A Tale Of The Forecastle
TO EDWARD GARNETT THIS TALE
ABOUT MY FRIENDS OF THE SEA
TO MY READERS IN AMERICA
Contents
PREFACE
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
From that evening when James Wait joined the ship—late for the
muster of the crew—to the moment when he left us in the open sea,
shrouded in sailcloth, through the open port, I had much to do with
him. He was in my watch. A negro in a British forecastle is a lonely
being. He has no chums. Yet James Wait, afraid of death and making her
his accomplice was an impostor of some character—mastering our
compassion, scornful of our sentimentalism, triumphing over our
suspicions.
But in the book he is nothing; he is merely the centre of the ship's
collective psychology and the pivot of the action. Yet he, who in the
family circle and amongst my friends is familiarly referred to as the
Nigger, remains very precious to me. For the book written round him is
not the sort of thing that can be attempted more than once in a
life-time. It is the book by which, not as a novelist perhaps, but as
an artist striving for the utmost sincerity of expression, I am willing
to stand or fall. Its pages are the tribute of my unalterable and
profound affection for the ships, the seamen, the winds and the great
sea—the moulders of my youth, the companions of the best years of my
life.
After writing the last words of that book, in the revulsion of
feeling before the accomplished task, I understood that I had done with
the sea, and that henceforth I had to be a writer. And almost without
laying down the pen I wrote a preface, trying to express the spirit in
which I was entering on the task of my new life. That preface on advice
(which I now think was wrong) was never published with the book. But
the late W. E. Henley, who had the courage at that time (1897) to
serialize my “Nigger” in the New Review judged it worthy to be
printed as an afterword at the end of the last instalment of the tale.
I am glad that this book which means so much to me is coming out
again, under its proper title of “The Nigger of the 'Narcissus'“ and
under the auspices of my good, friends and publishers Messrs.
Doubleday, Page & Co. into the light of publicity.
Half the span of a generation has passed since W. E. Henley, after
reading two chapters, sent me a verbal message: “Tell Conrad that if
the rest is up to the sample it shall certainly come out in the New
Review.” The most gratifying recollection of my writer's life!
And here is the Suppressed Preface.
1914.
JOSEPH CONRAD.
A work that aspires, however humbly, to the condition of art should
carry its justification in every line. And art itself may be defined as
a single-minded attempt to render the highest kind of justice to the
visible universe, by bringing to light the truth, manifold and one,
underlying its every aspect. It is an attempt to find in its forms, in
its colours, in its light, in its shadows, in the aspects of matter and
in the facts of life what of each is fundamental, what is enduring and
essential—their one illuminating and convincing quality—the very
truth of their existence. The artist, then, like the thinker or the
scientist, seeks the truth and makes his appeal. Impressed by the
aspect of the world the thinker plunges into ideas, the scientist into
facts—whence, presently, emerging they make their appeal to those
qualities of our being that fit us best for the hazardous enterprise of
living. They speak authoritatively to our common-sense, to our
intelligence, to our desire of peace or to our desire of unrest; not
seldom to our prejudices, sometimes to our fears, often to our
egoism—but always to our credulity. And their words are heard with
reverence, for their concern is with weighty matters: with the
cultivation of our minds and the proper care of our bodies, with the
attainment of our ambitions, with the perfection of the means and the
glorification of our precious aims.
It is otherwise with the artist.
Confronted by the same enigmatical spectacle the artist descends
within himself, and in that lonely region of stress and strife, if he
be deserving and fortunate, he finds the terms of his appeal. His
appeal is made to our less obvious capacities: to that part of our
nature which, because of the warlike conditions of existence, is
necessarily kept out of sight within the more resisting and hard
qualities—like the vulnerable body within a steel armour. His appeal
is less loud, more profound, less distinct, more stirring—and sooner
forgotten. Yet its effect endures forever. The changing wisdom of
successive generations discards ideas, questions facts, demolishes
theories. But the artist appeals to that part of our being which is not
dependent on wisdom; to that in us which is a gift and not an
acquisition—and, therefore, more permanently enduring. He speaks to
our capacity for delight and wonder, to the sense of mystery
surrounding our lives; to our sense of pity, and beauty, and pain; to
the latent feeling of fellowship with all creation—and to the subtle
but invincible conviction of solidarity that knits together the
loneliness of innumerable hearts, to the solidarity in dreams, in joy,
in sorrow, in aspirations, in illusions, in hope, in fear, which binds
men to each other, which binds together all humanity—the dead to the
living and the living to the unborn.
It is only some such train of thought, or rather of feeling, that
can in a measure explain the aim of the attempt, made in the tale which
follows, to present an unrestful episode in the obscure lives of a few
individuals out of all the disregarded multitude of the bewildered, the
simple and the voiceless. For, if any part of truth dwells in the
belief confessed above, it becomes evident that there is not a place of
splendour or a dark corner of the earth that does not deserve, if only
a passing glance of wonder and pity. The motive then, may be held to
justify the matter of the work; but this preface, which is simply an
avowal of endeavour, cannot end here—for the avowal is not yet
complete. Fiction—if it at all aspires to be art—appeals to
temperament. And in truth it must be, like painting, like music, like
all art, the appeal of one temperament to all the other innumerable
temperaments whose subtle and resistless power endows passing events
with their true meaning, and creates the moral, the emotional
atmosphere of the place and time. Such an appeal to be effective must
be an impression conveyed through the senses; and, in fact, it cannot
be made in any other way, because temperament, whether individual or
collective, is not amenable to persuasion. All art,' therefore, appeals
primarily to the senses, and the artistic aim when expressing itself in
written words must also make its appeal through the senses, if its
highest desire is to reach the secret spring of responsive emotions. It
must strenuously aspire to the plasticity of sculpture, to the colour
of painting, and to the magic suggestiveness of music—which is the art
of arts. And it is only through complete, unswerving devotion to the
perfect blending of form and substance; it is only through an
unremitting never-discouraged care for the shape and ring of sentences
that an approach can be made to plasticity, to colour, and that the
light of magic suggestiveness may be brought to play for an evanescent
instant over the commonplace surface of words: of the old, old words,
worn thin, defaced by ages of careless usage.
The sincere endeavour to accomplish that creative task, to go as far
on that road as his strength will carry him, to go undeterred by
faltering, weariness or reproach, is the only valid justification for
the worker in prose. And if his conscience is clear, his answer to
those who in the fulness of a wisdom which looks for immediate profit,
demand specifically to be edified, consoled, amused; who demand to be
promptly improved, or encouraged, or frightened, or shocked, or
charmed, must run thus:—My task which I am trying to achieve is, by
the power of the written word to make you hear, to make you feel—it
is, before all, to make you
see. That—and no more, and it is
everything. If I succeed, you shall find there according to your
deserts: encouragement, consolation, fear, charm—all you demand—and,
perhaps, also that glimpse of truth for which you have forgotten to
ask. To snatch in a moment of courage, from the remorseless rush of
time, a passing phase of life, is only the beginning of the task. The
task approached in tenderness and faith is to hold up unquestioningly,
without choice and without fear, the rescued fragment before all eyes
in the light of a sincere mood. It is to show its vibration, its
colour, its form; and through its movement, its form, and its colour,
reveal the substance of its truth—disclose its inspiring secret: the
stress and passion within the core of each convincing moment. In a
single-minded attempt of that kind, if one be deserving and fortunate,
one may perchance attain to such clearness of sincerity that at last
the presented vision of regret or pity, of terror or mirth, shall
awaken in the hearts of the beholders that feeling of unavoidable
solidarity; of the solidarity in mysterious origin, in toil, in joy, in
hope, in uncertain fate, which binds men to each other and all mankind
to the visible world. It is evident that he who, rightly or wrongly,
holds by the convictions expressed above cannot be faithful to any one
of the temporary formulas of his craft. The enduring part of them—the
truth which each only imperfectly veils—should abide with him as the
most precious of his possessions, but they all: Realism, Romanticism,
Naturalism, even the unofficial senti-mentalism (which like the poor,
is exceedingly difficult to get rid of,) all these gods must, after a
short period of fellowship, abandon him—even on the very threshold of
the temple—to the stammerings of his conscience and to the outspoken
consciousness of the difficulties of his work. In that uneasy solitude
the supreme cry of Art for Art itself, loses the exciting ring of its
apparent immorality. It sounds far off. It has ceased' to be a cry, and
is heard only as a whisper, often incomprehensible, but at times and
faintly encouraging.
Sometimes, stretched at ease in the shade of a roadside tree, we
watch the motions of a labourer in a distant field, and after a time,
begin to wonder languidly as to what the fellow may be at. We watch the
movements of his body, the waving of his arms, we see him bend down,
stand up, hesitate, begin again. It may add to the charm of an idle
hour to be told the purpose of his exertions. If we know he is trying
to lift a stone, to dig a ditch, to uproot a stump, we look with a more
real interest at his efforts; we are disposed to condone the jar of his
agitation upon the restfulness of the landscape; and even, if in a
brotherly frame of mind, we may bring ourselves to forgive his failure.
We understood his object, and, after all, the fellow has tried, and
perhaps he had not the strength—and perhaps he had not the knowledge.
We forgive, go on our way—and forget.
And so it is with the workman of art. Art is long and life is short,
and success is very far off. And thus, doubtful of strength to travel
so far, we talk a little about the aim—the aim of art, which, like
life itself, is inspiring, difficult—obscured by mists—It is not in
the clear logic of a triumphant conclusion; it is not in the unveiling
of one of those heartless secrets which are called the Laws of Nature.
It is not less great, but only more difficult.
To arrest, for the space of a breath, the hands busy about the work
of the earth, and compel men entranced by the sight of distant goals to
glance for a moment at the surrounding vision of form and colour, of
sunshine and shadows; to make them pause for a look, for a sigh, for a
smile—such is the aim, difficult and evanescent, and reserved only for
a very few to achieve. But sometimes, by the deserving and the
fortunate, even that task is accomplished. And when it is
accomplished—behold!—all the truth of life is there: a moment of
vision, a sigh, a smile—and the return to an eternal rest.
1897. J. C.
THE NIGGER OF THE “NARCISSUS”
Mr. Baker, chief mate of the ship
Narcissus, stepped in one
stride out of his lighted cabin into the darkness of the quarter-deck.
Above his head, on the break of the poop, the night-watchman rang a
double stroke. It was nine o'clock. Mr. Baker, speaking up to the man
above him, asked:—“Are all the hands aboard, Knowles?”
The man limped down the ladder, then said reflectively:—
“I think so, sir. All our old chaps are there, and a lot of new men
has come.... They must be all there.”
“Tell the boatswain to send all hands aft,” went on Mr. Baker; “and
tell one of the youngsters to bring a good lamp here. I want to muster
our crowd.”
The main deck was dark aft, but halfway from forward, through the
open doors of the forecastle, two streaks of brilliant light cut the
shadow of the quiet night that lay upon the ship. A hum of voices was
heard there, while port and starboard, in the illuminated doorways,
silhouettes of moving men appeared for a moment, very black, without
relief, like figures cut out of sheet tin. The ship was ready for sea.
The carpenter had driven in the last wedge of the mainhatch battens,
and, throwing down his maul, had wiped his face with great
deliberation, just on the stroke of five. The decks had been swept, the
windlass oiled and made ready to heave up the anchor; the big tow-rope
lay in long bights along one side of the main deck, with one end
carried up and hung over the bows, in readiness for the tug that would
come paddling and hissing noisily, hot and smoky, in the limpid, cool
quietness of the early morning. The captain was ashore, where he had
been engaging some new hands to make up his full crew; and, the work of
the day over, the ship's officers had kept out of the way, glad of a
little breathing-time. Soon after dark the few liberty-men and the new
hands began to arrive in shore-boats rowed by white-clad Asiatics, who
clamoured fiercely for payment before coming alongside the
gangway-ladder. The feverish and shrill babble of Eastern language
struggled against the masterful tones of tipsy seamen, who argued
against brazen claims and dishonest hopes by profane shouts. The
resplendent and bestarred peace of the East was torn into squalid
tatters by howls of rage and shrieks of lament raised over sums ranging
from five annas to half a rupee; and every soul afloat in Bombay
Harbour became aware that the new hands were joining the
Narcissus.
Gradually the distracting noise had subsided. The boats came no
longer in splashing clusters of three or four together, but dropped
alongside singly, in a subdued buzz of expostulation cut short by a
“Not a pice more! You go to the devil!” from some man staggering up the
accommodation-ladder—a dark figure, with a long bag poised on the
shoulder. In the forecastle the newcomers, upright and swaying amongst
corded boxes and bundles of bedding, made friends with the old hands,
who sat one above another in the two tiers of bunks, gazing at their
future shipmates with glances critical but friendly. The two forecastle
lamps were turned up high, and shed an intense hard glare; shore-going
round hats were pushed far on the backs of heads, or rolled about on
the deck amongst the chain-cables; white collars, undone, stuck out on
each side of red faces; big arms in white sleeves gesticulated; the
growling voices hummed steady amongst bursts of laughter and hoarse
calls. “Here, sonny, take that bunk!... Don't you do it!... What's your
last ship?... I know her.... Three years ago, in Puget Sound.... This
here berth leaks, I tell you!... Come on; give us a chance to swing
that chest!... Did you bring a bottle, any of you shore toffs?... Give
us a bit of 'baccy.... I know her; her skipper drank himself to
death.... He was a dandy boy!... Liked his lotion inside, he did!...
No!... Hold your row, you chaps!... I tell you, you came on board a
hooker, where they get their money's worth out of poor Jack, by—!...”
A little fellow, called Craik and nicknamed Belfast, abused the ship
violently, romancing on principle, just to give the new hands something
to think over. Archie, sitting aslant on his sea-chest, kept his knees
out of the way, and pushed the needle steadily through a white patch in
a pair of blue trousers. Men in black jackets and stand-up collars,
mixed with men bare-footed, bare-armed, with coloured shirts open on
hairy chests, pushed against one another in the middle of the
forecastle. The group swayed, reeled, turning upon itself with the
motion of a scrimmage, in a haze of tobacco smoke. All were speaking
together, swearing at every second word. A Russian Finn, wearing a
yellow shirt with pink stripes, stared upwards, dreamy-eyed, from under
a mop of tumbled hair. Two young giants with smooth, baby faces—two
Scandinavians—helped each other to spread their bedding, silent, and
smiling placidly at the tempest of good-humoured and meaningless
curses. Old Singleton, the oldest able seaman in the ship, set apart on
the deck right under the lamps, stripped to the waist, tattooed like a
cannibal chief all over his powerful chest and enormous biceps. Between
the blue and red patterns his white skin gleamed like satin; his bare
back was propped against the heel of the bowsprit, and he held a book
at arm's length before his big, sunburnt face. With his spectacles and
a venerable white beard, he resembled a learned and savage patriarch,
the incarnation of barbarian wisdom serene in the blasphemous turmoil
of the world. He was intensely absorbed, and as he turned the pages an
expression of grave surprise would pass over his rugged features. He
was reading “Pelham.” The popularity of Bulwer Lytton in the
forecastles of Southern-going ships is a wonderful and bizarre
phenomenon. What ideas do his polished and so curiously insincere
sentences awaken in the simple minds of the big children who people
those dark and wandering places of the earth? What meaning can their
rough, inexperienced souls find in the elegant verbiage of his pages?
What excitement?—what forgetfulness?—what appeasement? Mystery! Is it
the fascination of the incomprehensible?—is it the charm of the
impossible? Or are those beings who exist beyond the pale of life
stirred by his tales as by an enigmatical disclosure of a resplendent
world that exists within the frontier of infamy and filth, within that
border of dirt and hunger, of misery and dissipation, that comes down
on all sides to the water's edge of the incorruptible ocean, and is the
only thing they know of life, the only thing they see of surrounding
land—those life-long prisoners of the sea? Mystery! Singleton, who had
sailed to the southward since the age of twelve, who in the last
forty-five years had lived (as we had calculated from his papers) no
more than forty months ashore—old Singleton, who boasted, with the
mild composure of long years well spent, that generally from the day he
was paid off from one ship till the day he shipped in another he seldom
was in a condition to distinguish daylight—old Singleton sat unmoved
in the clash of voices and cries, spelling through “Pelham” with slow
labour, and lost in an absorption profound enough to resemble a trance.
He breathed regularly. Every time he turned the book in his enormous
and blackened hands the muscles of his big white arms rolled slightly
under the smooth skin. Hidden by the white moustache, his lips, stained
with tobacco-juice that trickled down the long beard, moved in inward
whisper. His bleared eyes gazed fixedly from behind the glitter of
black-rimmed glasses. Opposite to him, and on a level with his face,
the ship's cat sat on the barrel of the windlass in the pose of a
crouching chimera, blinking its green eyes at its old friend. It seemed
to meditate a leap on to the old man's lap over the bent back of the
ordinary seaman who sat at Singleton's feet. Young Charley was lean and
long-necked. The ridge of his backbone made a chain of small hills
under the old shirt. His face of a street-boy—a face precocious,
sagacious, and ironic, with deep downward folds on each side of the
thin, wide mouth—hung low over his bony knees. He was learning to make
a lanyard knot with a bit of an old rope. Small drops of perspiration
stood out on his bulging forehead; he sniffed strongly from time to
time, glancing out of the corners of his restless eyes at the old
seaman, who took no notice of the puzzled youngster muttering at his
work.
The noise increased. Little Belfast seemed, in the heavy heat of the
forecastle, to boil with facetious fury. His eyes danced; in the
crimson of his face, comical as a mask, the mouth yawned black, with
strange grimaces. Facing him, a half-undressed man held his sides, and,
throwing his head back, laughed with wet eyelashes. Others stared with
amazed eyes. Men sitting doubled up in the upper bunks smoked short
pipes, swinging bare brown feet above the heads of those who, sprawling
below on sea-chests, listened, smiling stupidly or scornfully. Over the
white rims of berths stuck out heads with blinking eyes; but the bodies
were lost in the gloom of those places, that resembled narrow niches
for coffins in a whitewashed and lighted mortuary. Voices buzzed
louder. Archie, with compressed lips, drew himself in, seemed to shrink
into a smaller space, and sewed steadily, industrious and dumb. Belfast
shrieked like an inspired Dervish:—”... So I seez to him, boys, seez
I, 'Beggin' yer pardon, sorr,' seez I to that second mate of that
steamer—'beggin' your-r-r pardon, sorr, the Board of Trade must 'ave
been drunk when they granted you your certificate!' 'What do you say,
you———!' seez he, comin' at me like a mad bull... all in his white
clothes; and I up with my tar-pot and capsizes it all over his blamed
lovely face and his lovely jacket.... 'Take that!' seez I. 'I am a
sailor, anyhow, you nosing, skipper-licking, useless, sooperfloos
bridge-stanchion, you! That's the kind of man I am!' shouts I.... You
should have seed him skip, boys! Drowned, blind with tar, he was!
So...”
“Don't 'ee believe him! He never upset no tar; I was there!” shouted
somebody. The two Norwegians sat on a chest side by side, alike and
placid, resembling a pair of love-birds on a perch, and with round eyes
stared innocently; but the Russian Finn, in the racket of explosive
shouts and rolling laughter, remained motionless, limp and dull, like a
deaf man without a backbone. Near him Archie smiled at his needle. A
broad-chested, slow-eyed newcomer spoke deliberately to Belfast during
an exhausted lull in the noise:—“I wonder any of the mates here are
alive yet with such a chap as you on board! I concloode they ain't that
bad now, if you had the taming of them, sonny.”
“Not bad! Not bad!” screamed Belfast. “If it wasn't for us sticking
together.... Not bad! They ain't never bad when they ain't got a
chawnce, blast their black 'arts....”
