for the service of his beloved
priest. When the Father was away, he locked his private chamber;
but the room where the books were was left to little Harry, who,
but for the society of this gentleman, was little less solitary
when Lord Castlewood was at home.
The French wit saith that a hero is none to his
valet-de-chambre, and it required less quick eyes than my
lady’s little page was naturally endowed with, to see that
she had many qualities by no means heroic, however much Mrs. Tusher
might flatter and coax her. When Father Holt was not by, who
exercised an entire authority over the pair, my lord and my lady
quarrelled and abused each other so as to make the servants laugh,
and to frighten the little page on duty. The poor boy trembled
before his mistress, who called him by a hundred ugly names, who
made nothing of boxing his ears, and tilting the silver basin in
his face which it was his business to present to her after dinner.
She hath repaired, by subsequent kindness to him, these severities,
which it must be owned made his childhood very unhappy. She was but
unhappy herself at this time, poor soul! and I suppose made her
dependants lead her own sad life. I think my lord was as much
afraid of her as her page was, and the only person of the household
who mastered her was Mr. Holt. Harry was only too glad when the
Father dined at table, and to slink away and prattle with him
afterwards, or read with him, or walk with him. Luckily my Lady
Viscountess did not rise till noon. Heaven help the poor
waiting-woman who had charge of her toilet! I have often seen the
poor wretch come out with red eyes from the closet where those long
and mysterious rites of her ladyship’s dress were performed,
and the backgammon-box locked up with a rap on Mrs. Tusher’s
fingers when she played ill, or the game was going the wrong
way.
Blessed be the king who introduced cards, and the kind inventors
of piquet and cribbage, for they employed six hours at least of her
ladyship’s day, during which her family was pretty easy.
Without this occupation my lady frequently declared she should die.
Her dependants one after another relieved guard—’twas
rather a dangerous post to play with her ladyship—and took
the cards turn about. Mr. Holt would sit with her at piquet during
hours together, at which time she behaved herself properly; and as
for Dr. Tusher, I believe he would have left a parishioner’s
dying bed, if summoned to play a rubber with his patroness at
Castlewood. Sometimes, when they were pretty comfortable together,
my lord took a hand. Besides these my lady had her faithful poor
Tusher, and one, two, three gentlewomen whom Harry Esmond could
recollect in his time. They could not bear that genteel service
very long; one after another tried and failed at it. These and the
housekeeper, and little Harry Esmond, had a table of their own.
Poor ladies their life was far harder than the page’s. He was
sound asleep, tucked up in his little bed, whilst they were sitting
by her ladyship reading her to sleep, with the “News
Letter” or the “Grand Cyrus.” My lady used to
have boxes of new plays from London, and Harry was forbidden, under
the pain of a whipping, to look into them. I am afraid he deserved
the penalty pretty often, and got it sometimes. Father Holt applied
it twice or thrice, when he caught the young scapegrace with a
delightful wicked comedy of Mr. Shadwell’s or Mr.
Wycherley’s under his pillow.
These, when he took any, were my lord’s favorite reading.
But he was averse to much study, and, as his little page fancied,
to much occupation of any sort.
It always seemed to young Harry Esmond that my lord treated him
with more kindness when his lady was not present, and Lord
Castlewood would take the lad sometimes on his little journeys
a-hunting or a-birding; he loved to play at cards and tric-trac
with him, which games the boy learned to pleasure his lord: and was
growing to like him better daily, showing a special pleasure if
Father Holt gave a good report of him, patting him on the head, and
promising that he would provide for the boy. However, in my
lady’s presence, my lord showed no such marks of kindness,
and affected to treat the lad roughly, and rebuked him sharply for
little faults, for which he in a manner asked pardon of young
Esmond when they were private, saying if he did not speak roughly,
she would, and his tongue was not such a bad one as his
lady’s—a point whereof the boy, young as he was, was
very well assured.
Great public events were happening all this while, of which the
simple young page took little count. But one day, riding into the
neighboring town on the step of my lady’s coach, his lordship
and she and Father Holt being inside, a great mob of people came
hooting and jeering round the coach, bawling out “The Bishops
for ever!” “Down with the Pope!” “No
Popery! no Popery! Jezebel, Jezebel!” so that my lord began
to laugh, my lady’s eyes to roll with anger, for she was as
bold as a lioness, and feared nobody; whilst Mr. Holt, as Esmond
saw from his place on the step, sank back with rather an alarmed
face, crying out to her ladyship, “For God’s sake,
madam, do not speak or look out of window; sit still.” But
she did not obey this prudent injunction of the Father; she thrust
her head out of the coach window, and screamed out to the coachman,
“Flog your way through them, the brutes, James, and use your
whip!”
The mob answered with a roaring jeer of laughter, and fresh
cries of “Jezebel! Jezebel!” My lord only laughed the
more: he was a languid gentleman: nothing seemed to excite him
commonly, though I have seen him cheer and halloo the hounds very
briskly, and his face (which was generally very yellow and calm)
grow quite red and cheerful during a burst over the Downs after a
hare, and laugh, and swear, and huzzah at a cockfight, of which
sport he was very fond. And now, when the mob began to hoot his
lady, he laughed with something of a mischievous look, as though he
expected sport, and thought that she and they were a match.
James the coachman was more afraid of his mistress than the mob,
probably, for he whipped on his horses as he was bidden, and the
post-boy that rode with the first pair (my lady always rode with
her coach-and-six,) gave a cut of his thong over the shoulders of
one fellow who put his hand out towards the leading horse’s
rein.
It was a market-day, and the country-people were all assembled
with their baskets of poultry, eggs, and such things; the postilion
had no sooner lashed the man who would have taken hold of his
horse, but a great cabbage came whirling like a bombshell into the
carriage, at which my lord laughed more, for it knocked my
lady’s fan out of her hand, and plumped into Father
Holt’s stomach. Then came a shower of carrots and
potatoes.
“For Heaven’s sake be still!” says Mr. Holt;
“we are not ten paces from the ‘Bell’ archway,
where they can shut the gates on us, and keep out this
canaille.”
The little page was outside the coach on the step, and a fellow
in the crowd aimed a potato at him, and hit him in the eye, at
which the poor little wretch set up a shout; the man laughed, a
great big saddler’s apprentice of the town. “Ah! you
d—— little yelling Popish bastard,” he said, and
stooped to pick up another; the crowd had gathered quite between
the horses and the inn door by this time, and the coach was brought
to a dead stand-still. My lord jumped as briskly as a boy out of
the door on his side of the coach, squeezing little Harry behind
it; had hold of the potato-thrower’s collar in an instant,
and the next moment the brute’s heels were in the air, and he
fell on the stones with a thump.
“You hulking coward!” says he; “you pack of
screaming blackguards! how dare you attack children, and insult
women? Fling another shot at that carriage, you sneaking pigskin
cobbler, and by the Lord I’ll send my rapier through
you!”
Some of the mob cried, “Huzzah, my lord!” for they
knew him, and the saddler’s man was a known bruiser, near
twice as big as my lord Viscount.
“Make way there,” says he (he spoke in a high shrill
voice, but with a great air of authority). “Make way, and let
her ladyship’s carriage pass.” The men that were
between the coach and the gate of the “Bell” actually
did make way, and the horses went in, my lord walking after them
with his hat on his head.
As he was going in at the gate, through which the coach had just
rolled, another cry begins, of “No Popery—no
Papists!” My lord turns round and faces them once more.
“God save the King!” says he at the highest pitch of
his voice. “Who dares abuse the King’s religion? You,
you d—d psalm-singing cobbler, as sure as I’m a
magistrate of this county I’ll commit you!” The fellow
shrank back, and my lord retreated with all the honors of the day.
But when the little flurry caused by the scene was over, and the
flush passed off his face, he relapsed into his usual languor,
trifled with his little dog, and yawned when my lady spoke to
him.
This mob was one of many thousands that were going about the
country at that time, huzzahing for the acquittal of the seven
bishops who had been tried just then, and about whom little Harry
Esmond at that time knew scarce anything. It was Assizes at Hexton,
and there was a great meeting of the gentry at the
“Bell;” and my lord’s people had their new
liveries on, and Harry a little suit of blue and silver, which he
wore upon occasions of state; and the gentlefolks came round and
talked to my lord: and a judge in a red gown, who seemed a very
great personage, especially complimented him and my lady, who was
mighty grand. Harry remembers her train borne up by her
gentlewoman. There was an assembly and ball at the great room at
the “Bell,” and other young gentlemen of the county
families looked on as he did. One of them jeered him for his black
eye, which was swelled by the potato, and another called him a
bastard, on which he and Harry fell to fisticuffs. My lord’s
cousin, Colonel Esmond of Walcote, was there, and separated the two
lads—a great tall gentleman, with a handsome good-natured
face. The boy did not know how nearly in after-life he should be
allied to Colonel Esmond, and how much kindness he should have to
owe him.
There was little love between the two families. My lady used not
to spare Colonel Esmond in talking of him, for reasons which have
been hinted already; but about which, at his tender age, Henry
Esmond could be expected to know nothing.
Very soon afterwards, my lord and lady went to London with Mr.
Holt, leaving, however, the page behind them. The little man had
the great house of Castlewood to himself; or between him and the
housekeeper, Mrs. Worksop, an old lady who was a kinswoman of the
family in some distant way, and a Protestant, but a staunch Tory
and king’s-man, as all the Esmonds were. He used to go to
school to Dr. Tusher when he was at home, though the Doctor was
much occupied too. There was a great stir and commotion everywhere,
even in the little quiet village of Castlewood, whither a party of
people came from the town, who would have broken Castlewood Chapel
windows, but the village people turned out, and even old
Sieveright, the republican blacksmith, along with them: for my
lady, though she was a Papist, and had many odd ways, was kind to
the tenantry, and there was always a plenty of beef, and blankets,
and medicine for the poor at Castlewood Hall.
A kingdom was changing hands whilst my lord and lady were away.
King James was flying, the Dutchmen were coming; awful stories
about them and the Prince of Orange used old Mrs. Worksop to tell
to the idle little page.
He liked the solitude of the great house very well; he had all
the play-books to read, and no Father Holt to whip him, and a
hundred childish pursuits and pastimes, without doors and within,
which made this time very pleasant.
Not having been able to sleep, for thinking of some lines for
eels which he had placed the night before, the lad was lying in his
little bed, waiting for the hour when the gate would be open, and
he and his comrade, John Lockwood, the porter’s son, might go
to the pond and see what fortune had brought them. At daybreak John
was to awaken him, but his own eagerness for the sport had served
as a reveillez long since—so long, that it seemed to him as
if the day never would come.
It might have been four o’clock when he heard the door of
the opposite chamber, the Chaplain’s room, open, and the
voice of a man coughing in the passage. Harry jumped up, thinking
for certain it was a robber, or hoping perhaps for a ghost, and,
flinging open his own door, saw before him the Chaplain’s
door open, and a light inside, and a figure standing in the
doorway, in the midst of a great smoke which issued from the
room.
“Who’s there?” cried out the boy, who was of a
good spirit.
“Silentium!” whispered the other; “’tis
I, my boy!” and, holding his hand out, Harry had no
difficulty in recognizing his master and friend, Father Holt. A
curtain was over the window of the Chaplain’s room that
looked to the court, and Harry saw that the smoke came from a great
flame of papers which were burning in a brazier when he entered the
Chaplain’s room. After giving a hasty greeting and blessing
to the lad, who was charmed to see his tutor, the Father continued
the burning of his papers, drawing them from a cupboard over the
mantel-piece wall, which Harry had never seen before.
Father Holt laughed, seeing the lad’s attention fixed at
once on this hole. “That is right, Harry,” he said;
“faithful little famuli, see all and say nothing. You are
faithful, I know.”
“I know I would go to the stake for you,” said
Harry.
“I don’t want your head,” said the Father,
patting it kindly; “all you have to do is to hold your
tongue. Let us burn these papers, and say nothing to anybody.
Should you like to read them?”
Harry Esmond blushed, and held down his head; he HAD looked as
the fact was, and without thinking, at the paper before him; and
though he had seen it, could not understand a word of it, the
letters being quite clear enough, but quite without meaning. They
burned the papers, beating down the ashes in a brazier, so that
scarce any traces of them remained.
Harry had been accustomed to see Father Holt in more dresses
than one; it not being safe, or worth the danger, for Popish
ecclesiastics to wear their proper dress; and he was, in
consequence, in no wise astonished that the priest should now
appear before him in a riding-dress, with large buff leather boots,
and a feather to his hat, plain, but such as gentlemen wore.
“You know the secret of the cupboard,” said he,
laughing, “and must be prepared for other mysteries;”
and he opened—but not a secret cupboard this time—only
a wardrobe, which he usually kept locked, and from which he now
took out two or three dresses and perruques of different colors,
and a couple of swords of a pretty make (Father Holt was an expert
practitioner with the small-sword, and every day, whilst he was at
home, he and his pupil practised this exercise, in which the lad
became a very great proficient), a military coat and cloak, and a
farmer’s smock, and placed them in the large hole over the
mantel-piece from which the papers had been taken.
“If they miss the cupboard,” he said, “they
will not find these; if they find them, they’ll tell no
tales, except that Father Holt wore more suits of clothes than one.
All Jesuits do. You know what deceivers we are, Harry.”
Harry was alarmed at the notion that his friend was about to
leave him; but “No,” the priest said, “I may very
likely come back with my lord in a few days. We are to be
tolerated; we are not to be persecuted. But they may take a fancy
to pay a visit at Castlewood ere our return; and, as gentlemen of
my cloth are suspected, they might choose to examine my papers,
which concern nobody—at least not them.” And to this
day, whether the papers in cipher related to politics, or to the
affairs of that mysterious society whereof Father Holt was a
member, his pupil, Harry Esmond, remains in entire ignorance.
The rest of his goods, his small wardrobe, &c. Holt left
untouched on his shelves and in his cupboard, taking
down—with a laugh, however—and flinging into the
brazier, where he only half burned them, some theological treatises
which he had been writing against the English divines. “And
now,” said he, “Henry, my son, you may testify, with a
safe conscience, that you saw me burning Latin sermons the last
time I was here before I went away to London; and it will be
daybreak directly, and I must be away before Lockwood is
stirring.”
“Will not Lockwood let you out, sir?” Esmond asked.
Holt laughed; he was never more gay or good-humored than when in
the midst of action or danger.
“Lockwood knows nothing of my being here, mind you,”
he said; “nor would you, you little wretch! had you slept
better. You must forget that I have been here; and now farewell.
Close the door, and go to your own room, and don’t come out
till—stay, why should you not know one secret more? I know
you will never betray me.”
In the Chaplain’s room were two windows; the one looking
into the court facing westwards to the fountain; the other, a small
casement strongly barred, and looking on to the green in front of
the Hall. This window was too high to reach from the ground; but,
mounting on a buffet which stood beneath it, Father Holt showed me
how, by pressing on the base of the window, the whole framework of
lead, glass, and iron stanchions descended into a cavity worked
below, from which it could be drawn and restored to its usual place
from without; a broken pane being purposely open to admit the hand
which was to work upon the spring of the machine.
“When I am gone,” Father Holt said, “you may
push away the buffet, so that no one may fancy that an exit has
been made that way; lock the door; place the key—where shall
we put the key?—under ‘Chrysostom’ on the
book-shelf; and if any ask for it, say I keep it there, and told
you where to find it, if you had need to go to my room. The descent
is easy down the wall into the ditch; and so, once more farewell,
until I see thee again, my dear son.” And with this the
intrepid Father mounted the buffet with great agility and
briskness, stepped across the window, lifting up the bars and
framework again from the other side, and only leaving room for
Harry Esmond to stand on tiptoe and kiss his hand before the
casement closed, the bars fixing as firmly as ever, seemingly, in
the stone arch overhead. When Father Holt next arrived at
Castlewood, it was by the public gate on horseback; and he never so
much as alluded to the existence of the private issue to Harry,
except when he had need of a private messenger from within, for
which end, no doubt, he had instructed his young pupil in the means
of quitting the Hall.
Esmond, young as he was, would have died sooner than betray his
friend and master, as Mr. Holt well knew; for he had tried the boy
more than once, putting temptations in his way, to see whether he
would yield to them and confess afterwards, or whether he would
resist them, as he did sometimes, or whether he would lie, which he
never did. Holt instructing the boy on this point, however, that if
to keep silence is not to lie, as it certainly is not, yet silence
is, after all, equivalent to a negation—and therefore a
downright No, in the interest of justice or your friend, and in
reply to a question that may be prejudicial to either, is not
criminal, but, on the contrary, praiseworthy; and as lawful a way
as the other of eluding a wrongful demand. For instance (says he),
suppose a good citizen, who had seen his Majesty take refuge there,
had been asked, “Is King Charles up that oak-tree?” his
duty would have been not to say, Yes—so that the Cromwellians
should seize the king and murder him like his father—but No;
his Majesty being private in the tree, and therefore not to be seen
there by loyal eyes: all which instruction, in religion and morals,
as well as in the rudiments of the tongues and sciences, the boy
took eagerly and with gratitude from his tutor. When, then, Holt
was gone, and told Harry not to see him, it was as if he had never
been. And he had this answer pat when he came to be questioned a
few days after.
The Prince of Orange was then at Salisbury, as young Esmond
learned from seeing Doctor Tusher in his best cassock (though the
roads were muddy, and he never was known to wear his silk, only his
stuff one, a-horseback), with a great orange cockade in his
broad-leafed hat, and Nahum, his clerk, ornamented with a like
decoration. The Doctor was walking up and down in front of his
parsonage, when little Esmond saw him, and heard him say he was
going to pay his duty to his Highness the Prince, as he mounted his
pad and rode away with Nahum behind. The village people had orange
cockades too, and his friend the blacksmith’s laughing
daughter pinned one into Harry’s old hat, which he tore out
indignantly when they bade him to cry “God save the Prince of
Orange and the Protestant religion!” but the people only
laughed, for they liked the boy in the village, where his solitary
condition moved the general pity, and where he found friendly
welcomes and faces in many houses. Father Holt had many friends
there too, for he not only would fight the blacksmith at theology,
never losing his temper, but laughing the whole time in his
pleasant way; but he cured him of an ague with quinquina, and was
always ready with a kind word for any man that asked it, so that
they said in the village ’twas a pity the two were
Papists.
The Director and the Vicar of Castlewood agreed very well;
indeed, the former was a perfectly-bred gentleman, and it was the
latter’s business to agree with everybody. Doctor Tusher and
the lady’s-maid, his spouse, had a boy who was about the age
of little Esmond; and there was such a friendship between the lads,
as propinquity and tolerable kindness and good-humor on either side
would be pretty sure to occasion. Tom Tusher was sent off early,
however, to a school in London, whither his father took him and a
volume of sermons, in the first year of the reign of King James;
and Tom returned but once, a year afterwards, to Castlewood for
many years of his scholastic and collegiate life. Thus there was
less danger to Tom of a perversion of his faith by the Director,
who scarce ever saw him, than there was to Harry, who constantly
was in the Vicar’s company; but as long as Harry’s
religion was his Majesty’s, and my lord’s, and my
lady’s, the Doctor said gravely, it should not be for him to
disturb or disquiet him: it was far from him to say that his
Majesty’s Church was not a branch of the Catholic Church;
upon which Father Holt used, according to his custom, to laugh, and
say that the Holy Church throughout all the world, and the noble
Army of Martyrs, were very much obliged to the Doctor.
It was while Dr. Tusher was away at Salisbury that there came a
troop of dragoons with orange scarfs, and quartered in Castlewood,
and some of them came up to the Hall, where they took possession,
robbing nothing however beyond the hen-house and the beer-cellar:
and only insisting upon going through the house and looking for
papers. The first room they asked to look at was Father
Holt’s room, of which Harry Esmond brought the key, and they
opened the drawers and the cupboards, and tossed over the papers
and clothes—but found nothing except his books and clothes,
and the vestments in a box by themselves, with which the dragoons
made merry, to Harry Esmond’s horror. And to the questions
which the gentleman put to Harry, he replied that Father Holt was a
very kind man to him, and a very learned man, and Harry supposed
would tell him none of his secrets if he had any. He was about
eleven years old at this time, and looked as innocent as boys of
his age.
The family were away more than six months, and when they
returned they were in the deepest state of dejection, for King
James had been banished, the Prince of Orange was on the throne,
and the direst persecutions of those of the Catholic faith were
apprehended by my lady, who said she did not believe that there was
a word of truth in the promises of toleration that Dutch monster
made, or in a single word the perjured wretch said. My lord and
lady were in a manner prisoners in their own house; so her ladyship
gave the little page to know, who was by this time growing of an
age to understand what was passing about him, and something of the
characters of the people he lived with.
“We are prisoners,” says she; “in everything
but chains, we are prisoners. Let them come, let them consign me to
dungeons, or strike off my head from this poor little throat”
(and she clasped it in her long fingers). “The blood of the
Esmonds will always flow freely for their kings. We are not like
the Churchills—the Judases, who kiss their master and betray
him. We know how to suffer, how even to forgive in the royal
cause” (no doubt it was to that fatal business of losing the
place of Groom of the Posset to which her ladyship alluded, as she
did half a dozen times in the day). “Let the tyrant of Orange
bring his rack and his odious Dutch tortures—the beast! the
wretch! I spit upon him and defy him. Cheerfully will I lay this
head upon the block; cheerfully will I accompany my lord to the
scaffold: we will cry ‘God save King James!’ with our
dying breath, and smile in the face of the executioner.” And
she told her page, a hundred times at least, of the particulars of
the last interview which she had with his Majesty.
“I flung myself before my liege’s feet,” she
said, “at Salisbury. I devoted myself—my
husband—my house, to his cause. Perhaps he remembered old
times, when Isabella Esmond was young and fair; perhaps he recalled
the day when ’twas not I that knelt—at least he spoke
to me with a voice that reminded ME of days gone by.
‘Egad!’ said his Majesty, ‘you should go to the
Prince of Orange; if you want anything.’ ‘No,
sire,’ I replied, ‘I would not kneel to a Usurper; the
Esmond that would have served your Majesty will never be groom to a
traitor’s posset.’ The royal exile smiled, even in the
midst of his misfortune; he deigned to raise me with words of
consolation. The Viscount, my husband, himself, could not be angry
at the august salute with which he honored me!”
The public misfortune had the effect of making my lord and his
lady better friends than they ever had been since their courtship.
My lord Viscount had shown both loyalty and spirit, when these were
rare qualities in the dispirited party about the King; and the
praise he got elevated him not a little in his wife’s good
opinion, and perhaps in his own. He wakened up from the listless
and supine life which he had been leading; was always riding to and
fro in consultation with this friend or that of the King’s;
the page of course knowing little of his doings, but remarking only
his greater cheerfulness and altered demeanor.
Father Holt came to the Hall constantly, but officiated no
longer openly as chaplain; he was always fetching and carrying:
strangers, military and ecclesiastic (Harry knew the latter, though
they came in all sorts of disguises), were continually arriving and
departing. My lord made long absences and sudden reappearances,
using sometimes the means of exit which Father Holt had employed,
though how often the little window in the Chaplain’s room let
in or let out my lord and his friends, Harry could not tell. He
stoutly kept his promise to the Father of not prying, and if at
midnight from his little room he heard noises of persons stirring
in the next chamber, he turned round to the wall, and hid his
curiosity under his pillow until it fell asleep. Of course he could
not help remarking that the priest’s journeys were constant,
and understanding by a hundred signs that some active though secret
business employed him: what this was may pretty well be guessed by
what soon happened to my lord.
No garrison or watch was put into Castlewood when my lord came
back, but a Guard was in the village; and one or other of them was
always on the Green keeping a look-out on our great gate, and those
who went out and in. Lockwood said that at night especially every
person who came in or went out was watched by the outlying
sentries. ’Twas lucky that we had a gate which their Worships
knew nothing about. My lord and Father Holt must have made constant
journeys at night: once or twice little Harry acted as their
messenger and discreet little aide-de-camp. He remembers he was
bidden to go into the village with his fishing-rod, enter certain
houses, ask for a drink of water, and tell the good man,
“There would be a horse-market at Newbury next
Thursday,” and so carry the same message on to the next house
on his list.
He did not know what the message meant at the time, nor what was
happening: which may as well, however, for clearness’ sake,
be explained here. The Prince of Orange being gone to Ireland,
where the King was ready to meet him with a great army, it was
determined that a great rising of his Majesty’s party should
take place in this country; and my lord was to head the force in
our county. Of late he had taken a greater lead in affairs than
before, having the indefatigable Mr. Holt at his elbow, and my Lady
Viscountess strongly urging him on; and my Lord Sark being in the
Tower a prisoner, and Sir Wilmot Crawley, of Queen’s Crawley,
having gone over to the Prince of Orange’s side—my lord
became the most considerable person in our part of the county for
the affairs of the King.
It was arranged that the regiment of Scots Grays and Dragoons,
then quartered at Newbury, should declare for the King on a certain
day, when likewise the gentry affected to his Majesty’s cause
were to come in with their tenants and adherents to Newbury, march
upon the Dutch troops at Reading under Ginckel; and, these
overthrown, and their indomitable little master away in Ireland,
’twas thought that our side might move on London itself, and
a confident victory was predicted for the King.
As these great matters were in agitation, my lord lost his
listless manner and seemed to gain health; my lady did not scold
him, Mr. Holt came to and fro, busy always; and little Harry longed
to have been a few inches taller, that he might draw a sword in
this good cause.
One day, it must have been about the month of July, 1690, my
lord, in a great horseman’s coat, under which Harry could see
the shining of a steel breastplate he had on, called little Harry
to him, put the hair off the child’s forehead, and kissed
him, and bade God bless him in such an affectionate way as he never
had used before. Father Holt blessed him too, and then they took
leave of my Lady Viscountess, who came from her apartment with a
pocket-handkerchief to her eyes, and her gentlewoman and Mrs.
Tusher supporting her. “You are going to—to
ride,” says she. “Oh, that I might come too—but
in my situation I am forbidden horse exercise.”
“We kiss my Lady Marchioness’s hand,” says Mr.
Holt.
“My lord, God speed you!” she said, stepping up and
embracing my lord in a grand manner. “Mr. Holt, I ask your
blessing:” and she knelt down for that, whilst Mrs. Tusher
tossed her head up.
Mr. Holt gave the same benediction to the little page, who went
down and held my lord’s stirrups for him to mount; there were
two servants waiting there too—and they rode out of
Castlewood gate.
As they crossed the bridge, Harry could see an officer in
scarlet ride up touching his hat, and address my lord.
The party stopped, and came to some parley or discussion, which
presently ended, my lord putting his horse into a canter after
taking off his hat and making a bow to the officer, who rode
alongside him step for step: the trooper accompanying him falling
back, and riding with my lord’s two men. They cantered over
the Green, and behind the elms (my lord waving his hand, Harry
thought), and so they disappeared. That evening we had a great
panic, the cow-boy coming at milking-time riding one of our horses,
which he had found grazing at the outer park-wall.
All night my Lady Viscountess was in a very quiet and subdued
mood. She scarce found fault with anybody; she played at cards for
six hours; little page Esmond went to sleep. He prayed for my lord
and the good cause before closing his eyes.
It was quite in the gray of the morning when the porter’s
bell rang, and old Lockwood, waking up, let in one of my
lord’s servants, who had gone with him in the morning, and
who returned with a melancholy story. The officer who rode up to my
lord had, it appeared, said to him, that it was his duty to inform
his lordship that he was not under arrest, but under surveillance,
and to request him not to ride abroad that day.
My lord replied that riding was good for his health, that if the
Captain chose to accompany him he was welcome; and it was then that
he made a bow, and they cantered away together.
When he came on to Wansey Down, my lord all of a sudden pulled
up, and the party came to a halt at the cross-way.
“Sir,” says he to the officer, “we are four to
two; will you be so kind as to take that road, and leave me go
mine?”
“Your road is mine, my lord,” says the officer.
“Then—” says my lord; but he had no time to
say more, for the officer, drawing a pistol, snapped it at his
lordship; as at the same moment Father Holt, drawing a pistol, shot
the officer through the head. It was done, and the man dead in an
instant of time. The orderly, gazing at the officer, looked seared
for a moment, and galloped away for his life.
“Fire! fire!” cries out Father Holt, sending another
shot after the trooper, but the two servants were too much
surprised to use their pieces, and my lord calling to them to hold
their hands, the fellow got away.
“Mr. Holt, qui pensait a tout,” says Blaise,
“gets off his horse, examines the pockets of the dead officer
for papers, gives his money to us two, and says, ‘The wine is
drawn, M. le Marquis,’—why did he say Marquis to M. le
Vicomte?—‘we must drink it.’
“The poor gentleman’s horse was a better one than
that I rode,” Blaise continues; “Mr. Holt bids me get
on him, and so I gave a cut to Whitefoot, and she trotted home. We
rode on towards Newbury; we heard firing towards midday: at two
o’clock a horseman comes up to us as we were giving our
cattle water at an inn—and says, ‘All is done! The
Ecossais declared an hour too soon—General Ginckel was down
upon them.’ The whole thing was at an end.
“‘And we’ve shot an officer on duty, and let
his orderly escape,’ says my lord.
“‘Blaise,’ says Mr. Holt, writing two lines on
his table-book, one for my lady and one for you, Master Harry;
‘you must go back to Castlewood, and deliver these,’
and behold me.”
And he gave Harry the two papers. He read that to himself, which
only said, “Burn the papers in the cupboard, burn this. You
know nothing about anything.” Harry read this, ran up stairs
to his mistress’s apartment, where her gentlewoman slept near
to the door, made her bring a light and wake my lady, into whose
hands he gave the paper. She was a wonderful object to look at in
her night attire, nor had Harry ever seen the like.
As soon as she had the paper in her hand, Harry stepped back to
the Chaplain’s room, opened the secret cupboard over the
fireplace, burned all the papers in it, and, as he had seen the
priest do before, took down one of his reverence’s manuscript
sermons, and half burnt that in the brazier. By the time the papers
were quite destroyed it was daylight. Harry ran back to his
mistress again. Her gentlewoman ushered him again into her
ladyship’s chamber; she told him (from behind her nuptial
curtains) to bid the coach be got ready, and that she would ride
away anon.
But the mysteries of her ladyship’s toilet were as awfully
long on this day as on any other, and, long after the coach was
ready, my lady was still attiring herself. And just as the
Viscountess stepped forth from her room, ready for departure, young
John Lockwood comes running up from the village with news that a
lawyer, three officers, and twenty or four-and-twenty soldiers,
were marching thence upon the house. John had but two minutes the
start of them, and, ere he had well told his story, the troop rode
into our court-yard.
At first my lady was for dying like Mary, Queen of Scots (to
whom she fancied she bore a resemblance in beauty), and, stroking
her scraggy neck, said, “They will find Isabel of Castlewood
is equal to her fate.” Her gentlewoman, Victoire, persuaded
her that her prudent course was, as she could not fly, to receive
the troops as though she suspected nothing, and that her chamber
was the best place wherein to await them. So her black Japan
casket, which Harry was to carry to the coach, was taken back to
her ladyship’s chamber, whither the maid and mistress
retired. Victoire came out presently, bidding the page to say her
ladyship was ill, confined to her bed with the rheumatism.
By this time the soldiers had reached Castlewood. Harry Esmond
saw them from the window of the tapestry parlor; a couple of
sentinels were posted at the gate—a half-dozen more walked
towards the stable; and some others, preceded by their commander,
and a man in black, a lawyer probably, were conducted by one of the
servants to the stair leading up to the part of the house which my
lord and lady inhabited.
So the Captain, a handsome kind man, and the lawyer, came
through the ante-room to the tapestry parlor, and where now was
nobody but young Harry Esmond, the page.
“Tell your mistress, little man,” says the Captain,
kindly, “that we must speak to her.”
“My mistress is ill a-bed,” said the page.
“What complaint has she?” asked the Captain.
The boy said, “The rheumatism!”
“Rheumatism! that’s a sad complaint,”
continues the good-natured Captain; “and the coach is in the
yard to fetch the Doctor, I suppose?”
“I don’t know,” says the boy.
“And how long has her ladyship been ill?”
“I don’t know,” says the boy.
“When did my lord go away?”
“Yesterday night.”
“With Father Holt?”
“With Mr. Holt.”
“And which way did they travel?” asks the
lawyer.
“They travelled without me,” says the page.
“We must see Lady Castlewood.”
“I have orders that nobody goes in to her
ladyship—she is sick,” says the page; but at this
moment Victoire came out. “Hush!” says she; and, as if
not knowing that any one was near, “What’s this
noise?” says she. “Is this gentleman the
Doctor?”
“Stuff! we must see Lady Castlewood,” says the
lawyer, pushing by.
The curtains of her ladyship’s room were down, and the
chamber dark, and she was in bed with a nightcap on her head, and
propped up by her pillows, looking none the less ghastly because of
the red which was still on her cheeks, and which she could not
afford to forego.
“Is that the Doctor?” she said.
“There is no use with this deception, madam,”
Captain Westbury said (for so he was named). “My duty is to
arrest the person of Thomas, Viscount Castlewood, a nonjuring
peer—of Robert Tusher, Vicar of Castlewood—and Henry
Holt, known under various other names and designations, a Jesuit
priest, who officiated as chaplain here in the late king’s
time, and is now at the head of the conspiracy which was about to
break out in this country against the authority of their Majesties
King William and Queen Mary—and my orders are to search the
house for such papers or traces of the conspiracy as may be found
here. Your ladyship will please give me your keys, and it will be
as well for yourself that you should help us, in every way, in our
search.”
“You see, sir, that I have the rheumatism, and cannot
move,” said the lady, looking uncommonly ghastly as she sat
up in her bed, where, however, she had had her cheeks painted, and
a new cap put on, so that she might at least look her best when the
officers came.
“I shall take leave to place a sentinel in the chamber, so
that your ladyship, in case you should wish to rise, may have an
arm to lean on,” Captain Westbury said. “Your woman
will show me where I am to look;” and Madame Victoire,
chattering in her half French and half English jargon, opened while
the Captain examined one drawer after another; but, as Harry Esmond
thought, rather carelessly, with a smile on his face, as if he was
only conducting the examination for form’s sake.
Before one of the cupboards Victoire flung herself down,
stretching out her arms, and, with a piercing shriek, cried,
“Non, jamais, monsieur l’officier! Jamais! I will
rather die than let you see this wardrobe.”
But Captain Westbury would open it, still with a smile on his
face, which, when the box was opened, turned into a fair burst of
laughter. It contained—not papers regarding the
conspiracy—but my lady’s wigs, washes, and rouge-pots,
and Victoire said men were monsters, as the Captain went on with
his perquisition. He tapped the back to see whether or no it was
hollow, and as he thrust his hands into the cupboard, my lady from
her bed called out, with a voice that did not sound like that of a
very sick woman, “Is it your commission to insult ladies as
well as to arrest gentlemen, Captain?”
“These articles are only dangerous when worn by your
ladyship,” the Captain said, with a low bow, and a mock grin
of politeness. “I have found nothing which concerns the
Government as yet—only the weapons with which beauty is
authorized to kill,” says he, pointing to a wig with his
sword-tip. “We must now proceed to search the rest of the
house.”
“You are not going to leave that wretch in the room with
me,” cried my lady, pointing to the soldier.
“What can I do, madam? Somebody you must have to smooth
your pillow and bring your medicine—permit
me—”
“Sir!” screamed out my lady.
“Madam, if you are too ill to leave the bed,” the
Captain then said, rather sternly, “I must have in four of my
men to lift you off in the sheet. I must examine this bed, in a
word; papers may be hidden in a bed as elsewhere; we know that very
well and . . .”
Here it was her ladyship’s turn to shriek, for the
Captain, with his fist shaking the pillows and bolsters, at last
came to “burn” as they say in the play of forfeits, and
wrenching away one of the pillows, said, “Look! did not I
tell you so? Here is a pillow stuffed with paper.”
“Some villain has betrayed us,” cried out my lady,
sitting up in the bed, showing herself full dressed under her
night-rail.
“And now your ladyship can move, I am sure; permit me to
give you my hand to rise. You will have to travel for some
distance, as far as Hexton Castle to-night. Will you have your
coach? Your woman shall attend you if you like—and the
japan-box?”
“Sir! you don’t strike a MAN when he is down,”
said my lady, with some dignity: “can you not spare a
woman?”
“Your ladyship must please to rise, and let me search the
bed,” said the Captain; “there is no more time to lose
in bandying talk.”
And, without more ado, the gaunt old woman got up. Harry Esmond
recollected to the end of his life that figure, with the brocade
dress and the white night-rail, and the gold-clocked red stockings,
and white red-heeled shoes, sitting up in the bed, and stepping
down from it. The trunks were ready packed for departure in her
ante-room, and the horses ready harnessed in the stable: about all
which the Captain seemed to know, by information got from some
quarter or other; and whence Esmond could make a pretty shrewd
guess in after-times, when Dr. Tusher complained that King
William’s government had basely treated him for services done
in that cause.
And here he may relate, though he was then too young to know all
that was happening, what the papers contained, of which Captain
Westbury had made a seizure, and which papers had been transferred
from the japan-box to the bed when the officers arrived.
There was a list of gentlemen of the county in Father
Holt’s hand writing—Mr. Freeman’s (King
James’s) friends—a similar paper being found among
those of Sir John Fenwick and Mr. Coplestone, who suffered death
for this conspiracy.
There was a patent conferring the title of Marquis of Esmond on
my Lord Castlewood and the heirs-male of his body; his appointment
as Lord–Lieutenant of the County, and
Major–General.
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There were various letters from the nobility and gentry, some
ardent and some doubtful, in the King’s service; and (very
luckily for him) two letters concerning Colonel Francis Esmond: one
from Father Holt, which said, “I have been to see this
Colonel at his house at Walcote, near to Wells, where he resides
since the King’s departure, and pressed him very eagerly in
Mr. Freeman’s cause, showing him the great advantage he would
have by trading with that merchant, offering him large premiums
there as agreed between us. But he says no: he considers Mr.
Freeman the head of the firm, will never trade against him or
embark with any other trading company, but considers his duty was
done when Mr. Freeman left England. This Colonel seems to care more
for his wife and his beagles than for affairs. He asked me much
about young H. E., ‘that bastard,’ as he called him;
doubting my lord’s intentions respecting him. I reassured him
on this head, stating what I knew of the lad, and our intentions
respecting him, but with regard to Freeman he was
inflexible.”
And another letter was from Colonel Esmond to his kinsman, to
say that one Captain Holton had been with him offering him large
bribes to join, YOU KNOW WHO, and saying that the head of the house
of Castlewood was deeply engaged in that quarter. But for his part
he had broke his sword when the K. left the country, and would
never again fight in that quarrel. The P. of O. was a man, at
least, of a noble courage, and his duty, and, as he thought, every
Englishman’s, was to keep the country quiet, and the French
out of it: and, in fine, that he would have nothing to do with the
scheme.
Of the existence of these two letters and the contents of the
pillow, Colonel Frank Esmond, who became Viscount Castlewood, told
Henry Esmond afterwards, when the letters were shown to his
lordship, who congratulated himself, as he had good reason, that he
had not joined in the scheme which proved so fatal to many
concerned in it. But, naturally, the lad knew little about these
circumstances when they happened under his eyes: only being aware
that his patron and his mistress were in some trouble, which had
caused the flight of the one and the apprehension of the other by
the officers of King William.
The seizure of the papers effected, the gentlemen did not pursue
their further search through Castlewood House very rigorously. They
examined Mr. Holt’s room, being led thither by his pupil, who
showed, as the Father had bidden him, the place where the key of
his chamber lay, opened the door for the gentlemen, and conducted
them into the room.
When the gentlemen came to the half-burned papers in the
brazier, they examined them eagerly enough, and their young guide
was a little amused at their perplexity.
“What are these?” says one.
“They’re written in a foreign language,” says
the lawyer. “What are you laughing at, little whelp?”
adds he, turning round as he saw the boy smile.
“Mr. Holt said they were sermons,” Harry said,
“and bade me to burn them;” which indeed was true of
those papers.
“Sermons indeed—it’s treason, I would lay a
wager,” cries the lawyer.
“Egad! it’s Greek to me,” says Captain
Westbury. “Can you read it, little boy?”
“Yes, sir, a little,” Harry said.
“Then read, and read in English, sir, on your
peril,” said the lawyer. And Harry began to
translate:—
“Hath not one of your own writers said, ‘The
children of Adam are now laboring as much as he himself ever did,
about the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, shaking the
boughs thereof, and seeking the fruit, being for the most part
unmindful of the tree of life.’ Oh blind generation!
’tis this tree of knowledge to which the serpent has led
you”—and here the boy was obliged to stop, the rest of
the page being charred by the fire: and asked of the
lawyer—“Shall I go on, sir?”
The lawyer said—“This boy is deeper than he seems:
who knows that he is not laughing at us?”
“Let’s have in Dick the Scholar,” cried
Captain Westbury, laughing: and he called to a trooper out of the
window—“Ho, Dick, come in here and construe.”
A thick-set soldier, with a square good-humored face, came in at
the summons, saluting his officer.
“Tell us what is this, Dick,” says the lawyer.
“My name is Steele, sir,” says the soldier. “I
may be Dick for my friends, but I don’t name gentlemen of
your cloth amongst them.”
“Well then, Steele.”
“Mr. Steele, sir, if you please. When you address a
gentleman of his Majesty’s Horse Guards, be pleased not to be
so familiar.”
“I didn’t know, sir,” said the lawyer.
“How should you? I take it you are not accustomed to meet
with gentlemen,” says the trooper.
“Hold thy prate, and read that bit of paper,” says
Westbury.
“’Tis Latin,” says Dick, glancing at it, and
again saluting his officer, “and from a sermon of Mr.
Cudworth’s,” and he translated the words pretty much as
Henry Esmond had rendered them.
“What a young scholar you are,” says the Captain to
the boy.
“Depend on’t, he knows more than he tells,”
says the lawyer. “I think we will pack him off in the coach
with old Jezebel.”
“For construing a bit of Latin?” said the Captain,
very good-naturedly.
“I would as lief go there as anywhere,” Harry Esmond
said, simply, “for there is nobody to care for me.”
There must have been something touching in the child’s
voice, or in this description of his solitude—for the Captain
looked at him very good-naturedly, and the trooper, called Steele,
put his hand kindly on the lad’s head, and said some words in
the Latin tongue.
“What does he say?” says the lawyer.
“Faith, ask Dick himself,” cried Captain
Westbury.
“I said I was not ignorant of misfortune myself, and had
learned to succor the miserable, and that’s not YOUR trade,
Mr. Sheepskin,” said the trooper.
“You had better leave Dick the Scholar alone, Mr.
Corbet,” the Captain said. And Harry Esmond, always touched
by a kind face and kind word, felt very grateful to this
good-natured champion.
The horses were by this time harnessed to the coach; and the
Countess and Victoire came down and were put into the vehicle. This
woman, who quarrelled with Harry Esmond all day, was melted at
parting with him, and called him “dear angel,” and
“poor infant,” and a hundred other names.
The Viscountess, giving him her lean hand to kiss, bade him
always be faithful to the house of Esmond. “If evil should
happen to my lord,” says she, “his SUCCESSOR, I trust,
will be found, and give you protection. Situated as I am, they will
not dare wreak their vengeance on me NOW.” And she kissed a
medal she wore with great fervor, and Henry Esmond knew not in the
least what her meaning was; but hath since learned that, old as she
was, she was for ever expecting, by the good offices of saints and
relics, to have an heir to the title of Esmond.
Harry Esmond was too young to have been introduced into the
secrets of politics in which his patrons were implicated; for they
put but few questions to the boy (who was little of stature, and
looked much younger than his age), and such questions as they put
he answered cautiously enough, and professing even more ignorance
than he had, for which his examiners willingly enough gave him
credit. He did not say a word about the window or the cupboard over
the fireplace; and these secrets quite escaped the eyes of the
searchers.
So then my lady was consigned to her coach, and sent off to
Hexton, with her woman and the man of law to bear her company, a
couple of troopers riding on either side of the coach. And Harry
was left behind at the Hall, belonging as it were to nobody, and
quite alone in the world. The captain and a guard of men remained
in possession there; and the soldiers, who were very good-natured
and kind, ate my lord’s mutton and drank his wine, and made
themselves comfortable, as they well might do in such pleasant
quarters.
The captains had their dinner served in my lord’s tapestry
parlor, and poor little Harry thought his duty was to wait upon
Captain Westbury’s chair, as his custom had been to serve his
lord when he sat there.
After the departure of the Countess, Dick the Scholar took Harry
Esmond under his special protection, and would examine him in his
humanities and talk to him both of French and Latin, in which
tongues the lad found, and his new friend was willing enough to
acknowledge, that he was even more proficient than Scholar Dick.
Hearing that he had learned them from a Jesuit, in the praise of
whom and whose goodness Harry was never tired of speaking, Dick,
rather to the boy’s surprise, who began to have an early
shrewdness, like many children bred up alone, showed a great deal
of theological science, and knowledge of the points at issue
between the two churches; so that he and Harry would have hours of
controversy together, in which the boy was certainly worsted by the
arguments of this singular trooper. “I am no common
soldier,” Dick would say, and indeed it was easy to see by
his learning, breeding, and many accomplishments, that he was not.
“I am of one of the most ancient families in the empire; I
have had my education at a famous school, and a famous university;
I learned my first rudiments of Latin near to Smithfield, in
London, where the martyrs were roasted.”
“You hanged as many of ours,” interposed Harry;
“and, for the matter of persecution, Father Holt told me that
a young gentleman of Edinburgh, eighteen years of age, student at
the college there, was hanged for heresy only last year, though he
recanted, and solemnly asked pardon for his errors.”
“Faith! there has been too much persecution on both sides:
but ’twas you taught us.”
“Nay, ’twas the Pagans began it,” cried the
lad, and began to instance a number of saints of the Church, from
the proto-martyr downwards—“this one’s fire went
out under him: that one’s oil cooled in the caldron: at a
third holy head the executioner chopped three times and it would
not come off. Show us martyrs in YOUR church for whom such miracles
have been done.”
“Nay,” says the trooper gravely, “the miracles
of the first three centuries belong to my Church as well as yours,
Master Papist,” and then added, with something of a smile
upon his countenance, and a queer look at Harry—“And
yet, my little catechiser, I have sometimes thought about those
miracles, that there was not much good in them, since the
victim’s head always finished by coming off at the third or
fourth chop, and the caldron, if it did not boil one day, boiled
the next. Howbeit, in our times, the Church has lost that
questionable advantage of respites. There never was a shower to put
out Ridley’s fire, nor an angel to turn the edge of
Campion’s axe. The rack tore the limbs of Southwell the
Jesuit and Sympson the Protestant alike. For faith, everywhere
multitudes die willingly enough. I have read in Monsieur
Rycaut’s ‘History of the Turks,’ of thousands of
Mahomet’s followers rushing upon death in battle as upon
certain Paradise; and in the great Mogul’s dominions people
fling themselves by hundreds under the cars of the idols annually,
and the widows burn themselves on their husbands’ bodies, as
’tis well known. ’Tis not the dying for a faith
that’s so hard, Master Harry—every man of every nation
has done that—’tis the living up to it that is
difficult, as I know to my cost,” he added with a sigh.
“And ah!” he added, “my poor lad, I am not strong
enough to convince thee by my life—though to die for my
religion would give me the greatest of joys—but I had a dear
friend in Magdalen College in Oxford; I wish Joe Addison were here
to convince thee, as he quickly could—for I think he’s
a match for the whole College of Jesuits; and what’s more, in
his life too. In that very sermon of Dr. Cudworth’s which
your priest was quoting from, and which suffered martydom in the
brazier,”—Dick added with a smile, “I had a
thought of wearing the black coat (but was ashamed of my life, you
see, and took to this sorry red one); I have often thought of Joe
Addison—Dr. Cudworth says, ‘A good conscience is the
best looking-glass of heaven’—and there’s
serenity in my friend’s face which always reflects it—I
wish you could see him, Harry.”
“Did he do you a great deal of good?” asked the lad,
simply.
“He might have done,” said the other—“at
least he taught me to see and approve better things. ’Tis my
own fault, deteriora sequi.”
“You seem very good,” the boy said.
“I’m not what I seem, alas!” answered the
trooper—and indeed, as it turned out, poor Dick told the
truth—for that very night, at supper in the hall, where the
gentlemen of the troop took their repasts, and passed most part of
their days dicing and smoking of tobacco, and singing and cursing,
over the Castlewood ale—Harry Esmond found Dick the Scholar
in a woful state of drunkenness. He hiccupped out a sermon and his
laughing companions bade him sing a hymn, on which Dick, swearing
he would run the scoundrel through the body who insulted his
religion, made for his sword, which was hanging on the wall, and
fell down flat on the floor under it, saying to Harry, who ran
forward to help him, “Ah, little Papist, I wish Joseph
Addison was here!”
Though the troopers of the King’s Life–Guards were
all gentlemen, yet the rest of the gentlemen seemed ignorant and
vulgar boors to Harry Esmond, with the exception of this
good-natured Corporal Steele the Scholar, and Captain Westbury and
Lieutenant Trant, who were always kind to the lad. They remained
for some weeks or months encamped in Castlewood, and Harry learned
from them, from time to time, how the lady at Hexton Castle was
treated, and the particulars of her confinement there. ’Tis
known that King William was disposed to deal very leniently with
the gentry who remained faithful to the old King’s cause; and
no prince usurping a crown, as his enemies said he did,
(righteously taking it, as I think now,) ever caused less blood to
be shed. As for women-conspirators, he kept spies on the least
dangerous, and locked up the others. Lady Castlewood had the best
rooms in Hexton Castle, and the gaoler’s garden to walk in;
and though she repeatedly desired to be led out to execution, like
Mary Queen of Scots, there never was any thought of taking her
painted old head off, or any desire to do aught but keep her person
in security.
And it appeared she found that some were friends in her
misfortune, whom she had, in her prosperity, considered as her
worst enemies. Colonel Francis Esmond, my lord’s cousin and
her ladyship’s, who had married the Dean of
Winchester’s daughter, and, since King James’s
departure out of England, had lived not very far away from Hexton
town, hearing of his kinswoman’s strait, and being friends
with Colonel Brice, commanding for King William in Hexton, and with
the Church dignitaries there, came to visit her ladyship in prison,
offering to his uncle’s daughter any friendly services which
lay in his power. And he brought his lady and little daughter to
see the prisoner, to the latter of whom, a child of great beauty
and many winning ways, the old Viscountess took not a little
liking, although between her ladyship and the child’s mother
there was little more love than formerly. There are some injuries
which women never forgive one another; and Madam Francis Esmond, in
marrying her cousin, had done one of those irretrievable wrongs to
Lady Castlewood. But as she was now humiliated, and in misfortune,
Madam Francis could allow a truce to her enmity, and could be kind
for a while, at least, to her husband’s discarded mistress.
So the little Beatrix, her daughter, was permitted often to go and
visit the imprisoned Viscountess, who, in so far as the child and
its father were concerned, got to abate in her anger towards that
branch of the Castlewood family. And the letters of Colonel Esmond
coming to light, as has been said, and his conduct being known to
the King’s council, the Colonel was put in a better position
with the existing government than he had ever before been; any
suspicions regarding his loyalty were entirely done away; and so he
was enabled to be of more service to his kinswoman than he could
otherwise have been.
And now there befell an event by which this lady recovered her
liberty, and the house of Castlewood got a new owner, and
fatherless little Harry Esmond a new and most kind protector and
friend. Whatever that secret was which Harry was to hear from my
lord, the boy never heard it; for that night when Father Holt
arrived, and carried my lord away with him, was the last on which
Harry ever saw his patron. What happened to my lord may be briefly
told here. Having found the horses at the place where they were
lying, my lord and Father Holt rode together to Chatteris, where
they had temporary refuge with one of the Father’s penitents
in that city; but the pursuit being hot for them, and the reward
for the apprehension of one or the other considerable, it was
deemed advisable that they should separate; and the priest betook
himself to other places of retreat known to him, whilst my lord
passed over from Bristol into Ireland, in which kingdom King James
had a court and an army. My lord was but a small addition to this;
bringing, indeed, only his sword and the few pieces in his pocket;
but the King received him with some kindness and distinction in
spite of his poor plight, confirmed him in his new title of
Marquis, gave him a regiment, and promised him further promotion.
But titles or promotion were not to benefit him now. My lord was
wounded at the fatal battle of the Boyne, flying from which field
(long after his master had set him an example) he lay for a while
concealed in the marshy country near to the town of Trim, and more
from catarrh and fever caught in the bogs than from the steel of
the enemy in the battle, sank and died. May the earth lie light
upon Thomas of Castlewood! He who writes this must speak in
charity, though this lord did him and his two grievous wrongs: for
one of these he would have made amends, perhaps, had life been
spared him; but the other lay beyond his power to repair, though
’tis to be hoped that a greater Power than a priest has
absolved him of it. He got the comfort of this absolution, too,
such as it was: a priest of Trim writing a letter to my lady to
inform her of this calamity.
But in those days letters were slow of travelling, and our
priest’s took two months or more on its journey from Ireland
to England: where, when it did arrive, it did not find my lady at
her own house; she was at the King’s house of Hexton Castle
when the letter came to Castlewood, but it was opened for all that
by the officer in command there.
Harry Esmond well remembered the receipt of this letter, which
Lockwood brought in as Captain Westbury and Lieutenant Trant were
on the green playing at bowls, young Esmond looking on at the
sport, or reading his book in the arbor.
“Here’s news for Frank Esmond,” says Captain
Westbury; “Harry, did you ever see Colonel Esmond?” And
Captain Westbury looked very hard at the boy as he spoke.
Harry said he had seen him but once when he was at Hexton, at
the ball there.
“And did he say anything?”
“He said what I don’t care to repeat,” Harry
answered. For he was now twelve years of age: he knew what his
birth was, and the disgrace of it; and he felt no love towards the
man who had most likely stained his mother’s honor and his
own.
“Did you love my Lord Castlewood?”
“I wait until I know my mother, sir, to say,” the
boy answered, his eyes filling with tears.
“Something has happened to Lord Castlewood,” Captain
Westbury said in a very grave tone—“something which
must happen to us all. He is dead of a wound received at the Boyne,
fighting for King James.”
“I am glad my lord fought for the right cause,” the
boy said.
“It was better to meet death on the field like a man, than
face it on Tower-hill, as some of them may,” continued Mr.
Westbury. “I hope he has made some testament, or provided for
thee somehow. This letter says he recommends unicum filium suum
dilectissimum to his lady. I hope he has left you more than
that.”
Harry did not know, he said. He was in the hands of Heaven and
Fate; but more lonely now, as it seemed to him, than he had been
all the rest of his life; and that night, as he lay in his little
room which he still occupied, the boy thought with many a pang of
shame and grief of his strange and solitary condition: how he had a
father and no father; a nameless mother that had been brought to
ruin, perhaps, by that very father whom Harry could only
acknowledge in secret and with a blush, and whom he could neither
love nor revere. And he sickened to think how Father Holt, a
stranger, and two or three soldiers, his acquaintances of the last
six weeks, were the only friends he had in the great wide world,
where he was now quite alone. The soul of the boy was full of love,
and he longed as he lay in the darkness there for some one upon
whom he could bestow it. He remembers, and must to his dying day,
the thoughts and tears of that long night, the hours tolling
through it. Who was he, and what? Why here rather than elsewhere? I
have a mind, he thought, to go to that priest at Trim, and find out
what my father said to him on his death-bed confession. Is there
any child in the whole world so unprotected as I am? Shall I get up
and quit this place, and run to Ireland? With these thoughts and
tears the lad passed that night away until he wept himself to
sleep.
The next day, the gentlemen of the guard, who had heard what had
befallen him, were more than usually kind to the child, especially
his friend Scholar Dick, who told him about his own father’s
death, which had happened when Dick was a child at Dublin, not
quite five years of age. “That was the first sensation of
grief,” Dick said, “I ever knew. I remember I went into
the room where his body lay, and my mother sat weeping beside it. I
had my battledore in my hand, and fell a-beating the coffin, and
calling Papa; on which my mother caught me in her arms, and told me
in a flood of tears Papa could not hear me, and would play with me
no more, for they were going to put him under ground, whence he
could never come to us again. And this,” said Dick kindly,
“has made me pity all children ever since; and caused me to
love thee, my poor fatherless, motherless lad. And, if ever thou
wantest a friend, thou shalt have one in Richard Steele.”
Harry Esmond thanked him, and was grateful. But what could
Corporal Steele do for him? take him to ride a spare horse, and be
servant to the troop? Though there might be a bar in Harry
Esmond’s shield, it was a noble one. The counsel of the two
friends was, that little Harry should stay where he was, and abide
his fortune: so Esmond stayed on at Castlewood, awaiting with no
small anxiety the fate, whatever it was, which was over him.
During the stay of the soldiers in Castlewood, honest Dick the
Scholar was the constant companion of the lonely little orphan lad
Harry Esmond: and they read together, and they played bowls
together, and when the other troopers or their officers, who were
free-spoken over their cups, (as was the way of that day, when
neither men nor women were over-nice,) talked unbecomingly of their
amours and gallantries before the child, Dick, who very likely was
setting the whole company laughing, would stop their jokes with a
maxima debetur pueris reverentia, and once offered to lug out
against another trooper called Hulking Tom, who wanted to ask Harry
Esmond a ribald question.
Also, Dick seeing that the child had, as he said, a sensibility
above his years, and a great and praiseworthy discretion, confided
to Harry his love for a vintner’s daughter, near to the
Tollyard, Westminster, whom Dick addressed as Saccharissa in many
verses of his composition, and without whom he said it would be
impossible that he could continue to live. He vowed this a thousand
times in a day, though Harry smiled to see the love-lorn swain had
his health and appetite as well as the most heart-whole trooper in
the regiment: and he swore Harry to secrecy too, which vow the lad
religiously kept, until he found that officers and privates were
all taken into Dick’s confidence, and had the benefit of his
verses. And it must be owned likewise that, while Dick was sighing
after Saccharissa in London, he had consolations in the country;
for there came a wench out of Castlewood village who had washed his
linen, and who cried sadly when she heard he was gone: and without
paying her bill too, which Harry Esmond took upon himself to
discharge by giving the girl a silver pocket-piece, which Scholar
Dick had presented to him, when, with many embraces and prayers for
his prosperity, Dick parted from him, the garrison of Castlewood
being ordered away. Dick the Scholar said he would never forget his
young friend, nor indeed did he: and Harry was sorry when the kind
soldiers vacated Castlewood, looking forward with no small anxiety
(for care and solitude had made him thoughtful beyond his years) to
his fate when the new lord and lady of the house came to live
there. He had lived to be past twelve years old now; and had never
had a friend, save this wild trooper, perhaps, and Father Holt; and
had a fond and affectionate heart, tender to weakness, that would
fain attach itself to somebody, and did not seem at rest until it
had found a friend who would take charge of it.
The instinct which led Henry Esmond to admire and love the
gracious person, the fair apparition of whose beauty and kindness
had so moved him when he first beheld her, became soon a devoted
affection and passion of gratitude, which entirely filled his young
heart, that as yet, except in the case of dear Father Holt, had had
very little kindness for which to be thankful. O Dea certe, thought
he, remembering the lines out of the AEneas which Mr. Holt had
taught him. There seemed, as the boy thought, in every look or
gesture of this fair creature, an angelical softness and bright
pity—in motion or repose she seemed gracious alike; the tone
of her voice, though she uttered words ever so trivial, gave him a
pleasure that amounted almost to anguish. It cannot be called love,
that a lad of twelve years of age, little more than a menial, felt
for an exalted lady, his mistress: but it was worship. To catch her
glance, to divine her errand and run on it before she had spoken
it; to watch, follow, adore her; became the business of his life.
Meanwhile, as is the way often, his idol had idols of her own, and
never thought of or suspected the admiration of her little pigmy
adorer.
My lady had on her side her three idols: first and foremost,
Jove and supreme ruler, was her lord, Harry’s patron, the
good Viscount of Castlewood. All wishes of his were laws with her.
If he had a headache, she was ill. If he frowned, she trembled. If
he joked, she smiled and was charmed. If he went a-hunting, she was
always at the window to see him ride away, her little son crowing
on her arm, or on the watch till his return. She made dishes for
his dinner: spiced wine for him: made the toast for his tankard at
breakfast: hushed the house when he slept in his chair, and watched
for a look when he woke. If my lord was not a little proud of his
beauty, my lady adored it. She clung to his arm as he paced the
terrace, her two fair little hands clasped round his great one; her
eyes were never tired of looking in his face and wondering at its
perfection. Her little son was his son, and had his father’s
look and curly brown hair. Her daughter Beatrix was his daughter,
and had his eyes—were there ever such beautiful eyes in the
world? All the house was arranged so as to bring him ease and give
him pleasure. She liked the small gentry round about to come and
pay him court, never caring for admiration for herself; those who
wanted to be well with the lady must admire him. Not regarding her
dress, she would wear a gown to rags, because he had once liked it:
and, if he brought her a brooch or a ribbon, would prefer it to all
the most costly articles of her wardrobe.
My lord went to London every year for six weeks, and the family
being too poor to appear at Court with any figure, he went alone.
It was not until he was out of sight that her face showed any
sorrow: and what a joy when he came back! What preparation before
his return! The fond creature had his arm-chair at the
chimney-side—delighting to put the children in it, and look
at them there. Nobody took his place at the table; but his silver
tankard stood there as when my lord was present.
A pretty sight it was to see, during my lord’s absence, or
on those many mornings when sleep or headache kept him a-bed, this
fair young lady of Castlewood, her little daughter at her knee, and
her domestics gathered round her, reading the Morning Prayer of the
English Church. Esmond long remembered how she looked and spoke,
kneeling reverently before the sacred book, the sun shining upon
her golden hair until it made a halo round about her. A dozen of
the servants of the house kneeled in a line opposite their
mistress; for a while Harry Esmond kept apart from these mysteries,
but Doctor Tusher showing him that the prayers read were those of
the Church of all ages, and the boy’s own inclination
prompting him to be always as near as he might to his mistress, and
to think all things she did right, from listening to the prayers in
the ante-chamber, he came presently to kneel down with the rest of
the household in the parlor; and before a couple of years my lady
had made a thorough convert. Indeed, the boy loved his catechiser
so much that he would have subscribed to anything she bade him, and
was never tired of listening to her fond discourse and simple
comments upon the book, which she read to him in a voice of which
it was difficult to resist the sweet persuasion and tender
appealing kindness. This friendly controversy, and the intimacy
which it occasioned, bound the lad more fondly than ever to his
mistress. The happiest period of all his life was this; and the
young mother, with her daughter and son, and the orphan lad whom
she protected, read and worked and played, and were children
together. If the lady looked forward—as what fond woman does
not?—towards the future, she had no plans from which Harry
Esmond was left out; and a thousand and a thousand times, in his
passionate and impetuous way, he vowed that no power should
separate him from his mistress; and only asked for some chance to
happen by which he might show his fidelity to her. Now, at the
close of his life, as he sits and recalls in tranquillity the happy
and busy scenes of it, he can think, not ungratefully, that he has
been faithful to that early vow. Such a life is so simple that
years may be chronicled in a few lines. But few men’s
life-voyages are destined to be all prosperous; and this calm of
which we are speaking was soon to come to an end.
As Esmond grew, and observed for himself, he found of necessity
much to read and think of outside that fond circle of kinsfolk who
had admitted him to join hand with them. He read more books than
they cared to study with him; was alone in the midst of them many a
time, and passed nights over labors, futile perhaps, but in which
they could not join him. His dear mistress divined his thoughts
with her usual jealous watchfulness of affection: began to forebode
a time when he would escape from his home-nest; and, at his eager
protestations to the contrary, would only sigh and shake her head.
Before those fatal decrees in life are executed, there are always
secret previsions and warning omens. When everything yet seems
calm, we are aware that the storm is coming. Ere the happy days
were over, two at least of that home-party felt that they were
drawing to a close; and were uneasy, and on the look-out for the
cloud which was to obscure their calm.
’Twas easy for Harry to see, however much his lady
persisted in obedience and admiration for her husband, that my lord
tired of his quiet life, and grew weary, and then testy, at those
gentle bonds with which his wife would have held him. As they say
the Grand Lama of Thibet is very much fatigued by his character of
divinity, and yawns on his altar as his bonzes kneel and worship
him, many a home-god grows heartily sick of the reverence with
which his family-devotees pursue him, and sighs for freedom and for
his old life, and to be off the pedestal on which his dependants
would have him sit for ever, whilst they adore him, and ply him
with flowers, and hymns, and incense, and flattery;—so, after
a few years of his marriage my honest Lord Castlewood began to
tire; all the high-flown raptures and devotional ceremonies with
which his wife, his chief priestess, treated him, first sent him to
sleep, and then drove him out of doors; for the truth must be told,
that my lord was a jolly gentleman, with very little of the august
or divine in his nature, though his fond wife persisted in revering
it—and, besides, he had to pay a penalty for this love, which
persons of his disposition seldom like to defray: and, in a word,
if he had a loving wife, had a very jealous and exacting one. Then
he wearied of this jealousy; then he broke away from it; then came,
no doubt, complaints and recriminations; then, perhaps, promises of
amendment not fulfilled; then upbraidings not the more pleasant
because they were silent, and only sad looks and tearful eyes
conveyed them. Then, perhaps, the pair reached that other stage
which is not uncommon in married life, when the woman perceives
that the god of the honeymoon is a god no more; only a mortal like
the rest of us—and so she looks into her heart, and lo!
vacuae sedes et inania arcana. And now, supposing our lady to have
a fine genius and a brilliant wit of her own, and the magic spell
and infatuation removed from her which had led her to worship as a
god a very ordinary mortal—and what follows? They live
together, and they dine together, and they say “my
dear” and “my love” as heretofore; but the man is
himself, and the woman herself: that dream of love is over as
everything else is over in life; as flowers and fury, and griefs
and pleasures, are over.
Very likely the Lady Castlewood had ceased to adore her husband
herself long before she got off her knees, or would allow her
household to discontinue worshipping him. To do him justice, my
lord never exacted this subservience: he laughed and joked and
drank his bottle, and swore when he was angry, much too familiarly
for any one pretending to sublimity; and did his best to destroy
the ceremonial with which his wife chose to surround him. And it
required no great conceit on young Esmond’s part to see that
his own brains were better than his patron’s, who, indeed,
never assumed any airs of superiority over the lad, or over any
dependant of his, save when he was displeased, in which case he
would express his mind in oaths very freely; and who, on the
contrary, perhaps, spoiled “Parson Harry,” as he called
young Esmond, by constantly praising his parts and admiring his
boyish stock of learning.
It may seem ungracious in one who has received a hundred favors
from his patron to speak in any but a reverential manner of his
elders; but the present writer has had descendants of his own, whom
he has brought up with as little as possible of the servility at
present exacted by parents from children (under which mask of duty
there often lurks indifference, contempt, or rebellion): and as he
would have his grandsons believe or represent him to be not an inch
taller than Nature has made him: so, with regard to his past
acquaintances, he would speak without anger, but with truth, as far
as he knows it, neither extenuating nor setting down aught in
malice.
So long, then, as the world moved according to Lord
Castlewood’s wishes, he was good-humored enough; of a temper
naturally sprightly and easy, liking to joke, especially with his
inferiors, and charmed to receive the tribute of their laughter.
All exercises of the body he could perform to
perfection—shooting at a mark and flying, breaking horses,
riding at the ring, pitching the quoit, playing at all games with
great skill. And not only did he do these things well, but he
thought he did them to perfection; hence he was often tricked about
horses, which he pretended to know better than any jockey; was made
to play at ball and billiards by sharpers who took his money, and
came back from London wofully poorer each time than he went, as the
state of his affairs testified when the sudden accident came by
which his career was brought to an end.
He was fond of the parade of dress, and passed as many hours
daily at his toilette as an elderly coquette. A tenth part of his
day was spent in the brushing of his teeth and the oiling of his
hair, which was curling and brown, and which he did not like to
conceal under a periwig, such as almost everybody of that time
wore. (We have the liberty of our hair back now, but powder and
pomatum along with it. When, I wonder, will these monstrous
poll-taxes of our age be withdrawn, and men allowed to carry their
colors, black, red, or gray, as Nature made them?) And as he liked
her to be well dressed, his lady spared no pains in that matter to
please him; indeed, she would dress her head or cut it off if he
had bidden her.
It was a wonder to young Esmond, serving as page to my lord and
lady, to hear, day after day, to such company as came, the same
boisterous stories told by my lord, at which his lady never failed
to smile or hold down her head, and Doctor Tusher to burst out
laughing at the proper point, or cry, “Fie, my lord, remember
my cloth!” but with such a faint show of resistance, that it
only provoked my lord further. Lord Castlewood’s stories rose
by degrees, and became stronger after the ale at dinner and the
bottle afterwards; my lady always taking flight after the very
first glass to Church and King, and leaving the gentlemen to drink
the rest of the toasts by themselves.
And, as Harry Esmond was her page, he also was called from duty
at this time. “My lord has lived in the army and with
soldiers,” she would say to the lad, “amongst whom
great license is allowed. You have had a different nurture, and I
trust these things will change as you grow older; not that any
fault attaches to my lord, who is one of the best and most
religious men in this kingdom.” And very likely she believed
so. ’Tis strange what a man may do, and a woman yet think him
an angel.
And as Esmond has taken truth for his motto, it must be owned,
even with regard to that other angel, his mistress, that she had a
fault of character which flawed her perfections. With the other sex
perfectly tolerant and kindly, of her own she was invariably
jealous; and a proof that she had this vice is, that though she
would acknowledge a thousand faults that she had not, to this which
she had she could never be got to own. But if there came a woman
with even a semblance of beauty to Castlewood, she was so sure to
find out some wrong in her, that my lord, laughing in his jolly
way, would often joke with her concerning her foible. Comely
servant-maids might come for hire, but none were taken at
Castlewood. The housekeeper was old; my lady’s own
waiting-woman squinted, and was marked with the small-pox; the
housemaids and scullion were ordinary country wenches, to whom Lady
Castlewood was kind, as her nature made her to everybody almost;
but as soon as ever she had to do with a pretty woman, she was
cold, retiring, and haughty. The country ladies found this fault in
her; and though the men all admired her, their wives and daughters
complained of her coldness and aims, and said that Castlewood was
pleasanter in Lady Jezebel’s time (as the dowager was called)
than at present. Some few were of my mistress’s side. Old
Lady Blenkinsop Jointure, who had been at court in King James the
First’s time, always took her side; and so did old Mistress
Crookshank, Bishop Crookshank’s daughter, of Hexton, who,
with some more of their like, pronounced my lady an angel: but the
pretty women were not of this mind; and the opinion of the country
was that my lord was tied to his wife’s apron-strings, and
that she ruled over him.
The second fight which Harry Esmond had, was at fourteen years
of age, with Bryan Hawkshaw, Sir John Hawkshaw’s son, of
Bramblebrook, who, advancing this opinion, that my lady was jealous
and henpecked my lord, put Harry in such a fury, that Harry fell on
him and with such rage, that the other boy, who was two years older
and by far bigger than he, had by far the worst of the assault,
until it was interrupted by Doctor Tusher walking out of the
dinner-room.
Bryan Hawkshaw got up bleeding at the nose, having, indeed, been
surprised, as many a stronger man might have been, by the fury of
the assault upon him.
“You little bastard beggar!” he said,
“I’ll murder you for this!”
And indeed he was big enough.
“Bastard or not,” said the other, grinding his
teeth, “I have a couple of swords, and if you like to meet
me, as a man, on the terrace to-night—”
And here the Doctor coming up, the colloquy of the young
champions ended. Very likely, big as he was, Hawkshaw did not care
to continue a fight with such a ferocious opponent as this had
been.
Since my Lady Mary Wortley Montagu brought home the custom of
inoculation from Turkey (a perilous practice many deem it, and only
a useless rushing into the jaws of danger), I think the severity of
the small-pox, that dreadful scourge of the world, has somewhat
been abated in our part of it; and remember in my time hundreds of
the young and beautiful who have been carried to the grave, or have
only risen from their pillows frightfully scarred and disfigured by
this malady. Many a sweet face hath left its roses on the bed on
which this dreadful and withering blight has laid them. In my early
days, this pestilence would enter a village and destroy half its
inhabitants: at its approach, it may well be imagined, not only the
beautiful but the strongest were alarmed, and those fled who could.
One day in the year 1694 (I have good reason to remember it),
Doctor Tusher ran into Castlewood House, with a face of
consternation, saying that the malady had made its appearance at
the blacksmith’s house in the village, and that one of the
maids there was down in the small-pox.
The blacksmith, besides his forge and irons for horses, had an
ale-house for men, which his wife kept, and his company sat on
benches before the inn-door, looking at the smithy while they drank
their beer. Now, there was a pretty girl at this inn, the
landlord’s men called Nancy Sievewright, a bouncing,
fresh-looking lass, whose face was as red as the hollyhocks over
the pales of the garden behind the inn. At this time Harry Esmond
was a lad of sixteen, and somehow in his walks and rambles it often
happened that he fell in with Nancy Sievewright’s bonny face;
if he did not want something done at the blacksmith’s he
would go and drink ale at the “Three Castles,” or find
some pretext for seeing this poor Nancy. Poor thing, Harry meant or
imagined no harm; and she, no doubt, as little, but the truth is
they were always meeting—in the lanes, or by the brook, or at
the garden-palings, or about Castlewood: it was, “Lord, Mr.
Henry!” and “how do you do, Nancy?” many and many
a time in the week. ’Tis surprising the magnetic attraction
which draws people together from ever so far. I blush as I think of
poor Nancy now, in a red bodice and buxom purple cheeks and a
canvas petticoat; and that I devised schemes, and set traps, and
made speeches in my heart, which I seldom had courage to say when
in presence of that humble enchantress, who knew nothing beyond
milking a cow, and opened her black eyes with wonder when I made
one of my fine speeches out of Waller or Ovid. Poor Nancy! from the
midst of far-off years thine honest country face beams out; and I
remember thy kind voice as if I had heard it yesterday.
When Doctor Tusher brought the news that the small-pox was at
the “Three Castles,” whither a tramper, it was said,
had brought the malady, Henry Esmond’s first thought was of
alarm for poor Nancy, and then of shame and disquiet for the
Castlewood family, lest he might have brought this infection; for
the truth is that Mr. Harry had been sitting in a back room for an
hour that day, where Nancy Sievewright was with a little brother
who complained of headache, and was lying stupefied and crying,
either in a chair by the corner of the fire, or in Nancy’s
lap, or on mine.
Little Lady Beatrix screamed out at Dr. Tusher’s news; and
my lord cried out, “God bless me!” He was a brave man,
and not afraid of death in any shape but this. He was very proud of
his pink complexion and fair hair—but the idea of death by
small-pox scared him beyond all other ends. “We will take the
children and ride away tomorrow to Walcote:” this was my
lord’s small house, inherited from his mother, near to
Winchester.
“That is the best refuge in case the disease
spreads,” said Dr. Tusher. “’Tis awful to think
of it beginning at the ale-house; half the people of the village
have visited that today, or the blacksmith’s, which is the
same thing. My clerk Nahum lodges with them—I can never go
into my reading-desk and have that fellow so near me. I WON’T
have that man near me.”
“If a parishioner dying in the small-pox sent to you,
would you not go?” asked my lady, looking up from her frame
of work, with her calm blue eyes.
“By the Lord, I wouldn’t,” said my lord.
“We are not in a popish country; and a sick man doth not
absolutely need absolution and confession,” said the Doctor.
“’Tis true they are a comfort and a help to him when
attainable, and to be administered with hope of good. But in a case
where the life of a parish priest in the midst of his flock is
highly valuable to them, he is not called upon to risk it (and
therewith the lives, future prospects, and temporal, even spiritual
welfare of his own family) for the sake of a single person, who is
not very likely in a condition even to understand the religious
message whereof the priest is the bringer—being uneducated,
and likewise stupefied or delirious by disease. If your ladyship or
his lordship, my excellent good friend and patron, were to take it
. . .”
“God forbid!” cried my lord.
“Amen,” continued Dr. Tusher. “Amen to that
prayer, my very good lord! for your sake I would lay my life
down”—and, to judge from the alarmed look of the
Doctor’s purple face, you would have thought that that
sacrifice was about to be called for instantly.
To love children, and be gentle with them, was an instinct,
rather than a merit, in Henry Esmond; so much so, that he thought
almost with a sort of shame of his liking for them, and of the
softness into which it betrayed him; and on this day the poor
fellow had not only had his young friend, the milkmaid’s
brother, on his knee, but had been drawing pictures and telling
stories to the little Frank Castlewood, who had occupied the same
place for an hour after dinner, and was never tired of
Henry’s tales, and his pictures of soldiers and horses. As
luck would have it, Beatrix had not on that evening taken her usual
place, which generally she was glad enough to have, upon her
tutor’s lap. For Beatrix, from the earliest time, was jealous
of every caress which was given to her little brother Frank. She
would fling away even from the maternal arms, if she saw Frank had
been there before her; insomuch that Lady Esmond was obliged not to
show her love for her son in the presence of the little girl, and
embraced one or the other alone. She would turn pale and red with
rage if she caught signs of intelligence or affection between Frank
and his mother: would sit apart, and not speak for a whole night,
if she thought the boy had a better fruit or a larger cake than
hers; would fling away a ribbon if he had one; and from the
earliest age, sitting up in her little chair by the great fireplace
opposite to the corner where Lady Castlewood commonly sat at her
embroidery, would utter infantine sarcasms about the favor shown to
her brother. These, if spoken in the presence of Lord Castlewood,
tickled and amused his humor; he would pretend to love Frank best,
and dandle and kiss him, and roar with laughter at Beatrix’s
jealousy. But the truth is, my lord did not often witness these
scenes, nor very much trouble the quiet fireside at which his lady
passed many long evenings. My lord was hunting all day when the
season admitted; he frequented all the cock-fights and fairs in the
country, and would ride twenty miles to see a main fought, or two
clowns break their heads at a cudgelling-match; and he liked better
to sit in his parlor drinking ale and punch with Jack and Tom, than
in his wife’s drawing-room: whither, if he came, he brought
only too often bloodshot eyes, a hiccupping voice, and a reeling
gait. The management of the house, and the property, the care of
the few tenants and the village poor, and the accounts of the
estate, were in the hands of his lady and her young secretary,
Harry Esmond. My lord took charge of the stables, the kennel, and
the cellar—and he filled this and emptied it too.
So it chanced that upon this very day, when poor Harry Esmond
had had the blacksmith’s son, and the peer’s son, alike
upon his knee, little Beatrix, who would come to her tutor
willingly enough with her book and her writing, had refused him,
seeing the place occupied by her brother, and, luckily for her, had
sat at the further end of the room, away from him, playing with a
spaniel dog which she had, (and for which, by fits and starts, she
would take a great affection,) and talking at Harry Esmond over her
shoulder, as she pretended to caress the dog, saying that Fido
would love her, and she would love Fido, and nothing but Fido all
her life.
When, then, the news was brought that the little boy at the
“Three Castles” was ill with the small-pox, poor Harry
Esmond felt a shock of alarm, not so much for himself as for his
mistress’s son, whom he might have brought into peril.
Beatrix, who had pouted sufficiently, (and who, whenever a stranger
appeared, began, from infancy almost, to play off little graces to
catch his attention,) her brother being now gone to bed, was for
taking her place upon Esmond’s knee: for, though the Doctor
was very obsequious to her, she did not like him, because he had
thick boots and dirty hands (the pert young miss said), and because
she hated learning the catechism.
But as she advanced towards Esmond from the corner where she had
been sulking, he started back and placed the great chair on which
he was sitting between him and her—saying in the French
language to Lady Castlewood, with whom the young lad had read much,
and whom he had perfected in this tongue—“Madam, the
child must not approach me; I must tell you that I was at the
blacksmith’s today, and had his little boy upon my
lap.”
“Where you took my son afterwards,” Lady Castlewood
said, very angry, and turning red. “I thank you, sir, for
giving him such company. Beatrix,” she said in English,
“I forbid you to touch Mr. Esmond. Come away,
child—come to your room. Come to your room—I wish your
Reverence good-night—and you, sir, had you not better go back
to your friends at the ale-house?” her eyes, ordinarily so
kind, darted flashes of anger as she spoke; and she tossed up her
head (which hung down commonly) with the mien of a princess.
“Hey-day!” says my lord, who was standing by the
fireplace—indeed he was in the position to which he generally
came by that hour of the evening—“Hey-day! Rachel, what
are you in a passion about? Ladies ought never to be in a passion.
Ought they, Doctor Tusher? though it does good to see Rachel in a
passion—Damme, Lady Castlewood, you look dev’lish
handsome in a passion.”
“It is, my lord, because Mr. Henry Esmond, having nothing
to do with his time here, and not having a taste for our company,
has been to the ale-house, where he has SOME FRIENDS.”
My lord burst out, with a laugh and an oath—“You
young slyboots, you’ve been at Nancy Sievewright.
D—— the young hypocrite, who’d have thought it in
him? I say, Tusher, he’s been after—”
“Enough, my lord,” said my lady, “don’t
insult me with this talk.”
“Upon my word,” said poor Harry, ready to cry with
shame and mortification, “the honor of that young person is
perfectly unstained for me.”
“Oh, of course, of course,” says my lord, more and
more laughing and tipsy. “Upon his HONOR, Doctor—Nancy
Sieve— . . .”
“Take Mistress Beatrix to bed,” my lady cried at
this moment to Mrs. Tucker her woman, who came in with her
ladyship’s tea. “Put her into my room—no, into
yours,” she added quickly. “Go, my child: go, I say:
not a word!” And Beatrix, quite surprised at so sudden a tone
of authority from one who was seldom accustomed to raise her voice,
went out of the room with a scared countenance, and waited even to
burst out a-crying until she got to the door with Mrs. Tucker.
For once her mother took little heed of her sobbing, and
continued to speak eagerly—“My lord,” she said,
“this young man—your dependant—told me just now
in French—he was ashamed to speak in his own
language—that he had been at the ale-house all day, where he
has had that little wretch who is now ill of the small-pox on his
knee. And he comes home reeking from that place—yes, reeking
from it—and takes my boy into his lap without shame, and sits
down by me, yes, by ME. He may have killed Frank for what I
know—killed our child. Why was he brought in to disgrace our
house? Why is he here? Let him go—let him go, I say,
to-night, and pollute the place no more.”
She had never once uttered a syllable of unkindness to Harry
Esmond; and her cruel words smote the poor boy, so that he stood
for some moments bewildered with grief and rage at the injustice of
such a stab from such a hand. He turned quite white from red, which
he had been.
“I cannot help my birth, madam,” he said, “nor
my other misfortune. And as for your boy, if—if my coming
nigh to him pollutes him now, it was not so always. Good-night, my
lord. Heaven bless you and yours for your goodness to me. I have
tired her ladyship’s kindness out, and I will go;” and,
sinking down on his knee, Harry Esmond took the rough hand of his
benefactor and kissed it.
“He wants to go to the ale-house—let him go,”
cried my lady.