He foamed, whirling his arms, then suddenly grinned and, taking a
tablet of black tobacco out of his pocket, bit a piece off with a funny
show of ferocity. Another new hand—a man with shifty eyes and a yellow
hatchet face, who had been listening open-mouthed in the shadow of the
midship locker—observed in a squeaky voice:—“Well, it's a 'omeward
trip, anyhow. Bad or good, I can do it on my 'ed—s'long as I get 'ome.
And I can look after my rights! I will show 'em!” All the heads turned
towards him. Only the ordinary seaman and the cat took no notice. He
stood with arms akimbo, a little fellow with white eyelashes. He looked
as if he had known all the degradations and all the furies. He looked
as if he had been cuffed, kicked, rolled in the mud; he looked as if he
had been scratched, spat upon, pelted with unmentionable filth... and
he smiled with a sense of security at the faces around. His ears were
bending down under the weight of his battered felt hat. The torn tails
of his black coat flapped in fringes about the calves of his legs. He
unbuttoned the only two buttons that remained and every one saw that he
had no shirt under it. It was his deserved misfortune that those rags
which nobody could possibly be supposed to own looked on him as if they
had been stolen. His neck was long and thin; his eyelids were red; rare
hairs hung about his jaws; his shoulders were peaked and drooped like
the broken wings of a bird; all his left side was caked with mud which
showed that he had lately slept in a wet ditch. He had saved his
inefficient carcass from violent destruction by running away from an
American ship where, in a moment of forgetful folly, he had dared to
engage himself; and he had knocked about for a fortnight ashore in the
native quarter, cadging for drinks, starving, sleeping on
rubbish-heaps, wandering in sunshine: a startling visitor from a world
of nightmares. He stood repulsive and smiling in the sudden silence.
This clean white forecastle was his refuge; the place where he could be
lazy; where he could wallow, and lie and eat—and curse the food he
ate; where he could display his talents for shirking work, for
cheating, for cadging; where he could find surely some one to wheedle
and some one to bully—and where he would be paid for doing all this.
They all knew him. Is there a spot on earth where such a man is
unknown, an ominous survival testifying to the eternal fitness of lies
and impudence? A taciturn long-armed shellback, with hooked fingers,
who had been lying on his back smoking, turned in his bed to examine
him dispassionately, then, over his head, sent a long jet of clear
saliva towards the door. They all knew him! He was the man that cannot
steer, that cannot splice, that dodges the work on dark nights; that,
aloft, holds on frantically with both arms and legs, and swears at the
wind, the sleet, the darkness; the man who curses the sea while others
work. The man who is the last out and the first in when all hands are
called. The man who can't do most things and won't do the rest. The pet
of philanthropists and self-seeking landlubbers. The sympathetic and
deserving creature that knows all about his rights, but knows nothing
of courage, of endurance, and of the unexpressed faith, of the unspoken
loyalty that knits together a ship's company. The independent offspring
of the ignoble freedom of the slums full of disdain and hate for the
austere servitude of the sea.
Some one cried at him: “What's your name?”—“Donkin,” he said,
looking round with cheerful effrontery.—“What are you?” asked another
voice.—“Why, a sailor like you, old man,” he replied, in a tone that
meant to be hearty but was impudent.—“Blamme if you don't look a
blamed sight worse than a broken-down fireman,” was the comment in a
convinced mutter. Charley lifted his head and piped in a cheeky voice:
“He is a man and a sailor”—then wiping his nose with the back of his
hand bent down industriously over his bit of rope. A few laughed.
Others stared doubtfully. The ragged newcomer was indignant—“That's a
fine way to welcome a chap into a fo'c'sle,” he snarled. “Are you men
or a lot of 'artless canny-bals?”—“Don't take your shirt off for a
word, shipmate,” called out Belfast, jumping up in front, fiery,
menacing, and friendly at the same time.—“Is that 'ere bloke blind?”
asked the indomitable scarecrow, looking right and left with affected
surprise. “Can't 'ee see I 'aven't got no shirt?”
He held both his arms out crosswise and shook the rags that hung
over his bones with dramatic effect.
“'Cos why?” he continued very loud. “The bloody Yankees been tryin'
to jump my guts out 'cos I stood up for my rights like a good 'un. I am
an Englishman, I am. They set upon me an' I 'ad to run. That's why.
A'n't yer never seed a man 'ard up? Yah! What kind of blamed ship is
this? I'm dead broke. I 'aven't got nothink. No bag, no bed, no
blanket, no shirt—not a bloomin' rag but what I stand in. But I 'ad
the 'art to stand up agin' them Yankees. 'As any of you 'art enough to
spare a pair of old pants for a chum?”
He knew how to conquer the naive instincts of that crowd. In a
moment they gave him their compassion, jocularly, contemptuously, or
surlily; and at first it took the shape of a blanket thrown at him as
he stood there with the white skin of his limbs showing his human
kinship through the black fantasy of his rags. Then a pair of old shoes
fell at his muddy feet. With a cry:—“From under,” a rolled-up pair of
canvas trousers, heavy with tar stains, struck him on the shoulder. The
gust of their benevolence sent a wave of sentimental pity through their
doubting hearts. They were touched by their own readiness to alleviate
a shipmate's misery. Voices cried:—“We will fit you out, old man.”
Murmurs: “Never seed seech a hard case.... Poor beggar.... I've got an
old singlet.... Will that be of any use to you?... Take it, matey....”
Those friendly murmurs filled the forecastle. He pawed around with his
naked foot, gathering the things in a heap and looked about for more.
Unemotional Archie perfunctorily contributed to the pile an old cloth
cap with the peak torn off. Old Singleton, lost in the serene regions
of fiction, read on unheeding. Charley, pitiless with the wisdom of
youth, squeaked:—“If you want brass buttons for your new unyforms I've
got two for you.” The filthy object of universal charity shook his fist
at the youngster.—“I'll make you keep this 'ere fo'c'sle clean, young
feller,” he snarled viciously. “Never you fear. I will learn you to be
civil to an able seaman, you ignerant ass.” He glared harmfully, but
saw Singleton shut his book, and his little beady eyes began to roam
from berth to berth.—“Take that bunk by the door there—it's pretty
fair,” suggested Belfast. So advised, he gathered the gifts at his
feet, pressed them in a bundle against his breast, then looked
cautiously at the Russian Finn, who stood on one side with an
unconscious gaze, contemplating, perhaps, one of those weird visions
that haunt the men of his race.—“Get out of my road, Dutchy,” said the
victim of Yankee brutality. The Finn did not move—did not hear. “Get
out, blast ye,” shouted the other, shoving him aside with his elbow.
“Get out, you blanked deaf and dumb fool. Get out.” The man staggered,
recovered himself, and gazed at the speaker in silence.—“Those damned
furriners should be kept under,” opined the amiable Donkin to the
forecastle. “If you don't teach 'em their place they put on you like
anythink.” He flung all his worldly possessions into the empty
bed-place, gauged with another shrewd look the risks of the proceeding,
then leaped up to the Finn, who stood pensive and dull.—“I'll teach
you to swell around,” he yelled. “I'll plug your eyes for you, you
blooming square-head.” Most of the men were now in their bunks and the
two had the forecastle clear to themselves. The development of the
destitute Donkin aroused interest. He danced all in tatters before the
amazed Finn, squaring from a distance at the heavy, unmoved face. One
or two men cried encouragingly: “Go it, Whitechapel!” settling
themselves luxuriously in their beds to survey the fight. Others
shouted: “Shut yer row!... Go an' put yer 'ed in a bag!...” The hubbub
was recommencing. Suddenly many heavy blows struck with a handspike on
the deck above boomed like discharges of small cannon through the
forecastle. Then the boatswain's voice rose outside the door with an
authoritative note in its drawl:—“D'ye hear, below there? Lay aft! Lay
aft to muster all hands!”
There was a moment of surprised stillness. Then the forecastle floor
disappeared under men whose bare feet flopped on the planks as they
sprang clear out of their berths. Caps were rooted for amongst tumbled
blankets. Some, yawning, buttoned waistbands. Half-smoked pipes were
knocked hurriedly against woodwork and stuffed under pillows. Voices
growled:—“What's up?... Is there no rest for us?” Donkin yelped:—“If
that's the way of this ship, we'll 'ave to change all that.... You
leave me alone.... I will soon....” None of the crowd noticed him. They
were lurching in twos and threes through the doors, after the manner of
merchant Jacks who cannot go out of a door fairly, like mere landsmen.
The votary of change followed them. Singleton, struggling into his
jacket, came last, tall and fatherly, bearing high his head of a
weather-beaten sage on the body of an old athlete. Only Charley
remained alone in the white glare of the empty place, sitting between
the two rows of iron links that stretched into the narrow gloom
forward. He pulled hard at the strands in a hurried endeavour to finish
his knot. Suddenly he started up, flung the rope at the cat, and
skipped after the black tom which went off leaping sedately over chain
compressors, with its tail carried stiff and upright, like a small flag
pole.
Outside the glare of the steaming forecastle the serene purity of
the night enveloped the seamen with its soothing breath, with its tepid
breath flowing under the stars that hung countless above the mastheads
in a thin cloud of luminous dust. On the town side the blackness of the
water was streaked with trails of light which undulated gently on
slight ripples, similar to filaments that float rooted to the shore.
Rows of other lights stood away in straight lines as if drawn up on
parade between towering buildings; but on the other side of the harbour
sombre hills arched high their black spines, on which, here and there,
the point of a star resembled a spark fallen from the sky. Far off,
Byculla way, the electric lamps at the dock gates shone on the end of
lofty standards with a glow blinding and frigid like captive ghosts of
some evil moons. Scattered all over the dark polish of the roadstead,
the ships at anchor floated in perfect stillness under the feeble gleam
of their riding-lights, looming up, opaque and bulky, like strange and
monumental structures abandoned by men to an everlasting repose.
Before the cabin door Mr. Baker was mustering the crew. As they
stumbled and lurched along past the mainmast, they could see aft his
round, broad face with a white paper before it, and beside his shoulder
the sleepy head, writh dropped eyelids, of the boy, who held, suspended
at the end of his raised arm, the luminous globe of a lamp. Even before
the shuffle of naked soles had ceased along the decks, the mate began
to call over the names. He called distinctly in a serious tone
befitting this roll-call to unquiet loneliness, to inglorious and
obscure struggle, or to the more trying endurance of small privations
and wearisome duties. As the chief mate read out a name, one of the men
would answer: “Yes, sir!” or “Here!” and, detaching himself from the
shadowy mob of heads visible above the blackness of starboard bulwarks,
would step bare-footed into the circle of light, and in two noiseless
strides pass into the shadows on the port side of the quarterdeck. They
answered in divers tones: in thick mutters, in clear, ringing voices;
and some, as if the whole thing had been an outrage on their feelings,
used an injured intonation: for discipline is not ceremonious in
merchant ships, where the sense of hierarchy is weak, and where all
feel themselves equal before the unconcerned immensity of the sea and
the exacting appeal of the work. Mr. Baker read on
steadily:—“Hansen—Campbell—Smith—Wamibo. Now, then, Wamibo. Why
don't you answer? Always got to call your name twice.” The Finn emitted
at last an uncouth grunt, and, stepping out, passed through the patch
of light, weird and gaudy, with the face of a man marching through a
dream. The mate went on faster:—“Craik—Singleton—Donkin.... O Lord!”
he involuntarily ejaculated as the incredibly dilapidated figure
appeared in the light. It stopped; it uncovered pale gums and long,
upper teeth in a malevolent grin.—“Is there any-think wrong with me,
Mister Mate?” it asked, with a flavour of insolence in the forced
simplicity of its tone. On both sides of the deck subdued titters were
heard.—“That'll do. Go over,” growled Mr. Baker, fixing the new hand
with steady blue eyes. And Donkin vanished suddenly out of the light
into the dark group of mustered men, to be slapped on the back and to
hear flattering whispers:—“He ain't afeard, he'll give sport to 'em,
see if he don't.... Reg'lar Punch and Judy show.... Did ye see the mate
start at him?... Well! Damme, if I ever!...” The last man had gone
over, and there was a moment of silence while the mate peered at his
list.—“Sixteen, seventeen,” he muttered. “I am one hand short,
bo'sen,” he said aloud. The big west-countryman at his elbow, swarthy
and bearded like a gigantic Spaniard, said in a rumbling
bass:—“There's no one left forward, sir. I had a look round. He ain't
aboard, but he may, turn up before daylight.”—“Ay. He may or he may
not,” commented the mate, “can't make out that last name. It's all a
smudge.... That will do, men. Go below.”
The distinct and motionless group stirred, broke up, began to move
forward.
“Wait!” cried a deep, ringing voice.
All stood still. Mr. Baker, who had turned away yawning, spun round
open-mouthed. At last, furious, he blurted out:—“What's this? Who said
'Wait'? What....”
But he saw a tall figure standing on the rail. It came down and
pushed through the crowd, marching with a heavy tread towards the light
on the quarterdeck. Then again the sonorous voice said with
insistence:—“Wait!” The lamplight lit up the man's body. He was tall.
His head was away up in the shadows of lifeboats that stood on skids
above the deck. The whites of his eyes and his teeth gleamed
distinctly, but the face was indistinguishable. His hands were big and
seemed gloved.
Mr. Baker advanced intrepidly. “Who are you? How dare you...” he
began.
The boy, amazed like the rest, raised the light to the man's face.
It was black. A surprised hum—a faint hum that sounded like the
suppressed mutter of the word “Nigger”—ran along the deck and escaped
out into the night. The nigger seemed not to hear. He balanced himself
where he stood in a swagger that marked time. After a moment he said
calmly:—“My name is Wait—James Wait.”
“Oh!” said Mr. Baker. Then, after a few seconds of smouldering
silence, his temper blazed out. “Ah! Your name is Wait. What of that?
What do you want? What do you mean, coming shouting here?”
The nigger was calm, cool, towering, superb. The men had approached
and stood behind him in a body. He overtopped the tallest by half a
head. He said: “I belong to the ship.” He enunciated distinctly, with
soft precision. The deep, rolling tones of his voice filled the deck
without effort. He was naturally scornful, unaffectedly condescending,
as if from his height of six foot three he had surveyed all the
vastness of human folly and had made up his mind not to be too hard on
it. He went on:—“The captain shipped me this morning. I couldn't get
aboard sooner. I saw you all aft as I came up the ladder, and could see
directly you were mustering the crew. Naturally I called out my name. I
thought you had it on your list, and would understand. You
misapprehended.” He stopped short. The folly around him was confounded.
He was right as ever, and as ever ready to forgive. The disdainful
tones had ceased, and, breathing heavily, he stood still, surrounded by
all these white men. He held his head up in the glare of the lamp—a
head vigorously modelled into deep shadows and shining lights—a head
powerful and misshapen with a tormented and flattened face—a face
pathetic and brutal: the tragic, the mysterious, the repulsive mask of
a nigger's soul.
Mr. Baker, recovering his composure, looked at the paper close. “Oh,
yes; that's so. All right, Wait. Take your gear forward,” he said.
Suddenly the nigger's eyes rolled wildly, became all whites. He put
his hand to his side and coughed twice, a cough metallic, hollow, and
tremendously loud; it resounded like two explosions in a vault; the
dome of the sky rang to it, and the iron plates of the ship's bulwarks
seemed to vibrate in unison, then he marched off forward with the
others. The officers lingering by the cabin door could hear him say:
“Won't some of you chaps lend a hand with my dunnage? I've got a chest
and a bag.” The words, spoken sonorously, with an even intonation, were
heard all over the ship, and the question was put in a manner that made
refusal impossible. The short, quick shuffle of men carrying something
heavy went away forward, but the tall figure of the nigger lingered by
the main hatch in a knot of smaller shapes. Again he was heard asking:
“Is your cook a coloured gentleman?” Then a disappointed and
disapproving “Ah! h'm!” was his comment upon the information that the
cook happened to be a mere white man. Yet, as they went all together
towards the forecastle, he condescended to put his head through the
galley door and boom out inside a magnificent “Good evening, doctor!”
that made all the saucepans ring. In the dim light the cook dozed on
the coal locker in front of the captain's supper. He jumped up as if he
had been cut with a whip, and dashed wildly on deck to see the backs of
several men going away laughing. Afterwards, when talking about that
voyage, he used to say:—“The poor fellow had scared me. I thought I
had seen the devil.” The cook had been seven years in the ship with the
same captain. He was a serious-minded man with a wife and three
children, whose society he enjoyed on an average one month out of
twelve. When on shore he took his family to church twice every Sunday.
At sea he went to sleep every evening with his lamp turned up full, a
pipe in his mouth, and an open Bible in his hand. Some one had always
to go during the night to put out the light, take the book from his
hand, and the pipe from between his teeth. “For”—Belfast used to say,
irritated and complaining—“some night, you stupid cookie, you'll
swallow your ould clay, and we will have no cook.”—“Ah! sonny, I am
ready for my Maker's call... wish you all were,” the other would answer
with a benign serenity that was altogether imbecile and touching.
Belfast outside the galley door danced with vexation. “You holy fool! I
don't want you to die,” he howled, looking up with furious, quivering
face and tender eyes. “What's the hurry? You blessed wooden-headed ould
heretic, the divvle will have you soon enough. Think of Us... of Us...
of Us!” And he would go away, stamping, spitting aside, disgusted and
worried; while the other, stepping out, saucepan in hand, hot, begrimed
and placid, watched with a superior, cock-sure smile the back of his
“queer little man” reeling in a rage. They were great friends.
Mr. Baker, lounging over the after-hatch, sniffed the humid night in
the company of the second mate.—“Those West India niggers run fine and
large—some of them... Ough!... Don't they? A fine, big man that, Mr.
Creighton. Feel him on a rope. Hey? Ough! I will take him into my
watch, I think.” The second mate, a fair, gentlemanly young fellow,
with a resolute face and a splendid physique, observed quietly that it
was just about what he expected. There could be felt in his tone some
slight bitterness which Mr. Baker very kindly set himself to argue
away. “Come, come, young man,” he said, grunting between the words.
“Come! Don't be too greedy. You had that big Finn in your watch all the
voyage. I will do what's fair. You may have those two young
Scandinavians and I... Ough!... I get the nigger, and will take
that.... Ough! that cheeky costermonger chap in a black frock-coat.
I'll make him.... Ough!... make him toe the mark, or my.... Ough!....
name isn't Baker. Ough! Ough! Ough!”
He grunted thrice—ferociously. He had that trick of grunting so
between his words and at the end of sentences. It was a fine, effective
grunt that went well with his menacing utterance, with his heavy,
bull-necked frame, his jerky, rolling gait; with his big, seamed face,
his steady eyes, and sardonic mouth. But its effect had been long ago
discounted by the men. They liked him; Belfast—who was a favourite,
and knew it—mimicked him, not quite behind his back. Charley—but with
greater caution—imitated his rolling gait. Some of his sayings became
established, daily quotations in the forecastle. Popularity can go no
farther! Besides, all hands were ready to admit that on a fitting
occasion the mate could “jump down a fellow's throat in a reg'lar
Western Ocean style.”
Now he was giving his last orders. “Ough! You, Knowles! Call all
hands at four. I want... Ough!... to heave short before the tug comes.
Look out for the captain. I am going to lie down in my clothes....
Ough!... Call me when you see the boat coming. Ough! Ough!. The old man
is sure to have something to say when he gets aboard,” he remarked to
Creighton. “Well, good-night.... Ough! A long day before us
to-morrow.... Ough!... Better turn in now. Ough! Ough!”