“I’m d—d if he shall,” said my lord.
“I didn’t think you could be so d—d ungrateful,
Rachel.”
Her reply was to burst into a flood of tears, and to quit the
room with a rapid glance at Harry Esmond,—as my lord, not
heeding them, and still in great good-humor, raised up his young
client from his kneeling posture (for a thousand kindnesses had
caused the lad to revere my lord as a father), and put his broad
hand on Harry Esmond’s shoulder.
“She was always so,” my lord said; “the very
notion of a woman drives her mad. I took to liquor on that very
account, by Jove, for no other reason than that; for she
can’t be jealous of a beer-barrel or a bottle of rum, can
she, Doctor? D—— it, look at the maids—just look
at the maids in the house” (my lord pronounced all the words
together—just-look-at-the-maze-inthe-house:
jever-see-such-maze?) “You wouldn’t take a wife out of
Castlewood now, would you, Doctor?” and my lord burst out
laughing.
The Doctor, who had been looking at my Lord Castlewood from
under his eyelids, said, “But joking apart, and, my lord, as
a divine, I cannot treat the subject in a jocular light, nor, as a
pastor of this congregation, look with anything but sorrow at the
idea of so very young a sheep going astray.”
“Sir,” said young Esmond, bursting out indignantly,
“she told me that you yourself were a horrid old man, and had
offered to kiss her in the dairy.”
“For shame, Henry,” cried Doctor Tusher, turning as
red as a turkey-cock, while my lord continued to roar with
laughter. “If you listen to the falsehoods of an abandoned
girl—”
“She is as honest as any woman in England, and as pure for
me,” cried out Henry, “and, as kind, and as good. For
shame on you to malign her!”
“Far be it from me to do so,” cried the Doctor.
“Heaven grant I may be mistaken in the girl, and in you, sir,
who have a truly PRECOCIOUS genius; but that is not the point at
issue at present. It appears that the small-pox broke out in the
little boy at the ‘Three Castles;’ that it was on him
when you visited the ale-house, for your OWN reasons; and that you
sat with the child for some time, and immediately afterwards with
my young lord.” The Doctor raised his voice as he spoke, and
looked towards my lady, who had now come back, looking very pale,
with a handkerchief in her hand.
“This is all very true, sir,” said Lady Esmond,
looking at the young man.
“’Tis to be feared that he may have brought the
infection with him.”
“From the ale-house—yes,” said my lady.
“D—— it, I forgot when I collared you,
boy,” cried my lord, stepping back. “Keep off, Harry my
boy; there’s no good in running into the wolf’s jaws,
you know.”
My lady looked at him with some surprise, and instantly
advancing to Henry Esmond, took his hand. “I beg your pardon,
Henry,” she said; “I spoke very unkindly. I have no
right to interfere with you—with your—”
My lord broke out into an oath. “Can’t you leave the
boy alone, my lady?” She looked a little red, and faintly
pressed the lad’s hand as she dropped it.
“There is no use, my lord,” she said; “Frank
was on his knee as he was making pictures, and was running
constantly from Henry to me. The evil is done, if any.”
“Not with me, damme,” cried my lord.
“I’ve been smoking,”—and he lighted his
pipe again with a coal—“and it keeps off infection; and
as the disease is in the village—plague take it—I would
have you leave it. We’ll go tomorrow to Walcote, my
lady.”
“I have no fear,” said my lady; “I may have
had it as an infant: it broke out in our house then; and when four
of my sisters had it at home, two years before our marriage, I
escaped it, and two of my dear sisters died.”
“I won’t run the risk,” said my lord;
“I’m as bold as any man, but I’ll not bear
that.”
“Take Beatrix with you and go,” said my lady.
“For us the mischief is done; and Tucker can wait upon us,
who has had the disease.”
“You take care to choose ’em ugly enough,”
said my lord, at which her ladyship hung down her head and looked
foolish: and my lord, calling away Tusher, bade him come to the oak
parlor and have a pipe. The Doctor made a low bow to her ladyship
(of which salaams he was profuse), and walked off on his creaking
square-toes after his patron.
When the lady and the young man were alone, there was a silence
of some moments, during which he stood at the fire, looking rather
vacantly at the dying embers, whilst her ladyship busied herself
with the tambour-frame and needles.
“I am sorry,” she said, after a pause, in a hard,
dry voice,—“I REPEAT I am sorry that I showed myself so
ungrateful for the safety of my son. It was not at all my wish that
you should leave us, I am sure, unless you found pleasure
elsewhere. But you must perceive, Mr. Esmond, that at your age, and
with your tastes, it is impossible that you can continue to stay
upon the intimate footing in which you have been in this family.
You have wished to go to the University, and I think ’tis
quite as well that you should be sent thither. I did not press this
matter, thinking you a child, as you are, indeed, in
years—quite a child; and I should never have thought of
treating you otherwise until—until these CIRCUMSTANCES came
to light. And I shall beg my lord to despatch you as quick as
possible: and will go on with Frank’s learning as well as I
can, (I owe my father thanks for a little grounding, and you,
I’m sure, for much that you have taught
me,)—and—and I wish you a good-night, Mr.
Esmond.”
And with this she dropped a stately curtsy, and, taking her
candle, went away through the tapestry door, which led to her
apartments. Esmond stood by the fireplace, blankly staring after
her. Indeed, he scarce seemed to see until she was gone; and then
her image was impressed upon him, and remained for ever fixed upon
his memory. He saw her retreating, the taper lighting up her marble
face, her scarlet lip quivering, and her shining golden hair. He
went to his own room, and to bed, where he tried to read, as his
custom was; but he never knew what he was reading until afterwards
he remembered the appearance of the letters of the book (it was in
Montaigne’s Essays), and the events of the day passed before
him—that is, of the last hour of the day; for as for the
morning, and the poor milkmaid yonder, he never so much as once
thought. And he could not get to sleep until daylight, and woke
with a violent headache, and quite unrefreshed.
He had brought the contagion with him from the “Three
Castles” sure enough, and was presently laid up with the
smallpox, which spared the hall no more than it did the
cottage.
When Harry Esmond passed through the crisis of that malady, and
returned to health again, he found that little Frank Esmond had
also suffered and rallied after the disease, and the lady his
mother was down with it, with a couple more of the household.
“It was a Providence, for which we all ought to be
thankful,” Doctor Tusher said, “that my lady and her
son were spared, while Death carried off the poor domestics of the
house;” and rebuked Harry for asking, in his simple way, For
which we ought to be thankful—that the servants were killed,
or the gentlefolks were saved? Nor could young Esmond agree in the
Doctor’s vehement protestations to my lady, when he visited
her during her convalescence, that the malady had not in the least
impaired her charms, and had not been churl enough to injure the
fair features of the Viscountess of Castlewood; whereas, in spite
of these fine speeches, Harry thought that her ladyship’s
beauty was very much injured by the small-pox. When the marks of
the disease cleared away, they did not, it is true, leave furrows
or scars on her face (except one, perhaps, on her forehead over her
left eyebrow); but the delicacy of her rosy color and complexion
was gone: her eyes had lost their brilliancy, her hair fell, and
her face looked older. It was as if a coarse hand had rubbed off
the delicate tints of that sweet picture, and brought it, as one
has seen unskilful painting-cleaners do, to the dead color. Also,
it must be owned, that for a year or two after the malady, her
ladyship’s nose was swollen and redder.
There would be no need to mention these trivialities, but that
they actually influenced many lives, as trifles will in the world,
where a gnat often plays a greater part than an elephant, and a
mole-hill, as we know in King William’s case, can upset an
empire. When Tusher in his courtly way (at which Harry Esmond
always chafed and spoke scornfully) vowed and protested that my
lady’s face was none the worse—the lad broke out and
said, “It IS worse and my mistress is not near so handsome as
she was;” on which poor Lady Castlewood gave a rueful smile,
and a look into a little Venice glass she had, which showed her, I
suppose, that what the stupid boy said was only too true, for she
turned away from the glass, and her eyes filled with tears.
The sight of these in Esmond’s heart always created a sort
of rage of pity, and seeing them on the face of the lady whom he
loved best, the young blunderer sank down on his knees, and
besought her to pardon him, saying that he was a fool and an idiot,
that he was a brute to make such a speech, he who had caused her
malady; and Doctor Tusher told him that a bear he was indeed, and a
bear he would remain, at which speech poor young Esmond was so
dumbstricken that he did not even growl.
“He is MY bear, and I will not have him baited,
Doctor,” my lady said, patting her hand kindly on the
boy’s head, as he was still kneeling at her feet. “How
your hair has come off! And mine, too,” she added with
another sigh.
“It is not for myself that I cared,” my lady said to
Harry, when the parson had taken his leave; “but AM I very
much changed? Alas! I fear ’tis too true.”
“Madam, you have the dearest, and kindest, and sweetest
face in the world, I think,” the lad said; and indeed he
thought and thinks so.
“Will my lord think so when he comes back?” the lady
asked with a sigh, and another look at her Venice glass.
“Suppose he should think as you do, sir, that I am
hideous—yes, you said hideous—he will cease to care for
me. ’Tis all men care for in women, our little beauty. Why
did he select me from among my sisters? ’Twas only for that.
We reign but for a day or two: and be sure that Vashti knew Esther
was coming.”
“Madam,” said Mr. Esmond, “Ahasuerus was the
Grand Turk, and to change was the manner of his country, and
according to his law.”
“You are all Grand Turks for that matter,” said my
lady, “or would be if you could. Come, Frank, come, my child.
You are well, praised be Heaven. YOUR locks are not thinned by this
dreadful small-pox: nor your poor face scarred—is it, my
angel?”
Frank began to shout and whimper at the idea of such a
misfortune. From the very earliest time the young lord had been
taught to admire his beauty by his mother: and esteemed it as
highly as any reigning toast valued hers.
One day, as he himself was recovering from his fever and
illness, a pang of something like shame shot across young
Esmond’s breast, as he remembered that he had never once
during his illness given a thought to the poor girl at the smithy,
whose red cheeks but a month ago he had been so eager to see. Poor
Nancy! her cheeks had shared the fate of roses, and were withered
now. She had taken the illness on the same day with
Esmond—she and her brother were both dead of the small-pox,
and buried under the Castlewood yew-trees. There was no bright face
looking now from the garden, or to cheer the old smith at his
lonely fireside. Esmond would have liked to have kissed her in her
shroud (like the lass in Mr. Prior’s pretty poem); but she
rested many a foot below the ground, when Esmond after his malady
first trod on it.
Doctor Tusher brought the news of this calamity, about which
Harry Esmond longed to ask, but did not like. He said almost the
whole village had been stricken with the pestilence; seventeen
persons were dead of it, among them mentioning the names of poor
Nancy and her little brother. He did not fail to say how thankful
we survivors ought to be. It being this man’s business to
flatter and make sermons, it must be owned he was most industrious
in it, and was doing the one or the other all day.
And so Nancy was gone; and Harry Esmond blushed that he had not
a single tear for her, and fell to composing an elegy in Latin
verses over the rustic little beauty. He bade the dryads mourn and
the river-nymphs deplore her. As her father followed the calling of
Vulcan, he said that surely she was like a daughter of Venus,
though Sievewright’s wife was an ugly shrew, as he remembered
to have heard afterwards. He made a long face, but, in truth, felt
scarcely more sorrowful than a mute at a funeral. These first
passions of men and women are mostly abortive; and are dead almost
before they are born. Esmond could repeat, to his last day, some of
the doggerel lines in which his muse bewailed his pretty lass; not
without shame to remember how bad the verses were, and how good he
thought them; how false the grief, and yet how he was rather proud
of it. ’Tis an error, surely, to talk of the simplicity of
youth. I think no persons are more hypocritical, and have a more
affected behavior to one another, than the young. They deceive
themselves and each other with artifices that do not impose upon
men of the world; and so we get to understand truth better, and
grow simpler as we grow older.
When my lady heard of the fate which had befallen poor Nancy,
she said nothing so long as Tusher was by, but when he was gone,
she took Harry Esmond’s hand and said—
“Harry, I beg your pardon for those cruel words I used on
the night you were taken ill. I am shocked at the fate of the poor
creature, and am sure that nothing had happened of that with which,
in my anger, I charged you. And the very first day we go out, you
must take me to the blacksmith, and we must see if there is
anything I can do to console the poor old man. Poor man! to lose
both his children! What should I do without mine?”
And this was, indeed, the very first walk which my lady took,
leaning on Esmond’s arm, after her illness. But her visit
brought no consolation to the old father; and he showed no
softness, or desire to speak. “The Lord gave and took
away,” he said; and he knew what His servant’s duty
was. He wanted for nothing—less now than ever before, as
there were fewer mouths to feed. He wished her ladyship and Master
Esmond good morning—he had grown tall in his illness, and was
but very little marked; and with this, and a surly bow, he went in
from the smithy to the house, leaving my lady, somewhat silenced
and shamefaced, at the door. He had a handsome stone put up for his
two children, which may be seen in Castlewood churchyard to this
very day; and before a year was out his own name was upon the
stone. In the presence of Death, that sovereign ruler, a
woman’s coquetry is seared; and her jealousy will hardly pass
the boundaries of that grim kingdom. ’Tis entirely of the
earth, that passion, and expires in the cold blue air, beyond our
sphere.
At length, when the danger was quite over, it was announced that
my lord and his daughter would return. Esmond well remembered the
day. The lady his mistress was in a flurry of fear: before my lord
came, she went into her room, and returned from it with reddened
cheeks. Her fate was about to be decided. Her beauty was
gone—was her reign, too, over? A minute would say. My lord
came riding over the bridge—he could be seen from the great
window, clad in scarlet, and mounted on his gray hackney—his
little daughter ambled by him in a bright riding-dress of blue, on
a shining chestnut horse. My lady leaned against the great
mantel-piece, looking on, with one hand on her heart—she
seemed only the more pale for those red marks on either cheek. She
put her handkerchief to her eyes, and withdrew it, laughing
hysterically—the cloth was quite red with the rouge when she
took it away. She ran to her room again, and came back with pale
cheeks and red eyes—her son in her hand—just as my lord
entered, accompanied by young Esmond, who had gone out to meet his
protector, and to hold his stirrup as he descended from
horseback.
“What, Harry, boy!” my lord said, good-naturedly,
“you look as gaunt as a greyhound. The small-pox hasn’t
improved your beauty, and your side of the house hadn’t never
too much of it—ho, ho!”
And he laughed, and sprang to the ground with no small agility,
looking handsome and red, within a jolly face and brown hair, like
a Beef-eater; Esmond kneeling again, as soon as his patron had
descended, performed his homage, and then went to greet the little
Beatrix, and help her from her horse.
“Fie! how yellow you look,” she said; “and
there are one, two, red holes in your face;” which, indeed,
was very true; Harry Esmond’s harsh countenance bearing, as
long as it continued to be a human face, the marks of the
disease.
My lord laughed again, in high good-humor.
“D—— it!” said he, with one of his usual
oaths, “the little slut sees everything. She saw the
Dowager’s paint t’other day, and asked her why she wore
that red stuff—didn’t you, Trix? and the Tower; and St.
James’s; and the play; and the Prince George, and the
Princess Anne—didn’t you, Trix?”
“They are both very fat, and smelt of brandy,” the
child said.
Papa roared with laughing.
“Brandy!” he said. “And how do you know, Miss
Pert?”
“Because your lordship smells of it after supper, when I
embrace you before you go to bed,” said the young lady, who,
indeed, was as pert as her father said, and looked as beautiful a
little gipsy as eyes ever gazed on.
“And now for my lady,” said my lord, going up the
stairs, and passing under the tapestry curtain that hung before the
drawing-room door. Esmond remembered that noble figure, handsomely
arrayed in scarlet. Within the last few months he himself had grown
from a boy to be a man, and with his figure his thoughts had shot
up, and grown manly.
My lady’s countenance, of which Harry Esmond was
accustomed to watch the changes, and with a solicitous affection to
note and interpret the signs of gladness or care, wore a sad and
depressed look for many weeks after her lord’s return: during
which it seemed as if, by caresses and entreaties, she strove to
win him back from some ill humor he had, and which he did not
choose to throw off. In her eagerness to please him she practised a
hundred of those arts which had formerly charmed him, but which
seemed now to have lost their potency. Her songs did not amuse him;
and she hushed them and the children when in his presence. My lord
sat silent at his dinner, drinking greatly, his lady opposite to
him, looking furtively at his face, though also speechless. Her
silence annoyed him as much as her speech; and he would peevishly,
and with an oath, ask her why she held her tongue and looked so
glum; or he would roughly check her when speaking, and bid her not
talk nonsense. It seemed as if, since his return, nothing she could
do or say could please him.
When a master and mistress are at strife in a house, the
subordinates in the family take the one side or the other. Harry
Esmond stood in so great fear of my lord, that he would run a
league barefoot to do a message for him; but his attachment for
Lady Esmond was such a passion of grateful regard, that to spare
her a grief, or to do her a service, he would have given his life
daily: and it was by the very depth and intensity of this regard
that he began to divine how unhappy his adored lady’s life
was, and that a secret care (for she never spoke of her anxieties)
was weighing upon her.
Can any one, who has passed through the world and watched the
nature of men and women there, doubt what had befallen her? I have
seen, to be sure, some people carry down with them into old age the
actual bloom of their youthful love, and I know that Mr. Thomas
Parr lived to be a hundred and sixty years old. But, for all that,
threescore and ten is the age of men, and few get beyond it; and
’tis certain that a man who marries for mere beaux yeux, as
my lord did, considers this part of the contract at an end when the
woman ceases to fulfil hers, and his love does not survive her
beauty. I know ’tis often otherwise, I say; and can think (as
most men in their own experience may) of many a house, where,
lighted in early years, the sainted lamp of love hath never been
extinguished; but so there is Mr. Parr, and so there is the great
giant at the fair that is eight feet high—exceptions to
men—and that poor lamp whereof I speak, that lights at first
the nuptial chamber, is extinguished by a hundred winds and
draughts down the chimney, or sputters out for want of feeding. And
then—and then it is Chloe, in the dark, stark awake, and
Strephon snoring unheeding; or vice versa, ’tis poor Strephon
that has married a heartless jilt, and awoke out of that absurd
vision of conjugal felicity, which was to last for ever, and is
over like any other dream. One and other has made his bed, and so
must lie in it, until that final day when life ends, and they sleep
separate.
About this time young Esmond, who had a knack of stringing
verses, turned some of Ovid’s Epistles into rhymes, and
brought them to his lady for her delectation. Those which treated
of forsaken women touched her immensely, Harry remarked; and when
Oenone called after Paris, and Medea bade Jason come back again,
the lady of Castlewood sighed, and said she thought that part of
the verses was the most pleasing. Indeed, she would have chopped up
the Dean, her old father, in order to bring her husband back again.
But her beautiful Jason was gone, as beautiful Jasons will go, and
the poor enchantress had never a spell to keep him.
My lord was only sulky as long as his wife’s anxious face
or behavior seemed to upbraid him. When she had got to master
these, and to show an outwardly cheerful countenance and behavior,
her husband’s good-humor returned partially, and he swore and
stormed no longer at dinner, but laughed sometimes, and yawned
unrestrainedly; absenting himself often from home, inviting more
company thither, passing the greater part of his days in the
hunting-field, or over the bottle as before; but with this
difference, that the poor wife could no longer see now, as she had
done formerly, the light of love kindled in his eyes. He was with
her, but that flame was out: and that once welcome beacon no more
shone there.
What were this lady’s feelings when forced to admit the
truth whereof her foreboding glass had given her only too true
warning, that within her beauty her reign had ended, and the days
of her love were over? What does a seaman do in a storm if mast and
rudder are carried away? He ships a jurymast, and steers as he best
can with an oar. What happens if your roof falls in a tempest?
After the first stun of the calamity the sufferer starts up, gropes
around to see that the children are safe, and puts them under a
shed out of the rain. If the palace burns down, you take shelter in
the barn. What man’s life is not overtaken by one or more of
these tornadoes that send us out of the course, and fling us on
rocks to shelter as best we may?
When Lady Castlewood found that her great ship had gone down,
she began as best she might after she had rallied from the effects
of the loss, to put out small ventures of happiness; and hope for
little gains and returns, as a merchant on ‘Change, indocilis
pauperiem pati, having lost his thousands, embarks a few guineas
upon the next ship. She laid out her all upon her children,
indulging them beyond all measure, as was inevitable with one of
her kindness of disposition; giving all her thoughts to their
welfare—learning, that she might teach them; and improving
her own many natural gifts and feminine accomplishments, that she
might impart them to her young ones. To be doing good for some one
else, is the life of most good women. They are exuberant of
kindness, as it were, and must impart it to some one. She made
herself a good scholar of French, Italian, and Latin, having been
grounded in these by her father in her youth; hiding these gifts
from her husband out of fear, perhaps, that they should offend him,
for my lord was no bookman—pish’d and psha’d at
the notion of learned ladies, and would have been angry that his
wife could construe out of a Latin book of which he could scarce
understand two words. Young Esmond was usher, or house tutor, under
her or over her, as it might happen. During my lord’s many
absences, these school-days would go on uninterruptedly: the mother
and daughter learning with surprising quickness; the latter by fits
and starts only, and as suited her wayward humor. As for the little
lord, it must be owned that he took after his father in the matter
of learning—liked marbles and play, and the great horse and
the little one which his father brought him, and on which he took
him out a-hunting, a great deal better than Corderius and Lily;
marshalled the village boys, and had a little court of them,
already flogging them, and domineering over them with a fine
imperious spirit, that made his father laugh when he beheld it, and
his mother fondly warn him. The cook had a son, the woodman had
two, the big lad at the porter’s lodge took his cuffs and his
orders. Doctor Tusher said he was a young nobleman of gallant
spirit; and Harry Esmond, who was his tutor, and eight years his
little lordship’s senior, had hard work sometimes to keep his
own temper, and hold his authority over his rebellious little chief
and kinsman.
In a couple of years after that calamity had befallen which had
robbed Lady Castlewood of a little—a very little—of her
beauty, and her careless husband’s heart (if the truth must
be told, my lady had found not only that her reign was over, but
that her successor was appointed, a Princess of a noble house in
Drury Lane somewhere, who was installed and visited by my lord at
the town eight miles off—pudet haec opprobria dicere
nobis)—a great change had taken place in her mind, which, by
struggles only known to herself, at least never mentioned to any
one, and unsuspected by the person who caused the pain she
endured—had been schooled into such a condition as she could
not very likely have imagined possible a score of months since,
before her misfortunes had begun.
She had oldened in that time as people do who suffer silently
great mental pain; and learned much that she had never suspected
before. She was taught by that bitter teacher Misfortune. A child
the mother of other children, but two years back her lord was a god
to her; his words her law; his smile her sunshine; his lazy
commonplaces listened to eagerly, as if they were words of
wisdom—all his wishes and freaks obeyed with a servile
devotion. She had been my lord’s chief slave and blind
worshipper. Some women bear farther than this, and submit not only
to neglect but to unfaithfulness too—but here this
lady’s allegiance had failed her. Her spirit rebelled, and
disowned any more obedience. First she had to bear in secret the
passion of losing the adored object; then to get further
initiation, and to find this worshipped being was but a clumsy
idol: then to admit the silent truth, that it was she was superior,
and not the monarch her master: that she had thoughts which his
brains could never master, and was the better of the two; quite
separate from my lord although tied to him, and bound, as almost
all people (save a very happy few), to work all her life alone. My
lord sat in his chair, laughing his laugh, cracking his joke, his
face flushing with wine—my lady in her place over against
him—he never suspecting that his superior was there, in the
calm resigned lady, cold of manner, with downcast eyes. When he was
merry in his cups, he would make jokes about her coldness, and,
“D—— it, now my lady is gone, we will have
t’other bottle,” he would say. He was frank enough in
telling his thoughts, such as they were. There was little mystery
about my lord’s words or actions. His Fair Rosamond did not
live in a Labyrinth, like the lady of Mr. Addison’s opera,
but paraded with painted cheeks and a tipsy retinue in the country
town. Had she a mind to be revenged, Lady Castlewood could have
found the way to her rival’s house easily enough; and, if she
had come with bowl and dagger, would have been routed off the
ground by the enemy with a volley of Billingsgate, which the fair
person always kept by her.
Meanwhile, it has been said, that for Harry Esmond his
benefactress’s sweet face had lost none of its charms. It had
always the kindest of looks and smiles for him—smiles, not so
gay and artless perhaps as those which Lady Castlewood had formerly
worn, when, a child herself, playing with her children, her
husband’s pleasure and authority were all she thought of; but
out of her griefs and cares, as will happen I think when these
trials fall upon a kindly heart, and are not too unbearable, grew
up a number of thoughts and excellences which had never come into
existence, had not her sorrow and misfortunes engendered them.
Sure, occasion is the father of most that is good in us. As you
have seen the awkward fingers and clumsy tools of a prisoner cut
and fashion the most delicate little pieces of carved work; or
achieve the most prodigious underground labors, and cut through
walls of masonry, and saw iron bars and fetters; ’tis
misfortune that awakens ingenuity, or fortitude, or endurance, in
hearts where these qualities had never come to life but for the
circumstance which gave them a being.
“’Twas after Jason left her, no doubt,” Lady
Castlewood once said with one of her smiles to young Esmond (who
was reading to her a version of certain lines out of Euripides),
“that Medea became a learned woman and a great
enchantress.”
“And she could conjure the stars out of heaven,” the
young tutor added, “but she could not bring Jason back
again.”
“What do you mean?” asked my lady, very angry.
“Indeed I mean nothing,” said the other, “save
what I’ve read in books. What should I know about such
matters? I have seen no woman save you and little Beatrix, and the
parson’s wife and my late mistress, and your ladyship’s
woman here.”
“The men who wrote your books,” says my lady,
“your Horaces, and Ovids, and Virgils, as far as I know of
them, all thought ill of us, as all the heroes they wrote about
used us basely. We were bred to be slaves always; and even of our
own times, as you are still the only lawgivers, I think our sermons
seem to say that the best woman is she who bears her master’s
chains most gracefully. ’Tis a pity there are no nunneries
permitted by our church: Beatrix and I would fly to one, and end
our days in peace there away from you.”
“And is there no slavery in a convent?” says
Esmond.
“At least if women are slaves there, no one sees
them,” answered the lady. “They don’t work in
street gangs with the public to jeer them: and if they suffer,
suffer in private. Here comes my lord home from hunting. Take away
the books. My lord does not love to see them. Lessons are over for
today, Mr. Tutor.” And with a curtsy and a smile she would
end this sort of colloquy.
Indeed “Mr. Tutor,” as my lady called Esmond, had
now business enough on his hands in Castlewood house. He had three
pupils, his lady and her two children, at whose lessons she would
always be present; besides writing my lord’s letters, and
arranging his accompts for him—when these could be got from
Esmond’s indolent patron.
Of the pupils the two young people were but lazy scholars, and
as my lady would admit no discipline such as was then in use, my
lord’s son only learned what he liked, which was but little,
and never to his life’s end could be got to construe more
than six lines of Virgil. Mistress Beatrix chattered French
prettily, from a very early age; and sang sweetly, but this was
from her mother’s teaching—not Harry Esmond’s,
who could scarce distinguish between “Green Sleeves”
and “Lillibullero;” although he had no greater delight
in life than to hear the ladies sing. He sees them now (will he
ever forget them?) as they used to sit together of the summer
evenings—the two golden heads over the page—the
child’s little hand, and the mother’s beating the time,
with their voices rising and falling in unison.
But if the children were careless, ’twas a wonder how
eagerly the mother learnt from her young tutor—and taught him
too. The happiest instinctive faculty was this lady’s—a
faculty for discerning latent beauties and hidden graces of books,
especially books of poetry, as in a walk she would spy out
field-flowers and make posies of them, such as no other hand could.
She was a critic, not by reason but by feeling; the sweetest
commentator of those books they read together; and the happiest
hours of young Esmond’s life, perhaps, were those passed in
the company of this kind mistress and her children.
These happy days were to end soon, however; and it was by the
Lady Castlewood’s own decree that they were brought to a
conclusion. It happened about Christmas-time, Harry Esmond being
now past sixteen years of age, that his old comrade, adversary, and
friend, Tom Tusher, returned from his school in London, a fair,
well-grown, and sturdy lad, who was about to enter college, with an
exhibition from his school, and a prospect of after promotion in
the church. Tom Tusher’s talk was of nothing but Cambridge
now; and the boys, who were good friends, examined each other
eagerly about their progress in books. Tom had learned some Greek
and Hebrew, besides Latin, in which he was pretty well skilled, and
also had given himself to mathematical studies under his
father’s guidance, who was a proficient in those sciences, of
which Esmond knew nothing; nor could he write Latin so well as Tom,
though he could talk it better, having been taught by his dear
friend the Jesuit Father, for whose memory the lad ever retained
the warmest affection, reading his books, keeping his swords clean
in the little crypt where the Father had shown them to Esmond on
the night of his visit; and often of a night sitting in the
chaplain’s room, which he inhabited, over his books, his
verses, and rubbish, with which the lad occupied himself, he would
look up at the window, thinking he wished it might open and let in
the good Father. He had come and passed away like a dream; but for
the swords and books Harry might almost think the Father was an
imagination of his mind—and for two letters which had come to
him, one from abroad, full of advice and affection, another soon
after he had been confirmed by the Bishop of Hexton, in which
Father Holt deplored his falling away. But Harry Esmond felt so
confident now of his being in the right, and of his own powers as a
casuist, that he thought he was able to face the Father himself in
argument, and possibly convert him.
To work upon the faith of her young pupil, Esmond’s kind
mistress sent to the library of her father the Dean, who had been
distinguished in the disputes of the late king’s reign; and,
an old soldier now, had hung up his weapons of controversy. These
he took down from his shelves willingly for young Esmond, whom he
benefited by his own personal advice and instruction. It did not
require much persuasion to induce the boy to worship with his
beloved mistress. And the good old nonjuring Dean flattered himself
with a conversion which, in truth, was owing to a much gentler and
fairer persuader.
Under her ladyship’s kind eyes (my lord’s being
sealed in sleep pretty generally), Esmond read many volumes of the
works of the famous British Divines of the last age, and was
familiar with Wake and Sherlock, with Stillingfleet and Patrick.
His mistress never tired to listen or to read, to pursue the texts
with fond comments, to urge those points which her fancy dwelt on
most, or her reason deemed most important. Since the death of her
father the Dean, this lady hath admitted a certain latitude of
theological reading which her orthodox father would never have
allowed; his favorite writers appealing more to reason and
antiquity than to the passions or imaginations of their readers, so
that the works of Bishop Taylor, nay, those of Mr. Baxter and Mr.
Law, have in reality found more favor with my Lady Castlewood than
the severer volumes of our great English schoolmen.
In later life, at the University, Esmond reopened the
controversy, and pursued it in a very different manner, when his
patrons had determined for him that he was to embrace the
ecclesiastical life. But though his mistress’s heart was in
this calling, his own never was much. After that first fervor of
simple devotion, which his beloved Jesuit priest had inspired in
him, speculative theology took but little hold upon the young
man’s mind. When his early credulity was disturbed, and his
saints and virgins taken out of his worship, to rank little higher
than the divinities of Olympus, his belief became acquiescence
rather than ardor; and he made his mind up to assume the cassock
and bands, as another man does to wear a breastplate and
jack-boots, or to mount a merchant’s desk, for a livelihood,
and from obedience and necessity, rather than from choice. There
were scores of such men in Mr. Esmond’s time at the
universities, who were going to the church with no better calling
than his.
When Thomas Tusher was gone, a feeling of no small depression
and disquiet fell upon young Esmond, of which, though he did not
complain, his kind mistress must have divined the cause: for soon
after she showed not only that she understood the reason of
Harry’s melancholy, but could provide a remedy for it. Her
habit was thus to watch, unobservedly, those to whom duty or
affection bound her, and to prevent their designs, or to fulfil
them, when she had the power. It was this lady’s disposition
to think kindnesses, and devise silent bounties and to scheme
benevolence, for those about her. We take such goodness, for the
most part, as if it was our due; the Marys who bring ointment for
our feet get but little thanks. Some of us never feel this devotion
at all, or are moved by it to gratitude or acknowledgment; others
only recall it years after, when the days are past in which those
sweet kindnesses were spent on us, and we offer back our return for
the debt by a poor tardy payment of tears. Then forgotten tones of
love recur to us, and kind glances shine out of the past—oh
so bright and clear!—oh so longed after!—because they
are out of reach; as holiday music from withinside a prison
wall—or sunshine seen through the bars; more prized because
unattainable—more bright because of the contrast of present
darkness and solitude, whence there is no escape.
All the notice, then, which Lady Castlewood seemed to take of
Harry Esmond’s melancholy, upon Tom Tusher’s departure,
was, by a gayety unusual to her, to attempt to dispel his gloom.
She made his three scholars (herself being the chief one) more
cheerful than ever they had been before, and more docile, too, all
of them learning and reading much more than they had been
accustomed to do. “For who knows,” said the lady,
“what may happen, and whether we may be able to keep such a
learned tutor long?”
Frank Esmond said he for his part did not want to learn any
more, and cousin Harry might shut up his book whenever he liked, if
he would come out a-fishing; and little Beatrix declared she would
send for Tom Tusher, and HE would be glad enough to come to
Castlewood, if Harry chose to go away.
At last comes a messenger from Winchester one day, bearer of a
letter, with a great black seal, from the Dean there, to say that
his sister was dead, and had left her fortune of £2,000. among her
six nieces, the Dean’s daughters; and many a time since has
Harry Esmond recalled the flushed face and eager look wherewith,
after this intelligence, his kind lady regarded him. She did not
pretend to any grief about the deceased relative, from whom she and
her family had been many years parted.
When my lord heard of the news, he also did not make any very
long face. “The money will come very handy to furnish the
music-room and the cellar, which is getting low, and buy your
ladyship a coach and a couple of horses that will do indifferent to
ride or for the coach. And, Beatrix, you shall have a spinnet: and,
Frank, you shall have a little horse from Hexton Fair; and, Harry,
you shall have five pounds to buy some books,” said my lord,
who was generous with his own, and indeed with other folk’s
money. “I wish your aunt would die once a year, Rachel; we
could spend your money, and all your sisters’,
too.”
“I have but one aunt—and—and I have another
use for the money, my lord,” says my lady, turning very
red.
“Another use, my dear; and what do you know about
money?” cries my lord. “And what the devil is there
that I don’t give you which you want!”
“I intend to give this money—can’t you fancy
how, my lord?”
My lord swore one of his large oaths that he did not know in the
least what she meant.
“I intend it for Harry Esmond to go to college. Cousin
Harry,” says my lady, “you mustn’t stay longer in
this dull place, but make a name to yourself, and for us too,
Harry.”
“D—n it, Harry’s well enough here,” says
my lord, for a moment looking rather sulky.
“Is Harry going away? You don’t mean to say you will
go away?” cry out Frank and Beatrix at one breath.
“But he will come back: and this will always be his
home,” cries my lady, with blue eyes looking a celestial
kindness: “and his scholars will always love him; won’t
they?”
“By G-d, Rachel, you’re a good woman!” says my
lord, seizing my lady’s hand, at which she blushed very much,
and shrank back, putting her children before her. “I wish you
joy, my kinsman,” he continued, giving Harry Esmond a hearty
slap on the shoulder. “I won’t balk your luck. Go to
Cambridge, boy, and when Tusher dies you shall have the living
here, if you are not better provided by that time. We’ll
furnish the dining-room and buy the horses another year. I’ll
give thee a nag out of the stable: take any one except my hack and
the bay gelding and the coach-horses; and God speed thee, my
boy!”
“Have the sorrel, Harry; ’tis a good one. Father
says ’tis the best in the stable,” says little Frank,
clapping his hands, and jumping up. “Let’s come and see
him in the stable.” And the other, in his delight and
eagerness, was for leaving the room that instant to arrange about
his journey.
The Lady Castlewood looked after him with sad penetrating
glances. “He wishes to be gone already, my lord,” said
she to her husband.
The young man hung back abashed. “Indeed, I would stay for
ever, if your ladyship bade me,” he said.
“And thou wouldst be a fool for thy pains, kinsman,”
said my lord. “Tut, tut, man. Go and see the world. Sow thy
wild oats; and take the best luck that Fate sends thee. I wish I
were a boy again, that I might go to college, and taste the
Trumpington ale.”
“Ours, indeed, is but a dull home,” cries my lady,
with a little of sadness and, maybe, of satire, in her voice:
“an old glum house, half ruined, and the rest only half
furnished; a woman and two children are but poor company for men
that are accustomed to better. We are only fit to be your
worship’s handmaids, and your pleasures must of necessity lie
elsewhere than at home.”
“Curse me, Rachel, if I know now whether thou art in
earnest or not,” said my lord.
“In earnest, my lord!” says she, still clinging by
one of her children. “Is there much subject here for
joke?” And she made him a grand curtsy, and, giving a stately
look to Harry Esmond, which seemed to say, “Remember; you
understand me, though he does not,” she left the room with
her children.
“Since she found out that confounded Hexton
business,” my lord said—“and be hanged to them
that told her!—she has not been the same woman. She, who used
to be as humble as a milkmaid, is as proud as a princess,”
says my lord. “Take my counsel, Harry Esmond, and keep clear
of women. Since I have had anything to do with the jades, they have
given me nothing but disgust. I had a wife at Tangier, with whom,
as she couldn’t speak a word of my language, you’d have
thought I might lead a quiet life. But she tried to poison me,
because she was jealous of a Jew girl. There was your aunt, for
aunt she is—aunt Jezebel, a pretty life your father led with
HER! and here’s my lady. When I saw her on a pillion, riding
behind the Dean her father, she looked and was such a baby, that a
sixpenny doll might have pleased her. And now you see what she
is—hands off, highty-tighty, high and mighty, an empress
couldn’t be grander. Pass us the tankard, Harry my boy. A mug
of beer and a toast at morn, says my host. A toast and a mug of
beer at noon, says my dear. D—n it, Polly loves a mug of ale,
too, and laced with brandy, by Jove!” Indeed, I suppose they
drank it together; for my lord was often thick in his speech at
mid-day dinner; and at night at supper, speechless altogether.
Harry Esmond’s departure resolved upon, it seemed as if
the Lady Castlewood, too, rejoiced to lose him; for more than once,
when the lad, ashamed perhaps at his own secret eagerness to go
away (at any rate stricken with sadness at the idea of leaving
those from whom he had received so many proofs of love and kindness
inestimable), tried to express to his mistress his sense of
gratitude to her, and his sorrow at quitting those who had so
sheltered and tended a nameless and houseless orphan, Lady
Castlewood cut short his protests of love and his lamentations, and
would hear of no grief, but only look forward to Harry’s fame
and prospects in life. “Our little legacy will keep you for
four years like a gentleman. Heaven’s Providence, your own
genius, industry, honor, must do the rest for you. Castlewood will
always be a home for you; and these children, whom you have taught
and loved, will not forget to love you. And, Harry,” said she
(and this was the only time when she spoke with a tear in her eye,
or a tremor in her voice), “it may happen in the course of
nature that I shall be called away from them: and their
father—and—and they will need true friends and
protectors. Promise me that you will be true to
them—as—as I think I have been to you—and a
mother’s fond prayer and blessing go with you.”
“So help me God, madam, I will,” said Harry Esmond,
falling on his knees, and kissing the hand of his dearest mistress.
“If you will have me stay now, I will. What matters whether
or no I make my way in life, or whether a poor bastard dies as
unknown as he is now? ’Tis enough that I have your love and
kindness surely; and to make you happy is duty enough for
me.”
“Happy!” says she; “but indeed I ought to be,
with my children, and—”
“Not happy!” cried Esmond (for he knew what her life
was, though he and his mistress never spoke a word concerning it).
“If not happiness, it may be ease. Let me stay and work for
you—let me stay and be your servant.”
“Indeed, you are best away,” said my lady, laughing,
as she put her hand on the boy’s head for a moment.
“You shall stay in no such dull place. You shall go to
college and distinguish yourself as becomes your name. That is how
you shall please me best; and—and if my children want you, or
I want you, you shall come to us; and I know we may count on
you.”
“May heaven forsake me if you may not!” Harry said,
getting up from his knee.
“And my knight longs for a dragon this instant that he may
fight,” said my lady, laughing; which speech made Harry
Esmond start, and turn red; for indeed the very thought was in his
mind, that he would like that some chance should immediately happen
whereby he might show his devotion. And it pleased him to think
that his lady had called him “her knight,” and often
and often he recalled this to his mind, and prayed that he might be
her true knight, too.
My lady’s bed-chamber window looked out over the country,
and you could see from it the purple hills beyond Castlewood
village, the green common betwixt that and the Hall, and the old
bridge which crossed over the river. When Harry Esmond went away
for Cambridge, little Frank ran alongside his horse as far as the
bridge, and there Harry stopped for a moment, and looked back at
the house where the best part of his life had been passed. It lay
before him with its gray familiar towers, a pinnacle or two shining
in the sun, the buttresses and terrace walls casting great blue
shades on the grass. And Harry remembered, all his life after, how
he saw his mistress at the window looking out on him in a white
robe, the little Beatrix’s chestnut curls resting at her
mother’s side. Both waved a farewell to him, and little Frank
sobbed to leave him. Yes, he WOULD be his lady’s true knight,
he vowed in his heart; he waved her an adieu with his hat. The
village people had Good-by to say to him too. All knew that Master
Harry was going to college, and most of them had a kind word and a
look of farewell. I do not stop to say what adventures he began to
imagine, or what career to devise for himself before he had ridden
three miles from home. He had not read Monsieur Galland’s
ingenious Arabian tales as yet; but be sure that there are other
folks who build castles in the air, and have fine hopes, and kick
them down too, besides honest Alnaschar.