Upon the dark deck a band of light flashed, then a door slammed, and
Mr. Baker was gone into his neat cabin. Young Creighton stood leaning
over the rail, and looked dreamily into the night of the East. And he
saw in it a long country lane, a lane of waving leaves and dancing
sunshine. He saw stirring boughs of old trees outspread, and framing in
their arch the tender, the caressing blueness of an English sky. And
through the arch a girl in a light dress, smiling under a sunshade,
seemed to be stepping out of the tender sky.
At the other end of the ship the forecastle, with only one lamp
burning now, was going to sleep in a dim emptiness traversed by loud
breathings, by sudden short sighs. The double row of berths yawned
black, like graves tenanted by uneasy corpses. Here and there a curtain
of gaudy chintz, half drawn, marked the resting-place of a sybarite. A
leg hung over the edge very white and lifeless. An arm stuck straight
out with a dark palm turned up, and thick fingers half closed. Two
light snores, that did not synchronise, quarrelled in funny dialogue.
Singleton stripped again—the old man suffered much from prickly
heat—stood cooling his back in the doorway, with his arms crossed on
his bare and adorned chest. His head touched the beam of the deck
above. The nigger, half undressed, was busy casting adrift the lashing
of his box, and spreading his bedding in an upper berth. He moved about
in his socks, tall and noiseless, with a pair of braces beating about
his calves. Amongst the shadows of stanchions and bowsprit, Donkin
munched a piece of hard ship's bread, sitting on the deck with upturned
feet and restless eyes; he held the biscuit up before his mouth in the
whole fist and snapped his jaws at it with a raging face. Crumbs fell
between his outspread legs. Then he got up.
“Where's our water-cask?” he asked in a contained voice.
Singleton, without a word, pointed with a big hand that held a short
smouldering pipe. Donkin bent over the cask, drank out of the tin,
splashing the water, turned round and noticed the nigger looking at him
over the shoulder with calm loftiness. He moved up sideways.
“There's a blooming supper for a man,” he whispered bitterly. “My
dorg at 'ome wouldn't 'ave it. It's fit enouf for you an' me. 'Ere's a
big ship's fo'c'sle!... Not a blooming scrap of meat in the kids. I've
looked in all the lockers....”
The nigger stared like a man addressed unexpectedly in a foreign
language. Donkin changed his tone:—“Giv' us a bit of 'baccy, mate,” he
breathed out confidentially, “I 'aven't 'ad smoke or chew for the last
month. I am rampin' mad for it. Come on, old man!”
“Don't be familiar,” said the nigger. Donkin started and sat down on
a chest near by, out of sheer surprise. “We haven't kept pigs
together,” continued James Wait in a deep undertone. “Here's your
tobacco.” Then, after a pause, he inquired:—“What ship?”—“
Golden
State,” muttered Donkin indistinctly, biting the tobacco. The
nigger whistled low.—“Ran?” he said curtly. Donkin nodded: one of his
cheeks bulged out. “In course I ran,” he mumbled. “They booted the life
hout of one Dago chap on the passage 'ere, then started on me. I
cleared hout 'ere.—” “Left your dunnage behind?”—“Yes, dunnage and
money,” answered Donkin, raising his voice a little; “I got nothink. No
clothes, no bed. A bandy-legged little Hirish chap 'ere 'as give me a
blanket. Think I'll go an' sleep in the fore topmast staysail
to-night.”
He went on deck trailing behind his back a corner of the blanket.
Singleton, without a glance, moved slightly aside to let him pass. The
nigger put away his shore togs and sat in clean working clothes on his
box, one arm stretched over his knees. After staring at Singleton for
some time he asked without emphasis:—“What kind of ship is this?
Pretty fair? Eh?”
Singleton didn't stir. A long while after he said, with unmoved
face:—“Ship!... Ships are all right. It is the men in them!”
He went on smoking in the profound silence. The wisdom of half a
century spent in listening to the thunder of the waves had spoken
unconsciously through his old lips. The cat purred on the windlass.
Then James Wait had a fit of roaring, rattling cough, that shook him,
tossed him like a hurricane, and flung him panting with staring eyes
headlong on his sea-chest. Several men woke up. One said sleepily out
of his bunk: “'Struth! what a blamed row!”—“I have a cold on my
chest,” gasped Wait.—“Cold! you call it,” grumbled the man; “should
think 'twas something more....”—“Oh! you think so,” said the nigger
upright and loftily scornful again. He climbed into his berth and began
coughing persistently while he put his head out to glare all round the
forecastle. There was no further protest. He fell back on the pillow,
and could be heard there wheezing regularly like a man oppressed in his
sleep.
Singleton stood at the door with his face to the light and his back
to the darkness. And alone in the dim emptiness of the sleeping
forecastle he appeared bigger, colossal, very old; old as Father Time
himself, who should have come there into this place as quiet as a
sepulchre to contemplate with patient eyes the short victory of sleep,
the consoler. Yet he was only a child of time, a lonely relic of a
devoured and forgotten generation. He stood, still strong, as ever
unthinking; a ready man with a vast empty past and with no future, with
his childlike impulses and his man's passions already dead within his
tattooed breast. The men who could understand his silence were
gone—those men who knew how to exist beyond the pale of life and
within sight of eternity. They had been strong, as those are strong who
know neither doubts nor hopes. They had been impatient and enduring,
turbulent and devoted, unruly and faithful. Well-meaning people had
tried to represent those men as whining over every mouthful of their
food; as going about their work in fear of their lives. But in truth
they had been men who knew toil, privation, violence, debauchery—but
knew not fear, and had no desire of spite in their hearts. Men hard to
manage, but easy to inspire; voiceless men—but men enough to scorn in
their hearts the sentimental voices that bewailed the hardness of their
fate. It was a fate unique and their own; the capacity to bear it
appeared to them the privilege of the chosen! Their generation lived
inarticulate and, indispensable, without knowing the sweetness of
affections or the refuge of a home—and died free from the dark menace
of a narrow grave. They were the everlasting children of the mysterious
sea. Their successors are the grown-up children of a discontented
earth. They are less naughty, but less innocent; less profane, but
perhaps also less believing; and if they have learned how to speak they
have also learned how to whine. But the others were strong and mute;
they were effaced, bowed and enduring, like stone caryatides that hold
up in the night the lighted halls of a resplendent and glorious
edifice. They are gone now—and it does not matter. The sea and the
earth are unfaithful to their children: a truth, a faith, a generation
of men goes—and is forgotten, and it does not matter! Except, perhaps,
to the few of those who believed the truth, confessed the faith—or
loved the men.
A breeze was coming. The ship that had been lying tide-rode swung to
a heavier puff; and suddenly the slack of the chain cable between the
windlass and the hawse-pipe clinked, slipped forward an inch, and rose
gently off the deck with a startling suggestion as of unsuspected life
that had been lurking stealthily in the iron. In the hawse-pipe the
grinding links sent through the ship a sound like a low groan of a man
sighing under a burden. The strain came on the windlass, the chain
tautened like a string, vibrated—and the handle of the screw-brake
moved in slight jerks. Singleton stepped forward.
Till then he had been standing meditative and unthinking, reposeful
and hopeless, with a face grim and blank—a sixty-year-old child of the
mysterious sea. The thoughts of all his lifetime could have been
expressed in six words, but the stir of those things that were as much
part of his existence as his beating heart called up a gleam of alert
understanding upon the sternness of his aged face. The flame of the
lamp swayed, and the old man, with knitted and bushy eyebrows, stood
over the brake, watchful and motionless in the wild saraband of dancing
shadows. Then the ship, obedient to the call of her anchor, forged
ahead slightly and eased the strain. The cable relieved, hung down, and
after swaying imperceptibly to and fro dropped with a loud tap on the
hard wood planks. Singleton seized the high lever, and, by a violent
throw forward of his body, wrung out another half-turn from the brake.
He recovered himself, breathed largely, and remained for a while
glaring down at the powerful and compact engine that squatted on the
deck at his feet like some quiet monster—a creature amazing and tame.
“You... hold!” he growled at it masterfully in the incult tangle of
his white beard.
Next morning, at daylight, the
Narcissus went to sea.
A slight haze blurred the horizon. Outside the harbour the
measureless expanse of smooth water lay sparkling like a floor of
jewels, and as empty as the sky. The short black tug gave a pluck to
windward, in the usual way, then let go the rope, and hovered for a
moment on the quarter with her engines stopped; while the slim, long
hull of the ship moved ahead slowly under lower topsails. The loose
upper canvas blew out in the breeze with soft round contours,
resembling small white clouds snared in the maze of ropes. Then the
sheets were hauled home, the yards hoisted, and the ship became a high
and lonely pyramid, gliding, all shining and white, through the sunlit
mist. The tug turned short round and went away towards the land.
Twenty-six pairs of eyes watched her low broad stern crawling languidly
over the smooth swell between the two paddle-wheels that turned fast,
beating the water with fierce hurry. She resembled an enormous and
aquatic black beetle, surprised by the light, overwhelmed by the
sunshine, trying to escape with ineffectual effort into the distant
gloom of the land. She left a lingering smudge of smoke on the sky, and
two vanishing trails of foam on the water. On the place where she had
stopped a round black patch of soot remained, undulating on the
swell—an unclean mark of the creature's rest.
The
Narcissus left alone, heading south, seemed to stand
resplendent and still upon the restless sea, under the moving sun.
Flakes of foam swept past her sides; the water struck her with flashing
blows; the land glided away slowly fading; a few birds screamed on
motionless wings over the swaying mastheads. But soon the land
disappeared, the birds went away; and to the west the pointed sail of
an Arab dhow running for Bombay, rose triangular and upright above the
sharp edge of the horizon, lingered and vanished like an illusion. Then
the ship's wake, long and straight, stretched itself out through a day
of immense solitude. The setting sun, burning on the level of the
water, flamed crimson below the blackness of heavy rain clouds. The
sunset squall, coming up from behind, dissolved itself into the short
deluge of a hissing shower. It left the ship glistening from trucks to
water-line, and with darkened sails. She ran easily before a fair
monsoon, with her decks cleared for the night; and, moving along with
her, was heard the sustained and monotonous swishing of the waves,
mingled with the low whispers of men mustered aft for the setting of
watches; the short plaint of some block aloft; or, now and then, a loud
sigh of wind.
Mr. Baker, coming out of his cabin, called out the first name
sharply before closing the door behind him. He was going to take charge
of the deck. On the homeward trip, according to an old custom of the
sea, the chief officer takes the first night-watch—from eight till
midnight. So Mr. Baker, after he had heard the last “Yes, sir!” said
moodily, “Relieve the wheel and look-out”; and climbed with heavy feet
the poop ladder to windward. Soon after Mr. Creighton came down,
whistling softly, and went into the cabin. On the doorstep the steward
lounged, in slippers, meditative, and with his shirt-sleeves rolled up
to the armpits.
On the main deck the cook, locking up the galley doors, had an
altercation with young Charley about a pair of socks. He could be heard
saying impressively, in the darkness amidships: “You don't deserve a
kindness. I've been drying them for you, and now you complain about the
holes—and you swear, too! Right in front of me! If I hadn't been a
Christian—which you ain't, you young ruffian—I would give you a clout
on the head.... Go away!” Men in couples or threes stood pensive or
moved silently along the bulwarks in the waist. The first busy day of a
homeward passage was sinking into the dull peace of resumed routine.
Aft, on the high poop, Mr. Baker walked shuffling and grunted to
himself in the pauses of his thoughts. Forward, the look-out man, erect
between the flukes of the two anchors, hummed an endless tune, keeping
his eyes fixed dutifully ahead in a vacant stare. A multitude of stars
coming out into the clear night peopled the emptiness of the sky. They
glittered, as if alive above the sea; they surrounded the running ship
on all sides; more intense than the eyes of a staring crowd, and as
inscrutable as the souls of men.
The passage had begun, and the ship, a fragment detached from the
earth, went on lonely and swift like a small planet. Round her the
abysses of sky and sea met in an unattainable frontier. A great
circular solitude moved with her, ever changing and ever the same,
always monotonous and always imposing. Now and then another wandering
white speck, burdened with life, appeared far off—disappeared; intent
on its own destiny. The sun looked upon her all day, and every morning
rose with a burning, round stare of undying curiosity. She had her own
future; she was alive with the lives of those beings who trod her
decks; like that earth which had given her up to the sea, she had an
intolerable load of regrets and hopes. On her lived timid truth and
audacious lies; and, like the earth, she was unconscious, fair to
see—and condemned by men to an ignoble fate. The august loneliness of
her path lent dignity to the sordid inspiration of her pilgrimage. She
drove foaming to the southward, as if guided by the courage of a high
endeavour. The smiling greatness of the sea dwarfed the extent of time.
The days raced after one another, brilliant and quick like the flashes
of a lighthouse, and the nights, eventful and short, resembled fleeting
dreams.
The men had shaken into their places, and the half-hourly voice of
the bells ruled their life of unceasing care. Night and day the head
and shoulders of a seaman could be seen aft by the wheel, outlined high
against sunshine or starlight, very steady above the stir of revolving
spokes. The faces changed, passing in rotation. Youthful faces, bearded
faces, dark faces: faces serene, or faces moody, but all akin with the
brotherhood of the sea; all with the same attentive expression of eyes,
carefully watching the compass or the sails. Captain Allistoun,
serious, and with an old red muffler round his throat, all day long
pervaded the poop. At night, many times he rose out of the darkness of
the companion, such as a phantom above a grave, and stood watchful and
mute under the stars, his night-shirt fluttering like a flag—then,
without a sound, sank down again. He was born on the shores of the
Pentland Firth. In his youth he attained the rank of harpooner in
Peterhead whalers. When he spoke of that time his restless grey eyes
became still and cold, like the loom of ice. Afterwards he went into
the East Indian trade for the sake of change. He had commanded the
Narcissus since she was built. He loved his ship, and drove her
unmercifully; for his secret ambition was to make her accomplish some
day a brilliantly quick passage which would be mentioned in nautical
papers. He pronounced his owner's name with a sardonic smile, spoke but
seldom to his officers, and reproved errors in a gentle voice, with
words that cut to the quick. His hair was iron-grey, his face hard and
of the colour of pump-leather. He shaved every morning of his life—at
six—but once (being caught in a fierce hurricane eighty miles
southwest of Mauritius) he had missed three consecutive days. He feared
naught but an unforgiving God, and wished to end his days in a little
house, with a plot of ground attached—far in the country—out of sight
of the sea.
He, the ruler of that minute world, seldom descended from the
Olympian heights of his poop. Below him—at his feet, so to
speak—common mortals led their busy and insignificant lives. Along the
main deck, Mr. Baker grunted in a manner bloodthirsty and innocuous;
and kept all our noses to the grindstone, being—as he once
remarked—paid for doing that very thing. The men working about the
deck were healthy and contented—as most seamen are, when once well out
to sea. The true peace of God begins at any spot a thousand miles from
the nearest land; and when He sends there the messengers of His might
it is not in terrible wrath against crime, presumption, and folly, but
paternally, to chasten simple hearts—ignorant hearts that know nothing
of life, and beat undisturbed by envy or greed.
In the evening the cleared decks had a reposeful aspect, resembling
the autumn of the earth. The sun was sinking to rest, wrapped in a
mantle of warm clouds. Forward, on the end of the spare spars, the
boatswain and the carpenter sat together with crossed arms; two men
friendly, powerful, and deep-chested. Beside them the short, dumpy
sailmaker—who had been in the Navy—related, between the whiffs of his
pipe, impossible stories about Admirals. Couples tramped backwards and
forwards, keeping step and balance without effort, in a confined space.
Pigs grunted in the big pigstye. Belfast, leaning thoughtfully on his
elbow, above the bars, communed with them through the silence of his
meditation. Fellows with shirts open wide on sunburnt breasts sat upon
the mooring bits, and all up the steps of the forecastle ladders. By
the foremast a few discussed in a circle the characteristics of a
gentleman. One said:—“It's money as does it.” Another
maintained:—“No, it's the way they speak.” Lame Knowles stumped up
with an unwashed face (he had the distinction of being the dirty man of
the forecastle), and showing a few yellow fangs in a shrewd smile,
explained craftily that he “had seen some of their pants.” The
backsides of them—he had observed—were thinner than paper from
constant sitting down in offices, yet otherwise they looked first-rate
and would last for years. It was all appearance. “It was,” he said,
“bloomin' easy to be a gentleman when you had a clean job for life.”
They disputed endlessly, obstinate and childish; they repeated in
shouts and with inflamed faces their amazing arguments; while the soft
breeze, eddying down the enormous cavity of the foresail, distended
above their bare heads, stirred the tumbled hair with a touch passing
and light like an indulgent caress.
They were forgetting their toil, they were forgetting themselves.
The cook approached to hear, and stood by, beaming with the inward
consciousness of his faith, like a conceited saint unable to forget his
glorious reward; Donkin, solitary and brooding over his wrongs on the
forecastle-head, moved closer to catch the drift of the discussion
below him; he turned his sallow face to the sea, and his thin nostrils
moved, sniffing the breeze, as he lounged negligently by the rail. In
the glow of sunset faces shone with interest, teeth flashed, eyes
sparkled. The walking couples stood still suddenly, with broad grins; a
man, bending over a wash-tub, sat up, entranced, with the soapsuds
flecking his wet arms. Even the three petty officers listened leaning
back, comfortably propped, and with superior smiles. Belfast left off
scratching the ear of his favourite pig, and, open mouthed, tried with
eager eyes to have his say. He lifted his arms, grimacing and baffled.
From a distance Charley screamed at the ring:—“I know about gentlemen
more'n any of you. I've been intermit with 'em.... I've blacked their
boots.” The cook, craning his neck to hear better, was scandalised.
“Keep your mouth shut when your elders speak, you impudent young
heathen—you.” “All right, old Hallelujah, I'm done,” answered Charley,
soothingly. At some opinion of dirty Knowles, delivered with an air of
supernatural cunning, a ripple of laughter ran along, rose like a wave,
burst with a startling roar. They stamped with both feet; they turned
their shouting faces to the sky; many, spluttering, slapped their
thighs; while one or two, bent double, gasped, hugging themselves with
both arms like men in pain. The carpenter and the boatswain, without
changing their attitude, shook with laughter where they sat; the
sailmaker, charged with an anecdote about a Commodore, looked sulky;
the cook was wiping his eyes with a greasy rag; and lame Knowles,
astonished at his own success, stood in their midst showing a slow
smile.
Suddenly the face of Donkin leaning high-shouldered over the
after-rail became grave. Something like a weak rattle was heard through
the forecastle door. It became a murmur; it ended in a sighing groan.
The washerman plunged both his arms into the tub abruptly; the cook
became more crestfallen than an exposed backslider; the boatswain moved
his shoulders uneasily; the carpenter got up with a spring and walked
away—while the sailmaker seemed mentally to give his story up, and
began to puff at his pipe with sombre determination. In the blackness
of the doorway a pair of eyes glimmered white, and big, and staring.
Then James Wait's head protruding, became visible, as if suspended
between the two hands that grasped a doorpost on each side of the face.
The tassel of his blue woollen nightcap, cocked forward, danced gaily
over his left eyelid. He stepped out in a tottering stride. He looked
powerful as ever, but showed a strange and affected unsteadiness in his
gait; his face was perhaps a trifle thinner, and his eyes appeared
rather startlingly prominent. He seemed to hasten the retreat of
departing light by his very presence; the setting sun dipped sharply,
as though fleeing before our nigger; a black mist emanated from him; a
subtle and dismal influence; a something cold and gloomy that floated
out and settled on all the faces like a mourning veil. The circle broke
up. The joy of laughter died on stiffened lips. There was not a smile
left among all the ship's company. Not a word was spoken. Many turned
their backs, trying to look unconcerned; others, with averted heads,
sent half-reluctant glances out of the corners of their eyes. They
resembled criminals conscious of misdeeds more than honest men
distracted by doubt; only two or three stared frankly, but stupidly,
with lips slightly open. All expected James Wait to say something, and,
at the same time, had the air of knowing beforehand what he would say.
He leaned his back against the doorpost, and with heavy eyes swept over
them a glance domineering and pained, like a sick tyrant overawing a
crowd of abject but untrustworthy slaves.
No one went away. They waited in fascinated dread. He said
ironically, with gasps between the words:—
“Thank you... chaps. You... are nice... and... quiet... you are!
Yelling so... before... the door....”
He made a longer pause, during which he worked his ribs in an
exaggerated labour of breathing. It was intolerable. Feet were
shuffled. Belfast let out a groan; but Donkin above blinked his red
eyelids with invisible eyelashes, and smiled bitterly over the nigger's
head.
The nigger went on again with surprising ease. He gasped no more,
and his voice rang, hollow and loud, as though he had been talking in
an empty cavern. He was contemptuously angry.
“I tried to get a wink of sleep. You know I can't sleep o' nights.
And you come jabbering near the door here like a blooming lot of old
women.... You think yourselves good shipmates. Do you?... Much you care
for a dying man!”
Belfast spun away from the pigstye. “Jimmy,” he cried tremulously,
“if you hadn't been sick I would———”
He stopped. The nigger waited awhile, then said, in a gloomy
tone:—“You would.... What? Go an' fight another such one as yourself.
Leave me alone. It won't be for long. I'll soon die.... It's coming
right enough!”
Men stood around very still and with exasperated eyes. It was just
what they had expected, and hated to hear, that idea of a stalking
death, thrust at them many times a day like a boast and like a menace
by this obnoxious nigger. He seemed to take a pride in that death
which, so far, had attended only upon the ease of his life; he was
overbearing about it, as if no one else in the world had ever been
intimate with such a companion; he paraded it unceasingly before us
with an affectionate persistence that made its presence indubitable,
and at the same time incredible. No man could be suspected of such
monstrous friendship! Was he a reality—or was he a sham—this
ever-expected visitor of Jimmy's? We hesitated between pity and
mistrust, while, on the slightest provocation, he shook before our eyes
the bones of his bothersome and infamous skeleton. He was for ever
trotting him out. He would talk of that coming death as though it had
been already there, as if it had been walking the deck outside, as if
it would presently come in to sleep in the only empty bunk; as if it
had sat by his side at every meal. It interfered daily with our
occupations, with our leisure, with our amusements. We had no songs and
no music in the evening, because Jimmy (we all lovingly called him
Jimmy, to conceal our hate of his accomplice) had managed, with that
prospective decease of his, to disturb even Archie's mental balance.
Archie was the owner of the concertina; but after a couple of stinging
lectures from Jimmy he refused to play any more. He said:—“Yon's an
uncanny joker. I dinna ken what's wrang wi' him, but there's something
verra wrang, verra wrang. It's nae manner of use asking me. I won't
play.” Our singers became mute because Jimmy was a dying man. For the
same reason no chap—as Knowles remarked—could “drive in a nail to
hang his few poor rags upon,” without being made aware of the enormity
he committed in disturbing Jimmy's interminable last moments. At night,
instead of the cheerful yell, “One bell! Turn out! Do you hear there?
Hey! hey! hey! Show leg!” the watches were called man by man, in
whispers, so as not to interfere with Jimmy's, possibly, last slumber
on earth. True, he was always awake, and managed, as we sneaked out on
deck, to plant in our backs some cutting remark that, for the moment,
made us feel as if we had been brutes, and afterwards made us suspect
ourselves of being fools. We spoke in low tones within that fo'c'sle as
though it had been a church. We ate our meals in silence and dread, for
Jimmy was capricious with his food, and railed bitterly at the salt
meat, at the biscuits, at the tea, as at articles unfit for human
consumption—“let alone for a dying man!” He would say:—“Can't you
find a better slice of meat for a sick man who's trying to get home to
be cured—or buried? But there! If I had a chance, you fellows would do
away with it. You would poison me. Look at what you have given me!” We
served him in his bed with rage and humility, as though we had been the
base courtiers of a hated prince; and he rewarded us by his
unconciliating criticism. He had found the secret of keeping for ever
on the run the fundamental imbecility of mankind; he had the secret of
life, that confounded dying man, and he made himself master of every
moment of our existence. We grew desperate, and remained submissive.
Emotional little Belfast was for ever on the verge of assault or on the
verge of tears. One evening he confided to Archie:—“For a ha'penny I
would knock his ugly black head off—the skulking dodger!” And the
straightforward Archie pretended to be shocked! Such was the infernal
spell which that casual St. Kitt's nigger had cast upon our guileless
manhood! But the same night Belfast stole from the galley the officers'
Sunday fruit pie, to tempt the fastidious appetite of Jimmy. He
endangered not only his long friendship with the cook but also—as it
appeared—his eternal welfare. The cook was overwhelmed with grief; he
did not know the culprit but he knew that wickedness flourished; he
knew that Satan was abroad amongst those men, whom he looked upon as in
some way under his spiritual care. Whenever he saw three or four of us
standing together he would leave his stove, to run out and preach. We
fled from him; and only Charley (who knew the thief) affronted the cook
with a candid gaze which irritated the good man. “It's you, I believe,”
he groaned, sorrowful and with a patch of soot on his chin. “It's you.
You are a brand for the burning! No more of your socks in my galley.”
Soon, unofficially, the information was spread about that, should there
be another case of stealing, our marmalade (an extra allowance: half a
pound per man) would be stopped. Mr. Baker ceased to heap jocular abuse
upon his favourites, and grunted suspiciously at all. The captain's
cold eyes, high up on the poop, glittered mistrustful, as he surveyed
us trooping in a small mob from halyards to braces for the usual
evening pull at all the ropes. Such stealing in a merchant ship is
difficult to check, and may be taken as a declaration by men of their
dislike for their officers. It is a bad symptom. It may end in God
knows what trouble. The
Narcissus was still a peaceful ship, but
mutual confidence was shaken. Donkin did not conceal his delight. We
were dismayed.
Then illogical Belfast reproached our nigger with great fury. James
Wait, with his elbow on the pillow, choked, gasped out:—“Did I ask you
to bone the dratted thing? Blow your blamed pie. It has made me
worse—you little Irish lunatic, you!” Belfast, with scarlet face and
trembling lips, made a dash at him. Every man in the forecastle rose
with a shout. There was a moment of wild tumult. Some one shrieked
piercingly:—“Easy, Belfast! Easy!...” We expected Belfast to strangle
Wait without more ado. Dust flew. We heard through it the nigger's
cough, metallic and explosive like a gong. Next moment we saw Belfast
hanging over him. He was saying plaintively:—“Don't! Don't, Jimmy!
Don't be like that. An angel couldn't put up with ye—sick as ye are.”
He looked round at us from Jimmy's bedside, his comical mouth
twitching, and through tearful eyes; then he tried to put straight the
disarranged blankets. The unceasing whisper of the sea filled the
forecastle. Was James Wait frightened, or touched, or repentant? He lay
on his back with a hand to his side, and as motionless as if his
expected visitor had come at last. Belfast fumbled about his feet,
repeating with emotion:—“Yes. We know. Ye are bad, but.... Just say
what ye want done, and.... We all know ye are bad—very bad....” No!
Decidedly James Wait was not touched or repentant. Truth to say, he
seemed rather startled. He sat up with incredible suddenness and ease.
“Ah! You think I am bad, do you?” he said gloomily, in his clearest
baritone voice (to hear him speak sometimes you would never think there
was anything wrong with that man). “Do you?... Well, act according!
Some of you haven't sense enough to put a blanket shipshape over a sick
man. There! Leave it alone! I can die anyhow!” Belfast turned away
limply with a gesture of discouragement. In the silence of the
forecastle, full of interested men, Donkin pronounced
distinctly:—“Well, I'm blowed!” and sniggered. Wait looked at him. He
looked at him in a quite friendly manner. Nobody could tell what would
please our incomprehensible invalid: but for us the scorn of that
snigger was hard to bear.
Donkin's position in the forecastle was distinguished but unsafe. He
stood on the bad eminence of a general dislike. He was left alone; and
in his isolation he could do nothing but think of the gales of the Cape
of Good Hope and envy us the possession of warm clothing and
waterproofs. Our sea-boots, our oilskin coats, our well-filled
sea-chests, were to him so many causes for bitter meditation: he had
none of those things, and he felt instinctively that no man, when the
need arose, would offer to share them with him. He was impudently
cringing to us and systematically insolent to the officers. He
anticipated the best results, for himself, from such a line of
conduct—and was mistaken. Such natures forget that under extreme
provocation men will be just—whether they want to be so or not.
Donkin's insolence to long-suffering Mr. Baker became at last
intolerable to us, and we rejoiced when the mate, one dark night, tamed
him for good.
It was done neatly, with great decency and decorum, and with little
noise. We had been called—just before midnight—to trim the yards, and
Donkin—as usual—made insulting remarks. We stood sleepily in a row
with the forebrace in our hands waiting for the next order, and heard
in the darkness a scuffly trampling of feet, an exclamation of
surprise, sounds of cuffs and slaps, suppressed, hissing
whispers:—“Ah! Will you!”... “Don't!... Don't!”... “Then behave.”...
“Oh! Oh!...” Afterwards there were soft thuds mixed with the rattle of
iron things as if a man's body had been tumbling helplessly amongst the
main-pump rods. Before we could realise the situation, Mr. Baker's
voice was heard very near and a little impatient:—“Haul away, men! Lay
back on that rope!” And we did lay back on the rope with great
alacrity. As if nothing had happened, the chief mate went on trimming
the yards with his usual and exasperating fastidiousness. We didn't at
the time see anything of Donkin, and did not care. Had the chief
officer thrown him overboard, no man would have said as much as “Hallo!
he's gone!” But, in truth, no great harm was done—even if Donkin did
lose one of his front teeth. We perceived this in the morning, and
preserved a ceremonious silence: the etiquette of the forecastle
commanded us to be blind and dumb in such a case, and we cherished the
decencies of our life more than ordinary landsmen respect theirs.
Charley, with unpardonable want of
savoir vivre, yelled
out:—“'Ave you been to your dentyst?... Hurt ye, didn't it?” He got a
box on the ear from one of his best friends. The boy was surprised, and
remained plunged in grief for at least three hours. We were sorry for
him, but youth requires even more discipline than age. Donkin grinned
venomously. From that day he became pitiless; told Jimmy that he was a
“black fraud”; hinted to us that we were an imbecile lot, daily taken
in by a vulgar nigger. And Jimmy seemed to like the fellow!
Singleton lived untouched by human emotions. Taciturn and unsmiling,
he breathed amongst us—in that alone resembling the rest of the crowd.
We were trying to be decent chaps, and found it jolly difficult; we
oscillated between the desire of virtue and the fear of ridicule; we
wished to save ourselves from the pain of remorse, but did not want to
be made the contemptible dupes of our sentiment. Jimmy's hateful
accomplice seemed to have blown with his impure breath undreamt of
subtleties into our hearts. We were disturbed and cowardly. That we
knew. Singleton seemed to know nothing, understand nothing. We had
thought him till then as wise as he looked, but now we dared, at times,
suspect him of being stupid—from old age. One day, however, at dinner,
as we sat on our boxes round a tin dish that stood on the deck within
the circle of our feet, Jimmy expressed his general disgust with men
and things in words that were particularly disgusting. Singleton lifted
his head. We became mute. The old man, addressing Jimmy, asked:—“Are
you dying?” Thus interrogated, James Wait appeared horribly startled
and confused. We all were startled. Mouths remained open; hearts
thumped, eyes blinked; a dropped tin fork rattled in the dish; a man
rose as if to go out, and stood still. In less than a minute Jimmy
pulled himself together:—“Why? Can't you see I am?” he answered
shakily. Singleton lifted a piece of soaked biscuit (“his teeth”—he
declared—“had no edge on them now") to his lips.—“Well, get on with
your dying,” he said with venerable mildness; “don't raise a blamed
fuss with us over that job. We can't help you.” Jimmy fell back in his
bunk, and for a long time lay very still wiping the perspiration off
his chin. The dinner-tins were put away quickly. On deck we discussed
the incident in whispers. Some showed a chuckling exultation. Many
looked grave. Wamibo, after long periods of staring dreaminess,
attempted abortive smiles; and one of the young Scandinavians, much
tormented by doubt, ventured in the second dog-watch to approach
Singleton (the old man did not encourage us much to speak to him) and
ask sheepishly:—“You think he will die?” Singleton looked up.—“Why,
of course he will die,” he said deliberately. This seemed decisive. It
was promptly imparted to every one by him who had consulted the oracle.
Shy and eager, he would step up and with averted gaze recite his
formula:—“Old Singleton says he will die.” It was a relief! At last we
knew that our compassion would not be misplaced, and we could again
smile without misgivings—but we reckoned without Donkin. Donkin
“didn't want to 'ave no truck with 'em dirty furriners.” When Nilsen
came to him with the news: “Singleton says he will die,” he answered
him by a spiteful “And so will you—you fat-headed Dutchman. Wish you
Dutchmen were all dead—'stead comin' takin' our money inter your
starvin' country.” We were appalled. We perceived that after all
Singleton's answer meant nothing. We began to hate him for making fun
of us. All our certitudes were going; we were on doubtful terms with
our officers; the cook had given us up for lost; we had overheard the
boatswain's opinion that “we were a crowd of softies.” We suspected
Jimmy, one another, and even our very selves. We did not know what to
do. At every insignificant turn of our humble life we met Jimmy
overbearing and blocking the way, arm-in-arm with his awful and veiled
familiar. It was a weird servitude.
It began a week after leaving Bombay and came on us stealthily like
any other great misfortune. Every one had remarked that Jimmy from the
first was very slack at his work; but we thought it simply the outcome
of his philosophy of life. Donkin said:—“You put no more weight on a
rope than a bloody sparrer.” He disdained him. Belfast, ready for a
fight, exclaimed provokingly:—“You don't kill yourself, old
man!”—“Would you?” he retorted with extreme, scorn—and Belfast
retired. One morning, as we were washing decks, Mr. Baker called to
him:—“Bring your broom over here, Wait.” He strolled languidly.
“Move yourself! Ough!” grunted Mr. Baker; “what's the matter with
your hind legs?” He stopped dead short. He gazed slowly with eyes that
bulged out with an expression audacious and sad.—“It isn't my legs,”
he said, “it's my lungs.” Everybody listened.—“What's... Ough!...
What's wrong with them?” inquired Mr. Baker. All the watch stood around
on the wet deck, grinning, and with brooms or buckets in their hands.
He said mournfully:—“Going—or gone. Can't you see I'm a dying man? I
know it!” Mr. Baker was disgusted.—“Then why the devil did you ship
aboard here?”—“I must live till I die—mustn't I?” he replied. The
grins became audible.—“Go off my deck—get out of my sight,” said Mr.
Baker. He was nonplussed. It was a unique experience. James Wait,
obedient, dropped his broom, and walked slowly forward. A burst of
laughter followed him. It was too funny. All hands laughed.... They
laughed!... Alas!
He became the tormentor of all our moments; he ''was worse than a
nightmare. You couldn't see that there was anything wrong with him: a
nigger does not show. He was not very fat—certainly—but then he was
no leaner than other niggers we had known. He coughed often, but the
most prejudiced person could perceive that, mostly, he coughed when it
suited his purpose. He wouldn't, or couldn't, do his work—and he
wouldn't lie-up. One day he would skip aloft with the best of them, and
next time we would be obliged to risk our lives to get his limp body
down. He was reported, he was examined; he was remonstrated with,
threatened, cajoled, lectured. He was called into the cabin to
interview the captain. There were wild rumours. It was said he had
cheeked the old man; it was said he had frightened him. Charley
maintained that the “skipper, weepin,' 'as giv' 'im 'is blessin' an' a
pot of jam.” Knowles had it from the steward that the unspeakable Jimmy
had been reeling against the cabin furniture; that he had groaned; that
he had complained of general brutality and disbelief; and had ended by
coughing all over the old man's meteorological journals which were then
spread on the table. At any rate, Wait returned forward supported by
the steward, who, in a pained and shocked voice, entreated us:—“Here!
Catch hold of him, one of you. He is to lie-up.” Jimmy drank a tin
mugful of coffee, and, after bullying first one and then another, went
to bed. He remained there most of the time, but when it suited him
would come on deck and appear amongst us. He was scornful and brooding;
he looked ahead upon the sea, and no one could tell what was the
meaning of that black man sitting apart in a meditative attitude and as
motionless as a carving.
He refused steadily all medicine; he threw sago and cornflour
overboard till the steward got tired of bringing it to him. He asked
for paregoric. They sent him a big bottle; enough to poison a
wilderness of babies. He kept it between his mattress and the deal
lining of the ship's side; and nobody ever saw him take a dose. Donkin
abused him to his face, jeered at him while he gasped; and the same day
Wait would lend him a warm jersey. Once Donkin reviled him for half an
hour; reproached him with the extra work his malingering gave to the
watch; and ended by calling him “a black-faced swine.” Under the spell
of our accursed perversity we were horror-struck. But Jimmy positively
seemed to revel in that abuse. It made him look cheerful—and Donkin
had a pair of old sea boots thrown at him. “Here, you East-end trash,”
boomed Wait, “you may have that.”
At last Mr. Baker had to tell the captain that James Wait was
disturbing the peace of the ship. “Knock discipline on the head—he
will, Ough,” grunted Mr. Baker. As a matter of fact, the starboard
watch came as near as possible to refusing duty, when ordered one
morning by the boatswain to wash out their forecastle. It appears Jimmy
objected to a wet floor—and that morning we were in a compassionate
mood. We thought the boatswain a brute, and, practically, told him so.
Only Mr. Baker's delicate tact prevented an all-fired row: he refused
to take us seriously. He came bustling forward, and called us many
unpolite names but in such a hearty and seamanlike manner that we began
to feel ashamed of ourselves. In truth, we thought him much too good a
sailor to annoy him willingly: and after all Jimmy might have been a
fraud—probably was! The forecastle got a clean up that morning; but in
the afternoon a sick-bay was fitted up in the deck-house. It was a nice
little cabin opening on deck, and with two berths. Jimmy's belongings
were transported there, and then—notwithstanding his protests—Jimmy
himself. He said he couldn't walk. Four men carried him on a blanket.
He complained that he would have to die there alone, like a dog. We
grieved for him, and were delighted to have him removed from the
forecastle. We attended him as before. The galley was next door, and
the cook looked in many times a day. Wait became a little more
cheerful. Knowles affirmed having heard him laugh to himself in peals
one day. Others had seen him walking about on deck at night. His little
place, with the door ajar on a long hook, was always full of tobacco
smoke. We spoke through the crack cheerfully, sometimes abusively, as
we passed by, intent on our work. He fascinated us. He would never let
doubt die. He overshadowed the ship. Invulnerable in his promise of
speedy corruption he trampled on our self-respect, he demonstrated to
us daily our want of moral courage; he tainted our lives. Had we been a
miserable gang of wretched immortals, unhallowed alike by hope and
fear, he could not have lorded it over us with a more pitiless
assertion of his sublime privilege.