Mr lord, who said he should like to revisit the old haunts of
his youth, kindly accompanied Harry Esmond in his first journey to
Cambridge. Their road lay through London, where my Lord Viscount
would also have Harry stay a few days to show him the pleasures of
the town before he entered upon his university studies, and whilst
here Harry’s patron conducted the young man to my Lady
Dowager’s house at Chelsey near London: the kind lady at
Castlewood having specially ordered that the young gentleman and
the old should pay a respectful visit in that quarter.
Her ladyship the Viscountess Dowager occupied a handsome new
house in Chelsey, with a garden behind it, and facing the river,
always a bright and animated sight with its swarms of sailors,
barges, and wherries. Harry laughed at recognizing in the parlor
the well-remembered old piece of Sir Peter Lely, wherein his
father’s widow was represented as a virgin huntress, armed
with a gilt bow-and-arrow, and encumbered only with that small
quantity of drapery which it would seem the virgins in King
Charles’s day were accustomed to wear.
My Lady Dowager had left off this peculiar habit of huntress
when she married. But though she was now considerably past sixty
years of age, I believe she thought that airy nymph of the picture
could still be easily recognized in the venerable personage who
gave an audience to Harry and his patron.
She received the young man with even more favor than she showed
to the elder, for she chose to carry on the conversation in French,
in which my Lord Castlewood was no great proficient, and expressed
her satisfaction at finding that Mr. Esmond could speak fluently in
that language. “’Twas the only one fit for polite
conversation,” she condescended to say, “and suitable
to persons of high breeding.”
My lord laughed afterwards, as the gentlemen went away, at his
kinswoman’s behavior. He said he remembered the time when she
could speak English fast enough, and joked in his jolly way at the
loss he had had of such a lovely wife as that.
My Lady Viscountess deigned to ask his lordship news of his wife
and children; she had heard that Lady Castlewood had had the
small-pox; she hoped she was not so VERY much disfigured as people
said.
At this remark about his wife’s malady, my Lord Viscount
winced and turned red; but the Dowager, in speaking of the
disfigurement of the young lady, turned to her looking-glass and
examined her old wrinkled countenance in it with such a grin of
satisfaction, that it was all her guests could do to refrain from
laughing in her ancient face.
She asked Harry what his profession was to be; and my lord,
saying that the lad was to take orders, and have the living of
Castlewood when old Dr. Tusher vacated it, she did not seem to show
any particular anger at the notion of Harry’s becoming a
Church of England clergyman, nay, was rather glad than otherwise,
that the youth should be so provided for. She bade Mr. Esmond not
to forget to pay her a visit whenever he passed through London, and
carried her graciousness so far as to send a purse with twenty
guineas for him, to the tavern at which my lord put up (the
“Greyhound,” in Charing Cross); and, along with this
welcome gift for her kinsman, she sent a little doll for a present
to my lord’s little daughter Beatrix, who was growing beyond
the age of dolls by this time, and was as tall almost as her
venerable relative.
After seeing the town, and going to the plays, my Lord
Castlewood and Esmond rode together to Cambridge, spending two
pleasant days upon the journey. Those rapid new coaches were not
established, as yet, that performed the whole journey between
London and the University in a single day; however, the road was
pleasant and short enough to Harry Esmond, and he always gratefully
remembered that happy holiday which his kind patron gave him.
Mr. Esmond was entered a pensioner of Trinity College in
Cambridge, to which famous college my lord had also in his youth
belonged. Dr. Montague was master at this time, and received my
Lord Viscount with great politeness: so did Mr. Bridge, who was
appointed to be Harry’s tutor. Tom Tusher, who was of Emanuel
College, and was by this time a junior soph, came to wait upon my
lord, and to take Harry under his protection; and comfortable rooms
being provided for him in the great court close by the gate, and
near to the famous Mr. Newton’s lodgings, Harry’s
patron took leave of him with many kind words and blessings, and an
admonition to him to behave better at the University than my lord
himself had ever done.
’Tis needless in these memoirs to go at any length into
the particulars of Harry Esmond’s college career. It was like
that of a hundred young gentlemen of that day. But he had the ill
fortune to be older by a couple of years than most of his
fellow-students; and by his previous solitary mode of bringing up,
the circumstances of his life, and the peculiar thoughtfulness and
melancholy that had naturally engendered, he was, in a great
measure, cut off from the society of comrades who were much younger
and higher-spirited than he. His tutor, who had bowed down to the
ground, as he walked my lord over the college grass-plats, changed
his behavior as soon as the nobleman’s back was turned, and
was—at least Harry thought so—harsh and overbearing.
When the lads used to assemble in their greges in hall, Harry found
himself alone in the midst of that little flock of boys; they
raised a great laugh at him when he was set on to read Latin, which
he did with the foreign pronunciation taught to him by his old
master, the Jesuit, than which he knew no other. Mr. Bridge, the
tutor, made him the object of clumsy jokes, in which he was fond of
indulging. The young man’s spirit was chafed, and his vanity
mortified; and he found himself, for some time, as lonely in this
place as ever he had been at Castlewood, whither he longed to
return. His birth was a source of shame to him, and he fancied a
hundred slights and sneers from young and old, who, no doubt, had
treated him better had he met them himself more frankly. And as he
looks back, in calmer days, upon this period of his life, which he
thought so unhappy, he can see that his own pride and vanity caused
no small part of the mortifications which he attributed to
other’s ill will. The world deals good-naturedly with
good-natured people, and I never knew a sulky misanthropist who
quarrelled with it, but it was he, and not it, that was in the
wrong. Tom Tusher gave Harry plenty of good advice on this subject,
for Tom had both good sense and good humor; but Mr. Harry chose to
treat his senior with a great deal of superfluous disdain and
absurd scorn, and would by no means part from his darling injuries,
in which, very likely, no man believed but himself. As for honest
Doctor Bridge, the tutor found, after a few trials of wit with the
pupil, that the young man was an ugly subject for wit, and that the
laugh was often turned against him. This did not make tutor and
pupil any better friends; but had, so far, an advantage for Esmond,
that Mr. Bridge was induced to leave him alone; and so long as he
kept his chapels, and did the college exercises required of him,
Bridge was content not to see Harry’s glum face in his class,
and to leave him to read and sulk for himself in his own
chamber.
A poem or two in Latin and English, which were pronounced to
have some merit, and a Latin oration, (for Mr. Esmond could write
that language better than pronounce it,) got him a little
reputation both with the authorities of the University and amongst
the young men, with whom he began to pass for more than he was
worth. A few victories over their common enemy, Mr. Bridge, made
them incline towards him, and look upon him as the champion of
their order against the seniors. Such of the lads as he took into
his confidence found him not so gloomy and haughty as his
appearance led them to believe; and Don Dismallo, as he was called,
became presently a person of some little importance in his college,
and was, as he believes, set down by the seniors there as rather a
dangerous character.
Don Dismallo was a staunch young Jacobite, like the rest of his
family; gave himself many absurd airs of loyalty; used to invite
young friends to Burgundy, and give the King’s health on King
James’s birthday; wore black on the day of his abdication;
fasted on the anniversary of King William’s coronation; and
performed a thousand absurd antics, of which he smiles now to
think.
These follies caused many remonstrances on Tom Tusher’s
part, who was always a friend to the powers that be, as Esmond was
always in opposition to them. Tom was a Whig, while Esmond was a
Tory. Tom never missed a lecture, and capped the proctor with the
profoundest of bows. No wonder he sighed over Harry’s
insubordinate courses, and was angry when the others laughed at
him. But that Harry was known to have my Lord Viscount’s
protection, Tom no doubt would have broken with him altogether. But
honest Tom never gave up a comrade as long as he was the friend of
a great man. This was not out of scheming on Tom’s part, but
a natural inclination towards the great. ’Twas no hypocrisy
in him to flatter, but the bent of his mind, which was always
perfectly good-humored, obliging, and servile.
Harry had very liberal allowances, for his dear mistress of
Castlewood not only regularly supplied him, but the Dowager of
Chelsey made her donation annual, and received Esmond at her house
near London every Christmas; but, in spite of these benefactions,
Esmond was constantly poor; whilst ’twas a wonder with how
small a stipend from his father Tom Tusher contrived to make a good
figure. ’Tis true that Harry both spent, gave, and lent his
money very freely, which Thomas never did. I think he was like the
famous Duke of Marlborough in this instance, who, getting a present
of fifty pieces, when a young man, from some foolish woman who fell
in love with his good looks, showed the money to Cadogan in a
drawer scores of years after, where it had lain ever since he had
sold his beardless honor to procure it. I do not mean to say that
Tom ever let out his good looks so profitably, for nature had not
endowed him with any particular charms of person, and he ever was a
pattern of moral behavior, losing no opportunity of giving the very
best advice to his younger comrade; with which article, to do him
justice, he parted very freely. Not but that he was a merry fellow,
too, in his way; he loved a joke, if by good fortune he understood
it, and took his share generously of a bottle if another paid for
it, and especially if there was a young lord in company to drink
it. In these cases there was not a harder drinker in the University
than Mr. Tusher could be; and it was edifying to behold him, fresh
shaved and with smug face, singing out “Amen!” at early
chapel in the morning. In his reading, poor Harry permitted himself
to go a-gadding after all the Nine Muses, and so very likely had
but little favor from any one of them; whereas Tom Tusher, who had
no more turn for poetry than a ploughboy, nevertheless, by a dogged
perseverance and obsequiousness in courting the divine Calliope,
got himself a prize, and some credit in the University, and a
fellowship at his college, as a reward for his scholarship. In this
time of Mr. Esmond’s life, he got the little reading which he
ever could boast of, and passed a good part of his days greedily
devouring all the books on which he could lay hand. In this
desultory way the works of most of the English, French, and Italian
poets came under his eyes, and he had a smattering of the Spanish
tongue likewise, besides the ancient languages, of which, at least
of Latin, he was a tolerable master.
Then, about midway in his University career, he fell to reading
for the profession to which worldly prudence rather than
inclination called him, and was perfectly bewildered in theological
controversy. In the course of his reading (which was neither
pursued with that seriousness or that devout mind which such a
study requires) the youth found himself at the end of one month a
Papist, and was about to proclaim his faith; the next month a
Protestant, with Chillingworth; and the third a sceptic, with
Hobbes and Bayle. Whereas honest Tom Tusher never permitted his
mind to stray out of the prescribed University path, accepted the
Thirty-nine Articles with all his heart, and would have signed and
sworn to other nine-and-thirty with entire obedience. Harry’s
wilfulness in this matter, and disorderly thoughts and
conversation, so shocked and afflicted his senior, that there grew
up a coldness and estrangement between them, so that they became
scarce more than mere acquaintances, from having been intimate
friends when they came to college first. Politics ran high, too, at
the University; and here, also, the young men were at variance. Tom
professed himself, albeit a high-churchman, a strong King
William’s-man; whereas Harry brought his family Tory politics
to college with him, to which he must add a dangerous admiration
for Oliver Cromwell, whose side, or King James’s by turns, he
often chose to take in the disputes which the young gentlemen used
to hold in each other’s rooms, where they debated on the
state of the nation, crowned and deposed kings, and toasted past
and present heroes and beauties in flagons of college ale.
Thus, either from the circumstances of his birth, or the natural
melancholy of his disposition, Esmond came to live very much by
himself during his stay at the University, having neither ambition
enough to distinguish himself in the college career, nor caring to
mingle with the mere pleasures and boyish frolics of the students,
who were, for the most part, two or three years younger than he. He
fancied that the gentlemen of the common-room of his college
slighted him on account of his birth, and hence kept aloof from
their society. It may be that he made the ill will, which he
imagined came from them, by his own behavior, which, as he looks
back on it in after life, he now sees was morose and haughty. At
any rate, he was as tenderly grateful for kindness as he was
susceptible of slight and wrong; and, lonely as he was generally,
yet had one or two very warm friendships for his companions of
those days.
One of these was a queer gentleman that resided in the
University, though he was no member of it, and was the professor of
a science scarce recognized in the common course of college
education. This was a French refugee-officer, who had been driven
out of his native country at the time of the Protestant
persecutions there, and who came to Cambridge, where he taught the
science of the small-sword, and set up a saloon-of-arms. Though he
declared himself a Protestant, ’twas said Mr. Moreau was a
Jesuit in disguise; indeed, he brought very strong recommendations
to the Tory party, which was pretty strong in that University, and
very likely was one of the many agents whom King James had in this
country. Esmond found this gentleman’s conversation very much
more agreeable and to his taste than the talk of the college
divines in the common-room; he never wearied of Moreau’s
stories of the wars of Turenne and Conde, in which he had borne a
part; and being familiar with the French tongue from his youth, and
in a place where but few spoke it, his company became very
agreeable to the brave old professor of arms, whose favorite pupil
he was, and who made Mr. Esmond a very tolerable proficient in the
noble science of escrime.
At the next term Esmond was to take his degree of Bachelor of
Arts, and afterwards, in proper season, to assume the cassock and
bands which his fond mistress would have him wear. Tom Tusher
himself was a parson and a fellow of his college by this time; and
Harry felt that he would very gladly cede his right to the living
of Castlewood to Tom, and that his own calling was in no way to the
pulpit. But as he was bound, before all things in the world, to his
dear mistress at home, and knew that a refusal on his part would
grieve her, he determined to give her no hint of his unwillingness
to the clerical office: and it was in this unsatisfactory mood of
mind that he went to spend the last vacation he should have at
Castlewood before he took orders.
At his third long vacation, Esmond came as usual to Castlewood,
always feeling an eager thrill of pleasure when he found himself
once more in the house where he had passed so many years, and
beheld the kind familiar eyes of his mistress looking upon him. She
and her children (out of whose company she scarce ever saw him)
came to greet him. Miss Beatrix was grown so tall that Harry did
not quite know whether he might kiss her or no; and she blushed and
held back when he offered that salutation, though she took it, and
even courted it, when they were alone. The young lord was shooting
up to be like his gallant father in look, though with his
mother’s kind eyes: the lady of Castlewood herself seemed
grown, too, since Harry saw her—in her look more stately, in
her person fuller, in her face still as ever most tender and
friendly, a greater air of command and decision than had appeared
in that guileless sweet countenance which Harry remembered so
gratefully. The tone of her voice was so much deeper and sadder
when she spoke and welcomed him, that it quite startled Esmond, who
looked up at her surprised as she spoke, when she withdrew her eyes
from him; nor did she ever look at him afterwards when his own eyes
were gazing upon her. A something hinting at grief and secret, and
filling his mind with alarm undefinable, seemed to speak with that
low thrilling voice of hers, and look out of those clear sad eyes.
Her greeting to Esmond was so cold that it almost pained the lad,
(who would have liked to fall on his knees, and kiss the skirt of
her robe, so fond and ardent was his respect and regard for her,)
and he faltered in answering the questions which she, hesitating on
her side, began to put to him. Was he happy at Cambridge? Did he
study too hard? She hoped not. He had grown very tall, and looked
very well.
“He has got a moustache!” cries out Master
Esmond.
“Why does he not wear a peruke like my Lord Mohun?”
asked Miss Beatrix. “My lord says that nobody wears their own
hair.”
“I believe you will have to occupy your old
chamber,” says my lady. “I hope the housekeeper has got
it ready.”
“Why, mamma, you have been there ten times these three
days yourself!” exclaims Frank.
“And she cut some flowers which you planted in my
garden—do you remember, ever so many years ago? when I was
quite a little girl,” cries out Miss Beatrix, on tiptoe.
“And mamma put them in your window.”
“I remember when you grew well after you were ill that you
used to like roses,” said the lady, blushing like one of
them. They all conducted Harry Esmond to his chamber; the children
running before, Harry walking by his mistress hand-inhand.
The old room had been ornamented and beautified not a little to
receive him. The flowers were in the window in a china vase; and
there was a fine new counterpane on the bed, which chatterbox
Beatrix said mamma had made too. A fire was crackling on the
hearth, although it was June. My lady thought the room wanted
warming; everything was done to make him happy and welcome:
“And you are not to be a page any longer, but a gentleman and
kinsman, and to walk with papa and mamma,” said the children.
And as soon as his dear mistress and children had left him to
himself, it was with a heart overflowing with love and gratefulness
that he flung himself down on his knees by the side of the little
bed, and asked a blessing upon those who were so kind to him.
The children, who are always house tell-tales, soon made him
acquainted with the little history of the house and family. Papa
had been to London twice. Papa often went away now. Papa had taken
Beatrix to Westlands, where she was taller than Sir George
Harper’s second daughter, though she was two years older.
Papa had taken Beatrix and Frank both to Bellminster, where Frank
had got the better of Lord Bellminster’s son in a
boxing-match—my lord, laughing, told Harry afterwards. Many
gentlemen came to stop with papa, and papa had gotten a new game
from London, a French game, called a billiard—that the French
king played it very well: and the Dowager Lady Castlewood had sent
Miss Beatrix a present; and papa had gotten a new chaise, with two
little horses, which he drove himself, beside the coach, which
mamma went in; and Dr. Tusher was a cross old plague, and they did
not like to learn from him at all; and papa did not care about them
learning, and laughed when they were at their books, but mamma
liked them to learn, and taught them; and “I don’t
think papa is fond of mamma,” said Miss Beatrix, with her
great eyes. She had come quite close up to Harry Esmond by the time
this prattle took place, and was on his knee, and had examined all
the points of his dress, and all the good or bad features of his
homely face.
“You shouldn’t say that papa is not fond of
mamma,” said the boy, at this confession. “Mamma never
said so; and mamma forbade you to say it, Miss Beatrix.”
’Twas this, no doubt, that accounted for the sadness in
Lady Castlewood’s eyes, and the plaintive vibrations of her
voice. Who does not know of eyes, lighted by love once, where the
flame shines no more?—of lamps extinguished, once properly
trimmed and tended? Every man has such in his house. Such mementoes
make our splendidest chambers look blank and sad; such faces seen
in a day cast a gloom upon our sunshine. So oaths mutually sworn,
and invocations of heaven, and priestly ceremonies, and fond
belief, and love, so fond and faithful that it never doubted but
that it should live for ever, are all of no avail towards making
love eternal: it dies, in spite of the banns and the priest; and I
have often thought there should be a visitation of the sick for it,
and a funeral service, and an extreme unction, and an abi in pace.
It has its course, like all mortal things—its beginning,
progress, and decay. It buds and it blooms out into sunshine, and
it withers and ends. Strephon and Chloe languish apart; join in a
rapture: and presently you hear that Chloe is crying, and Strephon
has broken his crook across her back. Can you mend it so as to show
no marks of rupture? Not all the priests of Hymen, not all the
incantations to the gods, can make it whole!
Waking up from dreams, books, and visions of college honors, in
which for two years, Harry Esmond had been immersed, he found
himself, instantly, on his return home, in the midst of this actual
tragedy of life, which absorbed and interested him more than all
his tutor had taught him. The persons whom he loved best in the
world, and to whom he owed most, were living unhappily together.
The gentlest and kindest of women was suffering ill usage and
shedding tears in secret: the man who made her wretched by neglect,
if not by violence, was Harry’s benefactor and patron. In
houses where, in place of that sacred, inmost flame of love, there
is discord at the centre, the whole household becomes hypocritical,
and each lies to his neighbor. The husband (or it may be the wife)
lies when the visitor comes in, and wears a grin of reconciliation
or politeness before him. The wife lies (indeed, her business is to
do that, and to smile, however much she is beaten), swallows her
tears, and lies to her lord and master; lies in bidding little
Jackey respect dear papa; lies in assuring grandpapa that she is
perfectly happy. The servants lie, wearing grave faces behind their
master’s chair, and pretending to be unconscious of the
fighting; and so, from morning till bedtime, life is passed in
falsehood. And wiseacres call this a proper regard of morals, and
point out Baucis and Philemon as examples of a good life.
If my lady did not speak of her griefs to Harry Esmond, my lord
was by no means reserved when in his cups, and spoke his mind very
freely, bidding Harry in his coarse way, and with his blunt
language, beware of all women as cheats, jades, jilts, and using
other unmistakable monosyllables in speaking of them. Indeed,
’twas the fashion of the day, as I must own; and
there’s not a writer of my time of any note, with the
exception of poor Dick Steele, that does not speak of a woman as of
a slave, and scorn and use her as such. Mr. Pope, Mr. Congreve, Mr.
Addison, Mr. Gay, every one of ’em, sing in this key, each
according to his nature and politeness, and louder and fouler than
all in abuse is Dr. Swift, who spoke of them as he treated them,
worst of all.
Much of the quarrels and hatred which arise between married
people come in my mind from the husband’s rage and revolt at
discovering that his slave and bedfellow, who is to minister to all
his wishes, and is church-sworn to honor and obey him—is his
superior; and that HE, and not she, ought to be the subordinate of
the twain; and in these controversies, I think, lay the cause of my
lord’s anger against his lady. When he left her, she began to
think for herself, and her thoughts were not in his favor. After
the illumination, when the love-lamp is put out that anon we spoke
of, and by the common daylight we look at the picture, what a daub
it looks! what a clumsy effigy! How many men and wives come to this
knowledge, think you? And if it be painful to a woman to find
herself mated for life to a boor, and ordered to love and honor a
dullard; it is worse still for the man himself perhaps, whenever in
his dim comprehension the idea dawns that his slave and drudge
yonder is, in truth, his superior; that the woman who does his
bidding, and submits to his humor, should be his lord; that she can
think a thousand things beyond the power of his muddled brains; and
that in yonder head, on the pillow opposite to him, lie a thousand
feelings, mysteries of thought, latent scorns and rebellions,
whereof he only dimly perceives the existence as they look out
furtively from her eyes: treasures of love doomed to perish without
a hand to gather them; sweet fancies and images of beauty that
would grow and unfold themselves into flower; bright wit that would
shine like diamonds could it be brought into the sun: and the
tyrant in possession crushes the outbreak of all these, drives them
back like slaves into the dungeon and darkness, and chafes without
that his prisoner is rebellious, and his sworn subject undutiful
and refractory. So the lamp was out in Castlewood Hall, and the
lord and lady there saw each other as they were. With her illness
and altered beauty my lord’s fire for his wife disappeared;
with his selfishness and faithlessness her foolish fiction of love
and reverence was rent away. Love!—who is to love what is
base and unlovely? Respect!—who is to respect what is gross
and sensual? Not all the marriage oaths sworn before all the
parsons, cardinals, ministers, muftis, and rabbins in the world,
can bind to that monstrous allegiance. This couple was living apart
then; the woman happy to be allowed to love and tend her children
(who were never of her own good-will away from her), and thankful
to have saved such treasures as these out of the wreck in which the
better part of her heart went down.
These young ones had had no instructors save their mother, and
Doctor Tusher for their theology occasionally, and had made more
progress than might have been expected under a tutor so indulgent
and fond as Lady Castlewood. Beatrix could sing and dance like a
nymph. Her voice was her father’s delight after dinner. She
ruled over the house with little imperial ways, which her parents
coaxed and laughed at. She had long learned the value of her bright
eyes, and tried experiments in coquetry, in corpore vili, upon
rustics and country squires, until she should prepare to conquer
the world and the fashion. She put on a new ribbon to welcome Harry
Esmond, made eyes at him, and directed her young smiles at him, not
a little to the amusement of the young man, and the joy of her
father, who laughed his great laugh, and encouraged her in her
thousand antics. Lady Castlewood watched the child gravely and
sadly: the little one was pert in her replies to her mother, yet
eager in her protestations of love and promises of amendment; and
as ready to cry (after a little quarrel brought on by her own
giddiness) until she had won back her mamma’s favor, as she
was to risk the kind lady’s displeasure by fresh outbreaks of
restless vanity. From her mother’s sad looks she fled to her
father’s chair and boozy laughter. She already set the one
against the other: and the little rogue delighted in the mischief
which she knew how to make so early.
The young heir of Castlewood was spoiled by father and mother
both. He took their caresses as men do, and as if they were his
right. He had his hawks and his spaniel dog, his little horse and
his beagles. He had learned to ride, and to drink, and to shoot
flying: and he had a small court, the sons of the huntsman and
woodman, as became the heir-apparent, taking after the example of
my lord his father. If he had a headache, his mother was as much
frightened as if the plague were in the house: my lord laughed and
jeered in his abrupt way—(indeed, ’twas on the day
after New Year’s Day, and an excess of mince-pie)—and
said with some of his usual oaths—“D—n it, Harry
Esmond—you see how my lady takes on about Frank’s
megrim. She used to be sorry about me, my boy (pass the tankard,
Harry), and to be frightened if I had a headache once. She
don’t care about my head now. They’re like
that—women are—all the same, Harry, all jilts in their
hearts. Stick to college—stick to punch and buttery ale: and
never see a woman that’s handsomer than an old cinder-faced
bed-maker. That’s my counsel.”
It was my lord’s custom to fling out many jokes of this
nature, in presence of his wife and children, at meals—clumsy
sarcasms which my lady turned many a time, or which, sometimes, she
affected not to hear, or which now and again would hit their mark
and make the poor victim wince (as you could see by her flushing
face and eyes filling with tears), or which again worked her up to
anger and retort, when, in answer to one of these heavy bolts, she
would flash back with a quivering reply. The pair were not happy;
nor indeed was it happy to be with them. Alas that youthful love
and truth should end in bitterness and bankruptcy! To see a young
couple loving each other is no wonder; but to see an old couple
loving each other is the best sight of all. Harry Esmond became the
confidant of one and the other—that is, my lord told the lad
all his griefs and wrongs (which were indeed of Lord
Castlewood’s own making), and Harry divined my lady’s;
his affection leading him easily to penetrate the hypocrisy under
which Lady Castlewood generally chose to go disguised, and see her
heart aching whilst her face wore a smile. ’Tis a hard task
for women in life, that mask which the world bids them wear. But
there is no greater crime than for a woman who is ill used and
unhappy to show that she is so. The world is quite relentless about
bidding her to keep a cheerful face; and our women, like the
Malabar wives, are forced to go smiling and painted to sacrifice
themselves with their husbands; their relations being the most
eager to push them on to their duty, and, under their shouts and
applauses, to smother and hush their cries of pain.
So, into the sad secret of his patron’s household, Harry
Esmond became initiated, he scarce knew how. It had passed under
his eyes two years before, when he could not understand it; but
reading, and thought, and experience of men, had oldened him; and
one of the deepest sorrows of a life which had never, in truth,
been very happy, came upon him now, when he was compelled to
understand and pity a grief which he stood quite powerless to
relieve.
It hath been said my lord would never take the oath of
allegiance, nor his seat as a peer of the kingdom of Ireland,
where, indeed, he had but a nominal estate; and refused an English
peerage which King William’s government offered him as a
bribe to secure his loyalty.
He might have accepted this, and would doubtless, but for the
earnest remonstrances of his wife, who ruled her husband’s
opinions better than she could govern his conduct, and who being a
simple-hearted woman, with but one rule of faith and right, never
thought of swerving from her fidelity to the exiled family, or of
recognizing any other sovereign but King James; and though she
acquiesced in the doctrine of obedience to the reigning power, no
temptation, she thought, could induce her to acknowledge the Prince
of Orange as rightful monarch, nor to let her lord so acknowledge
him. So my Lord Castlewood remained a nonjuror all his life nearly,
though his self-denial caused him many a pang, and left him sulky
and out of humor.
The year after the Revolution, and all through King
William’s life, ’tis known there were constant
intrigues for the restoration of the exiled family; but if my Lord
Castlewood took any share of these, as is probable, ’twas
only for a short time, and when Harry Esmond was too young to be
introduced into such important secrets.
But in the year 1695, when that conspiracy of Sir John Fenwick,
Colonel Lowick, and others, was set on foot, for waylaying King
William as he came from Hampton Court to London, and a secret plot
was formed, in which a vast number of the nobility and people of
honor were engaged, Father Holt appeared at Castlewood, and brought
a young friend with him, a gentleman whom ’twas easy to see
that both my lord and the Father treated with uncommon deference.
Harry Esmond saw this gentleman, and knew and recognized him in
after life, as shall be shown in its place; and he has little doubt
now that my Lord Viscount was implicated somewhat in the
transactions which always kept Father Holt employed and travelling
hither and thither under a dozen of different names and disguises.
The Father’s companion went by the name of Captain James; and
it was under a very different name and appearance that Harry Esmond
afterwards saw him.
It was the next year that the Fenwick conspiracy blew up, which
is a matter of public history now, and which ended in the execution
of Sir John and many more, who suffered manfully for their treason,
and who were attended to Tyburn by my lady’s father Dean
Armstrong, Mr. Collier, and other stout nonjuring clergymen, who
absolved them at the gallows-foot.
’Tis known that when Sir John was apprehended, discovery
was made of a great number of names of gentlemen engaged in the
conspiracy; when, with a noble wisdom and clemency, the Prince
burned the list of conspirators furnished to him, and said he would
know no more. Now it was after this that Lord Castlewood swore his
great oath, that he would never, so help him heaven, be engaged in
any transaction against that brave and merciful man; and so he told
Holt when the indefatigable priest visited him, and would have had
him engage in a farther conspiracy. After this my lord ever spoke
of King William as he was—as one of the wisest, the bravest,
and the greatest of men. My Lady Esmond (for her part) said she
could never pardon the King, first, for ousting his father-inlaw
from his throne, and secondly, for not being constant to his wife,
the Princess Mary. Indeed, I think if Nero were to rise again, and
be king of England, and a good family man, the ladies would pardon
him. My lord laughed at his wife’s objections—the
standard of virtue did not fit him much.
The last conference which Mr. Holt had with his lordship took
place when Harry was come home for his first vacation from college
(Harry saw his old tutor but for a half-hour, and exchanged no
private words with him), and their talk, whatever it might be, left
my Lord Viscount very much disturbed in mind—so much so, that
his wife, and his young kinsman, Henry Esmond, could not but
observe his disquiet. After Holt was gone, my lord rebuffed Esmond,
and again treated him with the greatest deference; he shunned his
wife’s questions and company, and looked at his children with
such a face of gloom and anxiety, muttering, “Poor
children—poor children!” in a way that could not but
fill those whose life it was to watch him and obey him with great
alarm. For which gloom, each person interested in the Lord
Castlewood, framed in his or her own mind an interpretation.
My lady, with a laugh of cruel bitterness said, “I suppose
the person at Hexton has been ill, or has scolded him” (for
my lord’s infatuation about Mrs. Marwood was known only too
well). Young Esmond feared for his money affairs, into the
condition of which he had been initiated; and that the expenses,
always greater than his revenue, had caused Lord Castlewood
disquiet.
One of the causes why my Lord Viscount had taken young Esmond
into his special favor was a trivial one, that hath not before been
mentioned, though it was a very lucky accident in Henry
Esmond’s life. A very few months after my lord’s coming
to Castlewood, in the winter time—the little boy, being a
child in a petticoat, trotting about—it happened that little
Frank was with his father after dinner, who fell asleep over his
wine, heedless of the child, who crawled to the fire; and, as good
fortune would have it, Esmond was sent by his mistress for the boy
just as the poor little screaming urchin’s coat was set on
fire by a log; when Esmond, rushing forward, tore the dress off the
infant, so that his own hands were burned more than the
child’s, who was frightened rather than hurt by this
accident. But certainly ’twas providential that a resolute
person should have come in at that instant, or the child had been
burned to death probably, my lord sleeping very heavily after
drinking, and not waking so cool as a man should who had a danger
to face.
Ever after this the father, loud in his expressions of remorse
and humility for being a tipsy good-for-nothing, and of admiration
for Harry Esmond, whom his lordship would style a hero for doing a
very trifling service, had the tenderest regard for his son’s
preserver, and Harry became quite as one of the family. His burns
were tended with the greatest care by his kind mistress, who said
that heaven had sent him to be the guardian of her children, and
that she would love him all her life.
And it was after this, and from the very great love and
tenderness which had grown up in this little household, rather than
from the exhortations of Dean Armstrong (though these had no small
weight with him), that Harry came to be quite of the religion of
his house and his dear mistress, of which he has ever since been a
professing member. As for Dr. Tusher’s boasts that he was the
cause of this conversion—even in these young days Mr. Esmond
had such a contempt for the Doctor, that had Tusher bade him
believe anything (which he did not—never meddling at all),
Harry would that instant have questioned the truth on’t.
My lady seldom drank wine; but on certain days of the year, such
as birthdays (poor Harry had never a one) and anniversaries, she
took a little; and this day, the 29th December, was one. At the
end, then, of this year, ‘96, it might have been a fortnight
after Mr. Holt’s last visit, Lord Castlewood being still very
gloomy in mind, and sitting at table—my lady bidding a
servant bring her a glass of wine, and looking at her husband with
one of her sweet smiles, said—
“My lord, will you not fill a bumper too, and let me call
a toast?”
“What is it, Rachel?” says he, holding out his empty
glass to be filled.
“’Tis the 29th of December,” says my lady,
with her fond look of gratitude: “and my toast is,
‘Harry—and God bless him, who saved my boy’s
life!’”
My lord looked at Harry hard, and drank the glass, but clapped
it down on the table in a moment, and, with a sort of groan, rose
up, and went out of the room. What was the matter? We all knew that
some great grief was over him.
Whether my lord’s prudence had made him richer, or
legacies had fallen to him, which enabled him to support a greater
establishment than that frugal one which had been too much for his
small means, Harry Esmond knew not; but the house of Castlewood was
now on a scale much more costly than it had been during the first
years of his lordship’s coming to the title. There were more
horses in the stable and more servants in the hall, and many more
guests coming and going now than formerly, when it was found
difficult enough by the strictest economy to keep the house as
befitted one of his lordship’s rank, and the estate out of
debt. And it did not require very much penetration to find that
many of the new acquaintances at Castlewood were not agreeable to
the lady there: not that she ever treated them or any mortal with
anything but courtesy; but they were persons who could not be
welcome to her; and whose society a lady so refined and reserved
could scarce desire for her children. There came fuddling squires
from the country round, who bawled their songs under her windows
and drank themselves tipsy with my lord’s punch and ale:
there came officers from Hexton, in whose company our little lord
was made to hear talk and to drink, and swear too, in a way that
made the delicate lady tremble for her son. Esmond tried to console
her by saying what he knew of his College experience; that with
this sort of company and conversation a man must fall in sooner or
later in his course through the world: and it mattered very little
whether he heard it at twelve years old or twenty—the youths
who quitted mother’s apron-strings the latest being not
uncommonly the wildest rakes. But it was about her daughter that
Lady Castlewood was the most anxious, and the danger which she
thought menaced the little Beatrix from the indulgences which her
father gave her, (it must be owned that my lord, since these
unhappy domestic differences especially, was at once violent in his
language to the children when angry, as he was too familiar, not to
say coarse, when he was in a good humor,) and from the company into
which the careless lord brought the child.
Not very far off from Castlewood is Sark Castle, where the
Marchioness of Sark lived, who was known to have been a mistress of
the late King Charles—and to this house, whither indeed a
great part of the country gentry went, my lord insisted upon going,
not only himself, but on taking his little daughter and son, to
play with the children there. The children were nothing loth, for
the house was splendid, and the welcome kind enough. But my lady,
justly no doubt, thought that the children of such a mother as that
noted Lady Sark had been, could be no good company for her two; and
spoke her mind to her lord. His own language when he was thwarted
was not indeed of the gentlest: to be brief, there was a family
dispute on this, as there had been on many other points—and
the lady was not only forced to give in, for the other’s will
was law—nor could she, on account of their tender age, tell
her children what was the nature of her objection to their visit of
pleasure, or indeed mention to them any objection at all—but
she had the additional secret mortification to find them returning
delighted with their new friends, loaded with presents from them,
and eager to be allowed to go back to a place of such delights as
Sark Castle. Every year she thought the company there would be more
dangerous to her daughter, as from a child Beatrix grew to a woman,
and her daily increasing beauty, and many faults of character too,
expanded.
It was Harry Esmond’s lot to see one of the visits which
the old Lady of Sark paid to the Lady of Castlewood Hall: whither
she came in state with six chestnut horses and blue ribbons, a page
on each carriage step, a gentleman of the horse, and armed servants
riding before and behind her. And, but that it was unpleasant to
see Lady Castlewood’s face, it was amusing to watch the
behavior of the two enemies: the frigid patience of the younger
lady, and the unconquerable good-humor of the elder—who would
see no offence whatever her rival intended, and who never ceased to
smile and to laugh, and to coax the children, and to pay
compliments to every man, woman, child, nay dog, or chair and
table, in Castlewood, so bent was she upon admiring everything
there. She lauded the children, and wished as indeed she well
might—that her own family had been brought up as well as
those cherubs. She had never seen such a complexion as dear
Beatrix’s—though to be sure she had a right to it from
father and mother—Lady Castlewood’s was indeed a wonder
of freshness, and Lady Sark sighed to think she had not been born a
fair woman; and remarking Harry Esmond, with a fascinating
superannuated smile, she complimented him on his wit, which she
said she could see from his eyes and forehead; and vowed that she
would never have HIM at Sark until her daughter were out of the
way.
There had ridden along with this old Princess’s cavalcade,
two gentlemen: her son, my Lord Firebrace, and his friend, my Lord
Mohun, who both were greeted with a great deal of cordiality by the
hospitable Lord of Castlewood. My Lord Firebrace was but a
feeble-minded and weak-limbed young nobleman, small in stature and
limited in understanding to judge from the talk young Esmond had
with him; but the other was a person of a handsome presence, with
the bel air, and a bright daring warlike aspect, which, according
to the chronicle of those days, had already achieved for him the
conquest of several beauties and toasts. He had fought and
conquered in France, as well as in Flanders; he had served a couple
of campaigns with the Prince of Baden on the Danube, and witnessed
the rescue of Vienna from the Turk. And he spoke of his military
exploits pleasantly, and with the manly freedom of a soldier, so as
to delight all his hearers at Castlewood, who were little
accustomed to meet a companion so agreeable.
On the first day this noble company came, my lord would not hear
of their departure before dinner, and carried away the gentlemen to
amuse them, whilst his wife was left to do the honors of her house
to the old Marchioness and her daughter within. They looked at the
stables where my Lord Mohun praised the horses, though there was
but a poor show there: they walked over the old house and gardens,
and fought the siege of Oliver’s time over again: they played
a game of rackets in the old court, where my Lord Castlewood beat
my Lord Mohun, who said he loved ball of all things, and would
quickly come back to Castlewood for his revenge. After dinner they
played bowls and drank punch in the green alley; and when they
parted they were sworn friends, my Lord Castlewood kissing the
other lord before he mounted on horseback, and pronouncing him the
best companion he had met for many a long day. All night long, over
his tobacco-pipe, Castlewood did not cease to talk to Harry Esmond
in praise of his new friend, and in fact did not leave off speaking
of him until his lordship was so tipsy that he could not speak
plainly any more.
At breakfast next day it was the same talk renewed; and when my
lady said there was something free in the Lord Mohun’s looks
and manner of speech which caused her to mistrust him, her lord
burst out with one of his laughs and oaths; said that he never
liked man, woman, or beast, but what she was sure to be jealous of
it; that Mohun was the prettiest fellow in England; that he hoped
to see more of him whilst in the country; and that he would let
Mohun know what my Lady Prude said of him.
“Indeed,” Lady Castlewood said, “I liked his
conversation well enough. ’Tis more amusing than that of most
people I know. I thought it, I own, too free; not from what he
said, as rather from what he implied.”
“Psha! your ladyship does not know the world,” said
her husband; “and you have always been as squeamish as when
you were a miss of fifteen.”
“You found no fault when I was a miss at
fifteen.”
“Begad, madam, you are grown too old for a pinafore now;
and I hold that ’tis for me to judge what company my wife
shall see,” said my lord, slapping the table.
“Indeed, Francis, I never thought otherwise,”
answered my lady, rising and dropping him a curtsy, in which
stately action, if there was obedience, there was defiance too; and
in which a bystander, deeply interested in the happiness of that
pair as Harry Esmond was, might see how hopelessly separated they
were; what a great gulf of difference and discord had run between
them.
“By G-d! Mohun is the best fellow in England; and
I’ll invite him here, just to plague that woman. Did you ever
see such a frigid insolence as it is, Harry? That’s the way
she treats me,” he broke out, storming, and his face growing
red as he clenched his fists and went on. “I’m nobody
in my own house. I’m to be the humble servant of that
parson’s daughter. By Jove! I’d rather she should fling
the dish at my head than sneer at me as she does. She puts me to
shame before the children with her d—d airs; and, I’ll
swear, tells Frank and Beaty that papa’s a reprobate, and
that they ought to despise me.”
“Indeed and indeed, sir, I never heard her say a word but
of respect regarding you,” Harry Esmond interposed.
“No, curse it! I wish she would speak. But she never does.
She scorns me, and holds her tongue. She keeps off from me, as if I
was a pestilence. By George! she was fond enough of her pestilence
once. And when I came a-courting, you would see miss
blush—blush red, by George! for joy. Why, what do you think
she said to me, Harry? She said herself, when I joked with her
about her d—d smiling red cheeks: ‘’Tis as they
do at St. James’s; I put up my red flag when my king
comes.’ I was the king, you see, she meant. But now, sir,
look at her! I believe she would be glad if I was dead; and dead
I’ve been to her these five years—ever since you all of
you had the small-pox: and she never forgave me for going
away.”
“Indeed, my lord, though ’twas hard to forgive, I
think my mistress forgave it,” Harry Esmond said; “and
remember how eagerly she watched your lordship’s return, and
how sadly she turned away when she saw your cold looks.”
“Damme!” cries out my lord; “would you have
had me wait and catch the small-pox? Where the deuce had been the
good of that? I’ll bear danger with any man—but not
useless danger—no, no. Thank you for nothing. And—you
nod your head, and I know very well, Parson Harry, what you mean.