Meantime the
Narcissus, with square yards, ran out of the
fair monsoon. She drifted slowly, swinging round and round the compass,
through a few days of baffling light airs. Under the patter of short
warm showers, grumbling men whirled the heavy yards from side to side;
they caught hold of the soaked ropes with groans and sighs, while their
officers, sulky and dripping with rain water, unceasingly ordered them
about in wearied voices. During the short respites they looked with
disgust into the smarting palms of their stiff hands, and asked one
another bitterly:—“Who would be a sailor if he could be a farmer?” All
the tempers were spoilt, and no man cared what he said. One black
night, when the watch, panting in the heat and half-drowned with the
rain, had been through four mortal hours hunted from brace to brace,
Belfast declared that he would “chuck the sea for ever and go in a
steamer.” This was excessive, no doubt. Captain Allistoun, with great
self-control, would mutter sadly to Mr. Baker:—“It is not so bad—not
so bad,” when he had managed to shove, and dodge, and manoeuvre his
smart ship through sixty miles in twenty-four hours. From the doorstep
of the little cabin, Jimmy, chin in hand, watched our distasteful
labours with insolent and melancholy eyes. We spoke to him gently—and
out of his sight exchanged sour smiles.
Then, again, with a fair wind and under a clear sky, the ship went
on piling up the South Latitude. She passed outside Madagascar and
Mauritius without a glimpse of the land. Extra lashings were put on the
spare spars. Hatches were looked to. The steward in his leisure moments
and with a worried air tried to fit washboards to the cabin doors.
Stout canvas was bent with care. Anxious eyes looked to the westward,
towards the cape of storms. The ship began to dip into a southwest
swell, and the softly luminous sky of low latitudes took on a harder
sheen from day to day above our heads: it arched high above the ship
vibrating and pale, like an immense dome of steel, resonant with the
deep voice of freshening gales. The sunshine gleamed cold on the white
curls of black waves. Before the strong breath of westerly squalls the
ship, with reduced sail, lay slowly over, obstinate and yielding. She
drove to and fro in the unceasing endeavour to fight her way through
the invisible violence of the winds: she pitched headlong into dark
smooth hollows; she struggled upwards over the snowy ridges of great
running seas; she rolled, restless, from side to side, like a thing in
pain. Enduring and valiant, she answered to the call of men; and her
slim spars waving for ever in abrupt semicircles, seemed to beckon in
vain for help towards the stormy sky.
It was a bad winter off the Cape that year. The relieved helmsmen
came off flapping their arms, or ran stamping hard and blowing into
swollen, red fingers. The watch on deck dodged the sting of cold sprays
or, crouching in sheltered corners, watched dismally the high and
merciless seas boarding the ship time after time in unappeasable fury.
Water tumbled in cataracts over the forecastle doors. You had to dash
through a waterfall to get into your damp bed. The men turned in wet
and turned out stiff to face the redeeming and ruthless exactions of
their glorious and obscure fate. Far aft, and peering watchfully to
windward, the officers could be seen through the mist of squalls. They
stood by the weather-rail, holding on grimly, straight and glistening
in their long coats; and in the disordered plunges of the hard-driven
ship, they appeared high up, attentive, tossing violently above the
grey line of a clouded horizon in motionless attitudes.
They watched the weather and the ship as men on shore watch the
momentous chances of fortune. Captain Allistoun never left the deck, as
though he had been part of the ship's fittings. Now and then the
steward, shivering, but always in shirt sleeves, would struggle towards
him with some hot coffee, half of which the gale blew out of the cup
before it reached the master's lips. He drank what was left gravely in
one long gulp, while heavy sprays pattered loudly on his oilskin coat,
the seas swishing broke about his high boots; and he never took his
eyes off the ship. He kept his gaze riveted upon her as a loving man
watches the unselfish toil of a delicate woman upon the slender thread
of whose existence is hung the whole meaning and joy of the world. We
all watched her. She was beautiful and had a weakness. We loved her no
less for that. We admired her qualities aloud, we boasted of them to
one another, as though they had been our own, and the consciousness of
her only fault we kept buried in the silence of our profound affection.
She was born in the thundering peal of hammers beating upon iron, in
black eddies of smoke, under a grey sky, on the banks of the Clyde. The
clamorous and sombre stream gives birth to things of beauty that float
away into the sunshine of the world to be loved by men. The
Narcissus was one of that perfect brood. Less perfect than many
perhaps, but she was ours, and, consequently, incomparable. We were
proud of her. In Bombay, ignorant landlubbers alluded to her as that
“pretty grey ship.” Pretty! A scurvy meed of commendation! We knew she
was the most magnificent sea-boat ever launched. We tried to forget
that, like many good sea-boats, she was at times rather crank. She was
exacting. She wanted care in loading and handling, and no one knew
exactly how much care would be enough. Such are the imperfections of
mere men! The ship knew, and sometimes would correct the presumptuous
human ignorance by the wholesome discipline of fear. We had heard
ominous stories about past voyages. The cook (technically a seaman, but
in reality no sailor)—the cook, when unstrung by some misfortune, such
as the rolling over of a saucepan, would mutter gloomily while he wiped
the floor:—“There! Look at what she has done! Some voy'ge she will
drown all hands! You'll see if she won't.” To which the steward,
snatching in the galley a moment to draw breath in the hurry of his
worried life, would remark philosophically:—“Those that see won't
tell, anyhow. I don't want to see it.” We derided those fears. Our
hearts went out to the old man when he pressed her hard so as to make
her hold her own, hold to every inch gained to windward; when he made
her, under reefed sails, leap obliquely at enormous waves. The men,
knitted together aft into a ready group by the first sharp order of an
officer coming to take charge of the deck in bad weather:—“Keep handy
the watch,” stood admiring her valiance. Their eyes blinked in the
wind; their dark faces were wet with drops of water more salt and
bitter than human tears; beards and moustaches, soaked, hung straight
and dripping like fine seaweed. They were fantastically Misshapen; in
high boots, in hats like helmets, and swaying clumsily, stiff and bulky
in glistening oilskins, they resembled men strangely equipped for some
fabulous adventure. Whenever she rose easily to a towering green sea,
elbows dug ribs, faces brightened, lips murmured:—“Didn't she do it
cleverly,” and all the heads turning like one watched with sardonic
grins the foiled wave go roaring to leeward, white with the foam of a
monstrous rage. But when she had not been quick enough and, struck
heavily, lay over trembling under the blow, we clutched at ropes, and
looking up at the narrow bands of drenched and strained sails waving
desperately aloft, we thought in our hearts:—“No wonder. Poor thing!”
The thirty-second day out of Bombay began inauspiciously. In the
morning a sea smashed one of the galley doors. We dashed in through
lots of steam and found the cook very wet and indignant with the
ship:—“She's getting worse every day. She's trying to drown me in
front of my own stove!” He was very angry. We pacified him, and the
carpenter, though washed away twice from there, managed to repair the
door. Through that accident our dinner was not ready till late, but it
didn't matter in the end because Knowles, who went to fetch it, got
knocked down by a sea and the dinner went over the side. Captain
Allistoun, looking more hard and thin-lipped than ever, hung on to full
topsails and foresail, and would not notice that the ship, asked to do
too much, appeared to lose heart altogether for the first time since we
knew her. She refused to rise, and bored her way sullenly through the
seas. Twice running, as though she had been blind or weary of life, she
put her nose deliberately into a big wave and swept the decks from end
to end. As the boatswain observed with marked annoyance, while we were
splashing about in a body to try and save a worthless wash-tub:—“Every
blooming thing in the ship is going overboard this afternoon.”
Venerable Singleton broke his habitual silence and said with a glance
aloft:—“The old man's in a temper with the weather, but it's no good
bein' angry with the winds of heaven.” Jimmy had shut his door, of
course. We knew he was dry and comfortable within his little cabin, and
in our absurd way were pleased one moment, exasperated the next, by
that certitude. Donkin skulked shamelessly, uneasy and miserable. He
grumbled:—“I'm perishin' with cold outside in bloomin' wet rags, an'
that 'ere black sojer sits dry on a blamed chest full of bloomin'
clothes; blank his black soul!” We took no notice of him; we hardly
gave a thought to Jimmy and his bosom friend. There was no leisure for
idle probing of hearts. Sails blew adrift. Things broke loose. Cold and
wet, we were washed about the deck while trying to repair damages. The
ship tossed about, shaken furiously, like a toy in the hand of a
lunatic. Just at sunset there was a rush to shorten sail before the
menace of a sombre hail cloud. The hard gust of wind came brutal like
the blow of a fist. The ship relieved of her canvas in time received it
pluckily: she yielded reluctantly to the violent onset; then coming up
with a stately and irresistible motion, brought her spars to windward
in the teeth of the screeching squall. Out of the abysmal darkness of
the black cloud overhead white hail streamed on her, rattled on the
rigging, leaped in handfuls off the yards, rebounded on the deck—round
and gleaming in the murky turmoil like a shower of pearls. It passed
away. For a moment a livid sun shot horizontally the last rays of
sinister light between the hills of steep, rolling waves. Then a wild
night rushed in—stamped out in a great howl that dismal remnant of a
stormy day.
There was no sleep on board that night. Most seamen remember in
their life one or two such nights of a culminating gale. Nothing seems
left of the whole universe but darkness, clamour, fury—and the ship.
And like the last vestige of a shattered creation she drifts, bearing
an anguished remnant of sinful mankind, through the distress, tumult,
and pain of an avenging terror. No one slept in the forecastle. The tin
oil-lamp suspended on a long string, smoking, described wide circles;
wet clothing made dark heaps on the glistening floor; a thin layer of
water rushed to and fro. In the bed-places men lay booted, resting on
elbows and with open eyes. Hung-up suits of oilskin swung out and in,
lively and disquieting like reckless ghosts of decapitated seamen
dancing in a tempest. No one spoke and all listened. Outside the night
moaned and sobbed to the accompaniment of a continuous loud tremor as
of innumerable drums beating far off. Shrieks passed through the air.
Tremendous dull blows made the ship tremble while she rolled under the
weight of the seas toppling on her deck. At times she soared up swiftly
as if to leave this earth for ever, then during interminable moments
fell through a void with all the hearts on board of her standing still,
till a frightful shock, expected and sudden, started them off again
with a big thump. After every dislocating jerk of the ship, Wamibo,
stretched full length, his face on the pillow, groaned slightly with
the pain of his tormented universe. Now and then, for the fraction of
an intolerable second, the ship, in the fiercer burst of a terrible
uproar, remained on her side, vibrating and still, with a stillness
more appalling than the wildest motion. Then upon all those prone
bodies a stir would pass, a shiver of suspense. A man would protrude
his anxious head and a pair of eyes glistened in the sway of light
glaring wildly. Some moved their legs a little as if making ready to
jump out. But several, motionless on their backs and with one hand
gripping hard the edge of the bunk, smoked nervously with quick puffs,
staring upwards; immobilised in a great craving for peace.
At midnight, orders were given to furl the fore and mizen topsails.
With immense efforts men crawled aloft through a merciless buffeting,
saved the canvas and crawled down almost exhausted, to bear in panting
silence the cruel battering of the seas. Perhaps for the first time in
the history of the merchant service the watch, told to go below, did
not leave the deck, as if compelled to remain there by the fascination
of a venomous violence. At every heavy gust men, huddled together,
whispered to one another.'—“It can blow no harder”—and presently the
gale would give: them the lie with a piercing shriek, and drive their
breath back into their throats. A fierce squall seemed to burst asunder
the thick mass of sooty vapours; and above the wrack of torn clouds
glimpses could be caught of the high moon rushing backwards with
frightful speed over the sky, right into the wind's eye. Many hung
their heads, muttering that it “turned their inwards out” to look at
it. Soon the clouds closed up and the world again became a raging,
blind darkness that howled, flinging at the lonely ship salt sprays and
sleet.
About half-past seven the pitchy obscurity round us turned a ghastly
grey, and we knew that the sun had risen. This unnatural and
threatening daylight, in which we could see one another's wild eyes and
drawn faces, was only an added tax on our endurance. The horizon seemed
to have come on all sides within arm's length of the ship. Into that
narrowed circle furious seas leaped in, struck, and leaped out. A rain
of salt, heavy drops flew aslant like mist. The main-topsail had to be
goose-winged, and with stolid resignation every one prepared to go
aloft once more; but the officers yelled, pushed back, and at last we
understood that no more men would be allowed to go on the yard than
were absolutely necessary for the work. As at any moment the masts were
likely to be jumped out or blown overboard, we concluded that the
captain didn't want to see all his crowd go over the side at once. That
was reasonable. The watch then on duty, led by Mr. Creighton, began to
struggle up the rigging. The wind flattened them against the ratlines;
then, easing a little, would let them ascend a couple of steps; and
again, with a sudden gust, pin all up the shrouds the whole crawling
line in attitudes of crucifixion. The other watch plunged down on the
main deck to haul up the sail. Men's heads bobbed up as the water flung
them irresistibly from side to side. Mr. Baker grunted encouragingly in
our midst, spluttering and blowing amongst the tangled ropes like an
energetic porpoise. Favoured by an ominous and untrustworthy lull, the
work was done without any one being lost either off the deck or from
the yard. For the moment the gale seemed to take off, and the ship, as
if grateful for our efforts, plucked up heart and made better weather
of it.
At eight the men off duty, watching their chance, ran forward over
the flooded deck to get some rest. The other half of the crew remained
aft for their turn of “seeing her through her trouble,” as they
expressed it. The two mates urged the master to go below. Mr. Baker
grunted in his ear:—“Ough! surely now... Ough!... confidence in us...
nothing more to do... she must lay it out or go.
“Ough! Ough!” Tall young Mr. Creighton smiled down at him
cheerfully:—”...She's as right as a trivet! Take a spell, sir.” He
looked at them Stonily with bloodshot, sleepless eyes. The rims of his
eyelids were scarlet, and he moved his jaws unceasingly with a slow
effort, as though he had been masticating a lump of india-rubber. He
shook his head. He repeated:—“Never mind me. I must see it out—I must
see it out,” but he consented to sit down for a moment on the skylight,
with his hard face turned unflinchingly to windward. The sea spat at
it—and stoical, it streamed with water as though he had been weeping.
On the weather side of the poop the watch, hanging on to the mizen
rigging and to one another, tried to exchange encouraging words.
Singleton, at the wheel, yelled out:—“Look out for yourselves!” His
voice reached them in a warning whisper. They were startled.
A big, foaming sea came out of the mist; it made for the ship,
roaring wildly, and in its rush it looked as mischievous and
discomposing as a madman with an axe. One or two, shouting, scrambled
up the rigging; most, with a convulsive catch of the breath, held on
where they stood. Singleton dug his knees under the wheel-box, and
carefully eased the helm to the headlong pitch of the ship, but without
taking his eyes off the coming wave. It towered close-to and high, like
a wall of green glass topped with snow. The ship rose to it as though
she had soared on wings, and for a moment rested poised upon the
foaming crest as if she had been a great sea-bird. Before we could draw
breath a heavy gust struck her, another roller took her unfairly under
the weather bow, she gave a toppling lurch, and filled her decks.
Captain Allistoun leaped up, and fell; Archie rolled over him,
screaming:—“She will rise!”
She gave another lurch to leeward; the lower deadeyes dipped
heavily; the men's feet flew from under them, and they hung kicking
above the slanting poop. They could see the ship putting her side in
the water, and shouted all together:—“She's going!” Forward the
forecastle doors flew open, and the watch below were seen leaping out
one after another, throwing their arms up; and, falling on hands and
knees, scrambled aft on all fours along the high side of the deck,
sloping more than the roof of a house. From leeward the seas rose,
pursuing them; they looked wretched in a hopeless struggle, like vermin
fleeing before a flood; they fought up the weather ladder of the poop
one after another, half naked and staring wildly; and as soon as they
got up they shot to leeward in clusters, with closed eyes, till they
brought up heavily with their ribs against the iron stanchions of the
rail; then, groaning, they rolled in a confused mass. The immense
volume of water thrown forward by the last scend of the ship had burst
the lee door of the forecastle. They could see their chests, pillows,
blankets, clothing, come out floating upon the sea. While they
struggled back to windward they looked in dismay. The straw beds swam
high, the blankets, spread out, undulated; while the chests,
waterlogged and with a heavy list, pitched heavily like dismasted
hulks, before they sank; Archie's big coat passed with outspread arms,
resembling a drowned seaman floating with his head under water. Men
were slipping down while trying to dig their fingers into the planks;
others, jammed in corners, rolled enormous eyes. They all yelled
unceasingly:—“The masts! Cut! Cut!...” A black squall howled low over
the ship, that lay on her side with the weather yard-arms pointing to
the clouds; while the tall masts, inclined nearly to the horizon,
seemed to be of an immeasurable length. The carpenter let go his hold,
rolled against the skylight, and began to crawl to the cabin entrance,
where a big axe was kept ready for just such an emergency. At that
moment the topsail sheet parted, the end of the heavy chain racketed
aloft, and sparks of red fire streamed down through the flying sprays.
The sail flapped once with a jerk that seemed to tear our hearts out
through our teeth, and instantly changed into a bunch of fluttering
narrow ribbons that tied themselves into knots and became quiet along
the yard. Captain Allistoun struggled, managed to stand up with his
face near the deck, upon which men swung on the ends of ropes, like
nest robbers upon a cliff. One of his feet was on somebody's chest; his
face was purple; his lips moved. He yelled also; he yelled, bending
down:—“No! No!” Mr. Baker, one leg over the binnacle-stand, roared
out:—“Did you say no? Not cut?” He shook his head madly. “No! No!”
Between his legs the crawling carpenter heard, collapsed at once, and
lay full length in the angle of the skylight. Voices took up the
shout—“No! No!” Then all became still. They waited for the ship to
turn over altogether, and shake them out into the sea; and upon the
terrific noise of wind and sea not a murmur of remonstrance came out
from those men, who each would have given ever so many years of life to
see “them damned sticks go overboard!” They all believed it their only
chance; but a little hard-faced man shook his grey head and shouted
“No!” without giving them as much as a glance. They were silent, and
gasped. They gripped rails, they had wound ropes'-ends under their
arms; they clutched ringbolts, they crawled in heaps where there was
foothold; they held on with both arms, hooked themselves to anything to
windward with elbows, with chins, almost with their teeth: and some,
unable to crawl away from where they had been flung, felt the sea leap
up, striking against their backs as they struggled upwards. Singleton
had stuck to the wheel. His hair flew out in the wind; the gale seemed
to take its life-long adversary by the beard and shake his old head. He
wouldn't let go, and, with his knees forced between the spokes, flew up
and down like a man on a bough. As Death appeared unready, they began
to look about. Don-kin, caught by one foot in a loop of some rope,
hung, head down, below us, and yelled, with his face to the
deck:—“Cut! Cut!” Two men lowered themselves cautiously to him; others
hauled on the rope. They caught him up, shoved him into a safer place,
held him. He shouted curses at the master, shook his fist at him with
horrible blasphemies, called upon us in filthy words to “Cut! Don't
mind that murdering fool! Cut, some of you!” One of his rescuers struck
him a back-handed blow over the mouth; his head banged on the deck, and
he became suddenly very quiet, with a white face, breathing hard, and
with a few drops of blood trickling from his cut lip. On the lee side
another man could be seen stretched out as if stunned; only the
washboard prevented him from going over the side. It was the steward.
We had to sling him up like a bale, for he was paralysed with fright.
He had rushed up out of the pantry when he felt the ship go over, and
had rolled down helplessly, clutching a china mug. It was not broken.
With difficulty we tore it away from him, and when he saw it in our
hands he was amazed. “Where did you get that thing?” he kept on asking
us in a trembling voice. His shirt was blown to shreds; the ripped
sleeves flapped like wings. Two men made him fast, and, doubled over
the rope that held him, he resembled a bundle of wet rags. Mr. Baker
crawled along the line of men, asking:—“Are you all there?” and
looking them over. Some blinked vacantly, others shook convulsively;
Wamibo's head hung over his breast; and in painful attitudes, cut by
lashings, exhausted with clutching, screwed up in corners, they
breathed heavily. Their lips twitched, and at every sickening heave of
the overturned ship they opened them wide as if to shout. The cook,
embracing a wooden stanchion, unconsciously repeated a prayer. In every
short interval of the fiendish noises around he could be heard there,
without cap or slippers, imploring in that storm the Master of our
lives not to lead him into temptation. Soon he also became silent. In
all that crowd of cold and hungry men, waiting wearily for a violent
death, not a voice was heard; they were mute, and in sombre
thoughtfulness listened to the horrible imprecations of the gale.
Hours passed. They were sheltered by the heavy inclination of the
ship from the wind that rushed in one long unbroken moan above their
heads, but cold rain showers fell at times into the uneasy calm of
their refuge. Under the torment of that new infliction a pair of
shoulders would writhe a little. Teeth chattered. The sky was clearing,
and bright sunshine gleamed over the ship. After every burst of
battering seas, vivid and fleeting rainbows arched over the drifting
hull in the flick of sprays. The gale was ending in a clear blow, which
gleamed and cut like a knife. Between two bearded shellbacks Charley,
fastened with somebody's long muffler to a deck ring-bolt, wept
quietly, with rare tears wrung out by bewilderment, cold, hunger, and
general misery. One of his neighbours punched him in the ribs asking
roughly:—“What's the matter with your cheek? In fine weather there's
no holding you, youngster.” Turning about with prudence he worked
himself out of his coat and threw it over the boy. The other man closed
up, muttering:—“'Twill make a bloomin' man of you, sonny.” They flung
their arms over and pressed against him. Charley drew his feet up and
his eyelids dropped. Sighs were heard, as men, perceiving that they
were not to be “drowned in a hurry,” tried easier positions. Mr.
Creighton, who had hurt his leg, lay amongst us with compressed lips.
Some fellows belonging to his watch set about securing him better.
Without a word or a glance he lifted his arms one after another to
facilitate the operation, and not a muscle moved in his stern, young
face. They asked him with solicitude:—“Easier now, sir?” He answered
with a curt:—“That'll do.” He was a hard young officer, but many of
his watch used to say they liked him well enough because he had “such a
gentlemanly way of damning us up and down the deck.” Others unable to
discern such fine shades of refinement, respected him for his
smartness. For the first time since the ship had gone on her beam ends
Captain Allistoun gave a short glance down at his men. He was almost
upright—one foot against the side of the skylight, one knee on the
deck; and with the end of the vang round his waist swung back and forth
with his gaze fixed ahead, watchful, like a man looking out for a sign.
Before his eyes the ship, with half her deck below water, rose and fell
on heavy seas that rushed from under her flashing in the cold sunshine.
We began to think she was wonderfully buoyant—considering. Confident
voices were heard shouting:—“She'll do, boys!” Belfast exclaimed with
fervour:—“I would giv' a month's pay for a draw at a pipe!” One or
two, passing dry tongues on their salt lips, muttered something about a
“drink of water.” The cook, as if inspired, scrambled up with his
breast against the poop water-cask and looked in. There was a little at
the bottom. He yelled, waving his arms, and two men began to crawl
backwards and forwards with the mug. We had a good mouthful all round.
The master shook his head impatiently, refusing. When it came to
Charley one of his neighbours shouted:—“That bloom-in' boy's asleep.”
He slept as though he had been dosed with narcotics. They let him be.
Singleton held to the wheel with one hand while he drank, bending down
to shelter his lips from the wind. Wamibo had to be poked and yelled at
before he saw the mug held before his eyes. Knowles said
sagaciously:—“It's better'n a tot o' rum.” Mr. Baker grunted:—“Thank
ye.” Mr. Creighton drank and nodded. Donkin gulped greedily, glaring
over the rim. Belfast made us laugh when with grimacing mouth he
shouted:—“Pass it this way. We're all taytottlers here.” The master,
presented with the mug again by a crouching man, who screamed up at
him:—“We all had a drink, captain,” groped for it without ceasing to
look ahead, and handed it back stiffly as though he could not spare
half a glance away from the ship. Faces brightened. We shouted to the
cook:—“Well done, doctor!” He sat to leeward, propped by the
water-cask and yelled back abundantly, but the seas were breaking in
thunder just then, and we only caught snatches that sounded like:
“Providence” and “born again.” He was at his old game of preaching. We
made friendly but derisive gestures at him, and from below he lifted
one arm, holding on with the other, moved his lips; he beamed up to us,
straining his voice—earnest, and ducking his head before the sprays.
Suddenly some one cried:—“Where's Jimmy?” and we were appalled once
more. On the end of the row the boatswain shouted hoarsely:—“Has any
one seed him come out?” Voices exclaimed dismally:—“Drowned—is he?...
No! In his cabin!... Good Lord!... Caught like a bloomin' rat in a
trap.... Couldn't open his door... Aye! She went over too quick and the
water jammed it... Poor beggar!... No help for 'im.... Let's go and
see...” “Damn him, who could go?” screamed Donkin.—“Nobody expects you
to,” growled the man next to him: “you're only a thing.”—“Is there
half a chance to get at 'im?” inquired two or three men together.
Belfast untied himself with blind impetuosity, and all at once shot
down to leeward quicker than a flash of lightning. We shouted all
together with dismay; but with his legs overboard he held and yelled
for a rope. In our extremity nothing could be terrible; so we judged
him funny kicking there, and with his scared face. Some one began to
laugh, and, as if hysterically infected with screaming merriment, all
those haggard men went off laughing, wild-eyed, like a lot of maniacs
tied up on a wall. Mr. Baker swung off the binnacle-stand and tendered
him one leg. He scrambled up rather scared, and consigning us with
abominable words to the “divvle.” “You are.... Ough! You're a
foul-mouthed beggar, Craik,” grunted Mr. Baker. He answered, stuttering
with indignation:—“Look at 'em, sorr. The bloomin dirty images!
laughing at a chum going overboard. Call themselves men, too.” But from
the break of the poop the boatswain called out:—“Come along,” and
Belfast crawled away in a hurry to join him. The five men, poised and
gazing over the edge of the poop, looked for the best way to get
forward. They seemed to hesitate. The others, twisting in their
lashings, turning painfull, stared with open lips. Captain Allistoun
saw nothing; he seemed with his eyes to hold the ship up in a
superhuman concentration of effort. The wind screamed loud in sunshine;
columns of spray rose straight up; and in the glitter of rainbows
bursting over the trembling hull the men went over cautiously,
disappearing from sight with deliberate movements.
They went swinging from belaying pin to cleat above the seas that
beat the half-submerged deck. Their toes scraped the planks. Lumps of
green cold water toppled over the bulwark and on their heads. They hung
for a moment on strained arms, with the breath knocked out of them, and
with closed eyes—then, letting go with one hand, balanced with lolling
heads, trying to grab some rope or stanchion further forward. The
long-armed and athletic boatswain swung quickly, gripping things with a
fist hard as iron, and remembering suddenly snatches of the last letter
from his “old woman.” Little Belfast scrambled in a rage spluttering
“cursed nigger.” Wamibo's tongue hung out with excitement; and Archie,
intrepid and calm, watched his chance to move with intelligent
coolness.
When above the side of the house, they let go one after another, and
falling heavily, sprawled, pressing their palms to the smooth teak
wood. Round them the backwash of waves seethed white and hissing. All
the doors had become trap-doors, of course. The first was the galley
door. The galley extended from side to side, and they could hear the
sea splashing with hollow noises in there. The next door was that of
the carpenter's shop. They lifted it, and looked down. The room seemed
to have been devastated by an earthquake. Everything in it had tumbled
on the bulkhead facing the door, and on the other side of that bulkhead
there was Jimmy dead or alive. The bench, a half-finished meat-safe,
saws, chisels, wire rods, axes, crowbars, lay in a heap besprinkled
with loose nails. A sharp adze stuck up with a shining edge that
gleamed dangerously down there like a wicked smile. The men clung to
one another, peering. A sickening, sly lurch of the ship nearly sent
them overboard in a body. Belfast howled “Here goes!” and leaped down.
Archie followed cannily, catching at shelves that gave way with him,
and eased himself in a great crash of ripped wood. There was hardly
room for three men to move. And in the sunshiny blue square of the
door, the boatswain's face, bearded and dark, Wamibo's face, wild and
pale, hung over—watching.
Together they shouted: “Jimmy! Jim!” From above the boatswain
contributed a deep growl: “You. Wait!” In a pause, Belfast entreated:
“Jimmy, darlin', are ye aloive?” The boatswain said: “Again! All
together, boys!” All yelled excitedly. Wamibo made noises resembling
loud barks. Belfast drummed on the side of the bulkhead with a piece of
iron. All ceased suddenly. The sound of screaming and hammering went on
thin and distinct—like a solo after a chorus. He was alive. He was
screaming and knocking below us with the hurry of a man prematurely
shut up in a coffin. We went to work. We attacked with desperation the
abominable heap of things heavy, of things sharp, of things clumsy to
handle. The boatswain crawled away to find somewhere a flying end of a
rope; and Wamibo, held back by shouts:—“Don't jump!... Don't come in
here, muddle-head!”—remained glaring above us—all shining eyes,
gleaming fangs, tumbled hair; resembling an amazed and half-witted
fiend gloating over the extraordinary agitation of the damned. The
boatswain adjured us to “bear a hand,” and a rope descended. We made
things fast to it and they went up spinning, never to be seen by man
again. A rage to fling things overboard possessed us. We worked
fiercely, cutting our hands and speaking brutally to one another. Jimmy
kept up a distracting row; he screamed piercingly, without drawing
breath, like a tortured woman; he banged with hands and feet. The agony
of his fear wrung our hearts so terribly that we longed to abandon him,
to get out of that place deep as a well and swaying like a tree, to get
out of his hearing, back on the poop where we could wait passively for
death in incomparable repose. We shouted to him to “shut up, for God's
sake.” He redoubled his cries. He must have fancied we could not hear
him. Probably he heard his own clamour but faintly. We could picture
him crouching on the edge of the upper berth, letting out with both
fists at the wood, in the dark, and with his mouth wide open for that
unceasing cry. Those were loathsome moments. A cloud driving across the
sun would darken the doorway menacingly. Every movement of the ship was
pain. We scrambled about with no room to breathe, and felt frightfully
sick. The boatswain yelled down at us:—“Bear a hand! Bear a hand! We
two will be washed away from here directly if you ain't quick!” Three
times a sea leaped over the high side and flung bucketfuls of water on
our heads. Then Jimmy, startled by the shock, would stop his noise for
a moment—waiting for the ship to sink, perhaps—and began again,
distressingly loud, as if invigorated by the gust of fear. At the
bottom the nails lay in a layer several inches thick. It was ghastly.
Every nail in the world, not driven in firmly somewhere, seemed to have
found its way into that carpenter's shop. There they were, of all
kinds, the remnants of stores from seven voyages. Tin-tacks, copper
tacks (sharp as needles); pump nails with big heads, like tiny iron
mushrooms; nails without any heads (horrible); French nails polished
and slim. They lay in a solid mass more inabordable than a hedgehog. We
hesitated, yearning for a shovel, while Jimmy below us yelled as though
he had been flayed. Groaning, we dug our fingers in, and very much
hurt, shook our hands, scattering nails and drops of blood. We passed
up our hats full of assorted nails to the boatswain, who, as if
performing a mysterious and appeasing rite, cast them wide upon a
raging sea.
We got to the bulkhead at last. Those were stout planks. She was a
ship, well finished in every detail—the
Narcissus was. They
were the stoutest planks ever put into a ship's bulkhead—we
thought—and then we perceived that, in our hurry, we had sent all the
tools overboard. Absurd little Belfast wanted to break it down with his
own weight, and with both feet leaped straight up like a springbok,
cursing the Clyde shipwrights for not scamping their work. Incidentally
he reviled all North Britain, the rest of the earth, the sea—and all
his companions. He swore, as he alighted heavily on his heels, that he
would never, never any more associate with any fool that “hadn't savee
enough to know his knee from his elbow.” He managed by his thumping to
scare the last remnant of wits out of Jimmy. We could hear the object
of our exasperated solicitude darting to and fro under the planks. He
had cracked his voice at last, and could only squeak miserably. His
back or else his head rubbed the planks, now here, now there, in a
puzzling manner. He squeaked as he dodged the invisible blows. It was
more heartrending even than his yells. Suddenly Archie produced a
crowbar. He had kept it back; also a small hatchet. We howled with
satisfaction. He struck a mighty blow and small chips flew at our eyes.
The boatswain above shouted:—“Look out! Look out there. Don't kill the
man. Easy does it!” Wamibo, maddened with excitement, hung head down
and insanely urged us:—“Hoo! Strook'im! Hoo! Hoo!” We were afraid he
would fall in and kill one of us and, hurriedly, we entreated the
boatswain to “shove the blamed Finn overboard.” Then, all together, we
yelled down at the planks:—“Stand from under! Get forward,” and
listened. We only heard the deep hum and moan of the wind above us, the
mingled roar and hiss of the seas. The ship, as if overcome with
despair, wallowed lifelessly, and our heads swam with that unnatural
motion. Belfast clamoured:—“For the love of God, Jimmy, where are
ye?... Knock! Jimmy darlint!... Knock! You bloody black beast! Knock!”
He was as quiet as a dead man inside a grave; and, like men standing
above a grave, we were on the verge of tears—but with vexation, the
strain, the fatigue; with the great longing to be done with it, to get
away, and lie down to rest somewhere where we could see our danger and
breathe. Archie shouted:—“Gi'e me room!” We crouched behind him,
guarding our heads, and he struck time after time in the joint of
planks. They cracked. Suddenly the crowbar went halfway in through a
splintered oblong hole. It must have missed Jimmy's head by less than
an inch. Archie withdrew it quickly, and that infamous nigger rushed at
the hole, put his lips to it, and whispered “Help” in an almost extinct
voice; he pressed his head to it, trying madly to get out through that
opening one inch wide and three inches long. In our disturbed state we
were absolutely paralysed by his incredible action. It seemed
impossible to drive him away. Even Archie at last lost his composure.
“If ye don't clear oot I'll drive the crowbar thro' your head,” he
shouted in a determined voice. He meant what he said, and his
earnestness seemed to make an impression on Jimmy. He disappeared
suddenly, and we set to prising and tearing at the planks with the
eagerness of men trying to get at a mortal enemy, and spurred by the
desire to tear him limb from limb. The wood split, cracked, gave way.
Belfast plunged in head and shoulders and groped viciously. “I've got
'im! Got 'im,” he shouted. “Oh! There!... He's gone; I've got 'im!...
Pull at my legs!... Pull!” Wamibo hooted unceasingly. The boatswain
shouted directions:—“Catch hold of his hair, Belfast; pull straight
up, you two!... Pull fair!” We pulled fair. We pulled Belfast out with
a jerk, and dropped him with disgust. In a sitting posture,
purple-faced, he sobbed despairingly:—“How can I hold on to 'is
blooming short wool?” Suddenly Jimmy's head and shoulders appeared. He
stuck halfway, and with rolling eyes foamed at our feet. We flew at him
with brutal impatience, we tore the shirt off his back, we tugged at
his ears, we panted over him; and all at once he came away in our hands
as though somebody had let go his legs. With the same movement, without
a pause, we swung him up. His breath whistled, he kicked our upturned
faces, he grasped two pairs of arms above his head, and he squirmed up
with such precipitation that he seemed positively to escape from our
hands like a bladder full of gas. Streaming with perspiration, we
swarmed up the rope, and, coming into the blast of cold wind, gasped
like men plunged into icy water. With burning faces we shivered to the
very marrow of our bones. Never before had the gale seemed to us more
furious, the sea more mad, the sunshine more merciless and mocking, and
the position of the ship more hopeless and appalling. Every movement of
her was ominous of the end of her agony and of the beginning of ours.
We staggered away from the door, and, alarmed by a sudden roll, fell
down in a bunch. It appeared to us that the side of the house was more
smooth than glass and more slippery than ice. There was nothing to hang
on to but a long brass hook used sometimes to keep back an open door.
Wamibo held on to it and we held on to Wamibo, clutching our Jimmy. He
had completely collapsed now. He did not seem to have the strength to
close his hand. We stuck to him blindly in our fear. We were not afraid
of Wamibo letting go (we remembered that the brute was stronger than
any three men in the ship), but we were afraid of the hook giving way,
and we also believed that the ship had made up her mind to turn over at
last. But she didn't. A sea swept over us. The boatswain
spluttered:—“Up and away. There's a lull. Away aft with you, or we
will all go to the devil here.” We stood up surrounding Jimmy. We
begged him to hold up, to hold on, at least. He glared with his bulging
eyes, mute as a fish, and with all the stiffening knocked out of him.
He wouldn't stand; he wouldn't even as much as clutch at our necks; he
was only a cold black skin loosely stuffed with soft cotton wool; his
arms and legs swung jointless and pliable; his head rolled about; the
lower lip hung down, enormous and heavy. We pressed round him, bothered
and dismayed; sheltering him we swung here and there in a body; and on
the very brink of eternity we tottered all together with concealing and
absurd gestures, like a lot of drunken men embarrassed with a stolen
corpse.
Something had to be done. We had to get him aft. A rope was tied
slack under his armpits, and, reaching up at the risk of our lives, we
hung him on the fore-sheet cleet. He emitted no sound; he looked as
ridiculously lamentable as a doll that had lost half its sawdust, and
we started on our perilous journey over the main deck, dragging along
with care that pitiful, that limp, that hateful burden. He was not very
heavy, but had he weighed a ton he could not have been more awkward to
handle. We literally passed him from hand to hand. Now and then we had
to hang him up on a handy belaying-pin, to draw a breath and reform the
line. Had the pin broken he would have irretrievably gone into the
Southern Ocean, but he had to take his chance of that; and after a
little while, becoming apparently aware of it, he groaned slightly, and
with a great effort whispered a few words. We listened eagerly. He was
reproaching us with our carelessness in letting him run such risks:
“Now, after I got myself out from there,” he breathed out weakly.
“There” was his cabin. And he got himself out. We had nothing to do
with it apparently!... No matter.... We went on and let him take his
chances, simply because we could not help it; for though at that time
we hated him more than ever—more than anything under heaven—we did
not want to lose him. We had so far saved him; and it had become a
personal matter between us and the sea. We meant to stick to him. Had
we (by an incredible hypothesis) undergone similar toil and trouble for
an empty cask, that cask would have become as precious to us as Jimmy
was. More precious, in fact, because we would have had no reason to
hate the cask. And we hated James Wait. We could not get rid of the
monstrous suspicion that this astounding black-man was shamming sick,
had been malingering heartlessly in the face of our toil, of our scorn,
of our patience—and now was malingering in the face of our
devotion—in the face of death. Our vague and imperfect morality rose
with disgust at his unmanly lie. But he stuck to it
manfully—amazingly. No! It couldn't be. He was at all extremity. His
cantankerous temper was only the result of the provoking
invincible-ness of that death he felt by his side. Any man may be angry
with such a masterful chum. But, then, what kind of men were we—with
our thoughts! Indignation and doubt grappled within us in a scuffle
that trampled upon the finest of our feelings. And we hated him because
of the suspicion; we detested him because of the doubt. We could not
scorn him safely—neither could we pity him without risk to our
dignity. So we hated him and passed him carefully from hand to hand. We
cried, “Got him?”—“Yes. All right. Let go.”