There was the—the other affair to make her angry. But is a
woman never to forgive a husband who goes a-tripping? Do you take
me for a saint?”
“Indeed, sir, I do not,” says Harry, with a
smile.
“Since that time my wife’s as cold as the statue at
Charing Cross. I tell thee she has no forgiveness in her, Henry.
Her coldness blights my whole life, and sends me to the punch-bowl,
or driving about the country. My children are not mine, but hers,
when we are together. ’Tis only when she is out of sight with
her abominable cold glances, that run through me, that
they’ll come to me, and that I dare to give them so much as a
kiss; and that’s why I take ’em and love ’em in
other people’s houses, Harry. I’m killed by the very
virtue of that proud woman. Virtue! give me the virtue that can
forgive; give me the virtue that thinks not of preserving itself,
but of making other folks happy. Damme, what matters a scar or two
if ’tis got in helping a friend in ill fortune?”
And my lord again slapped the table, and took a great draught
from the tankard. Harry Esmond admired as he listened to him, and
thought how the poor preacher of this self-sacrifice had fled from
the small-pox, which the lady had borne so cheerfully, and which
had been the cause of so much disunion in the lives of all in this
house. “How well men preach,” thought the young man,
“and each is the example in his own sermon. How each has a
story in a dispute, and a true one, too, and both are right or
wrong as you will!” Harry’s heart was pained within
him, to watch the struggles and pangs that tore the breast of this
kind, manly friend and protector.
“Indeed, sir,” said he, “I wish to God that my
mistress could hear you speak as I have heard you; she would know
much that would make her life the happier, could she hear
it.” But my lord flung away with one of his oaths, and a
jeer; he said that Parson Harry was a good fellow; but that as for
women, all women were alike—all jades and heartless. So a man
dashes a fine vase down, and despises it for being broken. It may
be worthless—true: but who had the keeping of it, and who
shattered it?
Harry, who would have given his life to make his benefactress
and her husband happy, bethought him, now that he saw what my
lord’s state of mind was, and that he really had a great deal
of that love left in his heart, and ready for his wife’s
acceptance if she would take it, whether he could not be a means of
reconciliation between these two persons, whom he revered the most
in the world. And he cast about how he should break a part of his
mind to his mistress, and warn her that in his, Harry’s
opinion, at least, her husband was still her admirer, and even her
lover.
But he found the subject a very difficult one to handle, when he
ventured to remonstrate, which he did in the very gravest tone,
(for long confidence and reiterated proofs of devotion and loyalty
had given him a sort of authority in the house, which he resumed as
soon as ever he returned to it,) and with a speech that should have
some effect, as, indeed, it was uttered with the speaker’s
own heart, he ventured most gently to hint to his adored mistress
that she was doing her husband harm by her ill opinion of him, and
that the happiness of all the family depended upon setting her
right.
She, who was ordinarily calm and most gentle, and full of smiles
and soft attentions, flushed up when young Esmond so spoke to her,
and rose from her chair, looking at him with a haughtiness and
indignation that he had never before known her to display. She was
quite an altered being for that moment; and looked an angry
princess insulted by a vassal.
“Have you ever heard me utter a word in my lord’s
disparagement?” she asked hastily, hissing out her words, and
stamping her foot.
“Indeed, no,” Esmond said, looking down.
“Are you come to me as his ambassador—YOU?”
she continued.
“I would sooner see peace between you than anything else
in the world,” Harry answered, “and would go of any
embassy that had that end.”
“So YOU are my lord’s go-between?” she went
on, not regarding this speech. “You are sent to bid me back
into slavery again, and inform me that my lord’s favor is
graciously restored to his handmaid? He is weary of Covent Garden,
is he, that he comes home and would have the fatted calf
killed?”
“There’s good authority for it, surely,” said
Esmond.
“For a son, yes; but my lord is not my son. It was he who
cast me away from him. It was he who broke our happiness down, and
he bids me to repair it. It was he who showed himself to me at
last, as he was, not as I had thought him. It is he who comes
before my children stupid and senseless with wine—who leaves
our company for that of frequenters of taverns and
bagnios—who goes from his home to the City yonder and his
friends there, and when he is tired of them returns hither, and
expects that I shall kneel and welcome him. And he sends YOU as his
chamberlain! What a proud embassy! Monsieur, I make you my
compliment of the new place.”
“It would be a proud embassy, and a happy embassy too,
could I bring you and my lord together,” Esmond replied.
“I presume you have fulfilled your mission now, sir.
’Twas a pretty one for you to undertake. I don’t know
whether ’tis your Cambridge philosophy, or time, that has
altered your ways of thinking,” Lady Castlewood continued,
still in a sarcastic tone. “Perhaps you too have learned to
love drink, and to hiccup over your wine or punch;—which is
your worship’s favorite liquor? Perhaps you too put up at the
‘Rose’ on your way to London, and have your
acquaintances in Covent Garden. My services to you, sir, to
principal and ambassador, to master and—and
lackey.”
“Great heavens! madam,” cried Harry. “What
have I done that thus, for a second time, you insult me? Do you
wish me to blush for what I used to be proud of, that I lived on
your bounty? Next to doing you a service (which my life would pay
for), you know that to receive one from you is my highest pleasure.
What wrong have I done you that you should wound me so, cruel
woman?”
“What wrong?” she said, looking at Esmond with wild
eyes. “Well, none—none that you know of, Harry, or
could help. Why did you bring back the small-pox,” she added,
after a pause, “from Castlewood village? You could not help
it, could you? Which of us knows whither fate leads us? But we were
all happy, Henry, till then.” And Harry went away from this
colloquy, thinking still that the estrangement between his patron
and his beloved mistress was remediable, and that each had at heart
a strong attachment to the other.
The intimacy between the Lords Mohun and Castlewood appeared to
increase as long as the former remained in the country; and my Lord
of Castlewood especially seemed never to be happy out of his new
comrade’s sight. They sported together, they drank, they
played bowls and tennis: my Lord Castlewood would go for three days
to Sark, and bring back my Lord Mohun to Castlewood—where
indeed his lordship made himself very welcome to all persons,
having a joke or a new game at romps for the children, all the talk
of the town for my lord, and music and gallantry and plenty of the
beau langage for my lady, and for Harry Esmond, who was never tired
of hearing his stories of his campaigns and his life at Vienna,
Venice, Paris, and the famous cities of Europe which he had visited
both in peace and war. And he sang at my lady’s harpsichord,
and played cards or backgammon, or his new game of billiards with
my lord (of whom he invariably got the better) always having a
consummate good-humor, and bearing himself with a certain manly
grace, that might exhibit somewhat of the camp and Alsatia perhaps,
but that had its charm, and stamped him a gentleman: and his manner
to Lady Castlewood was so devoted and respectful, that she soon
recovered from the first feelings of dislike which she had
conceived against him—nay, before long, began to be
interested in his spiritual welfare, and hopeful of his conversion,
lending him books of piety, which he promised dutifully to study.
With her my lord talked of reform, of settling into quiet life,
quitting the court and town, and buying some land in the
neighborhood—though it must be owned that, when the two lords
were together over their Burgundy after dinner, their talk was very
different, and there was very little question of conversion on my
Lord Mohun’s part. When they got to their second bottle,
Harry Esmond used commonly to leave these two noble topers, who,
though they talked freely enough, heaven knows, in his presence
(Good Lord, what a set of stories, of Alsatia and Spring Garden, of
the taverns and gaming-houses, of the ladies of the court, and
mesdames of the theatres, he can recall out of their godly
conversation!)—although, I say, they talked before Esmond
freely, yet they seemed pleased when he went away, and then they
had another bottle, and then they fell to cards, and then my Lord
Mohun came to her ladyship’s drawing-room; leaving his boon
companion to sleep off his wine.
’Twas a point of honor with the fine gentlemen of those
days to lose or win magnificently at their horse-matches, or games
of cards and dice—and you could never tell, from the demeanor
of these two lords afterwards, which had been successful and which
the loser at their games. And when my lady hinted to my lord that
he played more than she liked, he dismissed her with a
“pish,” and swore that nothing was more equal than play
betwixt gentlemen, if they did but keep it up long enough. And
these kept it up long enough, you may be sure. A man of fashion of
that time often passed a quarter of his day at cards, and another
quarter at drink: I have known many a pretty fellow, who was a wit
too, ready of repartee, and possessed of a thousand graces, who
would be puzzled if he had to write more than his name.
There is scarce any thoughtful man or woman, I suppose, but can
look back upon his course of past life, and remember some point,
trifling as it may have seemed at the time of occurrence, which has
nevertheless turned and altered his whole career. ’Tis with
almost all of us, as in M. Massillon’s magnificent image
regarding King William, a grain de sable that perverts or perhaps
overthrows us; and so it was but a light word flung in the air, a
mere freak of perverse child’s temper, that brought down a
whole heap of crushing woes upon that family whereof Harry Esmond
formed a part.
Coming home to his dear Castlewood in the third year of his
academical course, (wherein he had now obtained some distinction,
his Latin Poem on the death of the Duke of Gloucester, Princess
Anne of Denmark’s son, having gained him a medal, and
introduced him to the society of the University wits,) Esmond found
his little friend and pupil Beatrix grown to be taller than her
mother, a slim and lovely young girl, with cheeks mantling with
health and roses: with eyes like stars shining out of azure, with
waving bronze hair clustered about the fairest young forehead ever
seen: and a mien and shape haughty and beautiful, such as that of
the famous antique statue of the huntress Diana—at one time
haughty, rapid, imperious, with eyes and arrows that dart and kill.
Harry watched and wondered at this young creature, and likened her
in his mind to Artemis with the ringing bow and shafts flashing
death upon the children of Niobe; at another time she was coy and
melting as Luna shining tenderly upon Endymion. This fair creature,
this lustrous Phoebe, was only young as yet, nor had nearly reached
her full splendor: but crescent and brilliant, our young gentleman
of the University, his head full of poetical fancies, his heart
perhaps throbbing with desires undefined, admired this rising young
divinity; and gazed at her (though only as at some “bright
particular star,” far above his earth) with endless delight
and wonder. She had been a coquette from the earliest times almost,
trying her freaks and jealousies, her wayward frolics and winning
caresses, upon all that came within her reach; she set her women
quarrelling in the nursery, and practised her eyes on the groom as
she rode behind him on the pillion.
She was the darling and torment of father and mother. She
intrigued with each secretly; and bestowed her fondness and
withdrew it, plied them with tears, smiles, kisses,
cajolements;—when the mother was angry, as happened often,
flew to the father, and sheltering behind him, pursued her victim;
when both were displeased, transferred her caresses to the
domestics, or watched until she could win back her parents’
good graces, either by surprising them into laughter and
good-humor, or appeasing them by submission and artful humility.
She was saevo laeta negotio, like that fickle goddess Horace
describes, and of whose “malicious joy” a great poet of
our own has written so nobly—who, famous and heroic as he
was, was not strong enough to resist the torture of women.
It was but three years before that the child, then but ten years
old, had nearly managed to make a quarrel between Harry Esmond and
his comrade, good-natured, phlegmatic Thomas Tusher, who never of
his own seeking quarrelled with anybody: by quoting to the latter
some silly joke which Harry had made regarding him—(it was
the merest idlest jest, though it near drove two old friends to
blows, and I think such a battle would have pleased her)—and
from that day Tom kept at a distance from her; and she respected
him, and coaxed him sedulously whenever they met. But Harry was
much more easily appeased, because he was fonder of the child: and
when she made mischief, used cutting speeches, or caused her
friends pain, she excused herself for her fault, not by admitting
and deploring it, but by pleading not guilty, and asserting
innocence so constantly, and with such seeming artlessness, that it
was impossible to question her plea. In her childhood, they were
but mischiefs then which she did; but her power became more fatal
as she grew older—as a kitten first plays with a ball, and
then pounces on a bird and kills it. ’Tis not to be imagined
that Harry Esmond had all this experience at this early stage of
his life, whereof he is now writing the history—many things
here noted were but known to him in later days. Almost everything
Beatrix did or undid seemed good, or at least pardonable, to him
then, and years afterwards.
It happened, then, that Harry Esmond came home to Castlewood for
his last vacation, with good hopes of a fellowship at his college,
and a contented resolve to advance his fortune that way.
’Twas in the first year of the present century, Mr. Esmond
(as far as he knew the period of his birth) being then twenty-two
years old. He found his quondam pupil shot up into this beauty of
which we have spoken, and promising yet more: her brother, my
lord’s son, a handsome high-spirited brave lad, generous and
frank, and kind to everybody, save perhaps his sister, with whom
Frank was at war (and not from his but her fault)—adoring his
mother, whose joy he was: and taking her side in the unhappy
matrimonial differences which were now permanent, while of course
Mistress Beatrix ranged with her father. When heads of families
fall out, it must naturally be that their dependants wear the one
or the other party’s color; and even in the parliaments in
the servants’ hall or the stables, Harry, who had an early
observant turn, could see which were my lord’s adherents and
which my lady’s, and conjecture pretty shrewdly how their
unlucky quarrel was debated. Our lackeys sit in judgment on us. My
lord’s intrigues may be ever so stealthily conducted, but his
valet knows them; and my lady’s woman carries her
mistress’s private history to the servants’ scandal
market, and exchanges it against the secrets of other abigails.
My Lord Mohun (of whose exploits and fame some of the gentlemen
of the University had brought down but ugly reports) was once more
a guest at Castlewood, and seemingly more intimately allied with my
lord even than before. Once in the spring those two noblemen had
ridden to Cambridge from Newmarket, whither they had gone for the
horse-racing, and had honored Harry Esmond with a visit at his
rooms; after which Doctor Montague, the master of the College, who
had treated Harry somewhat haughtily, seeing his familiarity with
these great folks, and that my Lord Castlewood laughed and walked
with his hand on Harry’s shoulder, relented to Mr. Esmond,
and condescended to be very civil to him; and some days after his
arrival, Harry, laughing, told this story to Lady Esmond, remarking
how strange it was that men famous for learning and renowned over
Europe, should, nevertheless, so bow down to a title, and cringe to
a nobleman ever so poor. At this Mistress Beatrix flung up her
head, and said it became those of low origin to respect their
betters; that the parsons made themselves a great deal too proud,
she thought; and that she liked the way at Lady Sark’s best,
where the chaplain, though he loved pudding, as all parsons do,
always went away before the custard.
“And when I am a parson,” says Mr. Esmond,
“will you give me no custard, Beatrix?”
“You—you are different,” Beatrix answered.
“You are of our blood.”
“My father was a parson, as you call him,” said my
lady.
“But mine is a peer of Ireland,” says Mistress
Beatrix, tossing her head. “Let people know their places. I
suppose you will have me go down on my knees and ask a blessing of
Mr. Thomas Tusher, that has just been made a curate and whose
mother was a waiting-maid.”
And she tossed out of the room, being in one of her flighty
humors then.
When she was gone, my lady looked so sad and grave, that Harry
asked the cause of her disquietude. She said it was not merely what
he said of Newmarket, but what she had remarked, with great anxiety
and terror, that my lord, ever since his acquaintance with the Lord
Mohun especially, had recurred to his fondness for play, which he
had renounced since his marriage.
“But men promise more than they are able to perform in
marriage,” said my lady, with a sigh. “I fear he has
lost large sums; and our property, always small, is dwindling away
under this reckless dissipation. I heard of him in London with very
wild company. Since his return, letters and lawyers are constantly
coming and going: he seems to me to have a constant anxiety, though
he hides it under boisterousness and laughter. I looked
through—through the door last night, and—and
before,” said my lady, “and saw them at cards after
midnight; no estate will bear that extravagance, much less ours,
which will be so diminished that my son will have nothing at all,
and my poor Beatrix no portion!”
“I wish I could help you, madam,” said Harry Esmond,
sighing, and wishing that unavailingly, and for the thousandth time
in his life.
“Who can? Only God,” said Lady
Esmond—“only God, in whose hands we are.” And so
it is, and for his rule over his family, and for his conduct to
wife and children—subjects over whom his power is
monarchical—any one who watches the world must think with
trembling sometimes of the account which many a man will have to
render. For in our society there’s no law to control the King
of the Fireside. He is master of property, happiness—life
almost. He is free to punish, to make happy or unhappy—to
ruin or to torture. He may kill a wife gradually, and be no more
questioned than the Grand seignior who drowns a slave at midnight.
He may make slaves and hypocrites of his children; or friends and
freemen; or drive them into revolt and enmity against the natural
law of love. I have heard politicians and coffee-house wiseacres
talking over the newspaper, and railing at the tyranny of the
French King, and the Emperor, and wondered how these (who are
monarchs, too, in their way) govern their own dominions at home,
where each man rules absolute. When the annals of each little reign
are shown to the Supreme Master, under whom we hold sovereignty,
histories will be laid bare of household tyrants as cruel as
Amurath, and as savage as Nero, and as reckless and dissolute as
Charles.
If Harry Esmond’s patron erred, ’twas in the latter
way, from a disposition rather self-indulgent than cruel; and he
might have been brought back to much better feelings, had time been
given to him to bring his repentance to a lasting reform.
As my lord and his friend Lord Mohun were such close companions,
Mistress Beatrix chose to be jealous of the latter; and the two
gentlemen often entertained each other by laughing, in their rude
boisterous way, at the child’s freaks of anger and show of
dislike. “When thou art old enough, thou shalt marry Lord
Mohun,” Beatrix’s father would say: on which the girl
would pout and say, “I would rather marry Tom Tusher.”
And because the Lord Mohun always showed an extreme gallantry to my
Lady Castlewood, whom he professed to admire devotedly, one day, in
answer to this old joke of her father’s, Beatrix said,
“I think my lord would rather marry mamma than marry me; and
is waiting till you die to ask her.”
The words were said lightly and pertly by the girl one night
before supper, as the family party were assembled near the great
fire. The two lords, who were at cards, both gave a start; my lady
turned as red as scarlet, and bade Mistress Beatrix go to her own
chamber; whereupon the girl, putting on, as her wont was, the most
innocent air, said, “I am sure I meant no wrong; I am sure
mamma talks a great deal more to Harry Esmond than she does to
papa—and she cried when Harry went away, and she never does
when papa goes away! and last night she talked to Lord Mohun for
ever so long, and sent us out of the room, and cried when we came
back, and—”
“D—n!” cried out my Lord Castlewood, out of
all patience. “Go out of the room, you little viper!”
and he started up and flung down his cards.
“Ask Lord Mohun what I said to him, Francis,” her
ladyship said, rising up with a scared face, but yet with a great
and touching dignity and candor in her look and voice. “Come
away with me, Beatrix.” Beatrix sprung up too; she was in
tears now.
“Dearest mamma, what have I done?” she asked.
“Sure I meant no harm.” And she clung to her mother,
and the pair went out sobbing together.
“I will tell you what your wife said to me, Frank,”
my Lord Mohun cried. “Parson Harry may hear it; and, as I
hope for heaven, every word I say is true. Last night, with tears
in her eyes, your wife implored me to play no more with you at dice
or at cards, and you know best whether what she asked was not for
your good.”
“Of course, it was, Mohun,” says my lord in a dry
hard voice. “Of course you are a model of a man: and the
world knows what a saint you are.”
My Lord Mohun was separated from his wife, and had had many
affairs of honor: of which women as usual had been the cause.
“I am no saint, though your wife is—and I can answer
for my actions as other people must for their words,” said my
Lord Mohun.
“By G—, my lord, you shall,” cried the other,
starting up.
“We have another little account to settle first, my
lord,” says Lord Mohun. Whereupon Harry Esmond, filled with
alarm for the consequences to which this disastrous dispute might
lead, broke out into the most vehement expostulations with his
patron and his adversary. “Gracious heavens!” he said,
“my lord, are you going to draw a sword upon your friend in
your own house? Can you doubt the honor of a lady who is as pure as
heaven, and would die a thousand times rather than do you a wrong?
Are the idle words of a jealous child to set friends at variance?
Has not my mistress, as much as she dared do, besought your
lordship, as the truth must be told, to break your intimacy with my
Lord Mohun; and to give up the habit which may bring ruin on your
family? But for my Lord Mohun’s illness, had he not left
you?”
“‘Faith, Frank, a man with a gouty toe can’t
run after other men’s wives,” broke out my Lord Mohun,
who indeed was in that way, and with a laugh and a look at his
swathed limb so frank and comical, that the other dashing his fist
across his forehead was caught by that infectious good-humor, and
said with his oath, “—— it, Harry, I believe
thee,” and so this quarrel was over, and the two gentlemen,
at swords drawn but just now, dropped their points, and shook
hands.
Beati pacifici. “Go, bring my lady back,” said
Harry’s patron. Esmond went away only too glad to be the
bearer of such good news. He found her at the door; she had been
listening there, but went back as he came. She took both his hands,
hers were marble cold. She seemed as if she would fall on his
shoulder. “Thank you, and God bless you, my dear brother
Harry,” she said. She kissed his hand, Esmond felt her tears
upon it: and leading her into the room, and up to my lord, the Lord
Castlewood, with an outbreak of feeling and affection such as he
had not exhibited for many a long day, took his wife to his heart,
and bent over and kissed her and asked her pardon.
“’Tis time for me to go to roost. I will have my
gruel a-bed,” said my Lord Mohun: and limped off comically on
Harry Esmond’s arm. “By George, that woman is a
pearl!” he said; “and ’tis only a pig that
wouldn’t value her. Have you seen the vulgar traipsing
orange-girl whom Esmond”—but here Mr. Esmond
interrupted him, saying, that these were not affairs for him to
know.
My lord’s gentleman came in to wait upon his master, who
was no sooner in his nightcap and dressing-gown than he had another
visitor whom his host insisted on sending to him: and this was no
other than the Lady Castlewood herself with the toast and gruel,
which her husband bade her make and carry with her own hands in to
her guest.
Lord Castlewood stood looking after his wife as she went on this
errand, and as he looked, Harry Esmond could not but gaze on him,
and remarked in his patron’s face an expression of love, and
grief, and care, which very much moved and touched the young man.
Lord Castlewood’s hands fell down at his sides, and his head
on his breast, and presently he said,—
“You heard what Mohun said, parson?”
“That my lady was a saint?”
“That there are two accounts to settle. I have been going
wrong these five years, Harry Esmond. Ever since you brought that
damned small-pox into the house, there has been a fate pursuing me,
and I had best have died of it, and not run away from it like a
coward. I left Beatrix with her relations, and went to London; and
I fell among thieves, Harry, and I got back to confounded cards and
dice, which I hadn’t touched since my marriage—no, not
since I was in the Duke’s Guard, with those wild Mohocks. And
I have been playing worse and worse, and going deeper and deeper
into it; and I owe Mohun two thousand pounds now; and when
it’s paid I am little better than a beggar. I don’t
like to look my boy in the face; he hates me, I know he does. And I
have spent Beaty’s little portion: and the Lord knows what
will come if I live; the best thing I can do is to die, and release
what portion of the estate is redeemable for the boy.”
Mohun was as much master at Castlewood as the owner of the Hall
itself; and his equipages filled the stables, where, indeed, there
was room and plenty for many more horses than Harry Esmond’s
impoverished patron could afford to keep. He had arrived on
horseback with his people; but when his gout broke out my Lord
Mohun sent to London for a light chaise he had, drawn by a pair of
small horses, and running as swift, wherever roads were good, as a
Laplander’s sledge. When this carriage came, his lordship was
eager to drive the Lady Castlewood abroad in it, and did so many
times, and at a rapid pace, greatly to his companion’s
enjoyment, who loved the swift motion and the healthy breezes over
the downs which lie hard upon Castlewood, and stretch thence
towards the sea. As this amusement was very pleasant to her, and
her lord, far from showing any mistrust of her intimacy with Lord
Mohun, encouraged her to be his companion—as if willing by
his present extreme confidence to make up for any past mistrust
which his jealousy had shown—the Lady Castlewood enjoyed
herself freely in this harmless diversion, which, it must be owned,
her guest was very eager to give her; and it seemed that she grew
the more free with Lord Mohun, and pleased with his company,
because of some sacrifice which his gallantry was pleased to make
in her favor.
Seeing the two gentlemen constantly at cards still of evenings,
Harry Esmond one day deplored to his mistress that this fatal
infatuation of her lord should continue; and now they seemed
reconciled together, begged his lady to hint to her husband that he
should play no more.
But Lady Castlewood, smiling archly and gayly, said she would
speak to him presently, and that, for a few nights more at least,
he might be let to have his amusement.
“Indeed, madam,” said Harry, “you know not
what it costs you; and ’tis easy for any observer who knows
the game, to see that Lord Mohun is by far the stronger of the
two.”
“I know he is,” says my lady, still with exceeding
good-humor; “he is not only the best player, but the kindest
player in the world.”
“Madam, madam!” Esmond cried, transported and
provoked. “Debts of honor must be paid some time or other;
and my master will be ruined if he goes on.”
“Harry, shall I tell you a secret?” my lady replied,
with kindness and pleasure still in her eyes. “Francis will
not be ruined if he goes on; he will be rescued if he goes on. I
repent of having spoken and thought unkindly of the Lord Mohun when
he was here in the past year. He is full of much kindness and good;
and ’tis my belief that we shall bring him to better things.
I have lent him ‘Tillotson’ and your favorite
‘Bishop Taylor,’ and he is much touched, he says; and
as a proof of his repentance—(and herein lies my
secret)—what do you think he is doing with Francis? He is
letting poor Frank win his money back again. He hath won already at
the last four nights; and my Lord Mohun says that he will not be
the means of injuring poor Frank and my dear children.”
“And in God’s name, what do you return him for the
sacrifice?” asked Esmond, aghast; who knew enough of men, and
of this one in particular, to be aware that such a finished rake
gave nothing for nothing. “How, in heaven’s name, are
you to pay him?”
“Pay him! With a mother’s blessing and a
wife’s prayers!” cries my lady, clasping her hands
together. Harry Esmond did not know whether to laugh, to be angry,
or to love his dear mistress more than ever for the obstinate
innocency with which she chose to regard the conduct of a man of
the world, whose designs he knew better how to interpret. He told
the lady, guardedly, but so as to make his meaning quite clear to
her, what he knew in respect of the former life and conduct of this
nobleman; of other women against whom he had plotted, and whom he
had overcome; of the conversation which he, Harry himself, had had
with Lord Mohun, wherein the lord made a boast of his libertinism,
and frequently avowed that he held all women to be fair game (as
his lordship styled this pretty sport), and that they were all,
without exception, to be won. And the return Harry had for his
entreaties and remonstrances was a fit of anger on Lady
Castlewood’s part, who would not listen to his accusations;
she said and retorted that he himself must be very wicked and
perverted to suppose evil designs where she was sure none were
meant. “And this is the good meddlers get of
interfering,” Harry thought to himself with much bitterness;
and his perplexity and annoyance were only the greater, because he
could not speak to my Lord Castlewood himself upon a subject of
this nature, or venture to advise or warn him regarding a matter so
very sacred as his own honor, of which my lord was naturally the
best guardian.
But though Lady Castlewood would listen to no advice from her
young dependant, and appeared indignantly to refuse it when
offered, Harry had the satisfaction to find that she adopted the
counsel which she professed to reject; for the next day she pleaded
a headache, when my Lord Mohun would have had her drive out, and
the next day the headache continued; and next day, in a laughing
gay way, she proposed that the children should take her place in
his lordship’s car, for they would be charmed with a ride of
all things; and she must not have all the pleasure for herself. My
lord gave them a drive with a very good grace, though, I dare say,
with rage and disappointment inwardly—not that his heart was
very seriously engaged in his designs upon this simple lady: but
the life of such men is often one of intrigue, and they can no more
go through the day without a woman to pursue, than a fox-hunter
without his sport after breakfast.
Under an affected carelessness of demeanor, and though there was
no outward demonstration of doubt upon his patron’s part
since the quarrel between the two lords, Harry yet saw that Lord
Castlewood was watching his guest very narrowly; and caught sight
of distrust and smothered rage (as Harry thought) which foreboded
no good. On the point of honor Esmond knew how touchy his patron
was; and watched him almost as a physician watches a patient, and
it seemed to him that this one was slow to take the disease, though
he could not throw off the poison when once it had mingled with his
blood. We read in Shakspeare (whom the writer for his part
considers to be far beyond Mr. Congreve, Mr. Dryden, or any of the
wits of the present period,) that when jealousy is once declared,
nor poppy, nor mandragora, nor all the drowsy syrups of the East,
will ever soothe it or medicine it away.
In fine, the symptoms seemed to be so alarming to this young
physician (who, indeed, young as he was, had felt the kind pulses
of all those dear kinsmen), that Harry thought it would be his duty
to warn my Lord Mohun, and let him know that his designs were
suspected and watched. So one day, when in rather a pettish humor
his lordship had sent to Lady Castlewood, who had promised to drive
with him, and now refused to come, Harry said—“My lord,
if you will kindly give me a place by your side I will thank you; I
have much to say to you, and would like to speak to you
alone.”
“You honor me by giving me your confidence, Mr. Henry
Esmond,” says the other, with a very grand bow. My lord was
always a fine gentleman, and young as he was there was that in
Esmond’s manner which showed that he was a gentleman too, and
that none might take a liberty with him—so the pair went out,
and mounted the little carriage, which was in waiting for them in
the court, with its two little cream-colored Hanoverian horses
covered with splendid furniture and champing at the bit.
“My lord,” says Harry Esmond, after they were got
into the country, and pointing to my Lord Mohun’s foot, which
was swathed in flannel, and put up rather ostentatiously on a
cushion—“my lord, I studied medicine at
Cambridge.”
“Indeed, Parson Harry,” says he; “and are you
going to take out a diploma: and cure your fellow-students of
the—”
“Of the gout,” says Harry, interrupting him, and
looking him hard in the face; “I know a good deal about the
gout.”
“I hope you may never have it. ’Tis an infernal
disease,” says my lord, “and its twinges are
diabolical. Ah!” and he made a dreadful wry face, as if he
just felt a twinge.
“Your lordship would be much better if you took off all
that flannel—it only serves to inflame the toe,” Harry
continued, looking his man full in the face.
“Oh! it only serves to inflame the toe, does it?”
says the other, with an innocent air.
“If you took off that flannel, and flung that absurd
slipper away, and wore a boot,” continues Harry.
“You recommend me boots, Mr. Esmond?” asks my
lord.
“Yes, boots and spurs. I saw your lordship three days ago
run down the gallery fast enough,” Harry goes on. “I am
sure that taking gruel at night is not so pleasant as claret to
your lordship; and besides it keeps your lordship’s head cool
for play, whilst my patron’s is hot and flustered with
drink.”
“‘Sdeath, sir, you dare not say that I don’t
play fair?” cries my lord, whipping his horses, which went
away at a gallop.
“You are cool when my lord is drunk,” Harry
continued; “your lordship gets the better of my patron. I
have watched you as I looked up from my books.”
“You young Argus!” says Lord Mohun, who liked Harry
Esmond—and for whose company and wit, and a certain daring
manner, Harry had a great liking too—“You young Argus!
you may look with all your hundred eyes and see we play fair.
I’ve played away an estate of a night, and I’ve played
my shirt off my back; and I’ve played away my periwig and
gone home in a nightcap. But no man can say I ever took an
advantage of him beyond the advantage of the game. I played a
dice-cogging scoundrel in Alsatia for his ears and won ’em,
and have one of ’em in my lodging in Bow Street in a bottle
of spirits. Harry Mohun will play any man for anything—always
would.”
“You are playing awful stakes, my lord, in my
patron’s house,” Harry said, “and more games than
are on the cards.”
“What do you mean, sir?” cries my lord, turning
round, with a flush on his face.
“I mean,” answers Harry, in a sarcastic tone,
“that your gout is well—if ever you had it.”
“Sir!” cried my lord, getting hot.
“And to tell the truth I believe your lordship has no more
gout than I have. At any rate, change of air will do you good, my
Lord Mohun. And I mean fairly that you had better go from
Castlewood.”
“And were you appointed to give me this message?”
cries the Lord Mohun. “Did Frank Esmond commission
you?”
“No one did. ’Twas the honor of my family that
commissioned me.”
“And you are prepared to answer this?” cries the
other, furiously lashing his horses.
“Quite, my lord: your lordship will upset the carriage if
you whip so hotly.”
“By George, you have a brave spirit!” my lord cried
out, bursting into a laugh. “I suppose ’tis that
infernal botte de Jesuite that makes you so bold,” he
added.
“’Tis the peace of the family I love best in the
world,” Harry Esmond said warmly—”’tis the
honor of a noble benefactor—the happiness of my dear mistress
and her children. I owe them everything in life, my lord; and would
lay it down for any one of them. What brings you here to disturb
this quiet household? What keeps you lingering month after month in
the country? What makes you feign illness, and invent pretexts for
delay? Is it to win my poor patron’s money? Be generous, my
lord, and spare his weakness for the sake of his wife and children.
Is it to practise upon the simple heart of a virtuous lady? You
might as well storm the Tower single-handed. But you may blemish
her name by light comments on it, or by lawless pursuits—and
I don’t deny that ’tis in your power to make her
unhappy. Spare these innocent people, and leave them.”
“By the Lord, I believe thou hast an eye to the pretty
Puritan thyself, Master Harry,” says my lord, with his
reckless, good-humored laugh, and as if he had been listening with
interest to the passionate appeal of the young man. “Whisper,
Harry. Art thou in love with her thyself? Hath tipsy Frank Esmond
come by the way of all flesh?”
“My lord, my lord,” cried Harry, his face flushing
and his eyes filling as he spoke, “I never had a mother, but
I love this lady as one. I worship her as a devotee worships a
saint. To hear her name spoken lightly seems blasphemy to me. Would
you dare think of your own mother so, or suffer any one so to speak
of her? It is a horror to me to fancy that any man should think of
her impurely. I implore you, I beseech you, to leave her. Danger
will come out of it.”
“Danger, psha!” says my lord, giving a cut to the
horses, which at this minute—for we were got on to the
Downs—fairly ran off into a gallop that no pulling could
stop. The rein broke in Lord Mohun’s hands, and the furious
beasts scampered madly forwards, the carriage swaying to and fro,
and the persons within it holding on to the sides as best they
might, until seeing a great ravine before them, where an upset was
inevitable, the two gentlemen leapt for their lives, each out of
his side of the chaise. Harry Esmond was quit for a fall on the
grass, which was so severe that it stunned him for a minute; but he
got up presently very sick, and bleeding at the nose, but with no
other hurt. The Lord Mohun was not so fortunate; he fell on his
head against a stone, and lay on the ground, dead to all
appearance.
This misadventure happened as the gentlemen were on their return
homewards; and my Lord Castlewood, with his son and daughter, who
were going out for a ride, met the ponies as they were galloping
with the car behind, the broken traces entangling their heels, and
my lord’s people turned and stopped them. It was young Frank
who spied out Lord Mohun’s scarlet coat as he lay on the
ground, and the party made up to that unfortunate gentleman and
Esmond, who was now standing over him. His large periwig and
feathered hat had fallen off, and he was bleeding profusely from a
wound on the forehead, and looking, and being, indeed, a
corpse.
“Great God! he’s dead!” says my lord.
“Ride, some one: fetch a doctor—stay. I’ll go
home and bring back Tusher; he knows surgery,” and my lord,
with his son after him, galloped away.
They were scarce gone when Harry Esmond, who was indeed but just
come to himself, bethought him of a similar accident which he had
seen on a ride from Newmarket to Cambridge, and taking off a sleeve
of my lord’s coat, Harry, with a penknife, opened a vein of
his arm, and was greatly relieved, after a moment, to see the blood
flow. He was near half an hour before he came to himself, by which
time Doctor Tusher and little Frank arrived, and found my lord not
a corpse indeed, but as pale as one.
After a time, when he was able to bear motion, they put my lord
upon a groom’s horse, and gave the other to Esmond, the men
walking on each side of my lord, to support him, if need were, and
worthy Doctor Tusher with them. Little Frank and Harry rode
together at a foot pace.
When we rode together home, the boy said: “We met mamma,
who was walking on the terrace with the doctor, and papa frightened
her, and told her you were dead . . .”
“That I was dead!” asks Harry.
“Yes. Papa says: ‘Here’s poor Harry killed, my
dear;’ on which mamma gives a great scream; and oh, Harry!
she drops down; and I thought she was dead too. And you never saw
such a way as papa was in: he swore one of his great oaths: and he
turned quite pale; and then he began to laugh somehow, and he told
the Doctor to take his horse, and me to follow him; and we left
him. And I looked back, and saw him dashing water out of the
fountain on to mamma. Oh, she was so frightened!”
Musing upon this curious history—for my Lord Mohun’s
name was Henry too, and they called each other Frank and Harry
often—and not a little disturbed and anxious, Esmond rode
home. His dear lady was on the terrace still, one of her women with
her, and my lord no longer there. There are steps and a little door
thence down into the road. My lord passed, looking very ghastly,
with a handkerchief over his head, and without his hat and periwig,
which a groom carried, but his politeness did not desert him, and
he made a bow to the lady above.
“Thank heaven, you are safe,” she said.
“And so is Harry too, mamma,” says little
Frank,—“huzzay!”
Harry Esmond got off the horse to run to his mistress, as did
little Frank, and one of the grooms took charge of the two beasts,
while the other, hat and periwig in hand, walked by my lord’s
bridle to the front gate, which lay half a mile away.
“Oh, my boy! what a fright you have given me!” Lady
Castlewood said, when Harry Esmond came up, greeting him with one
of her shining looks, and a voice of tender welcome; and she was so
kind as to kiss the young man (’twas the second time she had
so honored him), and she walked into the house between him and her
son, holding a hand of each.
After a repose of a couple of days, the Lord Mohun was so far
recovered of his hurt as to be able to announce his departure for
the next morning; when, accordingly, he took leave of Castlewood,
proposing to ride to London by easy stages, and lie two nights upon
the road. His host treated him with a studied and ceremonious
courtesy, certainly different from my lord’s usual frank and
careless demeanor; but there was no reason to suppose that the two
lords parted otherwise than good friends, though Harry Esmond
remarked that my Lord Viscount only saw his guest in company with
other persons, and seemed to avoid being alone with him. Nor did he
ride any distance with Lord Mohun, as his custom was with most of
his friends, whom he was always eager to welcome and unwilling to
lose; but contented himself, when his lordship’s horses were
announced, and their owner appeared, booted for his journey, to
take a courteous leave of the ladies of Castlewood, by following
the Lord Mohun down stairs to his horses, and by bowing and wishing
him a good-day, in the court-yard. “I shall see you in London
before very long, Mohun,” my lord said, with a smile,
“when we will settle our accounts together.”
“Do not let them trouble you, Frank,” said the other
good-naturedly, and holding out his hand, looked rather surprised
at the grim and stately manner in which his host received his
parting salutation; and so, followed by his people, he rode
away.
Harry Esmond was witness of the departure. It was very different
to my lord’s coming, for which great preparation had been
made (the old house putting on its best appearance to welcome its
guest), and there was a sadness and constraint about all persons
that day, which filled Mr. Esmond with gloomy forebodings, and sad
indefinite apprehensions. Lord Castlewood stood at the door
watching his guest and his people as they went out under the arch
of the outer gate. When he was there, Lord Mohun turned once more,
my Lord Viscount slowly raised his beaver and bowed. His face wore
a peculiar livid look, Harry thought. He cursed and kicked away his
dogs, which came jumping about him—then he walked up to the
fountain in the centre of the court, and leaned against a pillar
and looked into the basin. As Esmond crossed over to his own room,
late the chaplain’s, on the other side of the court, and
turned to enter in at the low door, he saw Lady Castlewood looking
through the curtains of the great window of the drawing-room
overhead, at my lord as he stood regarding the fountain. There was
in the court a peculiar silence somehow; and the scene remained
long in Esmond’s memory:—the sky bright overhead; the
buttresses of the building and the sun-dial casting shadow over the
gilt memento mori inscribed underneath; the two dogs, a black
greyhound and a spaniel nearly white, the one with his face up to
the sun, and the other snuffing amongst the grass and stones, and
my lord leaning over the fountain, which was bubbling audibly.
’Tis strange how that scene, and the sound of that fountain,
remain fixed on the memory of a man who has beheld a hundred sights
of splendor, and danger too, of which he has kept no account.
It was Lady Castlewood—she had been laughing all the
morning, and especially gay and lively before her husband and his
guest—who as soon as the two gentlemen went together from her
room, ran to Harry, the expression of her countenance quite changed
now, and with a face and eyes full of care, and said, “Follow
them, Harry, I am sure something has gone wrong.” And so it
was that Esmond was made an eavesdropper at this lady’s
orders and retired to his own chamber, to give himself time in
truth to try and compose a story which would soothe his mistress,
for he could not but have his own apprehension that some serious
quarrel was pending between the two gentlemen.
And now for several days the little company at Castlewood sat at
table as of evenings: this care, though unnamed and invisible,
being nevertheless present alway, in the minds of at least three
persons there. My lord was exceeding gentle and kind. Whenever he
quitted the room, his wife’s eyes followed him. He behaved to
her with a kind of mournful courtesy and kindness remarkable in one
of his blunt ways and ordinary rough manner. He called her by her
Christian name often and fondly, was very soft and gentle with the
children, especially with the boy, whom he did not love, and being
lax about church generally, he went thither and performed all the
offices (down even to listening to Dr. Tusher’s sermon) with
great devotion.
“He paces his room all night; what is it? Henry, find out
what it is,” Lady Castlewood said constantly to her young
dependant. “He has sent three letters to London,” she
said, another day.
“Indeed, madam, they were to a lawyer,” Harry
answered, who knew of these letters, and had seen a part of the
correspondence, which related to a new loan my lord was raising;
and when the young man remonstrated with his patron, my lord said,
“He was only raising money to pay off an old debt on the
property, which must be discharged.”
Regarding the money, Lady Castlewood was not in the least
anxious. Few fond women feel money-distressed; indeed you can
hardly give a woman a greater pleasure than to bid her pawn her
diamonds for the man she loves; and I remember hearing Mr. Congreve
say of my Lord Marlborough, that the reason why my lord was so
successful with women as a young man, was because he took money of
them. “There are few men who will make such a sacrifice for
them,” says Mr. Congreve, who knew a part of the sex pretty
well.
Harry Esmond’s vacation was just over, and, as hath been
said, he was preparing to return to the University for his last
term before taking his degree and entering into the Church. He had
made up his mind for this office, not indeed with that reverence
which becomes a man about to enter upon a duty so holy, but with a
worldly spirit of acquiescence in the prudence of adopting that
profession for his calling. But his reasoning was that he owed all
to the family of Castlewood, and loved better to be near them than
anywhere else in the world; that he might be useful to his
benefactors, who had the utmost confidence in him and affection for
him in return; that he might aid in bringing up the young heir of
the house and acting as his governor; that he might continue to be
his dear patron’s and mistress’s friend and adviser,
who both were pleased to say that they should ever look upon him as
such; and so, by making himself useful to those he loved best, he
proposed to console himself for giving up of any schemes of
ambition which he might have had in his own bosom. Indeed, his
mistress had told him that she would not have him leave her; and
whatever she commanded was will to him.
The Lady Castlewood’s mind was greatly relieved in the
last few days of this well-remembered holiday time, by my
lord’s announcing one morning, after the post had brought him
letters from London, in a careless tone, that the Lord Mohun was
gone to Paris, and was about to make a great journey in Europe; and
though Lord Castlewood’s own gloom did not wear off, or his
behavior alter, yet this cause of anxiety being removed from his
lady’s mind, she began to be more hopeful and easy in her
spirits, striving too, with all her heart, and by all the means of
soothing in her power, to call back my lord’s cheerfulness
and dissipate his moody humor.
He accounted for it himself, by saying that he was out of
health; that he wanted to see his physician; that he would go to
London, and consult Doctor Cheyne. It was agreed that his lordship
and Harry Esmond should make the journey as far as London together;
and of a Monday morning, the 11th of October, in the year 1700,
they set forwards towards London on horseback. The day before being
Sunday, and the rain pouring down, the family did not visit church;
and at night my lord read the service to his family very finely,
and with a peculiar sweetness and gravity—speaking the
parting benediction, Harry thought, as solemn as ever he heard it.
And he kissed and embraced his wife and children before they went
to their own chambers with more fondness than he was ordinarily
wont to show, and with a solemnity and feeling of which they
thought in after days with no small comfort.
They took horse the next morning (after adieux from the family
as tender as on the night previous), lay that night on the road,
and entered London at nightfall; my lord going to the
“Trumpet,” in the Cockpit, Whitehall, a house used by
the military in his time as a young man, and accustomed by his
lordship ever since.
An hour after my lord’s arrival (which showed that his
visit had been arranged beforehand), my lord’s man of
business arrived from Gray’s Inn; and thinking that his
patron might wish to be private with the lawyer, Esmond was for
leaving them: but my lord said his business was short; introduced
Mr. Esmond particularly to the lawyer, who had been engaged for the
family in the old lord’s time; who said that he had paid the
money, as desired that day, to my Lord Mohun himself, at his
lodgings in Bow Street; that his lordship had expressed some
surprise, as it was not customary to employ lawyers, he said, in
such transactions between men of honor; but nevertheless, he had
returned my Lord Viscount’s note of hand, which he held at
his client’s disposition.
“I thought the Lord Mohun had been in Paris!” cried
Mr. Esmond, in great alarm and astonishment.
“He is come back at my invitation,” said my Lord
Viscount. “We have accounts to settle together.”
“I pray heaven they are over, sir,” says Esmond.
“Oh, quite,” replied the other, looking hard at the
young man. “He was rather troublesome about that money which
I told you I had lost to him at play. And now ’tis paid, and
we are quits on that score, and we shall meet good friends
again.”
“My lord,” cried out Esmond, “I am sure you
are deceiving me, and that there is a quarrel between the Lord
Mohun and you.”
“Quarrel—pish! We shall sup together this very
night, and drink a bottle. Every man is ill-humored who loses such
a sum as I have lost. But now ’tis paid, and my anger is gone
with it.”
“Where shall we sup, sir?” says Harry.
“WE! Let some gentlemen wait till they are asked,”
says my Lord Viscount with a laugh. “You go to Duke Street,
and see Mr. Betterton. You love the play, I know. Leave me to
follow my own devices: and in the morning we’ll breakfast
together, with what appetite we may, as the play says.”
“By G—! my lord, I will not leave you this
night,” says Harry Esmond. “I think I know the cause of
your dispute. I swear to you ’tis nothing. On the very day
the accident befell Lord Mohun, I was speaking to him about it. I
know that nothing has passed but idle gallantry on his
part.”
“You know that nothing has passed but idle gallantry
between Lord Mohun and my wife,” says my lord, in a
thundering voice—“you knew of this and did not tell
me?”
“I knew more of it than my dear mistress did herself,
sir—a thousand times more. How was she, who was as innocent
as a child, to know what was the meaning of the covert addresses of
a villain?”
“A villain he is, you allow, and would have taken my wife
away from me.”
“Sir, she is as pure as an angel,” cried young
Esmond.
“Have I said a word against her?” shrieks out my
lord. “Did I ever doubt that she was pure? It would have been
the last day of her life when I did. Do you fancy I think that SHE
would go astray? No, she hasn’t passion enough for that. She
neither sins nor forgives. I know her temper—and now
I’ve lost her, by heaven I love her ten thousand times more
than ever I did—yes, when she was as young and as beautiful
as an angel—when she smiled at me in her old father’s
house, and used to lie in wait for me there as I came from
hunting—when I used to fling my head down on her little knees
and cry like a child on her lap—and swear I would reform, and
drink no more and play no more, and follow women no more; when all
the men of the Court used to be following her—when she used
to look with her child more beautiful, by George, than the Madonna
in the Queen’s Chapel. I am not good like her, I know it. Who
is—by heaven, who is? I tired and wearied her, I know that
very well. I could not talk to her. You men of wit and books could
do that, and I couldn’t—I felt I couldn’t. Why,
when you was but a boy of fifteen I could hear you two together
talking your poetry and your books till I was in such a rage that I
was fit to strangle you. But you were always a good lad, Harry, and
I loved you, you know I did. And I felt she didn’t belong to
me: and the children don’t. And I besotted myself, and
gambled and drank, and took to all sorts of deviltries out of
despair and fury. And now comes this Mohun, and she likes him, I
know she likes him.”
“Indeed, and on my soul, you are wrong, sir,” Esmond
cried.
“She takes letters from him,” cries my
lord—“look here, Harry,” and he pulled out a
paper with a brown stain of blood upon it. “It fell from him
that day he wasn’t killed. One of the grooms picked it up
from the ground and gave it me. Here it is in their d—d
comedy jargon. ‘Divine Gloriana—Why look so coldly on
your slave who adores you? Have you no compassion on the tortures
you have seen me suffering? Do you vouchsafe no reply to billets
that are written with the blood of my heart.’ She had more
letters from him.”
“But she answered none,” cries Esmond.
“That’s not Mohun’s fault,” says my
lord, “and I will be revenged on him, as God’s in
heaven, I will.”
“For a light word or two, will you risk your lady’s
honor and your family’s happiness, my lord?” Esmond
interposed beseechingly.
“Psha—there shall be no question of my wife’s
honor,” said my lord; “we can quarrel on plenty of
grounds beside. If I live, that villain will be punished; if I
fall, my family will be only the better: there will only be a
spendthrift the less to keep in the world: and Frank has better
teaching than his father. My mind is made up, Harry Esmond, and
whatever the event is, I am easy about it. I leave my wife and you
as guardians to the children.”
Seeing that my lord was bent upon pursuing this quarrel, and
that no entreaties would draw him from it, Harry Esmond (then of a
hotter and more impetuous nature than now, when care, and
reflection, and gray hairs have calmed him) thought it was his duty
to stand by his kind, generous patron, and said, “My lord, if
you are determined upon war, you must not go into it alone.
’Tis the duty of our house to stand by its chief; and I
should neither forgive myself nor you if you did not call me, or I
should be absent from you at a moment of danger.”
“Why, Harry, my poor boy, you are bred for a
parson,” says my lord, taking Esmond by the hand very kindly;
“and it were a great pity that you should meddle in the
matter.”
“Your lordship thought of being a churchman once,”
Harry answered, “and your father’s orders did not
prevent him fighting at Castlewood against the Roundheads. Your
enemies are mine, sir; I can use the foils, as you have seen,
indifferently well, and don’t think I shall be afraid when
the buttons are taken off ’em.” And then Harry
explained, with some blushes and hesitation (for the matter was
delicate, and he feared lest, by having put himself forward in the
quarrel, he might have offended his patron), how he had himself
expostulated with the Lord Mohun, and proposed to measure swords
with him if need were, and he could not be got to withdraw
peaceably in this dispute. “And I should have beat him,
sir,” says Harry, laughing. “He never could parry that
botte I brought from Cambridge. Let us have half an hour of it, and
rehearse—I can teach it your lordship: ’tis the most
delicate point in the world, and if you miss it, your
adversary’s sword is through you.”
“By George, Harry, you ought to be the head of the
house,” says my lord, gloomily. “You had been a better
Lord Castlewood than a lazy sot like me,” he added, drawing
his hand across his eyes, and surveying his kinsman with very kind
and affectionate glances.
“Let us take our coats off and have half an hour’s
practice before nightfall,” says Harry, after thankfully
grasping his patron’s manly hand.
“You are but a little bit of a lad,” says my lord,
good-humoredly; “but, in faith, I believe you could do for
that fellow. No, my boy,” he continued, “I’ll
have none of your feints and tricks of stabbing: I can use my sword
pretty well too, and will fight my own quarrel my own
way.”
“But I shall be by to see fair play?” cries
Harry.
“Yes, God bless you—you shall be by.”
“When is it, sir?” says Harry, for he saw that the
matter had been arranged privately and beforehand by my lord.
“’Tis arranged thus: I sent off a courier to Jack
Westbury to say that I wanted him specially. He knows for what, and
will be here presently, and drink part of that bottle of sack. Then
we shall go to the theatre in Duke Street, where we shall meet
Mohun; and then we shall all go sup at the ‘Rose’ or
the ‘Greyhound.’ Then we shall call for cards, and
there will be probably a difference over the cards—and then,
God help us!—either a wicked villain and traitor shall go out
of the world, or a poor worthless devil, that doesn’t care to
remain in it. I am better away, Hal—my wife will be all the
happier when I am gone,” says my lord, with a groan, that
tore the heart of Harry Esmond, so that he fairly broke into a sob
over his patron’s kind hand.
“The business was talked over with Mohun before he left
home—Castlewood I mean”—my lord went on. “I
took the letter in to him, which I had read, and I charged him with
his villainy, and he could make no denial of it, only he said that
my wife was innocent.”
“And so she is; before heaven, my lord, she is!”
cries Harry.
“No doubt, no doubt. They always are,” says my lord.
“No doubt, when she heard he was killed, she fainted from
accident.”
“But, my lord, MY name is Harry,” cried out Esmond,
burning red. “You told my lady, ‘Harry was
killed!’”
“Damnation! shall I fight you too?” shouts my lord
in a fury. “Are you, you little serpent, warmed by my fire,
going to sting—YOU?—No, my boy, you’re an honest
boy; you are a good boy.” (And here he broke from rage into
tears even more cruel to see.) “You are an honest boy, and I
love you; and, by heavens, I am so wretched that I don’t care
what sword it is that ends me. Stop, here’s Jack Westbury.
Well, Jack! Welcome, old boy! This is my kinsman, Harry
Esmond.”
“Who brought your bowls for you at Castlewood, sir?”
says Harry, bowing; and the three gentlemen sat down and drank of
that bottle of sack which was prepared for them.
“Harry is number three,” says my lord. “You
needn’t be afraid of him, Jack.” And the Colonel gave a
look, as much as to say, “Indeed, he don’t look as if I
need.” And then my lord explained what he had only told by
hints before. When he quarrelled with Lord Mohun he was indebted to
his lordship in a sum of sixteen hundred pounds, for which Lord
Mohun said he proposed to wait until my Lord Viscount should pay
him. My lord had raised the sixteen hundred pounds and sent them to
Lord Mohun that morning, and before quitting home had put his
affairs into order, and was now quite ready to abide the issue of
the quarrel.
When we had drunk a couple of bottles of sack, a coach was
called, and the three gentlemen went to the Duke’s Playhouse,
as agreed. The play was one of Mr.
Wycherley’s—“Love in a Wood.”
Harry Esmond has thought of that play ever since with a kind of
terror, and of Mrs. Bracegirdle, the actress who performed the
girl’s part in the comedy. She was disguised as a page, and
came and stood before the gentlemen as they sat on the stage, and
looked over her shoulder with a pair of arch black eyes, and
laughed at my lord, and asked what ailed the gentleman from the
country, and had he had bad news from Bullock fair?
Between the acts of the play the gentlemen crossed over and
conversed freely. There were two of Lord Mohun’s party,
Captain Macartney, in a military habit, and a gentleman in a suit
of blue velvet and silver in a fair periwig, with a rich fall of
point of Venice lace—my Lord the Earl of Warwick and Holland.
My lord had a paper of oranges, which he ate and offered to the
actresses, joking with them. And Mrs. Bracegirdle, when my Lord
Mohun said something rude, turned on him, and asked him what he did
there, and whether he and his friends had come to stab anybody
else, as they did poor Will Mountford? My lord’s dark face
grew darker at this taunt, and wore a mischievous, fatal look. They
that saw it remembered it, and said so afterward.
When the play was ended the two parties joined company; and my
Lord Castlewood then proposed that they should go to a tavern and
sup. Lockit’s, the “Greyhound,” in Charing Cross,
was the house selected. All six marched together that way; the
three lords going a-head, Lord Mohun’s captain, and Colonel
Westbury, and Harry Esmond, walking behind them. As they walked,
Westbury told Harry Esmond about his old friend Dick the Scholar,
who had got promotion, and was Cornet of the Guards, and had wrote
a book called the “Christian Hero,” and had all the
Guards to laugh at him for his pains, for the Christian Hero was
breaking the commandments constantly, Westbury said, and had fought
one or two duels already. And, in a lower tone, Westbury besought
young Mr. Esmond to take no part in the quarrel. “There was
no need for more seconds than one,” said the Colonel,
“and the Captain or Lord Warwick might easily
withdraw.” But Harry said no; he was bent on going through
with the business. Indeed, he had a plan in his head, which, he
thought, might prevent my Lord Viscount from engaging.
They went in at the bar of the tavern, and desired a private
room and wine and cards, and when the drawer had brought these,
they began to drink and call healths, and as long as the servants
were in the room appeared very friendly.
Harry Esmond’s plan was no other than to engage in talk
with Lord Mohun, to insult him, and so get the first of the
quarrel. So when cards were proposed he offered to play.
“Psha!” says my Lord Mohun (whether wishing to save
Harry, or not choosing, to try the botte de Jesuite, it is not to
be known)—“Young gentlemen from college should not play
these stakes. You are too young.”
“Who dares say I am too young?” broke out Harry.
“Is your lordship afraid?”
“Afraid!” cries out Mohun.
But my good Lord Viscount saw the move—“I’ll
play you for ten moidores, Mohun,” says he. “You silly
boy, we don’t play for groats here as you do at
Cambridge.” And Harry, who had no such sum in his pocket (for
his half-year’s salary was always pretty well spent before it
was due), fell back with rage and vexation in his heart that he had
not money enough to stake.
“I’ll stake the young gentleman a crown,” says
the Lord Mohun’s captain.
“I thought crowns were rather scarce with the gentlemen of
the army,” says Harry.
“Do they birch at College?” says the Captain.
“They birch fools,” says Harry, “and they cane
bullies, and they fling puppies into the water.”
“Faith, then, there’s some escapes drowning,”
says the Captain, who was an Irishman; and all the gentlemen began
to laugh, and made poor Harry only more angry.
My Lord Mohun presently snuffed a candle. It was when the
drawers brought in fresh bottles and glasses and were in the room
on which my Lord Viscount said—“The Deuce take you,
Mohun, how damned awkward you are. Light the candle, you
drawer.”
“Damned awkward is a damned awkward expression, my
lord,” says the other. “Town gentlemen don’t use
such words—or ask pardon if they do.”
“I’m a country gentleman,” says my Lord
Viscount.
“I see it by your manner,” says my Lord Mohun.
“No man shall say damned awkward to me.”
“I fling the words in your face, my lord,” says the
other; “shall I send the cards too?”
“Gentlemen, gentlemen! before the servants?” cry out
Colonel Westbury and my Lord Warwick in a breath. The drawers go
out of the room hastily. They tell the people below of the quarrel
up stairs.
“Enough has been said,” says Colonel Westbury.
“Will your lordships meet tomorrow morning?”
“Will my Lord Castlewood withdraw his words?” asks
the Earl of Warwick.
“My Lord Castlewood will be —— first,”
says Colonel Westbury.
“Then we have nothing for it. Take notice, gentlemen,
there have been outrageous words—reparation asked and
refused.”
“And refused,” says my Lord Castlewood, putting on
his hat. “Where shall the meeting be? and when?”
“Since my Lord refuses me satisfaction, which I deeply
regret, there is no time so good as now,” says my Lord Mohun.
“Let us have chairs and go to Leicester Field.”
“Are your lordship and I to have the honor of exchanging a
pass or two?” says Colonel Westbury, with a low bow to my
Lord of Warwick and Holland.
“It is an honor for me,” says my lord, with a
profound congee, “to be matched with a gentleman who has been
at Mons and Namur.”
“Will your Reverence permit me to give you a
lesson?” says the Captain.
“Nay, nay, gentlemen, two on a side are plenty,”
says Harry’s patron. “Spare the boy, Captain
Macartney,” and he shook Harry’s hand—for the
last time, save one, in his life.
At the bar of the tavern all the gentlemen stopped, and my Lord
Viscount said, laughing, to the barwoman, that those cards set
people sadly a-quarrelling; but that the dispute was over now, and
the parties were all going away to my Lord Mohun’s house, in
Bow Street, to drink a bottle more before going to bed.
A half-dozen of chairs were now called, and the six gentlemen
stepping into them, the word was privately given to the chairmen to
go to Leicester Field, where the gentlemen were set down opposite
the “Standard Tavern.” It was midnight, and the town
was abed by this time, and only a few lights in the windows of the
houses; but the night was bright enough for the unhappy purpose
which the disputants came about; and so all six entered into that
fatal square, the chairmen standing without the railing and keeping
the gate, lest any persons should disturb the meeting.
All that happened there hath been matter of public notoriety,
and is recorded, for warning to lawless men, in the annals of our
country. After being engaged for not more than a couple of minutes,
as Harry Esmond thought (though being occupied at the time with his
own adversary’s point, which was active, he may not have
taken a good note of time), a cry from the chairmen without, who
were smoking their pipes, and leaning over the railings of the
field as they watched the dim combat within, announced that some
catastrophe had happened, which caused Esmond to drop his sword and
look round, at which moment his enemy wounded him in the right
hand. But the young man did not heed this hurt much, and ran up to
the place where he saw his dear master was down.
My Lord Mohun was standing over him.
“Are you much hurt, Frank?” he asked in a hollow
voice.
“I believe I am a dead man,” my lord said from the
ground.
“No, no, not so,” says the other; “and I call
God to witness, Frank Esmond, that I would have asked your pardon,
had you but given me a chance. In—in the first cause of our
falling out, I swear that no one was to blame but me, and—and
that my lady—”
“Hush!” says my poor Lord Viscount, lifting himself
on his elbow and speaking faintly. “’Twas a dispute
about the cards—the cursed cards. Harry my boy, are you
wounded, too? God help thee! I loved thee, Harry, and thou must
watch over my little Frank—and—and carry this little
heart to my wife.”
And here my dear lord felt in his breast for a locket he wore
there, and, in the act, fell back fainting.
We were all at this terrified, thinking him dead; but Esmond and
Colonel Westbury bade the chairmen come into the field; and so my
lord was carried to one Mr. Aimes, a surgeon, in Long Acre, who
kept a bath, and there the house was wakened up, and the victim of
this quarrel carried in.
My Lord Viscount was put to bed, and his wound looked to by the
surgeon, who seemed both kind and skilful. When he had looked to my
lord, he bandaged up Harry Esmond’s hand (who, from loss of
blood, had fainted too, in the house, and may have been some time
unconscious); and when the young man came to himself, you may be
sure he eagerly asked what news there were of his dear patron; on
which the surgeon carried him to the room where the Lord Castlewood
lay; who had already sent for a priest; and desired earnestly, they
said, to speak with his kinsman. He was lying on a bed, very pale
and ghastly, with that fixed, fatal look in his eyes, which
betokens death; and faintly beckoning all the other persons away
from him with his hand, and crying out “Only Harry
Esmond,” the hand fell powerless down on the coverlet, as
Harry came forward, and knelt down and kissed it.
“Thou art all but a priest, Harry,” my Lord Viscount
gasped out, with a faint smile, and pressure of his cold hand.
“Are they all gone? Let me make thee a death-bed
confession.”
And with sacred Death waiting, as it were, at the bed-foot, as
an awful witness of his words, the poor dying soul gasped out his
last wishes in respect of his family;—his humble profession
of contrition for his faults;—and his charity towards the
world he was leaving. Some things he said concerned Harry Esmond as
much as they astonished him. And my Lord Viscount, sinking visibly,
was in the midst of these strange confessions, when the
ecclesiastic for whom my lord had sent, Mr. Atterbury, arrived.
This gentleman had reached to no great church dignity as yet,
but was only preacher at St. Bride’s, drawing all the town
thither by his eloquent sermons. He was godson to my lord, who had
been pupil to his father; had paid a visit to Castlewood from
Oxford more than once; and it was by his advice, I think, that
Harry Esmond was sent to Cambridge, rather than to Oxford, of which
place Mr. Atterbury, though a distinguished member, spoke but
ill.
Our messenger found the good priest already at his books at five
o’clock in the morning, and he followed the man eagerly to
the house where my poor Lord Viscount lay—Esmond watching
him, and taking his dying words from his mouth.
My lord, hearing of Mr. Atterbury’s arrival, and squeezing
Esmond’s hand, asked to be alone with the priest; and Esmond
left them there for this solemn interview. You may be sure that his
own prayers and grief accompanied that dying benefactor. My lord
had said to him that which confounded the young man—informed
him of a secret which greatly concerned him. Indeed, after hearing
it, he had had good cause for doubt and dismay; for mental anguish
as well as resolution. While the colloquy between Mr. Atterbury and
his dying penitent took place within, an immense contest of
perplexity was agitating Lord Castlewood’s young
companion.
At the end of an hour—it may be more—Mr. Atterbury
came out of the room, looking very hard at Esmond, and holding a
paper.
“He is on the brink of God’s awful judgment,”
the priest whispered. “He has made his breast clean to me. He
forgives and believes, and makes restitution. Shall it be in
public? Shall we call a witness to sign it?”
“God knows,” sobbed out the young man, “my
dearest lord has only done me kindness all his life.”
The priest put the paper into Esmond’s hand. He looked at
it. It swam before his eyes.
“’Tis a confession,” he said.
“’Tis as you please,” said Mr. Atterbury.
There was a fire in the room where the cloths were drying for
the baths, and there lay a heap in a corner saturated with the
blood of my dear lord’s body. Esmond went to the fire, and
threw the paper into it. ’Twas a great chimney with glazed
Dutch tiles. How we remember such trifles at such awful
moments!—the scrap of the book that we have read in a great
grief—the taste of that last dish that we have eaten before a
duel, or some such supreme meeting or parting. On the Dutch tiles
at the Bagnio was a rude picture representing Jacob in hairy
gloves, cheating Isaac of Esau’s birthright. The burning
paper lighted it up.
“’Tis only a confession, Mr. Atterbury,” said
the young man. He leaned his head against the mantel-piece: a burst
of tears came to his eyes. They were the first he had shed as he
sat by his lord, scared by this calamity, and more yet by what the
poor dying gentleman had told him, and shocked to think that he
should be the agent of bringing this double misfortune on those he
loved best.
“Let us go to him,” said Mr. Esmond. And accordingly
they went into the next chamber, where by this time, the dawn had
broke, which showed my lord’s poor pale face and wild
appealing eyes, that wore that awful fatal look of coming
dissolution. The surgeon was with him. He went into the chamber as
Atterbury came out thence. My Lord Viscount turned round his sick
eyes towards Esmond. It choked the other to hear that rattle in his
throat.
“My Lord Viscount,” says Mr. Atterbury, “Mr.
Esmond wants no witnesses, and hath burned the paper.”
“My dearest master!” Esmond said, kneeling down, and
taking his hand and kissing it.
My Lord Viscount sprang up in his bed, and flung his arms round
Esmond. “God bl—bless—” was all he said.
The blood rushed from his mouth, deluging the young man. My dearest
lord was no more. He was gone with a blessing on his lips, and love
and repentance and kindness in his manly heart.
“Benedicti benedicentes,” says Mr. Atterbury, and
the young man, kneeling at the bedside, groaned out an
“Amen.”
“Who shall take the news to her?” was Mr.
Esmond’s next thought. And on this he besought Mr. Atterbury
to bear the tidings to Castlewood. He could not face his mistress
himself with those dreadful news. Mr. Atterbury complying kindly,
Esmond writ a hasty note on his table-book to my lord’s man,
bidding him get the horses for Mr. Atterbury, and ride with him,
and send Esmond’s own valise to the Gatehouse prison, whither
he resolved to go and give himself up.
BOOK II.
Contains Mr. Esmond’s Military Life, and Other Matters
Appertaining to the Esmond Family.
Those may imagine, who have seen death untimely strike down
persons revered and beloved, and know how unavailing consolation
is, what was Harry Esmond’s anguish after being an actor in
that ghastly midnight scene of blood and homicide. He could not, he
felt, have faced his dear mistress, and told her that story. He was
thankful that kind Atterbury consented to break the sad news to
her; but, besides his grief, which he took into prison with him, he
had that in his heart which secretly cheered and consoled him.
A great secret had been told to Esmond by his unhappy stricken
kinsman, lying on his death-bed. Were he to disclose it, as in
equity and honor he might do, the discovery would but bring greater
grief upon those whom he loved best in the world, and who were sad
enough already. Should he bring down shame and perplexity upon all
those beings to whom he was attached by so many tender ties of
affection and gratitude? degrade his father’s widow? impeach
and sully his father’s and kinsman’s honor? and for
what? for a barren title, to be worn at the expense of an innocent
boy, the son of his dearest benefactress. He had debated this
matter in his conscience, whilst his poor lord was making his dying
confession. On one side were ambition, temptation, justice even;
but love, gratitude, and fidelity, pleaded on the other. And when
the struggle was over in Harry’s mind, a glow of righteous
happiness filled it; and it was with grateful tears in his eyes
that he returned thanks to God for that decision which he had been
enabled to make.
“When I was denied by my own blood,” thought he,
“these dearest friends received and cherished me. When I was
a nameless orphan myself, and needed a protector, I found one in
yonder kind soul, who has gone to his account repenting of the
innocent wrong he has done.”
And with this consoling thought he went away to give himself up
at the prison, after kissing the cold lips of his benefactor.
It was on the third day after he had come to the Gatehouse
prison, (where he lay in no small pain from his wound, which
inflamed and ached severely,) and with those thoughts and
resolutions that have been just spoke of, to depress, and yet to
console him, that H. Esmond’s keeper came and told him that a
visitor was asking for him, and though he could not see her face,
which was enveloped in a black hood, her whole figure, too, being
veiled and covered with the deepest mourning, Esmond knew at once
that his visitor was his dear mistress.
He got up from his bed, where he was lying, being very weak; and
advancing towards her as the retiring keeper shut the door upon him
and his guest in that sad place, he put forward his left hand (for
the right was wounded and bandaged), and he would have taken that
kind one of his mistress, which had done so many offices of
friendship for him for so many years.
But the Lady Castlewood went back from him, putting back her
hood, and leaning against the great stanchioned door which the
gaoler had just closed upon them. Her face was ghastly white, as
Esmond saw it, looking from the hood; and her eyes, ordinarily so
sweet and tender, were fixed on him with such a tragic glance of
woe and anger, as caused the young man, unaccustomed to unkindness
from that person, to avert his own glances from her face.
“And this, Mr. Esmond,” she said, “is where I
see you; and ’tis to this you have brought me!”
“You have come to console me in my calamity, madam,”
said he (though, in truth, he scarce knew how to address her, his
emotions at beholding her so overpowered him).
She advanced a little, but stood silent and trembling, looking
out at him from her black draperies, with her small white hands
clasped together, and quivering lips and hollow eyes.
“Not to reproach me,” he continued after a pause.
“My grief is sufficient as it is.”
“Take back your hand—do not touch me with it!”
she cried. “Look! there’s blood on it!”
“I wish they had taken it all,” said Esmond;
“if you are unkind to me.”
“Where is my husband?” she broke out. “Give me
back my husband, Henry. Why did you stand by at midnight and see
him murdered? Why did the traitor escape who did it? You, the
champion of your house, who offered to die for us! You that he
loved and trusted, and to whom I confided him—you that vowed
devotion and gratitude, and I believed you—yes, I believed
you—why are you here, and my noble Francis gone? Why did you
come among us? You have only brought us grief and sorrow; and
repentance, bitter, bitter repentance, as a return for our love and
kindness. Did I ever do you a wrong, Henry? You were but an orphan
child when I first saw you—when HE first saw you, who was so
good, and noble, and trusting. He would have had you sent away,
but, like a foolish woman, I besought him to let you stay. And you
pretended to love us, and we believed you—and you made our
house wretched, and my husband’s heart went from me: and I
lost him through you—I lost him—the husband of my
youth, I say. I worshipped him: you know I worshipped him—and
he was changed to me. He was no more my Francis of old—my
dear, dear soldier. He loved me before he saw you; and I loved him.
Oh, God is my witness how I loved him! Why did he not send you from
among us? ’Twas only his kindness, that could refuse me
nothing then. And, young as you were—yes, and weak and
alone—there was evil, I knew there was evil in keeping you. I
read it in your face and eyes. I saw that they boded harm to
us—and it came, I knew it would. Why did you not die when you
had the small-pox—and I came myself and watched you, and you
didn’t know me in your delirium—and you called out for
me, though I was there at your side? All that has happened since,
was a just judgment on my wicked heart—my wicked jealous
heart. Oh, I am punished—awfully punished! My husband lies in
his blood—murdered for defending me, my kind, kind, generous
lord—and you were by, and you let him die, Henry!”
These words, uttered in the wildness of her grief, by one who
was ordinarily quiet, and spoke seldom except with a gentle smile
and a soothing tone, rung in Esmond’s ear; and ’tis
said that he repeated many of them in the fever into which he now
fell from his wound, and perhaps from the emotion which such
passionate, undeserved upbraidings caused him. It seemed as if his
very sacrifices and love for this lady and her family were to turn
to evil and reproach: as if his presence amongst them was indeed a
cause of grief, and the continuance of his life but woe and
bitterness to theirs. As the Lady Castlewood spoke bitterly,
rapidly, without a tear, he never offered a word of appeal or
remonstrance: but sat at the foot of his prison-bed, stricken only
with the more pain at thinking it was that soft and beloved hand
which should stab him so cruelly, and powerless against her fatal
sorrow. Her words as she spoke struck the chords of all his memory,
and the whole of his boyhood and youth passed within him; whilst
this lady, so fond and gentle but yesterday—this good angel
whom he had loved and worshipped—stood before him, pursuing
him with keen words and aspect malign.
“I wish I were in my lord’s place,” he groaned
out. “It was not my fault that I was not there, madam. But
Fate is stronger than all of us, and willed what has come to pass.
It had been better for me to have died when I had the
illness.”
“Yes, Henry,” said she—and as she spoke she
looked at him with a glance that was at once so fond and so sad,
that the young man, tossing up his arms, wildly fell back, hiding
his head in the coverlet of the bed. As he turned he struck against
the wall with his wounded hand, displacing the ligature; and he
felt the blood rushing again from the wound. He remembered feeling
a secret pleasure at the accident—and thinking,
“Suppose I were to end now, who would grieve for
me?”
This hemorrhage, or the grief and despair in which the luckless
young man was at the time of the accident, must have brought on a
deliquium presently; for he had scarce any recollection afterwards,
save of some one, his mistress probably, seizing his hand—and
then of the buzzing noise in his ears as he awoke, with two or
three persons of the prison around his bed, whereon he lay in a
pool of blood from his arm.
It was now bandaged up again by the prison surgeon, who happened
to be in the place; and the governor’s wife and servant, kind
people both, were with the patient. Esmond saw his mistress still
in the room when he awoke from his trance; but she went away
without a word; though the governor’s wife told him that she
sat in her room for some time afterward, and did not leave the
prison until she heard that Esmond was likely to do well.
Days afterwards, when Esmond was brought out of a fever which he
had, and which attacked him that night pretty sharply, the honest
keeper’s wife brought her patient a handkerchief fresh washed
and ironed, and at the corner of which he recognized his
mistress’s well-known cipher and viscountess’s crown.
“The lady had bound it round his arm when he fainted, and
before she called for help,” the keeper’s wife said.
“Poor lady! she took on sadly about her husband. He has been
buried today, and a many of the coaches of the nobility went with
him—my Lord Marlborough’s and my Lord
Sunderland’s, and many of the officers of the Guards, in
which he served in the old King’s time; and my lady has been
with her two children to the King at Kensington, and asked for
justice against my Lord Mohun, who is in hiding, and my Lord the
Earl of Warwick and Holland, who is ready to give himself up and
take his trial.”
Such were the news, coupled with assertions about her own
honesty and that of Molly her maid, who would never have stolen a
certain trumpery gold sleeve-button of Mr. Esmond’s that was
missing after his fainting fit, that the keeper’s wife
brought to her lodger. His thoughts followed to that untimely
grave, the brave heart, the kind friend, the gallant gentleman,
honest of word and generous of thought, (if feeble of purpose, but
are his betters much stronger than he?) who had given him bread and
shelter when he had none; home and love when he needed them; and
who, if he had kept one vital secret from him, had done that of
which he repented ere dying—a wrong indeed, but one followed
by remorse, and occasioned by almost irresistible temptation.
Esmond took his handkerchief when his nurse left him, and very
likely kissed it, and looked at the bauble embroidered in the
corner. “It has cost thee grief enough,” he thought,
“dear lady, so loving and so tender. Shall I take it from
thee and thy children? No, never! Keep it, and wear it, my little
Frank, my pretty boy. If I cannot make a name for myself, I can die
without one. Some day, when my dear mistress sees my heart, I shall
be righted; or if not here or now, why, elsewhere; where Honor doth
not follow us, but where Love reigns perpetual.”
’Tis needless to relate here, as the reports of the
lawyers already have chronicled them, the particulars or issue of
that trial which ensued upon my Lord Castlewood’s melancholy
homicide. Of the two lords engaged in that sad matter, the second,
my Lord the Earl of Warwick and Holland, who had been engaged with
Colonel Westbury, and wounded by him, was found not guilty by his
peers, before whom he was tried (under the presidence of the Lord
Steward, Lord Somers); and the principal, the Lord Mohun, being
found guilty of the manslaughter, (which, indeed, was forced upon
him, and of which he repented most sincerely,) pleaded his clergy,
and so was discharged without any penalty. The widow of the slain
nobleman, as it was told us in prison, showed an extraordinary
spirit; and, though she had to wait for ten years before her son
was old enough to compass it, declared she would have revenge of
her husband’s murderer. So much and suddenly had grief,
anger, and misfortune appeared to change her. But fortune, good or
ill, as I take it, does not change men and women. It but develops
their characters. As there are a thousand thoughts lying within a
man that he does not know till he takes up the pen to write, so the
heart is a secret even to him (or her) who has it in his own
breast. Who hath not found himself surprised into revenge, or
action, or passion, for good or evil, whereof the seeds lay within
him, latent and unsuspected, until the occasion called them forth?
With the death of her lord, a change seemed to come over the whole
conduct and mind of Lady Castlewood; but of this we shall speak in
the right season and anon.
The lords being tried then before their peers at Westminster,
according to their privilege, being brought from the Tower with
state processions and barges, and accompanied by lieutenants and
axe-men, the commoners engaged in that melancholy fray took their
trial at Newgate, as became them; and, being all found guilty,
pleaded likewise their benefit of clergy. The sentence, as we all
know in these cases, is, that the culprit lies a year in prison, or
during the King’s pleasure, and is burned in the hand, or
only stamped with a cold iron; or this part of the punishment is
altogether remitted at the grace of the Sovereign. So Harry Esmond
found himself a criminal and a prisoner at two-and-twenty years
old; as for the two colonels, his comrades, they took the matter
very lightly. Duelling was a part of their business; and they could
not in honor refuse any invitations of that sort.
But the case was different with Mr. Esmond. His life was changed
by that stroke of the sword which destroyed his kind
patron’s. As he lay in prison, old Dr. Tusher fell ill and
died; and Lady Castlewood appointed Thomas Tusher to the vacant
living; about the filling of which she had a thousand times fondly
talked to Harry Esmond: how they never should part; how he should
educate her boy; how to be a country clergyman, like saintly George
Herbert or pious Dr. Ken, was the happiest and greatest lot in
life; how (if he were obstinately bent on it, though, for her part,
she owned rather to holding Queen Bess’s opinion, that a
bishop should have no wife, and if not a bishop why a clergyman?)
she would find a good wife for Harry Esmond: and so on, with a
hundred pretty prospects told by fireside evenings, in fond
prattle, as the children played about the hall. All these plans
were overthrown now. Thomas Tusher wrote to Esmond, as he lay in
prison, announcing that his patroness had conferred upon him the
living his reverend father had held for many years; that she never,
after the tragical events which had occurred (whereof Tom spoke
with a very edifying horror), could see in the revered
Tusher’s pulpit, or at her son’s table, the man who was
answerable for the father’s life; that her ladyship bade him
to say that she prayed for her kinsman’s repentance and his
worldly happiness; that he was free to command her aid for any
scheme of life which he might propose to himself; but that on this
side of the grave she would see him no more. And Tusher, for his
own part, added that Harry should have his prayers as a friend of
his youth, and commended him whilst he was in prison to read
certain works of theology, which his Reverence pronounced to be
very wholesome for sinners in his lamentable condition.
And this was the return for a life of devotion—this the
end of years of affectionate intercourse and passionate fidelity!
Harry would have died for his patron, and was held as little better
than his murderer: he had sacrificed, she did not know how much,
for his mistress, and she threw him aside; he had endowed her
family with all they had, and she talked about giving him alms as
to a menial! The grief for his patron’s loss; the pains of
his own present position, and doubts as to the future: all these
were forgotten under the sense of the consummate outrage which he
had to endure, and overpowered by the superior pang of that
torture.
He writ back a letter to Mr. Tusher from his prison,
congratulating his Reverence upon his appointment to the living of
Castlewood: sarcastically bidding him to follow in the footsteps of
his admirable father, whose gown had descended upon him; thanking
her ladyship for her offer of alms, which he said he should trust
not to need; and beseeching her to remember that, if ever her
determination should change towards him, he would be ready to give
her proofs of a fidelity which had never wavered, and which ought
never to have been questioned by that house. “And if we meet
no more, or only as strangers in this world,” Mr. Esmond
concluded, “a sentence against the cruelty and injustice of
which I disdain to appeal; hereafter she will know who was faithful
to her, and whether she had any cause to suspect the love and
devotion of her kinsman and servant.”
After the sending of this letter, the poor young fellow’s
mind was more at ease than it had been previously. The blow had
been struck, and he had borne it. His cruel goddess had shaken her
wings and fled: and left him alone and friendless, but virtute sua.
And he had to bear him up, at once the sense of his right and the
feeling of his wrongs, his honor and his misfortune. As I have seen
men waking and running to arms at a sudden trumpet, before
emergency a manly heart leaps up resolute; meets the threatening
danger with undaunted countenance; and, whether conquered or
conquering, faces it always. Ah! no man knows his strength or his
weakness, till occasion proves them. If there be some thoughts and
actions of his life from the memory of which a man shrinks with
shame, sure there are some which he may be proud to own and
remember; forgiven injuries, conquered temptations (now and then)
and difficulties vanquished by endurance.
It was these thoughts regarding the living, far more than any
great poignancy of grief respecting the dead, which affected Harry
Esmond whilst in prison after his trial: but it may be imagined
that he could take no comrade of misfortune into the confidence of
his feelings, and they thought it was remorse and sorrow for his
patron’s loss which affected the young man, in error of which
opinion he chose to leave them. As a companion he was so moody and
silent that the two officers, his fellow-sufferers, left him to
himself mostly, liked little very likely what they knew of him,
consoled themselves with dice, cards, and the bottle, and whiled
away their own captivity in their own way. It seemed to Esmond as
if he lived years in that prison: and was changed and aged when he
came out of it. At certain periods of life we live years of emotion
in a few weeks—and look back on those times, as on great gaps
between the old life and the new. You do not know how much you
suffer in those critical maladies of the heart, until the disease
is over and you look back on it afterwards. During the time, the
suffering is at least sufferable. The day passes in more or less of
pain, and the night wears away somehow. ’Tis only in after
days that we see what the danger has been—as a man out
a-hunting or riding for his life looks at a leap, and wonders how
he should have survived the taking of it. O dark months of grief
and rage! of wrong and cruel endurance! He is old now who recalls
you. Long ago he has forgiven and blest the soft hand that wounded
him: but the mark is there, and the wound is cicatrized
only—no time, tears, caresses, or repentance, can obliterate
the scar. We are indocile to put up with grief, however. Reficimus
rates quassas: we tempt the ocean again and again, and try upon new
ventures. Esmond thought of his early time as a novitiate, and of
this past trial as an initiation before entering into life—as
our young Indians undergo tortures silently before they pass to the
rank of warriors in the tribe.