And he swung from one enemy to another, showing about as much life
as an old bolster would do. His eyes made two narrow white slits in the
black face. The air escaped through his lips with a noise like the
sound of bellows. We reached the poop ladder at last, and it being a
comparatively safe place, we lay for a moment in an exhausted heap to
rest a little. He began to mutter. We were always incurably anxious to
hear what he had to say. This time he mumbled peevishly, “It took you
some time to come! I began to think the whole smart lot of you had been
washed overboard. What kept you back? Hey? Funk?” We said nothing. With
sighs we started again to drag him up. The secret and ardent desire of
our hearts was the desire to beat him viciously with our fists about
the head; and we handled him as tenderly as though he had been made of
glass....
The return on the poop was like the return of wanderers after many
years amongst people marked by the desolation of time. Eyes were turned
slowly in their sockets, glancing at us. Faint murmurs were heard,
“Have you got 'im after all?” The well-known faces looked strange and
familiar; they seemed faded and grimy; they had a mingled expression of
fatigue and eagerness. They seemed to have become much thinner during
our absence, as if all these men had been starving for a long time in
their abandoned attitudes. The captain, with a round turn of a rope on
his wrist, and kneeling on one knee, swung with a face cold and stiff;
but with living eyes he was still holding the ship up, heeding no one,
as if lost in the unearthly effort of that endeavour. We fastened up
James Wait in a safe place. Mr. Baker scrambled along to lend a hand.
Mr. Creighton, on his back, and very pale, muttered, “Well done,” and
gave us, Jimmy and the sky, a scornful glance, then closed his eyes
slowly. Here and there a man stirred a little, but most of them
remained apathetic, in cramped positions, muttering between shivers.
The sun was setting. A sun enormous, unclouded and red, declining low
as if bending down to look into their faces. The wind whistled across
long sunbeams that, resplendent and cold, struck full on the dilated
pupils of staring eyes without making them wink. The wisps of hair and
the tangled beards were grey with the salt of the sea. The faces were
earthy, and the dark patches under the eyes extended to the ears,
smudged into the hollows of sunken cheeks. The lips were livid and
thin, and when they moved it was with difficulty, as though they had
been glued to the teeth. Some grinned sadly in the sunlight, shaking
with cold. Others were sad and still. Charley, subdued by the sudden
disclosure of the insignificance of his youth, darted fearful glances.
The two smooth-faced Norwegians resembled decrepit children, staring
stupidly. To leeward, on the edge of the horizon, black seas leaped up
towards the glowing sun. It sank slowly, round and blazing, and the
crests of waves splashed on the edge of the luminous circle. One of the
Norwegians appeared to catch sight of it, and, after giving a violent
start, began to speak. His voice, startling the others, made them stir.
They moved their heads stiffly, or turning with difficulty, looked at
him with surprise, with fear, or in grave silence. He chattered at the
setting sun, nodding his head, while the big seas began to roll across
the crimson disc; and over miles of turbulent waters the shadows of
high waves swept with a running darkness the faces of men. A crested
roller broke with a loud hissing roar, and the sun, as if put out,
disappeared. The chattering voice faltered, went out together with the
light. There were sighs. In the sudden lull that follows the crash of a
broken sea a man said wearily, “Here's that blooming Dutchman gone off
his chump.” A seaman, lashed by the middle, tapped the deck with his
open hand with unceasing quick flaps. In the gathering greyness of
twilight a bulky form was seen rising aft, and began marching on all
fours with the movements of some big cautious beast. It was Mr. Baker
passing along the line of men. He grunted encouragingly over every one,
felt their fastenings. Some, with half-open eyes, puffed like men
oppressed by heat; others mechanically and in dreamy voices answered
him, “Aye! aye! sir!” He went from one to another grunting, “Ough!...
See her through it yet;” and unexpectedly, with loud angry outbursts,
blew up Knowles for cutting off a long piece from the fall of the
relieving tackle. “Ough!———Ashamed of yourself———Relieving
tackle———Don't you know better!———Ough!———Able seaman! Ough!”
The lame man was crushed. He muttered, “Get som'think for a lashing for
myself, sir.”—“Ough! Lashing———yourself. Are you a tinker or a
sailor———What? Ough!———May want that tackle
directly———Ough!———More use to the ship than your lame carcass.
Ough!———Keep it!———Keep it, now you've done it.”
He crawled away slowly, muttering to himself about some men being
“worse than children.” It had been a comforting row. Low exclamations
were heard: “Hallo... Hallo.”... Those who had been painfully dozing
asked with convulsive starts, “What's up?... What is it?” The answers
came with unexpected cheerfulness: “The mate is going bald-headed for
lame Jack about something or other.” “No!”.... “What 'as he done?” Some
one even chuckled. It was like a whiff of hope, like a reminder of safe
days. Donkin, who had been stupefied with fear, revived suddenly and
began to shout:—“'Ear 'im; that's the way they tawlk to us. Vy donch
'ee 'it 'im—one ov yer? 'It 'im. 'It 'im! Comin' the mate over us. We
are as good men as 'ee! We're all goin' to 'ell now. We 'ave been
starved in this rotten ship, an' now we're goin' to be drowned for them
black 'earted bullies! 'It 'im!” He shrieked in the deepening gloom, he
blubbered and sobbed, screaming:—“'It 'im! 'It 'im!” The rage and fear
of his disregarded right to live tried the steadfastness of hearts more
than the menacing shadows of the night that advanced through the
unceasing clamour of the gale. From aft Mr. Baker was heard:—“Is one
of you men going to stop him—must I come along?” “Shut up!”... “Keep
quiet!” cried various voices, exasperated, trembling with
cold.—“You'll get one across the mug from me directly,” said an
invisible seaman, in a weary tone, “I won't let the mate have the
trouble.” He ceased and lay still with the silence of despair. On the
black sky the stars, coming out, gleamed over an inky sea that,
speckled with foam, flashed back at them the evanescent and pale light
of a dazzling whiteness born from the black turmoil of the waves.
Remote in the eternal calm they glittered hard and cold above the
uproar of the earth; they surrounded the vanquished and tormented ship
on all sides: more pitiless than the eyes of a triumphant mob, and as
unapproachable as the hearts of men.
The icy south wind howled exultingly under the sombre splendour of
the sky. The cold shook the men with a resistless violence as though it
had tried to shake them to pieces. Short moans were swept unheard off
the stiff lips. Some complained in mutters of “not feeling themselves
below the waist;” while those who had closed their eyes, imagined they
had a block of ice on their chests. Others, alarmed at not feeling any
pain in their fingers, beat the deck feebly with their hands—obstinate
and exhausted. Wamibo stared vacant and dreamy. The Scandinavians kept
on a meaningless mutter through chattering teeth. The spare Scotchmen,
with determined efforts, kept their lower jaws still. The West-country
men lay big and stolid in an invulnerable surliness. A man yawned and
swore in turns. Another breathed with a rattle in his throat. Two
elderly hard-weather shellbacks, fast side by side, whispered dismally
to one another about the landlady of a boarding-house in Sunderland,
whom they both knew. They extolled her motherliness and her liberality;
they tried to talk about the joint of beef and the big fire in the
downstairs kitchen. The words dying faintly on their lips, ended in
light sighs. A sudden voice cried into the cold night, “O Lord!” No one
changed his position or took any notice of the cry. One or two passed,
with a repeated and vague gesture, their hand over their faces, but
most of them kept very still. In the benumbed immobility of their
bodies they were excessively wearied by their thoughts, which rushed
with the rapidity and vividness of dreams. Now and then, by an abrupt
and startling exclamation, they answered the weird hail of some
illusion; then, again, in silence contemplated the vision of known
faces and familiar things. They recalled the aspect of forgotten
shipmates and heard the voice of dead and gone skippers. They
remembered the noise of gaslit streets, the steamy heat of tap-rooms or
the scorching sunshine of calm days at sea.
Mr. Baker left his insecure place, and crawled, with stoppages,
along the poop. In the dark and on all fours he resembled some
carnivorous animal prowling amongst corpses. At the break, propped to
windward of a stanchion, he looked down on the main deck. It seemed to
him that the ship had a tendency to stand up a little more. The wind
had eased a little, he thought, but the sea ran as high as ever. The
waves foamed viciously, and the lee side of the deck disappeared under
a hissing whiteness as of boiling milk, while the rigging sang steadily
with a deep vibrating note, and, at every upward swing of the ship, the
wind rushed with a long-drawn clamour amongst the spars. Mr. Baker
watched very still. A man near him began to make a blabbing noise with
his lips, all at once and very loud, as though the cold had broken
brutally through him. He went
on:—“Ba—ba—ba—brrr—brr—ba—ba.”—“Stop that!” cried Mr. Baker,
groping in the dark. “Stop it!” He went on shaking the leg he found
under his hand.—“What is it, sir?” called out Belfast, in the tone of
a man awakened suddenly; “we are looking after that 'ere Jimmy.”—“Are
you? Ough! Don't make that row then. Who's that near you?”—“It's
me—the boatswain, sir,” growled the West-country man; “we are trying
to keep life in that poor devil.”—“Aye, aye!” said Mr. Baker. “Do it
quietly, can't you?”—“He wants us to hold him up above the rail,” went
on the boatswain, with irritation, “says he can't breathe here under
our jackets.”—“If we lift 'im, we drop 'im overboard,” said another
voice, “we can't feel our hands with cold.”—“I don't care. I am
choking!” exclaimed James Wait in a clear tone.—“Oh, no, my son,” said
the boatswain, desperately, “you don't go till we all go on this fine
night.”—“You will see yet many a worse,” said Mr. Baker,
cheerfully.—“It's no child's play, sir!” answered the boatswain. “Some
of us further aft, here, are in a pretty bad way.”—“If the blamed
sticks had been cut out of her she would be running along on her bottom
now like any decent ship, an' giv' us all a chance,” said some one,
with a sigh.—“The old man wouldn't have it... much he cares for us,”
whispered another.—“Care for you!” exclaimed Mr. Baker, angrily. “Why
should he care for you? Are you a lot of women passengers to be taken
care of? We are here to take care of the ship—and some of you ain't up
to that. Ough!... What have you done so very smart to be taken care of?
Ough!... Some of you can't stand a bit of a breeze without crying over
it.”—“Come, sorr. We ain't so bad,” protested Belfast, in a voice
shaken by shivers; “we ain't... brr...”—“Again,” shouted the mate,
grabbing at the shadowy form; “again!... Why, you're in your shirt!
What have you done?”—“I've put my oilskin and jacket over that
half-dead nayggur—and he says he chokes,” said Belfast,
complainingly.—“You wouldn't call me nigger if I wasn't half dead, you
Irish beggar!” boomed James Wait, vigorously.—“You... brrr... You
wouldn't be white if you were ever so well... I will fight you...
brrrr... in fine weather... brrr ... with one hand tied behind my
back... brrrrrr...”—“I don't want your rags—I want air,” gasped out
the other faintly, as if suddenly exhausted.
The sprays swept over whistling and pattering. Men disturbed in
their peaceful torpor by the pain of quarrelsome shouts, moaned,
muttering curses. Mr. Baker crawled off a little way to leeward where a
water-cask loomed up big, with something white against it. “Is it you,
Podmore?” asked Mr. Baker, He had to repeat the question twice before
the cook turned, coughing feebly.—“Yes, sir. I've been praying in my
mind for a quick deliverance; for I am prepared for any call....
I———”—“Look here, cook,” interrupted Mr. Baker, “the men are
perishing with cold.”—“Cold!” said the cook, mournfully; “they will be
warm enough before long.”—“What?” asked Mr. Baker, looking along the
deck into the faint sheen of frothing water.—“They are a wicked lot,”
continued the cook solemnly, but in an unsteady voice, “about as wicked
as any ship's company in this sinful world! Now, I”—he trembled so
that he could hardly speak; his was an exposed place, and in a cotton
shirt, a thin pair of trousers, and with his knees under his nose, he
received, quaking, the flicks of stinging, salt drops; his voice
sounded exhausted—“now. I—any time ... My eldest youngster, Mr.
Baker.. a clever boy... last Sunday on shore before this voyage he
wouldn't go to church, sir. Says I, 'You go and clean yourself, or I'll
know the reason why!' What does he do?... Pond, Mr. Baker—fell into
the pond in his best rig, sir!... Accident?... 'Nothing will save you,
fine scholar though you are!' says I.... Accident!... I whopped him,
sir, till I couldn't lift my arm....” His voice faltered. “I whopped
'im!” he repeated, rattling his teeth; then, after a while, let out a
mournful sound that was half a groan, half a snore. Mr. Baker shook him
by the shoulders. “Hey! Cook! Hold up, Podmore! Tell me—is there any
fresh water in the galley tank? The ship is lying along less, I think;
I would try to get forward. A little water would do them good. Hallo!
Look out! Look out!” The cook struggled.—“Not you, sir—not you!” He
began to scramble to windward. “Galley!... my business!” he
shouted.—“Cook's going crazy now,” said several voices. He
yelled:—“Crazy, am I? I am more ready to die than any of you, officers
incloosive—there! As long as she swims I will cook! I will get you
coffee.”—“Cook, ye are a gentleman!” cried Belfast. But the cook was
already going over the weather-ladder. He stopped for a moment to shout
back on the poop:—“As long as she swims I will cook!” and disappeared
as though he had gone overboard. The men who had heard sent after him a
cheer that sounded like a wail of sick children. An hour or more
afterwards some one said distinctly: “He's gone for good.”—“Very
likely,” assented the boatswain; “even in fine weather he was as smart
about the deck as a milch-cow on her first voyage. We ought to go and
see.” Nobody moved. As the hours dragged slowly through the darkness
Mr. Baker crawled back and forth along the poop several times. Some men
fancied they had heard him exchange murmurs with the master, but at
that time the memories were incomparably more vivid than anything
actual, and they were not certain whether the murmurs were heard now or
many years ago. They did not try to find out. A mutter more or less did
not matter. It was too cold for curiosity, and almost for hope. They
could not spare a moment or a thought from the great mental occupation
of wishing to live. And the desire of life kept them alive, apathetic
and enduring, under the cruel persistence of wind and cold; while the
bestarred black dome of the sky revolved slowly above the ship, that
drifted, bearing their patience and their suffering, through the stormy
solitude of the sea.
Huddled close to one another, they fancied themselves utterly alone.
They heard sustained loud noises, and again bore the pain of existence
through long hours of profound silence. In the night they saw sunshine,
felt warmth, and suddenly, with a start, thought that the sun would
never rise upon a freezing world. Some heard laughter, listened to
songs; others, near the end of the poop, could hear loud human shrieks,
and opening their eyes, were surprised to hear them still, though very
faint, and far away. The boatswain said:—“Why, it's the cook, hailing
from forward, I think.” He hardly believed his own words or recognised
his own voice. It was a long time before the man next to him gave a
sign of life. He punched hard his other neighbour and said:—“The
cook's shouting!” Many did not understand, others did not care; the
majority further aft did not believe. But the boatswain and another man
had the pluck to crawl away forward to see. They seemed to have been
gone for hours, and were very soon forgotten. Then suddenly men who had
been plunged in a hopeless resignation became as if possessed with a
desire to hurt. They belaboured one another with fists. In the darkness
they struck persistently anything soft they could feel near, and, with
a greater effort than for a shout, whispered excitedly:—“They've got
some hot coffee.... Boss'en got it....” “No!... Where?”.... “It's
coming! Cook made it.” James Wait moaned. Donkin scrambled viciously,
caring not where he kicked, and anxious that the officers should have
none of it. It came in a pot, and they drank in turns. It was hot, and
while it blistered the greedy palates, it seemed incredible. The men
sighed out parting with the mug:—“How 'as he done it?” Some cried
weakly:—“Bully for you, doctor!”
He had done it somehow. Afterwards Archie declared that the thing
was “meeraculous.” For many days we wondered, and it was the one
ever-interesting subject of conversation to the end of the voyage. We
asked the cook, in fine weather, how he felt when he saw his stove
“reared up on end.” We inquired, in the north-east trade and on serene
evenings, whether he had to stand on his head to put things right
somewhat. We suggested he had used his bread-board for a raft, and from
there comfortably had stoked his grate; and we did our best to conceal
our admiration under the wit of fine irony. He affirmed not to know
anything about it, rebuked our levity, declared himself, with solemn
animation, to have been the object of a special mercy for the saving of
our unholy lives. Fundamentally he was right, no doubt; but he need not
have been so offensively positive about it—he need not have hinted so
often that it would have gone hard with us had he not been there,
meritorious and pure, to receive the inspiration and the strength for
the work of grace. Had we been saved by his recklessness or his
agility, we could have at length become reconciled to the fact; but to
admit our obligation to anybody's virtue and holiness alone was as
difficult for us as for any other handful of mankind. Like many
benefactors of humanity, the cook took himself too seriously, and
reaped the reward of irreverence. We were not un-ungrateful, however.
He remained heroic. His saying—
the saying of his life—became
proverbial in the mouth of men as are the sayings of conquerors or
sages. Later, whenever one of us was puzzled by a task and advised to
relinquish it, he would express his determination to persevere and to
succeed by the words:—“As long as she swims I will cook!”
The hot drink helped us through the bleak hours that precede the
dawn. The sky low by the horizon took on the delicate tints of pink and
yellow like the inside of a rare shell. And higher, where it glowed
with a pearly sheen, a small black cloud appeared, like a forgotten
fragment of the night set in a border of dazzling gold. The beams of
light skipped on the crests of waves. The eyes of men turned to the
eastward. The sunlight flooded their weary faces. They were giving
themselves up to fatigue as though they had done for ever with their
work. On Singleton's black oilskin coat the dried salt glistened like
hoar frost. He hung on by the wheel, with open and lifeless eyes.
Captain Allistoun, unblinking, faced the rising sun. His lips stirred,
opened for the first time in twenty-four hours, and with a fresh firm
voice he cried, “Wear ship!”
The commanding sharp tones made all these torpid men start like a
sudden flick of a whip. Then again, motionless where they lay, the
force of habit made some of them repeat the order in hardly audible
murmurs. Captain Allistoun glanced down at his crew, and several, with
fumbling fingers and hopeless movements, tried to cast themselves
adrift. He repeated impatiently, “Wear ship. Now then, Mr. Baker, get
the men along. What's the matter with them?”—“Wear ship. Do you hear
there?—Wear ship!” thundered out the boatswain suddenly. His voice
seemed to break through a deadly spell. Men began to stir and
crawl.—“I want the fore-top-mast staysail run up smartly,” said the
master, very loudly; “if you can't manage it standing up you must do it
lying down—that's all. Bear a hand!”—“Come along! Let's give the old
girl a chance,” urged the boatswain.—“Aye! aye! Wear ship!” exclaimed
quavering voices. The forecastle men, with reluctant faces, prepared to
go forward. Mr. Baker pushed ahead, grunting, on all fours to show the
way, and they followed him over the break. The others lay still with a
vile hope in their hearts of not being required to move till they got
saved or drowned in peace.
After some time they could be seen forward appearing on the
forecastle head, one by one in unsafe attitudes; hanging on to the
rails, clambering over the anchors; embracing the cross-head of the
windlass or hugging the fore-capstan. They were restless with strange
exertions, waved their arms, knelt, lay flat down, staggered up, seemed
to strive their hardest to go overboard. Suddenly a small white piece
of canvas fluttered amongst them, grew larger, beating. Its narrow head
rose in jerks—and at last it stood distended and triangular in the
sunshine.—“They have done it!” cried the voices aft. Captain Allistoun
let go the rope he had round his wrist and rolled to leeward headlong.