The officers, meanwhile, who were not let into the secret of the
grief which was gnawing at the side of their silent young friend,
and being accustomed to such transactions, in which one comrade or
another was daily paying the forfeit of the sword, did not, of
course, bemoan themselves very inconsolably about the fate of their
late companion in arms. This one told stories of former adventures
of love, or war, or pleasure, in which poor Frank Esmond had been
engaged; t’other recollected how a constable had been bilked,
or a tavern-bully beaten: whilst my lord’s poor widow was
sitting at his tomb worshipping him as an actual saint and spotless
hero—so the visitors said who had news of Lady Castlewood;
and Westbury and Macartney had pretty nearly had all the town to
come and see them.
The duel, its fatal termination, the trial of the two peers and
the three commoners concerned, had caused the greatest excitement
in the town. The prints and News Letters were full of them. The
three gentlemen in Newgate were almost as much crowded as the
bishops in the Tower, or a highwayman before execution. We were
allowed to live in the Governor’s house, as hath been said,
both before trial and after condemnation, waiting the King’s
pleasure; nor was the real cause of the fatal quarrel known, so
closely had my lord and the two other persons who knew it kept the
secret, but every one imagined that the origin of the meeting was a
gambling dispute. Except fresh air, the prisoners had, upon
payment, most things they could desire. Interest was made that they
should not mix with the vulgar convicts, whose ribald choruses and
loud laughter and curses could be heard from their own part of the
prison, where they and the miserable debtors were confined
pell-mell.
Among the company which came to visit the two officers was an
old acquaintance of Harry Esmond; that gentleman of the Guards,
namely, who had been so kind to Harry when Captain Westbury’s
troop had been quartered at Castlewood more than seven years
before. Dick the Scholar was no longer Dick the Trooper now, but
Captain Steele of Lucas’s Fusiliers, and secretary to my Lord
Cutts, that famous officer of King William’s, the bravest and
most beloved man of the English army. The two jolly prisoners had
been drinking with a party of friends (for our cellar and that of
the keepers of Newgate, too, were supplied with endless hampers of
Burgundy and Champagne that the friends of the Colonels sent in);
and Harry, having no wish for their drink or their conversation,
being too feeble in health for the one and too sad in spirits for
the other, was sitting apart in his little room, reading such books
as he had, one evening, when honest Colonel Westbury, flushed with
liquor, and always good-humored in and out of his cups, came
laughing into Harry’s closet and said, “Ho, young
Killjoy! here’s a friend come to see thee; he’ll pray
with thee, or he’ll drink with thee; or he’ll drink and
pray turn about. Dick, my Christian hero, here’s the little
scholar of Castlewood.”
Dick came up and kissed Esmond on both cheeks, imparting a
strong perfume of burnt sack along with his caress to the young
man.
“What! is this the little man that used to talk Latin and
fetch our bowls? How tall thou art grown! I protest I should have
known thee anywhere. And so you have turned ruffian and fighter;
and wanted to measure swords with Mohun, did you? I protest that
Mohun said at the Guard dinner yesterday, where there was a pretty
company of us, that the young fellow wanted to fight him, and was
the better man of the two.”
“I wish we could have tried and proved it, Mr.
Steele,” says Esmond, thinking of his dead benefactor, and
his eyes filling with tears.
With the exception of that one cruel letter which he had from
his mistress, Mr. Esmond heard nothing from her, and she seemed
determined to execute her resolve of parting from him and disowning
him. But he had news of her, such as it was, which Mr. Steele
assiduously brought him from the Prince’s and
Princess’s Court, where our honest Captain had been advanced
to the post of gentleman waiter. When off duty there, Captain Dick
often came to console his friends in captivity; a good nature and a
friendly disposition towards all who were in ill-fortune no doubt
prompting him to make his visits, and good-fellowship and good wine
to prolong them.
“Faith,” says Westbury, “the little scholar
was the first to begin the quarrel—I mind me of it
now—at Lockit’s. I always hated that fellow Mohun. What
was the real cause, of the quarrel betwixt him and poor Frank? I
would wager ’twas a woman.”
“’Twas a quarrel about play—on my word, about
play,” Harry said. “My poor lord lost great sums to his
guest at Castlewood. Angry words passed between them; and, though
Lord Castlewood was the kindest and most pliable soul alive, his
spirit was very high; and hence that meeting which has brought us
all here,” says Mr. Esmond, resolved never to acknowledge
that there had ever been any other cause but cards for the
duel.
“I do not like to use bad words of a nobleman,” says
Westbury; “but if my Lord Mohun were a commoner, I would say,
’twas a pity he was not hanged. He was familiar with dice and
women at a time other boys are at school being birched; he was as
wicked as the oldest rake, years ere he had done growing; and
handled a sword and a foil, and a bloody one, too, before he ever
used a razor. He held poor Will Mountford in talk that night, when
bloody Dick Hill ran him through. He will come to a bad end, will
that young lord; and no end is bad enough for him,” says
honest Mr. Westbury: whose prophecy was fulfilled twelve years
after, upon that fatal day when Mohun fell, dragging down one of
the bravest and greatest gentlemen in England in his fall.
From Mr. Steele, then, who brought the public rumor, as well as
his own private intelligence, Esmond learned the movements of his
unfortunate mistress. Steele’s heart was of very inflammable
composition; and the gentleman usher spoke in terms of boundless
admiration both of the widow (that most beautiful woman, as he
said) and of her daughter, who, in the Captain’s eyes, was a
still greater paragon. If the pale widow, whom Captain Richard, in
his poetic rapture compared to a Niobe in tears—to a
Sigismunda—to a weeping Belvidera, was an object the most
lovely and pathetic which his eyes had ever beheld, or for which
his heart had melted, even her ripened perfections and beauty were
as nothing compared to the promise of that extreme loveliness which
the good Captain saw in her daughter. It was matre pulcra filia
pulcrior. Steele composed sonnets whilst he was on duty in his
Prince’s ante-chamber, to the maternal and filial charms. He
would speak for hours about them to Harry Esmond; and, indeed, he
could have chosen few subjects more likely to interest the unhappy
young man, whose heart was now as always devoted to these ladies;
and who was thankful to all who loved them, or praised them, or
wished them well.
Not that his fidelity was recompensed by any answering kindness,
or show of relenting even, on the part of a mistress obdurate now
after ten years of love and benefactions. The poor young man
getting no answer, save Tusher’s, to that letter which he had
written, and being too proud to write more, opened a part of his
heart to Steele, than whom no man, when unhappy, could find a
kinder hearer, or more friendly emissary; described (in words which
were no doubt pathetic, for they came imo pectore, and caused
honest Dick to weep plentifully) his youth, his constancy, his fond
devotion to that household which had reared him; his affection, how
earned, and how tenderly requited until but yesterday, and (as far
as he might) the circumstances and causes for which that sad
quarrel had made of Esmond a prisoner under sentence, a widow and
orphans of those whom in life he held dearest. In terms that might
well move a harder-hearted man than young Esmond’s
confidant—for, indeed, the speaker’s own heart was half
broke as he uttered them—he described a part of what had
taken place in that only sad interview which his mistress had
granted him; how she had left him with anger and almost
imprecation, whose words and thoughts until then had been only
blessing and kindness; how she had accused him of the guilt of that
blood, in exchange for which he would cheerfully have sacrificed
his own (indeed, in this the Lord Mohun, the Lord Warwick, and all
the gentlemen engaged, as well as the common rumor out of
doors—Steele told him—bore out the luckless young man);
and with all his heart, and tears, he besought Mr. Steele to inform
his mistress of her kinsman’s unhappiness, and to deprecate
that cruel anger she showed him. Half frantic with grief at the
injustice done him, and contrasting it with a thousand soft
recollections of love and confidence gone by, that made his present
misery inexpressibly more bitter, the poor wretch passed many a
lonely day and wakeful night in a kind of powerless despair and
rage against his iniquitous fortune. It was the softest hand that
struck him, the gentlest and most compassionate nature that
persecuted him. “I would as lief,” he said, “have
pleaded guilty to the murder, and have suffered for it like any
other felon, as have to endure the torture to which my mistress
subjects me.”
Although the recital of Esmond’s story, and his passionate
appeals and remonstrances, drew so many tears from Dick who heard
them, they had no effect upon the person whom they were designed to
move. Esmond’s ambassador came back from the mission with
which the poor young gentleman had charged him, with a sad blank
face and a shake of the head, which told that there was no hope for
the prisoner; and scarce a wretched culprit in that prison of
Newgate ordered for execution, and trembling for a reprieve, felt
more cast down than Mr. Esmond, innocent and condemned.
As had been arranged between the prisoner and his counsel in
their consultations, Mr. Steele had gone to the dowager’s
house in Chelsey, where it has been said the widow and her orphans
were, had seen my Lady Viscountess, and pleaded the cause of her
unfortunate kinsman. “And I think I spoke well, my poor
boy,” says Mr. Steele; “for who would not speak well in
such a cause, and before so beautiful a judge? I did not see the
lovely Beatrix (sure her famous namesake of Florence was never half
so beautiful), only the young Viscount was in the room with the
Lord Churchill, my Lord of Marlborough’s eldest son. But
these young gentlemen went off to the garden; I could see them from
the window tilting at each other with poles in a mimic tournament
(grief touches the young but lightly, and I remember that I beat a
drum at the coffin of my own father). My Lady Viscountess looked
out at the two boys at their game and said—‘You see,
sir, children are taught to use weapons of death as toys, and to
make a sport of murder;’ and as she spoke she looked so
lovely, and stood there in herself so sad and beautiful, an
instance of that doctrine whereof I am a humble preacher, that had
I not dedicated my little volume of the ‘Christian
Hero’—(I perceive, Harry, thou hast not cut the leaves
of it. The sermon is good, believe me, though the preacher’s
life may not answer it)—I say, hadn’t I dedicated the
volume to Lord Cutts, I would have asked permission to place her
ladyship’s name on the first page. I think I never saw such a
beautiful violet as that of her eyes, Harry. Her complexion is of
the pink of the blush-rose, she hath an exquisite turned wrist and
dimpled hand, and I make no doubt—”
“Did you come to tell me about the dimples on my
lady’s hand?” broke out Mr. Esmond, sadly.
“A lovely creature in affliction seems always doubly
beautiful to me,” says the poor Captain, who indeed was but
too often in a state to see double, and so checked he resumed the
interrupted thread of his story. “As I spoke my
business,” Mr. Steele said, “and narrated to your
mistress what all the world knows, and the other side hath been
eager to acknowledge—that you had tried to put yourself
between the two lords, and to take your patron’s quarrel on
your own point; I recounted the general praises of your gallantry,
besides my Lord Mohun’s particular testimony to it; I thought
the widow listened with some interest, and her eyes—I have
never seen such a violet, Harry—looked up at mine once or
twice. But after I had spoken on this theme for a while she
suddenly broke away with a cry of grief. ‘I would to God,
sir,’ she said, ‘I had never heard that word gallantry
which you use, or known the meaning of it. My lord might have been
here but for that; my home might be happy; my poor boy have a
father. It was what you gentlemen call gallantry came into my home,
and drove my husband on to the cruel sword that killed him. You
should not speak the word to a Christian woman, sir, a poor widowed
mother of orphans, whose home was happy until the world came into
it—the wicked godless world, that takes the blood of the
innocent, and lets the guilty go free.’
“As the afflicted lady spoke in this strain, sir,”
Mr. Steele continued, “it seemed as if indignation moved her,
even more than grief. ‘Compensation!’ she went on
passionately, her cheeks and eyes kindling; ‘what
compensation does your world give the widow for her husband, and
the children for the murderer of their father? The wretch who did
the deed has not even a punishment. Conscience! what conscience has
he, who can enter the house of a friend, whisper falsehood and
insult to a woman that never harmed him, and stab the kind heart
that trusted him? My Lord—my Lord Wretch’s, my Lord
Villain’s, my Lord Murderer’s peers meet to try him,
and they dismiss him with a word or two of reproof and send him
into the world again, to pursue women with lust and falsehood, and
to murder unsuspecting guests that harbor him. That day, my
Lord—my Lord Murderer—(I will never name him)—was
let loose, a woman was executed at Tyburn for stealing in a shop.
But a man may rob another of his life, or a lady of her honor, and
shall pay no penalty! I take my child, run to the throne, and on my
knees ask for justice, and the King refuses me. The King! he is no
king of mine—he never shall be. He, too, robbed the throne
from the king his father—the true king—and he has gone
unpunished, as the great do.’
“I then thought to speak for you,” Mr. Steele
continued, “and I interposed by saying, ‘There was one,
madam, who, at least, would have put his own breast between your
husband’s and my Lord Mohun’s sword. Your poor young
kinsman, Harry Esmond, hath told me that he tried to draw the
quarrel on himself.’
“‘Are you come from HIM?’ asked the lady (so
Mr. Steele went on) rising up with a great severity and
stateliness. ‘I thought you had come from the Princess. I saw
Mr. Esmond in his prison, and bade him farewell. He brought misery
into my house. He never should have entered it.’
“‘Madam, madam, he is not to blame,’ I
interposed,” continued Mr. Steele.
“‘Do I blame him to you, sir?’ asked the
widow. ‘If ’tis he who sent you, say that I have taken
counsel, where’—she spoke with a very pallid cheek now,
and a break in her voice—‘where all who ask may have
it;—and that it bids me to part from him, and to see him no
more. We met in the prison for the last time—at least for
years to come. It may be, in years hence, when—when our knees
and our tears and our contrition have changed our sinful hearts,
sir, and wrought our pardon, we may meet again—but not now.
After what has passed, I could not bear to see him. I wish him
well, sir; but I wish him farewell, too; and if he has
that—that regard towards us which he speaks of, I beseech him
to prove it by obeying me in this.’
“‘I shall break the young man’s heart, madam,
by this hard sentence,’” Mr. Steele said.
“The lady shook her head,” continued my kind
scholar. “‘The hearts of young men, Mr. Steele, are not
so made,’ she said. ‘Mr. Esmond will find
other—other friends. The mistress of this house has relented
very much towards the late lord’s son,’ she added, with
a blush, ‘and has promised me, that is, has promised that she
will care for his fortune. Whilst I live in it, after the horrid
horrid deed which has passed, Castlewood must never be a home to
him—never. Nor would I have him write to
me—except—no—I would have him never write to me,
nor see him more. Give him, if you will, my parting—Hush! not
a word of this before my daughter.’
“Here the fair Beatrix entered from the river, with her
cheeks flushing with health, and looking only the more lovely and
fresh for the mourning habiliments which she wore. And my Lady
Viscountess said—
“‘Beatrix, this is Mr. Steele, gentleman-usher to
the Prince’s Highness. When does your new comedy appear, Mr.
Steele?’ I hope thou wilt be out of prison for the first
night, Harry.”
The sentimental Captain concluded his sad tale, saying,
“Faith, the beauty of Filia pulcrior drove pulcram matrem out
of my head; and yet as I came down the river, and thought about the
pair, the pallid dignity and exquisite grace of the matron had the
uppermost, and I thought her even more noble than the
virgin!”
The party of prisoners lived very well in Newgate, and with
comforts very different to those which were awarded to the poor
wretches there (his insensibility to their misery, their gayety
still more frightful, their curses and blasphemy, hath struck with
a kind of shame since—as proving how selfish, during his
imprisonment, his own particular grief was, and how entirely the
thoughts of it absorbed him): if the three gentlemen lived well
under the care of the Warden of Newgate, it was because they paid
well: and indeed the cost at the dearest ordinary or the grandest
tavern in London could not have furnished a longer reckoning, than
our host of the “Handcuff Inn”—as Colonel
Westbury called it. Our rooms were the three in the gate over
Newgate—on the second story looking up Newgate Street towards
Cheapside and Paul’s Church. And we had leave to walk on the
roof, and could see thence Smithfield and the Bluecoat Boys’
School, Gardens, and the Chartreux, where, as Harry Esmond
remembered, Dick the Scholar, and his friend Tom Tusher, had had
their schooling.
Harry could never have paid his share of that prodigious heavy
reckoning which my landlord brought to his guests once a week: for
he had but three pieces in his pockets that fatal night before the
duel, when the gentlemen were at cards, and offered to play five.
But whilst he was yet ill at the Gatehouse, after Lady Castlewood
had visited him there, and before his trial, there came one in an
orange-tawny coat and blue lace, the livery which the Esmonds
always wore, and brought a sealed packet for Mr. Esmond, which
contained twenty guineas, and a note saying that a counsel had been
appointed for him, and that more money would be forthcoming
whenever he needed it.
’Twas a queer letter from the scholar as she was, or as
she called herself: the Dowager Viscountess Castlewood, written in
the strange barbarous French which she and many other fine ladies
of that time—witness her Grace of Portsmouth—employed.
Indeed, spelling was not an article of general commodity in the
world then, and my Lord Marlborough’s letters can show that
he, for one, had but a little share of this part of
grammar:—
“MONG COUSSIN,” my Lady Viscountess Dowager wrote,
“je scay que vous vous etes bravement batew et grievement
blessay—du coste de feu M. le Vicomte. M. le Compte de
Varique ne se playt qua parlay de vous: M. de Moon aucy. Il di que
vous avay voulew vous bastre avecque luy—que vous estes plus
fort que luy fur l’ayscrimme—quil’y a surtout
certaine Botte que vous scavay quil n’a jammay sceu pariay:
et que c’en eut ete fay de luy si vouseluy vous vous fussiay
battews ansamb. Aincy ce pauv Vicompte est mort. Mort et
pontayt—Mon coussin, mon coussin! jay dans la tayste que vous
n’estes quung pety Monst—angcy que les Esmonds ong
tousjours este. La veuve est chay moy. J’ay recuilly
cet’ pauve famme. Elle est furieuse cont vous, allans tous
les jours chercher ley Roy (d’icy) demandant a gran cri
revanche pour son Mary. Elle ne veux voyre ni entende parlay de
vous: pourtant elle ne fay qu’en parlay milfoy par jour.
Quand vous seray hor prison venay me voyre. J’auray soing de
vous. Si cette petite Prude veut se defaire de song pety Monste
(Helas je craing quil ne soy trotar!) je m’on chargeray.
J’ay encor quelqu interay et quelques escus de costay.
“La Veuve se raccommode avec Miladi Marlboro qui est tout
puicante avecque la Reine Anne. Cet dam senteraysent pour la petite
prude; qui pourctant a un fi du mesme asge que vous savay.
“En sortant de prisong venez icy. Je ne puy vous recevoir
chaymoy a cause des mechansetes du monde, may pre du moy vous aurez
logement.
“ISABELLE VICOMTESSE D’ESMOND”
Marchioness of Esmond this lady sometimes called herself, in
virtue of that patent which had been given by the late King James
to Harry Esmond’s father; and in this state she had her train
carried by a knight’s wife, a cup and cover of assay to drink
from, and fringed cloth.
He who was of the same age as little Francis, whom we shall
henceforth call Viscount Castlewood here, was H. R. H. the Prince
of Wales, born in the same year and month with Frank, and just
proclaimed at Saint Germains, King of Great Britain, France, and
Ireland.
The fellow in the orange-tawny livery with blue lace and facings
was in waiting when Esmond came out of prison, and, taking the
young gentleman’s slender baggage, led the way out of that
odious Newgate, and by Fleet Conduit, down to the Thames, where a
pair of oars was called, and they went up the river to Chelsey.
Esmond thought the sun had never shone so bright; nor the air felt
so fresh and exhilarating. Temple Garden, as they rowed by, looked
like the garden of Eden to him, and the aspect of the quays,
wharves, and buildings by the river, Somerset House, and
Westminster (where the splendid new bridge was just beginning),
Lambeth tower and palace, and that busy shining scene of the Thames
swarming with boats and barges, filled his heart with pleasure and
cheerfulness—as well such a beautiful scene might to one who
had been a prisoner so long, and with so many dark thoughts
deepening the gloom of his captivity. They rowed up at length to
the pretty village of Chelsey, where the nobility have many
handsome country-houses; and so came to my Lady Viscountess’s
house, a cheerful new house in the row facing the river, with a
handsome garden behind it, and a pleasant look-out both towards
Surrey and Kensington, where stands the noble ancient palace of the
Lord Warwick, Harry’s reconciled adversary.
Here in her ladyship’s saloon, the young man saw again
some of those pictures which had been at Castlewood, and which she
had removed thence on the death of her lord, Harry’s father.
Specially, and in the place of honor, was Sir Peter Lely’s
picture of the honorable Mistress Isabella Esmond as Diana, in
yellow satin, with a bow in her hand and a crescent in her
forehead; and dogs frisking about her. ’Twas painted about
the time when royal Endymions were said to find favor with this
virgin huntress; and, as goddesses have youth perpetual, this one
believed to the day of her death that she never grew older: and
always persisted in supposing the picture was still like her.
After he had been shown to her room by the groom of the chamber,
who filled many offices besides in her ladyship’s modest
household, and after a proper interval, his elderly goddess Diana
vouchsafed to appear to the young man. A blackamoor in a Turkish
habit, with red boots and a silver collar, on which the
Viscountess’s arms were engraven, preceded her and bore her
cushion; then came her gentlewoman; a little pack of spaniels
barking and frisking about preceded the austere
huntress—then, behold, the Viscountess herself
“dropping odors.” Esmond recollected from his childhood
that rich aroma of musk which his mother-inlaw (for she may be
called so) exhaled. As the sky grows redder and redder towards
sunset, so, in the decline of her years, the cheeks of my Lady
Dowager blushed more deeply. Her face was illuminated with
vermilion, which appeared the brighter from the white paint
employed to set it off. She wore the ringlets which had been in
fashion in King Charles’s time; whereas the ladies of King
William’s had head-dresses like the towers of Cybele. Her
eyes gleamed out from the midst of this queer structure of paint,
dyes, and pomatums. Such was my Lady Viscountess, Mr.
Esmond’s father’s widow.
He made her such a profound bow as her dignity and relationship
merited, and advanced with the greatest gravity, and once more
kissed that hand, upon the trembling knuckles of which glittered a
score of rings—remembering old times when that trembling hand
made him tremble. “Marchioness,” says he, bowing, and
on one knee, “is it only the hand I may have the honor of
saluting?” For, accompanying that inward laughter, which the
sight of such an astonishing old figure might well produce in the
young man, there was good will too, and the kindness of
consanguinity. She had been his father’s wife, and was his
grandfather’s daughter. She had suffered him in old days, and
was kind to him now after her fashion. And now that bar-sinister
was removed from Esmond’s thought, and that secret opprobrium
no longer cast upon his mind, he was pleased to feel family ties
and own them—perhaps secretly vain of the sacrifice he had
made, and to think that he, Esmond, was really the chief of his
house, and only prevented by his own magnanimity from advancing his
claim.
At least, ever since he had learned that secret from his poor
patron on his dying bed, actually as he was standing beside it, he
had felt an independency which he had never known before, and which
since did not desert him. So he called his old aunt Marchioness,
but with an air as if he was the Marquis of Esmond who so addressed
her.
Did she read in the young gentleman’s eyes, which had now
no fear of hers or their superannuated authority, that he knew or
suspected the truth about his birth? She gave a start of surprise
at his altered manner: indeed, it was quite a different bearing to
that of the Cambridge student who had paid her a visit two years
since, and whom she had dismissed with five pieces sent by the
groom of the chamber. She eyed him, then trembled a little more
than was her wont, perhaps, and said, “Welcome,
cousin,” in a frightened voice.
His resolution, as has been said before, had been quite
different, namely, so to bear himself through life as if the secret
of his birth was not known to him; but he suddenly and rightly
determined on a different course. He asked that her
ladyship’s attendants should be dismissed, and when they were
private—“Welcome, nephew, at least, madam, it should
be,” he said. “A great wrong has been done to me and to
you, and to my poor mother, who is no more.”
“I declare before heaven that I was guiltless of
it,” she cried out, giving up her cause at once. “It
was your wicked father who—”
“Who brought this dishonor on our family,” says Mr.
Esmond. “I know it full well. I want to disturb no one. Those
who are in present possession have been my dearest benefactors, and
are quite innocent of intentional wrong to me. The late lord, my
dear patron, knew not the truth until a few months before his
death, when Father Holt brought the news to him.”
“The wretch! he had it in confession! he had it in
confession!” cried out the Dowager Lady.
“Not so. He learned it elsewhere as well as in
confession,” Mr. Esmond answered. “My father, when
wounded at the Boyne, told the truth to a French priest, who was in
hiding after the battle, as well as to the priest there, at whose
house he died. This gentleman did not think fit to divulge the
story till he met with Mr. Holt at Saint Omer’s. And the
latter kept it back for his own purpose, and until he had learned
whether my mother was alive or no. She is dead years since, my poor
patron told me with his dying breath, and I doubt him not. I do not
know even whether I could prove a marriage. I would not if I could.
I do not care to bring shame on our name, or grief upon those whom
I love, however hardly they may use me. My father’s son,
madam, won’t aggravate the wrong my father did you. Continue
to be his widow, and give me your kindness. ’Tis all I ask
from you; and I shall never speak of this matter again.”
“Mais vous etes un noble jeune homme!” breaks out my
lady, speaking, as usual with her when she was agitated, in the
French language.
“Noblesse oblige,” says Mr. Esmond, making her a low
bow. “There are those alive to whom, in return for their love
to me, I often fondly said I would give my life away. Shall I be
their enemy now, and quarrel about a title? What matters who has
it? ’Tis with the family still.”
“What can there be in that little prude of a woman that
makes men so raffoler about her?” cries out my Lady Dowager.
“She was here for a month petitioning the King. She is
pretty, and well conserved; but she has not the bel air. In his
late Majesty’s Court all the men pretended to admire her, and
she was no better than a little wax doll. She is better now, and
looks the sister of her daughter; but what mean you all by
bepraising her? Mr. Steele, who was in waiting on Prince George,
seeing her with her two children going to Kensington, writ a poem
about her, and says he shall wear her colors, and dress in black
for the future. Mr. Congreve says he will write a ‘Mourning
Widow,’ that shall be better than his ‘Mourning
Bride.’ Though their husbands quarrelled and fought when that
wretch Churchill deserted the King (for which he deserved to be
hung), Lady Marlborough has again gone wild about the little widow;
insulted me in my own drawing-room, by saying ’twas not the
OLD widow, but the young Viscountess, she had come to see. Little
Castlewood and little Lord Churchill are to be sworn friends, and
have boxed each other twice or thrice like brothers already.
’Twas that wicked young Mohun who, coming back from the
provinces last year, where he had disinterred her, raved about her
all the winter; said she was a pearl set before swine; and killed
poor stupid Frank. The quarrel was all about his wife. I know
’twas all about her. Was there anything between her and
Mohun, nephew? Tell me now—was there anything? About
yourself, I do not ask you to answer questions.”
Mr. Esmond blushed up. “My lady’s virtue is like
that of a saint in heaven, madam,” he cried out.
“Eh!—mon neveu. Many saints get to heaven after
having a deal to repent of. I believe you are like all the rest of
the fools, and madly in love with her.”
“Indeed, I loved and honored her before all the
world,” Esmond answered. “I take no shame in
that.”
“And she has shut her door on you—given the living
to that horrid young cub, son of that horrid old bear, Tusher, and
says she will never see you more. Monsieur mon neveu—we are
all like that. When I was a young woman, I’m positive that a
thousand duels were fought about me. And when poor Monsieur de
Souchy drowned himself in the canal at Bruges because I danced with
Count Springbock, I couldn’t squeeze out a single tear, but
danced till five o’clock the next morning. ’Twas the
Count—no, ’twas my Lord Ormond that played the fiddles,
and his Majesty did me the honor of dancing all night with
me.—How you are grown! You have got the bel air. You are a
black man. Our Esmonds are all black. The little prude’s son
is fair; so was his father—fair and stupid. You were an ugly
little wretch when you came to Castlewood—you were all eyes,
like a young crow. We intended you should be a priest. That awful
Father Holt—how he used to frighten me when I was ill! I have
a comfortable director now—the Abbe Douillette—a dear
man. We make meagre on Fridays always. My cook is a devout pious
man. You, of course, are of the right way of thinking. They say the
Prince of Orange is very ill indeed.”
In this way the old Dowager rattled on remorselessly to Mr.
Esmond, who was quite astounded with her present volubility,
contrasting it with her former haughty behavior to him. But she had
taken him into favor for the moment, and chose not only to like
him, as far as her nature permitted, but to be afraid of him; and
he found himself to be as familiar with her now as a young man, as,
when a boy, he had been timorous and silent. She was as good as her
word respecting him. She introduced him to her company, of which
she entertained a good deal—of the adherents of King James of
course—and a great deal of loud intriguing took place over
her card-tables. She presented Mr. Esmond as her kinsman to many
persons of honor; she supplied him not illiberally with money,
which he had no scruple in accepting from her, considering the
relationship which he bore to her, and the sacrifices which he
himself was making in behalf of the family. But he had made up his
mind to continue at no woman’s apron-strings longer; and
perhaps had cast about how he should distinguish himself, and make
himself a name, which his singular fortune had denied him. A
discontent with his former bookish life and quietude,—a
bitter feeling of revolt at that slavery in which he had chosen to
confine himself for the sake of those whose hardness towards him
make his heart bleed,—a restless wish to see men and the
world,—led him to think of the military profession: at any
rate, to desire to see a few campaigns, and accordingly he pressed
his new patroness to get him a pair of colors; and one day had the
honor of finding himself appointed an ensign in Colonel
Quin’s regiment of Fusileers on the Irish establishment.
Mr. Esmond’s commission was scarce three weeks old when
that accident befell King William which ended the life of the
greatest, the wisest, the bravest, and most clement sovereign whom
England ever knew. ’Twas the fashion of the hostile party to
assail this great prince’s reputation during his life; but
the joy which they and all his enemies in Europe showed at his
death, is a proof of the terror in which they held him. Young as
Esmond was, he was wise enough (and generous enough too, let it be
said) to scorn that indecency of gratulation which broke out
amongst the followers of King James in London, upon the death of
this illustrious prince, this invincible warrior, this wise and
moderate statesman. Loyalty to the exiled king’s family was
traditional, as has been said, in that house to which Mr. Esmond
belonged. His father’s widow had all her hopes, sympathies,
recollections, prejudices, engaged on King James’s side; and
was certainly as noisy a conspirator as ever asserted the
King’s rights, or abused his opponent’s, over a
quadrille table or a dish of bohea. Her ladyship’s house
swarmed with ecclesiastics, in disguise and out; with tale-bearers
from St. Germains; and quidnuncs that knew the last news from
Versailles; nay, the exact force and number of the next expedition
which the French king was to send from Dunkirk, and which was to
swallow up the Prince of Orange, his army and his court. She had
received the Duke of Berwick when he landed here in ‘96. She
kept the glass he drank from, vowing she never would use it till
she drank King James the Third’s health in it on his
Majesty’s return; she had tokens from the Queen, and relics
of the saint who, if the story was true, had not always been a
saint as far as she and many others were concerned. She believed in
the miracles wrought at his tomb, and had a hundred authentic
stories of wondrous cures effected by the blessed king’s
rosaries, the medals which he wore, the locks of his hair, or what
not. Esmond remembered a score of marvellous tales which the
credulous old woman told him. There was the Bishop of Autun, that
was healed of a malady he had for forty years, and which left him
after he said mass for the repose of the king’s soul. There
was M. Marais, a surgeon in Auvergne, who had a palsy in both his
legs, which was cured through the king’s intercession. There
was Philip Pitet, of the Benedictines, who had a suffocating cough,
which wellnigh killed him, but he besought relief of heaven through
the merits and intercession of the blessed king, and he straightway
felt a profuse sweat breaking out all over him, and was recovered
perfectly. And there was the wife of Mons. Lepervier,
dancing-master to the Duke of Saxe–Gotha, who was entirely
eased of a rheumatism by the king’s intercession, of which
miracle there could be no doubt, for her surgeon and his apprentice
had given their testimony, under oath, that they did not in any way
contribute to the cure. Of these tales, and a thousand like them,
Mr. Esmond believed as much as he chose. His kinswoman’s
greater faith had swallow for them all.
The English High Church party did not adopt these legends. But
truth and honor, as they thought, bound them to the exiled
king’s side; nor had the banished family any warmer supporter
than that kind lady of Castlewood, in whose house Esmond was
brought up. She influenced her husband, very much more perhaps than
my lord knew, who admired his wife prodigiously though he might be
inconstant to her, and who, adverse to the trouble of thinking
himself, gladly enough adopted the opinions which she chose for
him. To one of her simple and faithful heart, allegiance to any
sovereign but the one was impossible. To serve King William for
interest’s sake would have been a monstrous hypocrisy and
treason. Her pure conscience could no more have consented to it
than to a theft, a forgery, or any other base action. Lord
Castlewood might have been won over, no doubt, but his wife never
could: and he submitted his conscience to hers in this case as he
did in most others, when he was not tempted too sorely. And it was
from his affection and gratitude most likely, and from that eager
devotion for his mistress, which characterized all Esmond’s
youth, that the young man subscribed to this, and other articles of
faith, which his fond benefactress set him. Had she been a Whig, he
had been one; had she followed Mr. Fox, and turned Quaker, no doubt
he would have abjured ruffles and a periwig, and have forsworn
swords, lace-coats, and clocked stockings. In the scholars’
boyish disputes at the University, where parties ran very high,
Esmond was noted as a Jacobite, and very likely from vanity as much
as affection took the side of his family.
Almost the whole of the clergy of the country and more than a
half of the nation were on this side. Ours is the most loyal people
in the world surely; we admire our kings, and are faithful to them
long after they have ceased to be true to us. ’Tis a wonder
to any one who looks back at the history of the Stuart family to
think how they kicked their crowns away from them; how they flung
away chances after chances; what treasures of loyalty they
dissipated, and how fatally they were bent on consummating their
own ruin. If ever men had fidelity, ’twas they; if ever men
squandered opportunity, ’twas they; and, of all the enemies
they had, they themselves were the most fatal.
When the Princess Anne succeeded, the wearied nation was glad
enough to cry a truce from all these wars, controversies, and
conspiracies, and to accept in the person of a Princess of the
blood royal a compromise between the parties into which the country
was divided. The Tories could serve under her with easy
consciences; though a Tory herself, she represented the triumph of
the Whig opinion. The people of England, always liking that their
Princes should be attached to their own families, were pleased to
think the Princess was faithful to hers; and up to the very last
day and hour of her reign, and but for that fatality which he
inherited from his fathers along with their claims to the English
crown, King James the Third might have worn it. But he neither knew
how to wait an opportunity, nor to use it when he had it; he was
venturesome when he ought to have been cautious, and cautious when
he ought to have dared everything. ’Tis with a sort of rage
at his inaptitude that one thinks of his melancholy story. Do the
Fates deal more specially with kings than with common men? One is
apt to imagine so, in considering the history of that royal race,
in whose behalf so much fidelity, so much valor, so much blood were
desperately and bootlessly expended.
The King dead then, the Princess Anne (ugly Anne Hyde’s
daughter, our Dowager at Chelsey called her) was proclaimed by
trumpeting heralds all over the town from Westminster to Ludgate
Hill, amidst immense jubilations of the people.
Next week my Lord Marlborough was promoted to the Garter, and to
be Captain–General of her Majesty’s forces at home and
abroad. This appointment only inflamed the Dowager’s rage,
or, as she thought it, her fidelity to her rightful sovereign.
“The Princess is but a puppet in the hands of that fury of a
woman, who comes into my drawing-room and insults me to my face.
What can come to a country that is given over to such a
woman?” says the Dowager: “As for that double-faced
traitor, my Lord Marlborough, he has betrayed every man and every
woman with whom he has had to deal, except his horrid wife, who
makes him tremble. ’Tis all over with the country when it has
got into the clutches of such wretches as these.”
Esmond’s old kinswoman saluted the new powers in this way;
but some good fortune at last occurred to a family which stood in
great need of it, by the advancement of these famous personages who
benefited humbler people that had the luck of being in their favor.
Before Mr. Esmond left England in the month of August, and being
then at Portsmouth, where he had joined his regiment, and was busy
at drill, learning the practice and mysteries of the musket and
pike, he heard that a pension on the Stamp Office had been got for
his late beloved mistress, and that the young Mistress Beatrix was
also to be taken into court. So much good, at least, had come of
the poor widow’s visit to London, not revenge upon her
husband’s enemies, but reconcilement to old friends, who
pitied, and seemed inclined to serve her. As for the comrades in
prison and the late misfortune, Colonel Westbury was with the
Captain–General gone to Holland; Captain Macartney was now at
Portsmouth, with his regiment of Fusileers and the force under
command of his Grace the Duke of Ormond, bound for Spain it was
said; my Lord Warwick was returned home; and Lord Mohun, so far
from being punished for the homicide which had brought so much
grief and change into the Esmond family, was gone in company of my
Lord Macclesfield’s splendid embassy to the Elector of
Hanover, carrying the Garter to his Highness, and a complimentary
letter from the Queen.
From such fitful lights as could be cast upon his dark history
by the broken narrative of his poor patron, torn by remorse and
struggling in the last pangs of dissolution, Mr. Esmond had been
made to understand so far, that his mother was long since dead; and
so there could be no question as regarded her or her honor,
tarnished by her husband’s desertion and injury, to influence
her son in any steps which he might take either for prosecuting or
relinquishing his own just claims. It appeared from my poor
lord’s hurried confession, that he had been made acquainted
with the real facts of the case only two years since, when Mr. Holt
visited him, and would have implicated him in one of those many
conspiracies by which the secret leaders of King James’s
party in this country were ever endeavoring to destroy the Prince
of Orange’s life or power: conspiracies so like murder, so
cowardly in the means used, so wicked in the end, that our nation
has sure done well in throwing off all allegiance and fidelity to
the unhappy family that could not vindicate its right except by
such treachery—by such dark intrigue and base agents. There
were designs against King William that were no more honorable than
the ambushes of cut-throats and footpads. ’Tis humiliating to
think that a great Prince, possessor of a great and sacred right,
and upholder of a great cause, should have stooped to such baseness
of assassination and treasons as are proved by the unfortunate King
James’s own warrant and sign manual given to his supporters
in this country. What he and they called levying war was, in truth,
no better than instigating murder. The noble Prince of Orange burst
magnanimously through those feeble meshes of conspiracy in which
his enemies tried to envelop him: it seemed as if their cowardly
daggers broke upon the breast of his undaunted resolution. After
King James’s death, the Queen and her people at St.
Germains—priests and women for the most part—continued
their intrigues in behalf of the young Prince, James the Third, as
he was called in France and by his party here (this Prince, or
Chevalier de St. George, was born in the same year with
Esmond’s young pupil Frank, my Lord Viscount’s son);
and the Prince’s affairs, being in the hands of priests and
women, were conducted as priests and women will conduct them,
artfully, cruelly, feebly, and to a certain bad issue. The moral of
the Jesuits’ story I think as wholesome a one as ever was
writ: the artfullest, the wisest, the most toilsome, and dexterous
plot-builders in the world—there always comes a day when the
roused public indignation kicks their flimsy edifice down, and
sends its cowardly enemies a-flying. Mr. Swift hath finely
described that passion for intrigue, that love of secrecy, slander,
and lying, which belongs to weak people, hangers-on of weak courts.
’Tis the nature of such to hate and envy the strong, and
conspire their ruin; and the conspiracy succeeds very well, and
everything presages the satisfactory overthrow of the great victim;
until one day Gulliver rouses himself, shakes off the little vermin
of an enemy, and walks away unmolested. Ah! the Irish soldiers
might well say after the Boyne, “Change kings with us and we
will fight it over again.” Indeed, the fight was not fair
between the two. ’Twas a weak, priest-ridden, woman-ridden
man, with such puny allies and weapons as his own poor nature led
him to choose, contending against the schemes, the generalship, the
wisdom, and the heart of a hero.
On one of these many coward’s errands then, (for, as I
view them now, I can call them no less,) Mr. Holt had come to my
lord at Castlewood, proposing some infallible plan for the Prince
of Orange’s destruction, in which my Lord Viscount, loyalist
as he was, had indignantly refused to join. As far as Mr. Esmond
could gather from his dying words, Holt came to my lord with a plan
of insurrection, and offer of the renewal, in his person, of that
marquis’s title which King James had conferred on the
preceding viscount; and on refusal of this bribe, a threat was
made, on Holt’s part, to upset my Lord Viscount’s claim
to his estate and title of Castlewood altogether. To back this
astounding piece of intelligence, of which Henry Esmond’s
patron now had the first light, Holt came armed with the late
lord’s dying declaration, after the affair of the Boyne, at
Trim, in Ireland, made both to the Irish priest and a French
ecclesiastic of Holt’s order, that was with King
James’s army. Holt showed, or pretended to show, the marriage
certificate of the late Viscount Esmond with my mother, in the city
of Brussels, in the year 1677, when the viscount, then Thomas
Esmond, was serving with the English army in Flanders; he could
show, he said, that this Gertrude, deserted by her husband long
since, was alive, and a professed nun in the year 1685, at
Brussels, in which year Thomas Esmond married his uncle’s
daughter, Isabella, now called Viscountess Dowager of Castlewood;
and leaving him, for twelve hours, to consider this astounding news
(so the poor dying lord said), disappeared with his papers in the
mysterious way in which he came. Esmond knew how, well enough: by
that window from which he had seen the Father issue:—but
there was no need to explain to my poor lord, only to gather from
his parting lips the words which he would soon be able to utter no
more.
Ere the twelve hours were over, Holt himself was a prisoner,
implicated in Sir John Fenwick’s conspiracy, and locked up at
Hexton first, whence he was transferred to the Tower; leaving the
poor Lord Viscount, who was not aware of the others being taken, in
daily apprehension of his return, when (as my Lord Castlewood
declared, calling God to witness, and with tears in his dying eyes)
it had been his intention at once to give up his estate and his
title to their proper owner, and to retire to his own house at
Walcote with his family. “And would to God I had done
it,” the poor lord said. “I would not be here now,
wounded to death, a miserable, stricken man!”
My lord waited day after day, and, as may be supposed, no
messenger came; but at a month’s end Holt got means to convey
to him a message out of the Tower, which was to this effect: that
he should consider all unsaid that had been said, and that things
were as they were.
“I had a sore temptation,” said my poor lord.
“Since I had come into this cursed title of Castlewood, which
hath never prospered with me, I have spent far more than the income
of that estate, and my paternal one, too. I calculated all my means
down to the last shilling, and found I never could pay you back, my
poor Harry, whose fortune I had had for twelve years. My wife and
children must have gone out of the house dishonored, and beggars.
God knows, it hath been a miserable one for me and mine. Like a
coward, I clung to that respite which Holt gave me. I kept the
truth from Rachel and you. I tried to win money of Mohun, and only
plunged deeper into debt; I scarce dared look thee in the face when
I saw thee. This sword hath been hanging over my head these two
years. I swear I felt happy when Mohun’s blade entered my
side.”
After lying ten months in the Tower, Holt, against whom nothing
could be found except that he was a Jesuit priest, known to be in
King James’s interest, was put on shipboard by the
incorrigible forgiveness of King William, who promised him,
however, a hanging if ever he should again set foot on English
shore. More than once, whilst he was in prison himself, Esmond had
thought where those papers could be, which the Jesuit had shown to
his patron, and which had such an interest for himself. They were
not found on Mr. Holt’s person when that Father was
apprehended, for had such been the case my Lords of the Council had
seen them, and this family history had long since been made public.
However, Esmond cared not to seek the papers. His resolution being
taken; his poor mother dead; what matter to him that documents
existed proving his right to a title which he was determined not to
claim, and of which he vowed never to deprive that family which he
loved best in the world? Perhaps he took a greater pride out of his
sacrifice than he would have had in those honors which he was
resolved to forego. Again, as long as these titles were not
forthcoming, Esmond’s kinsman, dear young Francis, was the
honorable and undisputed owner of the Castlewood estate and title.
The mere word of a Jesuit could not overset Frank’s right of
occupancy, and so Esmond’s mind felt actually at ease to
think the papers were missing, and in their absence his dear
mistress and her son the lawful Lady and Lord of Castlewood.
Very soon after his liberation, Mr. Esmond made it his business
to ride to that village of Ealing where he had passed his earliest
years in this country, and to see if his old guardians were still
alive and inhabitants of that place. But the only relique which he
found of old M. Pastoureau was a stone in the churchyard, which
told that Athanasius Pastoureau, a native of Flanders, lay there
buried, aged 87 years. The old man’s cottage, which Esmond
perfectly recollected, and the garden (where in his childhood he
had passed many hours of play and reverie, and had many a beating
from his termagant of a foster-mother), were now in the occupation
of quite a different family; and it was with difficulty that he
could learn in the village what had come of Pastoureau’s
widow and children. The clerk of the parish recollected
her—the old man was scarce altered in the fourteen years that
had passed since last Esmond set eyes on him. It appeared she had
pretty soon consoled herself after the death of her old husband,
whom she ruled over, by taking a new one younger than herself, who
spent her money and ill-treated her and her children. The girl
died; one of the boys ‘listed; the other had gone apprentice.
Old Mr. Rogers, the clerk, said he had heard that Mrs. Pastoureau
was dead too. She and her husband had left Ealing this seven year;
and so Mr. Esmond’s hopes of gaining any information
regarding his parentage from this family were brought to an end. He
gave the old clerk a crown-piece for his news, smiling to think of
the time when he and his little playfellows had slunk out of the
churchyard or hidden behind the gravestones, at the approach of
this awful authority.
Who was his mother? What had her name been? When did she die?
Esmond longed to find some one who could answer these questions to
him, and thought even of putting them to his aunt the Viscountess,
who had innocently taken the name which belonged of right to
Henry’s mother. But she knew nothing, or chose to know
nothing, on this subject, nor, indeed, could Mr. Esmond press her
much to speak on it. Father Holt was the only man who could
enlighten him, and Esmond felt he must wait until some fresh chance
or new intrigue might put him face to face with his old friend, or
bring that restless indefatigable spirit back to England again.
The appointment to his ensigncy, and the preparations necessary
for the campaign, presently gave the young gentleman other matters
to think of. His new patroness treated him very kindly and
liberally; she promised to make interest and pay money, too, to get
him a company speedily; she bade him procure a handsome outfit,
both of clothes and of arms, and was pleased to admire him when he
made his first appearance in his laced scarlet coat, and to permit
him to salute her on the occasion of this interesting investiture.
“Red,” says she, tossing up her old head, “hath
always been the color worn by the Esmonds.” And so her
ladyship wore it on her own cheeks very faithfully to the last. She
would have him be dressed, she said, as became his father’s
son, and paid cheerfully for his five-pound beaver, his black
buckled periwig, and his fine holland shirts, and his swords, and
his pistols, mounted with silver. Since the day he was born, poor
Harry had never looked such a fine gentleman: his liberal
step-mother filled his purse with guineas, too, some of which
Captain Steele and a few choice spirits helped Harry to spend in an
entertainment which Dick ordered (and, indeed, would have paid for,
but that he had no money when the reckoning was called for; nor
would the landlord give him any more credit) at the
“Garter,” over against the gate of the Palace, in Pall
Mall.
The old Viscountess, indeed, if she had done Esmond any wrong
formerly, seemed inclined to repair it by the present kindness of
her behavior: she embraced him copiously at parting, wept
plentifully, bade him write by every packet, and gave him an
inestimable relic, which she besought him to wear round his
neck—a medal, blessed by I know not what pope, and worn by
his late sacred Majesty King James. So Esmond arrived at his
regiment with a better equipage than most young officers could
afford. He was older than most of his seniors, and had a further
advantage which belonged but to very few of the army gentlemen in
his day—many of whom could do little more than write their
names—that he had read much, both at home and at the
University, was master of two or three languages, and had that
further education which neither books nor years will give, but
which some men get from the silent teaching of adversity. She is a
great schoolmistress, as many a poor fellow knows, that hath held
his hand out to her ferule, and whimpered over his lesson before
her awful chair.
The first expedition in which Mr. Esmond had the honor to be
engaged, rather resembled one of the invasions projected by the
redoubted Captain Avory or Captain Kidd, than a war between crowned
heads, carried on by generals of rank and honor. On the 1st day of
July, 1702, a great fleet, of a hundred and fifty sail, set sail
from Spithead, under the command of Admiral Shovell, having on
board 12,000 troops, with his Grace the Duke of Ormond as the
Capt.-General of the expedition. One of these 12,000 heroes having
never been to sea before, or, at least, only once in his infancy,
when he made the voyage to England from that unknown country where
he was born—one of those 12,000—the junior ensign of
Colonel Quin’s regiment of Fusileers—was in a quite
unheroic state of corporal prostration a few hours after sailing;
and an enemy, had he boarded the ship, would have had easy work of
him. From Portsmouth we put into Plymouth, and took in fresh
reinforcements. We were off Finisterre on the 31st of July, so
Esmond’s table-book informs him: and on the 8th of August
made the rock of Lisbon. By this time the Ensign was grown as bold
as an admiral, and a week afterwards had the fortune to be under
fire for the first time—and under water, too,—his boat
being swamped in the surf in Toros Bay, where the troops landed.
The ducking of his new coat was all the harm the young soldier got
in this expedition, for, indeed, the Spaniards made no stand before
our troops, and were not in strength to do so.
But the campaign, if not very glorious, was very pleasant. New
sights of nature, by sea and land—a life of action, beginning
now for the first time—occupied and excited the young man.
The many accidents, and the routine of shipboard—the military
duty—the new acquaintances, both of his comrades in arms, and
of the officers of the fleet—served to cheer and occupy his
mind, and waken it out of that selfish depression into which his
late unhappy fortunes had plunged him. He felt as if the ocean
separated him from his past care, and welcomed the new era of life
which was dawning for him. Wounds heal rapidly in a heart of
two-and-twenty; hopes revive daily; and courage rallies in spite of
a man. Perhaps, as Esmond thought of his late despondency and
melancholy, and how irremediable it had seemed to him, as he lay in
his prison a few months back, he was almost mortified in his secret
mind at finding himself so cheerful.
To see with one’s own eyes men and countries, is better
than reading all the books of travel in the world: and it was with
extreme delight and exultation that the young man found himself
actually on his grand tour, and in the view of people and cities
which he had read about as a boy. He beheld war for the first
time—the pride, pomp, and circumstance of it, at least, if
not much of the danger. He saw actually, and with his own eyes,
those Spanish cavaliers and ladies whom he had beheld in
imagination in that immortal story of Cervantes, which had been the
delight of his youthful leisure. ’Tis forty years since Mr.
Esmond witnessed those scenes, but they remain as fresh in his
memory as on the day when first he saw them as a young man. A
cloud, as of grief, that had lowered over him, and had wrapped the
last years of his life in gloom, seemed to clear away from Esmond
during this fortunate voyage and campaign. His energies seemed to
awaken and to expand under a cheerful sense of freedom. Was his
heart secretly glad to have escaped from that fond but ignoble
bondage at home? Was it that the inferiority to which the idea of
his base birth had compelled him, vanished with the knowledge of
that secret, which though, perforce, kept to himself, was yet
enough to cheer and console him? At any rate, young Esmond of the
army was quite a different being to the sad little dependant of the
kind Castlewood household, and the melancholy student of Trinity
Walks; discontented with his fate, and with the vocation into which
that drove him, and thinking, with a secret indignation, that the
cassock and bands, and the very sacred office with which he had
once proposed to invest himself, were, in fact, but marks of a
servitude which was to continue all his life long. For, disguise it
as he might to himself, he had all along felt that to be
Castlewood’s chaplain was to be Castlewood’s inferior
still, and that his life was but to be a long, hopeless servitude.
So, indeed, he was far from grudging his old friend Tom
Tusher’s good fortune (as Tom, no doubt, thought it). Had it
been a mitre and Lambeth which his friends offered him, and not a
small living and a country parsonage, he would have felt as much a
slave in one case as in the other, and was quite happy and thankful
to be free.
The bravest man I ever knew in the army, and who had been
present in most of King William’s actions, as well as in the
campaigns of the great Duke of Marlborough, could never be got to
tell us of any achievement of his, except that once Prince Eugene
ordered him up a tree to reconnoitre the enemy, which feat he could
not achieve on account of the horseman’s boots he wore; and
on another day that he was very nearly taken prisoner because of
these jack-boots, which prevented him from running away. The
present narrator shall imitate this laudable reserve, and doth not
intend to dwell upon his military exploits, which were in truth not
very different from those of a thousand other gentlemen. This first
campaign of Mr. Esmond’s lasted but a few days; and as a
score of books have been written concerning it, it may be dismissed
very briefly here.
When our fleet came within view of Cadiz, our commander sent a
boat with a white flag and a couple of officers to the Governor of
Cadiz, Don Scipio de Brancaccio, with a letter from his Grace, in
which he hoped that as Don Scipio had formerly served with the
Austrians against the French, ’twas to be hoped that his
Excellency would now declare himself against the French King, and
for the Austrian in the war between King Philip and King Charles.
But his Excellency, Don Scipio, prepared a reply, in which he
announced that, having served his former king with honor and
fidelity, he hoped to exhibit the same loyalty and devotion towards
his present sovereign, King Philip V.; and by the time this letter
was ready, the two officers had been taken to see the town, and the
alameda, and the theatre, where bull-fights are fought, and the
convents, where the admirable works of Don Bartholomew Murillo
inspired one of them with a great wonder and delight—such as
he had never felt before—concerning this divine art of
painting; and these sights over, and a handsome refection and
chocolate being served to the English gentlemen, they were
accompanied back to their shallop with every courtesy, and were the
only two officers of the English army that saw at that time that
famous city.
The general tried the power of another proclamation on the
Spaniards, in which he announced that we only came in the interest
of Spain and King Charles, and for ourselves wanted to make no
conquest nor settlement in Spain at all. But all this eloquence was
lost upon the Spaniards, it would seem: the Captain–General
of Andalusia would no more listen to us than the Governor of Cadiz;
and in reply to his Grace’s proclamation, the Marquis of
Villadarias fired off another, which those who knew the Spanish
thought rather the best of the two; and of this number was Harry
Esmond, whose kind Jesuit in old days had instructed him, and now
had the honor of translating for his Grace these harmless documents
of war. There was a hard touch for his Grace, and, indeed, for
other generals in her Majesty’s service, in the concluding
sentence of the Don: “That he and his council had the
generous example of their ancestors to follow, who had never yet
sought their elevation in the blood or in the flight of their
kings. ‘Mori pro patria’ was his device, which the Duke
might communicate to the Princess who governed England.”
Whether the troops were angry at this repartee or no, ’tis
certain something put them in a fury; for, not being able to get
possession of Cadiz, our people seized upon Port Saint Mary’s
and sacked it, burning down the merchants’ storehouses,
getting drunk with the famous wines there, pillaging and robbing
quiet houses and convents, murdering and doing worse. And the only
blood which Mr. Esmond drew in this shameful campaign, was the
knocking down an English sentinel with a half-pike, who was
offering insult to a poor trembling nun. Is she going to turn out a
beauty? or a princess? or perhaps Esmond’s mother that he had
lost and never seen? Alas no, it was but a poor wheezy old
dropsical woman, with a wart upon her nose. But having been early
taught a part of the Roman religion, he never had the horror of it
that some Protestants have shown, and seem to think to be a part of
ours.
After the pillage and plunder of St. Mary’s and an assault
upon a fort or two, the troops all took shipping, and finished
their expedition, at any rate, more brilliantly than it had begun.
Hearing that the French fleet with a great treasure was in Vigo
Bay, our Admirals, Rooke and Hopson, pursued the enemy thither; the
troops landed and carried the forts that protected the bay, Hopson
passing the boom first on board his ship the “Torbay,”
and the rest of the ships, English and Dutch, following him. Twenty
ships were burned or taken in the Port of Redondilla, and a vast
deal more plunder than was ever accounted for; but poor men before
that expedition were rich afterwards, and so often was it found and
remarked that the Vigo officers came home with pockets full of
money, that the notorious Jack Shafto, who made such a figure at
the coffeehouses and gaming-tables in London, and gave out that he
had been a soldier at Vigo, owned, when he was about to be hanged,
that Bagshot Heath had been HIS Vigo, and that he only spoke of La
Redondilla to turn away people’s eyes from the real place
where the booty lay. Indeed, Hounslow or Vigo—which matters
much? The latter was a bad business, though Mr. Addison did sing
its praises in Latin. That honest gentleman’s muse had an eye
to the main chance; and I doubt whether she saw much inspiration in
the losing side.
But though Esmond, for his part, got no share of this fabulous
booty, one great prize which he had out of the campaign was, that
excitement of action and change of scene, which shook off a great
deal of his previous melancholy. He learnt at any rate to bear his
fate cheerfully. He brought back a browned face, a heart resolute
enough, and a little pleasant store of knowledge and observation,
from that expedition, which was over with the autumn, when the
troops were back in England again; and Esmond giving up his post of
secretary to General Lumley, whose command was over, and parting
with that officer with many kind expressions of good will on the
General’s side, had leave to go to London, to see if he could
push his fortunes any way further, and found himself once more in
his dowager aunt’s comfortable quarters at Chelsey, and in
greater favor than ever with the old lady. He propitiated her with
a present of a comb, a fan, and a black mantle, such as the ladies
of Cadiz wear, and which my Lady Viscountess pronounced became her
style of beauty mightily. And she was greatily edified at hearing
of that story of his rescue of the nun, and felt very little doubt
but that her King James’s relic, which he had always
dutifully worn in his desk, had kept him out of danger, and averted
the shot of the enemy. My lady made feasts for him, introduced him
to more company, and pushed his fortunes with such enthusiasm and
success, that she got a promise of a company for him through the
Lady Marlborough’s interest, who was graciously pleased to
accept of a diamond worth a couple of hundred guineas, which Mr.
Esmond was enabled to present to her ladyship through his
aunt’s bounty, and who promised that she would take charge of
Esmond’s fortune. He had the honor to make his appearance at
the Queen’s drawing-room occasionally, and to frequent my
Lord Marlborough’s levees. That great man received the young
one with very especial favor, so Esmond’s comrades said, and
deigned to say that he had received the best reports of Mr. Esmond,
both for courage and ability, whereon you may be sure the young
gentleman made a profound bow, and expressed himself eager to serve
under the most distinguished captain in the world.
Whilst his business was going on thus prosperously, Esmond had
his share of pleasure too, and made his appearance along with other
young gentlemen at the coffee-houses, the theatres, and the Mall.
He longed to hear of his dear mistress and her family: many a time,
in the midst of the gayeties and pleasures of the town, his heart
fondly reverted to them; and often as the young fellows of his
society were making merry at the tavern, and calling toasts (as the
fashion of that day was) over their wine, Esmond thought of
persons—of two fair women, whom he had been used to adore
almost, and emptied his glass with a sigh.
By this time the elder Viscountess had grown tired again of the
younger, and whenever she spoke of my lord’s widow,
’twas in terms by no means complimentary towards that poor
lady: the younger woman not needing her protection any longer, the
elder abused her. Most of the family quarrels that I have seen in
life (saving always those arising from money disputes, when a
division of twopence halfpenny will often drive the dearest
relatives into war and estrangement,) spring out of jealousy and
envy. Jack and Tom, born of the same family and to the same
fortune, live very cordially together, not until Jack is ruined
when Tom deserts him, but until Tom makes a sudden rise in
prosperity, which Jack can’t forgive. Ten times to one
’tis the unprosperous man that is angry, not the other who is
in fault. ’Tis Mrs. Jack, who can only afford a chair, that
sickens at Mrs. Tom’s new coach-and-sick, cries out against
her sister’s airs, and sets her husband against his brother.
’Tis Jack who sees his brother shaking hands with a lord
(with whom Jack would like to exchange snuff-boxes himself), that
goes home and tells his wife how poor Tom is spoiled, he fears, and
no better than a sneak, parasite, and beggar on horse back. I
remember how furious the coffee-house wits were with Dick Steele
when he set up his coach and fine house in Bloomsbury: they began
to forgive him when the bailiffs were after him, and abused Mr.
Addison for selling Dick’s country-house. And yet Dick in the
sponging-house, or Dick in the Park, with his four mares and plated
harness, was exactly the same gentle, kindly, improvident, jovial
Dick Steele: and yet Mr. Addison was perfectly right in getting the
money which was his, and not giving up the amount of his just
claim, to be spent by Dick upon champagne and fiddlers, laced
clothes, fine furniture, and parasites, Jew and Christian, male and
female, who clung to him. As, according to the famous maxim of
Monsieur de Rochefoucault, “in our friends’ misfortunes
there’s something secretly pleasant to us;” so, on the
other hand, their good fortune is disagreeable. If ’tis hard
for a man to bear his own good luck, ’tis harder still for
his friends to bear it for him and but few of them ordinarily can
stand that trial: whereas one of the “precious uses” of
adversity is, that it is a great reconciler; that it brings back
averted kindness, disarms animosity, and causes yesterday’s
enemy to fling his hatred aside, and hold out a hand to the fallen
friend of old days. There’s pity and love, as well as envy,
in the same heart and towards the same person. The rivalry stops
when the competitor tumbles; and, as I view it, we should look at
these agreeable and disagreeable qualities of our humanity humbly
alike. They are consequent and natural, and our kindness and
meanness both manly.
So you may either read the sentence, that the elder of
Esmond’s two kinswomen pardoned the younger her beauty, when
that had lost somewhat of its freshness, perhaps; and forgot most
her grievances against the other, when the subject of them was no
longer prosperous and enviable; or we may say more benevolently
(but the sum comes to the same figures, worked either way,) that
Isabella repented of her unkindness towards Rachel, when Rachel was
unhappy; and, bestirring herself in behalf of the poor widow and
her children, gave them shelter and friendship. The ladies were
quite good friends as long as the weaker one needed a protector.
Before Esmond went away on his first campaign, his mistress was
still on terms of friendship (though a poor little chit, a woman
that had evidently no spirit in her, &c.) with the elder Lady
Castlewood; and Mistress Beatrix was allowed to be a beauty.
But between the first year of Queen Anne’s reign, and the
second, sad changes for the worse had taken place in the two
younger ladies, at least in the elder’s description of them.
Rachel, Viscountess Castlewood, had no more face than a dumpling,
and Mrs. Beatrix was grown quite coarse, and was losing all her
beauty. Little Lord Blandford—(she never would call him Lord
Blandford; his father was Lord Churchill—the King, whom he
betrayed, had made him Lord Churchill, and he was Lord Churchill
still)—might be making eyes at her; but his mother, that
vixen of a Sarah Jennings, would never hear of such a folly. Lady
Marlborough had got her to be a maid of honor at Court to the
Princess, but she would repent of it. The widow Francis (she was
but Mrs. Francis Esmond) was a scheming, artful, heartless hussy.
She was spoiling her brat of a boy, and she would end by marrying
her chaplain.
“What, Tusher!” cried Mr. Esmond, feeling a strange
pang of rage and astonishment.
“Yes—Tusher, my maid’s son; and who has got
all the qualities of his father the lackey in black, and his
accomplished mamma the waiting-woman,” cries my lady.
“What do you suppose that a sentimental widow, who will live
down in that dingy dungeon of a Castlewood, where she spoils her
boy, kills the poor with her drugs, has prayers twice a day and
sees nobody but the chaplain—what do you suppose she can do,
mon Cousin, but let the horrid parson, with his great square toes
and hideous little green eyes, make love to her? Cela c’est
vu, mon Cousin. When I was a girl at Castlewood, all the chaplains
fell in love with me—they’ve nothing else to
do.”
My lady went on with more talk of this kind, though, in truth,
Esmond had no idea of what she said further, so entirely did her
first words occupy his thought. Were they true? Not all, nor half,
nor a tenth part of what the garrulous old woman said, was true.
Could this be so? No ear had Esmond for anything else, though his
patroness chatted on for an hour.
Some young gentlemen of the town, with whom Esmond had made
acquaintance, had promised to present him to that most charming of
actresses, and lively and agreeable of women, Mrs. Bracegirdle,
about whom Harry’s old adversary Mohun had drawn swords, a
few years before my poor lord and he fell out. The famous Mr.
Congreve had stamped with his high approval, to the which there was
no gainsaying, this delightful person: and she was acting in Dick
Steele’s comedies, and finally, and for twenty-four hours
after beholding her, Mr. Esmond felt himself, or thought himself,
to be as violently enamored of this lovely brunette, as were a
thousand other young fellows about the city. To have once seen her
was to long to behold her again; and to be offered the delightful
privilege of her acquaintance, was a pleasure the very idea of
which set the young lieutenant’s heart on fire. A man cannot
live with comrades under the tents without finding out that he too
is five-and-twenty. A young fellow cannot be cast down by grief and
misfortune ever so severe but some night he begins to sleep sound,
and some day when dinner-time comes to feel hungry for a beefsteak.
Time, youth and good health, new scenes and the excitement of
action and a campaign, had pretty well brought Esmond’s
mourning to an end; and his comrades said that Don Dismal, as they
called him, was Don Dismal no more. So when a party was made to
dine at the “Rose,” and go to the playhouse afterward,
Esmond was as pleased as another to take his share of the bottle
and the play.
How was it that the old aunt’s news, or it might be
scandal, about Tom Tusher, caused such a strange and sudden
excitement in Tom’s old playfellow? Hadn’t he sworn a
thousand times in his own mind that the Lady of Castlewood, who had
treated him with such kindness once, and then had left him so
cruelly, was, and was to remain henceforth, indifferent to him for
ever? Had his pride and his sense of justice not long since helped
him to cure the pain of that desertion—was it even a pain to
him now? Why, but last night as he walked across the fields and
meadows to Chelsey from Pall Mall, had he not composed two or three
stanzas of a song, celebrating Bracegirdle’s brown eyes, and
declaring them a thousand times more beautiful than the brightest
blue ones that ever languished under the lashes of an insipid fair
beauty! But Tom Tusher! Tom Tusher, the waiting-woman’s son,
raising up his little eyes to his mistress! Tom Tusher presuming to
think of Castlewood’s widow! Rage and contempt filled Mr.
Harry’s heart at the very notion; the honor of the family, of
which he was the chief, made it his duty to prevent so monstrous an
alliance, and to chastise the upstart who could dare to think of
such an insult to their house. ’Tis true Mr. Esmond often
boasted of republican principles, and could remember many fine
speeches he had made at college and elsewhere, with WORTH and not
BIRTH for a text: but Tom Tusher to take the place of the noble
Castlewood—faugh! ’twas as monstrous as King
Hamlet’s widow taking off her weeds for Claudius. Esmond
laughed at all widows, all wives, all women; and were the banns
about to be published, as no doubt they were, that very next Sunday
at Walcote Church, Esmond swore that he would be present to shout
No! in the face of the congregation, and to take a private revenge
upon the ears of the bridegroom.
Instead of going to dinner then at the “Rose” that
night, Mr. Esmond bade his servant pack a portmanteau and get
horses, and was at Farnham, half-way on the road to Walcote, thirty
miles off, before his comrades had got to their supper after the
play. He bade his man give no hint to my Lady Dowager’s
household of the expedition on which he was going; and as Chelsey
was distant from London, the roads bad, and infested by footpads,
and Esmond often in the habit, when engaged in a party of pleasure,
of lying at a friend’s lodging in town, there was no need
that his old aunt should be disturbed at his absence—indeed,
nothing more delighted the old lady than to fancy that mon cousin,
the incorrigible young sinner, was abroad boxing the watch, or
scouring St. Giles’s. When she was not at her books of
devotion, she thought Etheridge and Sedley very good reading. She
had a hundred pretty stories about Rochester, Harry Jermyn, and
Hamilton; and if Esmond would but have run away with the wife even
of a citizen, ’tis my belief she would have pawned her
diamonds (the best of them went to our Lady of Chaillot) to pay his
damages.
My lord’s little house of Walcote—which he inhabited
before he took his title and occupied the house of
Castlewood—lies about a mile from Winchester, and his widow
had returned to Walcote after my lord’s death as a place
always dear to her, and where her earliest and happiest days had
been spent, cheerfuller than Castlewood, which was too large for
her straitened means, and giving her, too, the protection of the
ex-dean, her father. The young Viscount had a year’s
schooling at the famous college there, with Mr. Tusher as his
governor. So much news of them Mr. Esmond had had during the past
year from the old Viscountess, his own father’s widow; from
the young one there had never been a word.
Twice or thrice in his benefactor’s lifetime, Esmond had
been to Walcote; and now, taking but a couple of hours’ rest
only at the inn on the road, he was up again long before daybreak,
and made such good speed that he was at Walcote by two
o’clock of the day. He rid to the end of the village, where
he alighted and sent a man thence to Mr. Tusher, with a message
that a gentleman from London would speak with him on urgent
business. The messenger came back to say the Doctor was in town,
most likely at prayers in the Cathedral. My Lady Viscountess was
there, too; she always went to Cathedral prayers every day.
The horses belonged to the post-house at Winchester. Esmond
mounted again and rode on to the “George;” whence he
walked, leaving his grumbling domestic at last happy with a dinner,
straight to the Cathedral. The organ was playing: the
winter’s day was already growing gray: as he passed under the
street-arch into the Cathedral yard, and made his way into the
ancient solemn edifice.
There was scarce a score of persons in the Cathedral beside the
Dean and some of his clergy, and the choristers, young and old,
that performed the beautiful evening prayer. But Mr. Tusher was one
of the officiants, and read from the eagle in an authoritative
voice, and a great black periwig; and in the stalls, still in her
black widow’s hood, sat Esmond’s dear mistress, her son
by her side, very much grown, and indeed a noble-looking youth,
with his mother’s eyes, and his father’s curling brown
hair, that fell over his point de Venise—a pretty picture
such as Van Dyck might have painted. Mons. Rigaud’s portrait
of my Lord Viscount, done at Paris afterwards, gives but a French
version of his manly, frank, English face. When he looked up there
were two sapphire beams out of his eyes such as no painter’s
palette has the color to match, I think. On this day there was not
much chance of seeing that particular beauty of my young
lord’s countenance; for the truth is, he kept his eyes shut
for the most part, and, the anthem being rather long, was
asleep.
But the music ceasing, my lord woke up, looking about him, and
his eyes lighting on Mr. Esmond, who was sitting opposite him,
gazing with no small tenderness and melancholy upon two persons who
had so much of his heart for so many years, Lord Castlewood, with a
start, pulled at his mother’s sleeve (her face had scarce
been lifted from her book), and said, “Look, mother!”
so loud, that Esmond could hear on the other side of the church,
and the old Dean on his throned stall. Lady Castlewood looked for
an instant as her son bade her, and held up a warning finger to
Frank; Esmond felt his whole face flush, and his heart throbbing,
as that dear lady beheld him once more. The rest of the prayers
were speedily over; Mr. Esmond did not hear them; nor did his
mistress, very likely, whose hood went more closely over her face,
and who never lifted her head again until the service was over, the
blessing given, and Mr. Dean, and his procession of ecclesiastics,
out of the inner chapel.
Young Castlewood came clambering over the stalls before the
clergy were fairly gone, and running up to Esmond, eagerly embraced
him. “My dear, dearest old Harry!” he said, “are
you come back? Have you been to the wars? You’ll take me with
you when you go again? Why didn’t you write to us? Come to
mother.”
Mr. Esmond could hardly say more than a “God bless you, my
boy,” for his heart was very full and grateful at all this
tenderness on the lad’s part; and he was as much moved at
seeing Frank as he was fearful about that other interview which was
now to take place: for he knew not if the widow would reject him as
she had done so cruelly a year ago.
“It was kind of you to come back to us, Henry,” Lady
Esmond said. “I thought you might come.”
“We read of the fleet coming to Portsmouth. Why did you
not come from Portsmouth?” Frank asked, or my Lord Viscount,
as he now must be called.
Esmond had thought of that too. He would have given one of his
eyes so that he might see his dear friends again once more; but
believing that his mistress had forbidden him her house, he had
obeyed her, and remained at a distance.
“You had but to ask, and you know I would be here,”
he said.
She gave him her hand, her little fair hand; there was only her
marriage ring on it. The quarrel was all over. The year of grief
and estrangement was passed. They never had been separated. His
mistress had never been out of his mind all that time. No, not
once. No, not in the prison; nor in the camp; nor on shore before
the enemy; nor at sea under the stars of solemn midnight; nor as he
watched the glorious rising of the dawn: not even at the table,
where he sat carousing with friends, or at the theatre yonder,
where he tried to fancy that other eyes were brighter than hers.
Brighter eyes there might be, and faces more beautiful, but none so
dear—no voice so sweet as that of his beloved mistress, who
had been sister, mother, goddess to him during his
youth—goddess now no more, for he knew of her weaknesses; and
by thought, by suffering, and that experience it brings, was older
now than she; but more fondly cherished as woman perhaps than ever
she had been adored as divinity. What is it? Where lies it? the
secret which makes one little hand the dearest of all? Whoever can
unriddle that mystery? Here she was, her son by his side, his dear
boy. Here she was, weeping and happy. She took his hand in both
hers; he felt her tears. It was a rapture of reconciliation.
“Here comes Squaretoes,” says Frank.
“Here’s Tusher.”
Tusher, indeed, now appeared, creaking on his great heels. Mr.
Tom had divested himself of his alb or surplice, and came forward
habited in his cassock and great black periwig. How had Esmond ever
been for a moment jealous of this fellow?
“Give us thy hand, Tom Tusher,” he said. The
chaplain made him a very low and stately bow. “I am charmed
to see Captain Esmond,” says he. “My lord and I have
read the Reddas incolumem precor, and applied it, I am sure, to
you. You come back with Gaditanian laurels; when I heard you were
bound thither, I wished, I am sure, I was another Septimius. My
Lord Viscount, your lordship remembers Septimi, Gades aditure
mecum?”
“There’s an angle of earth that I love better than
Gades, Tusher,” says Mr. Esmond. “’Tis that one
where your reverence hath a parsonage, and where our youth was
brought up.”
“A house that has so many sacred recollections to
me,” says Mr. Tusher (and Harry remembered how Tom’s
father used to flog him there)—“a house near to that of
my respected patron, my most honored patroness, must ever be a dear
abode to me. But, madam, the verger waits to close the gates on
your ladyship.”
“And Harry’s coming home to supper. Huzzay!
huzzay!” cries my lord. “Mother, I shall run home and
bid Beatrix put her ribbons on. Beatrix is a maid of honor, Harry.
Such a fine set-up minx!”
“Your heart was never in the Church, Harry,” the
widow said, in her sweet low tone, as they walked away together.
(Now, it seemed they never had been parted, and again, as if they
had been ages asunder.) “I always thought you had no vocation
that way; and that ’twas a pity to shut you out from the
world. You would but have pined and chafed at Castlewood: and
’tis better you should make a name for yourself. I often said
so to my dear lord. How he loved you! ’Twas my lord that made
you stay with us.”
“I asked no better than to stay near you always,”
said Mr. Esmond.
“But to go was best, Harry. When the world cannot give
peace, you will know where to find it; but one of your strong
imagination and eager desires must try the world first before he
tires of it. ’Twas not to be thought of, or if it once was,
it was only by my selfishness, that you should remain as chaplain
to a country gentleman and tutor to a little boy. You are of the
blood of the Esmonds, kinsman; and that was always wild in youth.
Look at Francis. He is but fifteen, and I scarce can keep him in my
nest. His talk is all of war and pleasure, and he longs to serve in
the next campaign. Perhaps he and the young Lord Churchill shall go
the next. Lord Marlborough has been good to us. You know how kind
they were in my misfortune. And so was your—your
father’s widow. No one knows how good the world is, till
grief comes to try us. ’Tis through my Lady
Marlborough’s goodness that Beatrix hath her place at Court;
and Frank is under my Lord Chamberlain. And the dowager lady, your
father’s widow, has promised to provide for you—has she
not?”
Esmond said, “Yes. As far as present favor went, Lady
Castlewood was very good to him. And should her mind change,”
he added gayly, “as ladies’ minds will, I am strong
enough to bear my own burden, and make my way somehow. Not by the
sword very likely. Thousands have a better genius for that than I,
but there are many ways in which a young man of good parts and
education can get on in the world; and I am pretty sure, one way or
other, of promotion!” Indeed, he had found patrons already in
the army, and amongst persons very able to serve him, too; and told
his mistress of the flattering aspect of fortune. They walked as
though they had never been parted, slowly, with the gray twilight
closing round them.
“And now we are drawing near to home,” she
continued, “I knew you would come, Harry, if—if it was
but to forgive me for having spoken unjustly to you after that
horrid—horrid misfortune. I was half frantic with grief then
when I saw you. And I know now—they have told me. That
wretch, whose name I can never mention, even has said it: how you
tried to avert the quarrel, and would have taken it on yourself, my
poor child: but it was God’s will that I should be punished,
and that my dear lord should fall.”
“He gave me his blessing on his death-bed,” Esmond
said. “Thank God for that legacy!”
“Amen, amen! dear Henry,” said the lady, pressing
his arm. “I knew it. Mr. Atterbury, of St. Bride’s, who
was called to him, told me so. And I thanked God, too, and in my
prayers ever since remembered it.”
“You had spared me many a bitter night, had you told me
sooner,” Mr. Esmond said.
“I know it, I know it,” she answered, in a tone of
such sweet humility, as made Esmond repent that he should ever have
dared to reproach her. “I know how wicked my heart has been;
and I have suffered too, my dear. I confessed to Mr.
Atterbury—I must not tell any more. He—I said I would
not write to you or go to you—and it was better even that
having parted, we should part. But I knew you would come
back—I own that. That is no one’s fault. And today,
Henry, in the anthem, when they sang it, ‘When the Lord
turned the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream,’
I thought, yes, like them that dream—them that dream. And
then it went, ‘They that sow in tears shall reap in joy; and
he that goeth forth and weepeth, shall doubtless come again with
rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him;’ I looked up from
the book, and saw you. I was not surprised when I saw you. I knew
you would come, my dear, and saw the gold sunshine round your
head.”
She smiled an almost wild smile as she looked up at him. The
moon was up by this time, glittering keen in the frosty sky. He
could see, for the first time now clearly, her sweet careworn
face.
“Do you know what day it is?” she continued.
“It is the 29th of December—it is your birthday! But
last year we did not drink it—no, no. My lord was cold, and
my Harry was likely to die: and my brain was in a fever; and we had
no wine. But now—now you are come again, bringing your
sheaves with you, my dear.” She burst into a wild flood of
weeping as she spoke; she laughed and sobbed on the young
man’s heart, crying out wildly, “bringing your sheaves
with you—your sheaves with you!”
As he had sometimes felt, gazing up from the deck at midnight
into the boundless starlit depths overhead, in a rapture of devout
wonder at that endless brightness and beauty—in some such a
way now, the depth of this pure devotion (which was, for the first
time, revealed to him) quite smote upon him, and filled his heart
with thanksgiving. Gracious God, who was he, weak and friendless
creature, that such a love should be poured out upon him? Not in
vain—not in vain has he lived—hard and thankless should
he be to think so—that has such a treasure given him. What is
ambition compared to that, but selfish vanity? To be rich, to be
famous? What do these profit a year hence, when other names sound
louder than yours, when you lie hidden away under the ground, along
with idle titles engraven on your coffin? But only true love lives
after you—follows your memory with secret blessing—or
precedes you, and intercedes for you. Non omnis moriar—if
dying, I yet live in a tender heart or two; nor am lost and
hopeless living, if a sainted departed soul still loves and prays
for me.
“If—if ’tis so, dear lady,” Mr. Esmond
said, “why should I ever leave you? If God hath given me this
great boon—and near or far from me, as I know now, the heart
of my dearest mistress follows me, let me have that blessing near
me, nor ever part with it till death separate us. Come
away—leave this Europe, this place which has so many sad
recollections for you. Begin a new life in a new world. My good
lord often talked of visiting that land in Virginia which King
Charles gave us—gave his ancestor. Frank will give us that.
No man there will ask if there is a blot on my name, or inquire in
the woods what my title is.”
“And my children—and my duty—and my good
father, Henry?” she broke out. “He has none but me now!
for soon my sister will leave him, and the old man will be alone.
He has conformed since the new Queen’s reign; and here in
Winchester, where they love him, they have found a church for him.
When the children leave me, I will stay with him. I cannot follow
them into the great world, where their way lies—it scares me.
They will come and visit me; and you will, sometimes,
Henry—yes, sometimes, as now, in the Holy Advent season, when
I have seen and blessed you once more.”
“I would leave all to follow you,” said Mr. Esmond;
“and can you not be as generous for me, dear lady?”
“Hush, boy!” she said, and it was with a
mother’s sweet plaintive tone and look that she spoke.
“The world is beginning for you. For me, I have been so weak
and sinful that I must leave it, and pray out an expiation, dear
Henry. Had we houses of religion as there were once, and many
divines of our Church would have them again, I often think I would
retire to one and pass my life in penance. But I would love you
still—yes, there is no sin in such a love as mine now; and my
dear lord in heaven may see my heart; and knows the tears that have
washed my sin away—and now—now my duty is here, by my
children whilst they need me, and by my poor old father,
and—”
“And not by me?” Henry said.
“Hush!” she said again, and raised her hand up to
his lip. “I have been your nurse. You could not see me,
Harry, when you were in the small-pox, and I came and sat by you.
Ah! I prayed that I might die, but it would have been in sin,
Henry. Oh, it is horrid to look back to that time. It is over now
and past, and it has been forgiven me. When you need me again, I
will come ever so far. When your heart is wounded, then come to me,
my dear. Be silent! let me say all. You never loved me, dear
Henry—no, you do not now, and I thank heaven for it. I used
to watch you, and knew by a thousand signs that it was so. Do you
remember how glad you were to go away to college? ’Twas I
sent you. I told my papa that, and Mr. Atterbury too, when I spoke
to him in London. And they both gave me
absolution—both—and they are godly men, having
authority to bind and to loose. And they forgave me, as my dear
lord forgave me before he went to heaven.”
“I think the angels are not all in heaven,” Mr.
Esmond said. And as a brother folds a sister to his heart; and as a
mother cleaves to her son’s breast—so for a few moments
Esmond’s beloved mistress came to him and blessed him.
As they came up to the house at Walcote, the windows from within
were lighted up with friendly welcome; the supper-table was spread
in the oak-parlor; it seemed as if forgiveness and love were
awaiting the returning prodigal. Two or three familiar faces of
domestics were on the look-out at the porch—the old
housekeeper was there, and young Lockwood from Castlewood in my
lord’s livery of tawny and blue. His dear mistress pressed
his arm as they passed into the hall. Her eyes beamed out on him
with affection indescribable. “Welcome,” was all she
said, as she looked up, putting back her fair curls and black hood.
A sweet rosy