He could be seen casting the lee main braces off the pins while the
backwash of waves splashed over him.—“Square the main yard!” he
shouted up to us—who stared at him in wonder. We hesitated to stir.
“The main brace, men. Haul! haul anyhow! Lay on your backs and haul!”
he screeched, half drowned down there. We did not believe we could move
the main yard, but the strongest and the less discouraged tried to
execute the order. Others assisted half-heartedly. Singleton's eyes
blazed suddenly as he took a fresh grip of the spokes. Captain
Allistoun fought his way up to windward.—“Haul, men! Try to move it!
Haul, and help the ship.” His hard face worked suffused and furious.
“Is she going off, Singleton?” he cried.—“Not a move yet, sir,”
croaked the old seaman in a horribly hoarse voice.—“Watch the helm,
Singleton,” spluttered the master. “Haul, men! Have you no more
strength than rats? Haul, and earn your salt.” Mr. Creigh-ton, on his
back, with a swollen leg and a face as white as a piece of paper,
blinked his eyes; his bluish lips twitched. In the wild scramble men
grabbed at him, crawled over his hurt leg, knelt on his chest. He kept
perfectly still, setting his teeth without a moan, without a sigh. The
master's ardour, the cries of that silent man inspired us. We hauled
and hung in bunches on the rope. We heard him say with violence to
Donkin, who sprawled abjectly on his stomach,—“I will brain you with
this belaying pin if you don't catch hold of the brace,” and that
victim of men's injustice, cowardly and cheeky, whimpered:—“Are you
goin' to murder us now?” while with sudden desperation he gripped the
rope. Men sighed, shouted, hissed meaningless words, groaned. The yards
moved, came slowly square against the wind, that hummed loudly on the
yard-arms.—“Going off, sir,” shouted Singleton, “she's just
started.”—“Catch a turn with that brace. Catch a turn!” clamoured the
master. Mr. Creighton, nearly suffocated and unable to move, made a
mighty effort, and with his left hand managed to nip the rope.
—“All fast!” cried some one. He closed his eyes as if going off
into a swoon, while huddled together about the brace we watched with
scared looks what the ship would do now.
She went off slowly as though she had been weary and disheartened
like the men she carried. She paid off very gradually, making us hold
our breath till we choked, and as soon as she had brought the wind
abaft the beam she started to move, and fluttered our hearts. It was
awful to see her, nearly overturned, begin to gather way and drag her
submerged side through the water. The dead-eyes of the rigging churned
the breaking seas. The lower half of the deck was full of mad
whirlpools and eddies; and the long line of the lee rail could be seen
showing black now and then in the swirls of a field of foam as dazzling
and white as a field of snow. The wind sang shrilly amongst the spars;
and at every slight lurch we expected her to slip to the bottom
sideways from under our backs. When dead before it she made the first
distinct attempt to stand up, and we encouraged her with a feeble and
discordant howl. A great sea came running up aft and hung for a moment
over us with a curling top; then crashed down under the counter and
spread out on both sides into a great sheet of bursting froth. Above
its fierce hiss we heard Singleton's croak:—“She is steering!” He had
both his feet now planted firmly on the grating, and the wheel spun
fast as he eased the helm.—“Bring the wind on the port quarter and
steady her!” called out the master, staggering to his feet, the first
man up from amongst our prostrate heap. One or two screamed with
excitement:—“She rises!” Far away forward, Mr. Baker and three others
were seen erect and black on the clear sky, lifting their arms, and
with open mouths as though they had been shouting all together. The
ship trembled, trying to lift her side, lurched back, seemed to give up
with a nerveless dip, and suddenly with an unexpected jerk swung
violently to windward, as though she had torn herself out from a deadly
grasp. The whole immense volume of water, lifted by her deck, was
thrown bodily across to starboard. Loud cracks were heard. Iron ports
breaking open thundered with ringing blows. The water topped over the
starboard rail with the rush of a river falling over a dam. The sea on
deck, and the seas on every side of her, mingled together in a
deafening roar. She rolled violently. We got up and were helplessly run
or flung about from side to side. Men, rolling over and over,
yelled,—“The house will go!”—“She clears herself!” Lifted by a
towering sea she ran along with it for a moment, spouting thick streams
of water through every opening of her wounded sides. The lee braces
having been carried away or washed off the pins, all the ponderous
yards on the fore swung from side to side and with appalling rapidity
at every roll. The men forward were seen crouching here and there with
fearful glances upwards at the enormous spars that whirled about over
their heads. The torn canvas and the ends of broken gear streamed in
the wind like wisps of hair. Through the clear sunshine, over the
flashing turmoil and uproar of the seas, the ship ran blindly,
dishevelled and headlong, as if fleeing for her life; and on the poop
we spun, we tottered about, distracted and noisy. We all spoke at once
in a thin babble; we had the aspect of invalids and the gestures of
maniacs. Eyes shone, large and haggard, in smiling, meagre faces that
seemed to have been dusted over with powdered chalk. We stamped,
clapped our hands, feeling ready to jump and do anything; but in
reality hardly able to keep on our feet.
Captain Allistoun, hard and slim, gesticulated madly from the poop
at Mr. Baker: “Steady these fore-yards! Steady them the best you can!”
On the main deck, men excited by his cries, splashed, dashing
aimlessly, here and there with the foam swirling up to their waists.
Apart, far aft, and alone by the helm, old Singleton had deliberately
tucked his white beard under the top button of his glistening coat.
Swaying upon the din and tumult of the seas, with the whole battered
length of the ship launched forward in a rolling rush before his steady
old eyes, he stood rigidly still, forgotten by all, and with an
attentive face. In front of his erect figure only the two arms moved
crosswise with a swift and sudden readiness, to check or urge again the
rapid stir of circling spokes. He steered with care.
On men reprieved by its disdainful mercy, the immortal sea confers
in its justice the full privilege of desired unrest. Through the
perfect wisdom of its grace they are not permitted to meditate at ease
upon the complicated and acrid savour of existence. They must without
pause justify their life to the eternal pity that commands toil to be
hard and unceasing, from sunrise to sunset, from sunset to sunrise;
till the weary succession of nights and days tainted by the obstinate
clamour of sages, demanding bliss and an empty heaven, is redeemed at
last by the vast silence of pain and labour, by the dumb fear and the
dumb courage of men obscure, forgetful, and enduring.
The master and Mr. Baker coming face to face stared for a moment,
with the intense and amazed looks of men meeting unexpectedly after
years of trouble. Their voices were gone, and they whispered
desperately at one another.—“Any one missing?” asked Captain
Allistoun.—“No. All there.”—“Anybody hurt?”—“Only the second
mate.”—“I will look after him directly. We're lucky.”—“Very,”
articulated Mr. Baker, faintly. He gripped the rail and rolled
bloodshot eyes. The little grey man made an effort to raise his voice
above a dull mutter, and fixed his chief mate with a cold gaze,
piercing like a dart.—“Get sail on the ship,” he said, speaking
authoritatively and with an inflexible snap of his thin lips. “Get sail
on her as soon as you can. This is a fair wind. At once, sir—Don't
give the men time to feel themselves. They will get done up and stiff,
and we will never... We must get her along now”... He reeled to a long
heavy roll; the rail dipped into the glancing, hissing water. He caught
a shroud, swung helplessly against the mate... “now we have a fair wind
at last———Make———sail.” His head rolled from shoulder to
shoulder. His eyelids began to beat rapidly. “And the pumps———pumps,
Mr. Baker.” He peered as though the face within a foot of his eyes had
been half a mile off. “Keep the men on the move to———to get her
along,” he mumbled in a drowsy tone, like a man going off into a doze.
He pulled himself together suddenly. “Mustn't stand. Won't do,” he said
with a painful attempt at a smile. He let go his hold, and, propelled
by the dip of the ship, ran aft unwillingly, with small steps, till he
brought up against the binnacle stand. Hanging on there he looked up in
an aimless manner at Singleton, who, unheeding him, watched anxiously
the end of the jib-boom—“Steering gear works all right?” he asked.
There was a noise in the old seaman's throat, as though the words had
been rattling together before they could come out.—“Steers... like a
little boat,” he said, at last, with hoarse tenderness, without giving
the master as much as half a glance—then, watchfully, spun the wheel
down, steadied, flung it back again. Captain Allistoun tore himself
away from the delight of leaning against the binnacle, and began to
walk the poop, swaying and reeling to preserve his balance....
The pump-rods, clanking, stamped in short jumps while the fly-wheels
turned smoothly, with great speed, at the foot of the mainmast,
flinging back and forth with a regular impetuosity two limp clusters of
men clinging to the handles. They abandoned themselves, swaying from
the hip with twitching faces and stony eyes. The carpenter, sounding
from time to time, exclaimed mechanically: “Shake her up! Keep her
going!” Mr. Baker could not speak, but found his voice to shout; and
under the goad of his objurgations, men looked to the lashings, dragged
out new sails; and thinking themselves unable to move, carried heavy
blocks aloft—overhauled the gear. They went up the rigging with
faltering and desperate efforts. Their heads swam as they shifted their
hold, stepped blindly on the yards like men in the dark; or trusted
themselves to the first rope at hand with the negligence of exhausted
strength. The narrow escapes from falls did not disturb the languid
beat of their hearts; the roar of the seas seething far below them
sounded continuous and faint like an indistinct noise from another
world: the wind filled their eyes with tears, and with heavy gusts
tried to push them off from where they swayed in insecure positions.
With streaming faces and blowing hair they flew up and down between sky
and water, bestriding the ends of yard-arms, crouching on foot-ropes,
embracing lifts to have their hands free, or standing up against chain
ties. Their thoughts floated vaguely between the desire of rest and the
desire of life, while their stiffened fingers cast off head-earrings,
fumbled for knives, or held with tenacious grip against the violent
shocks of beating canvas. They glared savagely at one another, made
frantic signs with one hand while they held their life in the other,
looked down on the narrow strip of flooded deck, shouted along to
leeward: “Light-to!”... “Haul out!”... “Make fast!” Their lips moved,
their eyes started, furious and eager with the desire to be understood,
but the wind tossed their words unheard upon the disturbed sea. In an
unendurable and unending strain they worked like men driven by a
merciless dream to toil in an atmosphere of ice or flame. They burnt
and shivered in turns. Their eyeballs smarted as if in the smoke of a
conflagration; their heads were ready to' burst with every shout. Hard
fingers seemed to grip their throats. At every roll they thought: Now I
must let go. It will shake us all off—and thrown about aloft they
cried wildly: “Look out there—catch the end.”... “Reeve clear”...
“Turn this block....” They nodded desperately; shook infuriated faces,
“No! No! From down up.” They seemed to hate one another with a deadly
hate, The longing to be done with it all gnawed their breasts, and the
wish to do things well was a burning pain. They cursed their fate,
contemned their life, and wasted their breath in deadly imprecations
upon one another.' The sailmaker, with his bald head bared, worked
feverishly, forgetting his intimacy with so many admirals. The
boatswain, climbing up with marlinspikes and bunches of spunyarn
rovings, or kneeling on the yard and ready to take a turn with the
midship-stop, had acute and fleeting visions of his old woman and the
youngsters in a moorland village. Mr. Baker, feeling very weak,
tottered here and there, grunting and inflexible, like a man of iron.
He waylaid those who, coming from aloft, stood gasping for breath. He
ordered, encouraged, scolded. “Now then—to the main topsail now! Tally
on to that gantline. Don't stand about there!”—“Is there no rest for
us?” muttered voices. He spun round fiercely, with a sinking
heart.—“No! No rest till the work is done. Work till you drop. That's
what you're here for.” A bowed seaman at his elbow gave a short
laugh.—“Do or die,” he croaked bitterly, then spat into his broad
palms, swung up his long arms, and grasping the rope high above his
head sent out a mournful, wailing cry for a pull all together. A sea
boarded the quarter-deck and sent the whole lot sprawling to leeward.
Caps, handspikes floated. Clenched hands, kicking legs, with here and
there a spluttering face, stuck out of the white hiss of foaming water.
Mr. Baker, knocked down with the rest, screamed—“Don't let go that
rope! Hold on to it! Hold!” And sorely bruised by the brutal fling,
they held on to it, as though it had been the fortune of their life.
The ship ran, rolling heavily, and the topping crests glanced past port
and starboard flashing their white heads. Pumps were freed. Braces were
rove. The three topsails and foresail were set. She spurted faster over
the water, outpacing the swift rush of waves. The menacing thunder of
distanced seas rose behind her—filled the air with the tremendous
vibrations of its voice. And devastated, battered, and wounded she
drove foaming to the northward, as though inspired by the courage of a
high endeavour....
The forecastle was a place of damp desolation. They looked at their
dwelling with dismay. It was slimy, dripping; it hummed hollow with the
wind, and was strewn with shapeless wreckage like a half-tide cavern in
a rocky and exposed coast. Many had lost all they had in the world, but
most of the starboard watch had preserved their chests; thin streams of
water trickled out of them, however. The beds were soaked; the blankets
spread out and saved by some nail squashed under foot. They dragged wet
rags from evil-smelling corners, and wringing the water out, recognised
their property. Some smiled stiffly. Others looked round blank and
mute. There were cries of joy over old waistcoats, and groans of sorrow
over shapeless things found among the splinters of smashed bed boards.
One lamp was discovered jammed under the bowsprit. Charley whimpered a
little. Knowles stumped here and there, sniffing, examining dark places
for salvage. He poured dirty water out of a boot, and was concerned to
find the owner. Those who, overwhelmed by their losses, sat on the
forepeak hatch, remained elbows on knees, and, with a fist against each
cheek, disdained to look up. He pushed it under their noses. “Here's a
good boot. Yours?” They snarled, “No—get out.” One snapped at him,
“Take it to hell out of this.” He seemed surprised. “Why? It's a good
boot,” but remembering suddenly that he had lost every stitch of his
clothing, he dropped his find and began to swear. In the dim light
cursing voices clashed. A man came in and, dropping his arms, stood
still, repeating from the doorstep, “Here's a bloomin' old go! Here's a
bloomin' old go!” A few rooted anxiously in flooded chests for tobacco.
They breathed hard, clamoured with heads down. “Look at that Jack!”...
“Here! Sam! Here's my shore-going rig spoilt for ever.” One blasphemed
tearfully, holding up a pair of dripping trousers. No one looked at
him. The cat came out from somewhere. He had an ovation. They snatched
him from hand to hand, caressed him in a murmur of pet names. They
wondered where he had “weathered it out;” disputed about it. A
squabbling argument began. Two men brought in a bucket of fresh water,
and all crowded round it; but Tom, lean and mewing, came up with every
hair astir and had the first drink. A couple of hands went aft for oil
and biscuits.
Then in the yellow light and in the intervals of mopping the deck
they crunched hard bread, arranging to “worry through somehow.” Men
chummed as to beds. Turns were settled for wearing boots and having the
use of oilskin coats. They called one another “old man” and “sonny” in
cheery voices. Friendly slaps resounded. Jokes were shouted. One or two
stretched on the wet deck, slept with heads pillowed on their bent
arms, and several, sitting on the hatch, smoked. Their weary faces
appeared through a thin blue haze, pacified and with sparkling eyes.
The boatswain put his head through the door. “Relieve the wheel, one of
you”—he shouted inside—“it's six. Blamme if that old Singleton hasn't
been there more'n thirty hours. You are a fine lot.” He slammed the
door again. “Mate's watch on deck,” said some one. “Hey, Donkin, it's
your relief!” shouted three or four together. He had crawled into an
empty bunk and on wet planks lay still. “Donkin, your wheel.” He made
no sound. “Donkin's dead,” guffawed some one, “Sell 'is bloomin'
clothes,” shouted another. “Donkin, if ye don't go to the bloomin'
wheel they will sell your clothes—d'ye hear?” jeered a third. He
groaned from his dark hole. He complained about pains in all his bones,
he whimpered pitifully. “He won't go,” exclaimed a contemptuous voice,
“your turn, Davis.” The young seaman rose painfully, squaring his
shoulders. Donkin stuck his head out, and it appeared in the yellow
light, fragile and ghastly. “I will giv' yer a pound of tobaccer,” he
whined in a conciliating voice, “so soon as I draw it from aft. I
will—s'elp me...” Davis swung his arm backhanded and the head
vanished. “I'll go,” he said, “but you will pay for it.” He walked
unsteady but resolute to the door. “So I will,” yelped Donkin, popping
out behind him. “So I will—s'elp me... a pound... three bob they
chawrge.” Davis flung the door open. “You will pay my price... in fine
weather,” he shouted over his shoulder. One of the men unbuttoned his
wet coat rapidly, threw it at his head. “Here, Taffy—take that, you
thief!” “Thank you!” he cried from the darkness above the swish of
rolling water. He could be heard splashing; a sea carme on board with a
thump. “He's got his bath already,” remarked a grim shellback. “Aye,
aye!” grunted others. Then, after a long silence, Wamibo made strange
noises. “Hallo, what's up with you?” said some one grumpily. “He says
he would have gone for Davy,” explained Archie, who was the Finn's
interpreter generally. “I believe him!” cried voices.... “Never mind,
Dutchy... You'll do, muddle-head.... Your turn will come soon enough...
You don't know when ye're well off.” They ceased, and all together
turned their faces to the door. Singleton stepped in, advanced two
paces, and stood swaying slightly. The sea hissed, flowed roaring past
the bows, and the forecastle trembled, full of deep murmurs; the lamp
flared, swinging like a pendulum. He looked with a dreamy and puzzled
stare, as though he could not distinguish the still men from their
restless shadows. There were awestruck exclamations:—“Hallo, hallo”...
“How does it look outside now, Singleton?” Those who sat on the hatch
lifted their eyes in silence, and the next oldest seaman in the ship
(those two understood one another, though they hardly exchanged three
words in a day) gazed up at his friend attentively for a moment, then
taking a short clay pipe out of his mouth, offered it without a word.
Singleton put out his arm towards it, missed, staggered, and suddenly
fell forward, crashing down, stiff and headlong like an uprooted tree.
There was a swift rush. Men pushed, crying:—“He's done!”... “Turn him
over!”... “Stand clear there!” Under a crowd of startled faces bending
over him he lay on his back, staring upwards in a continuous and
intolerable manner. In the breathless silence of a general
consternation, he said in a grating murmur:—“I am all right,” and
clutched with his hands. They helped him up. He mumbled
despondently:—“I am getting old... old.”—“Not you,” cried Belfast,
with ready tact. Supported on all sides, he hung his head.—“Are you
better?” they asked. He glared at them from under his eyebrows with
large black eyes, spreading over his chest the bushy whiteness of a
beard long and thick.—“Old! old!” he repeated sternly. Helped along,
he reached his bunk. There was in it a slimy soft heap of something
that smelt, as does at dead low water a muddy foreshore. It was his
soaked straw bed. With a convulsive effort he pitched himself on it,
and in the darkness of the narrow place could be heard growling
angrily, like an irritated and savage animal uneasy in its den:—“Bit
of breeze... small thing... can't stand up... old!” He slept at last,
high-booted, sou'wester on head, and his oilskin clothes rustled, when
with a deep sighing groan he turned over. Men conversed about him in
quiet, concerned whispers. “This will break'im up”... “Strong as a
horse”... “Aye. But he ain't what he used to be.” In sad murmurs they
gave him up. Yet at midnight he turned out to duty as if nothing had
been the matter, and answered to his name with a mournful “Here!” He
brooded alone more than ever, in an impenetrable silence and with a
saddened face. For many years he had heard himself called “Old
Singleton,” and had serenely accepted the qualification, taking it as a
tribute of respect due to a man who through half a century had measured
his strength against the favours and the rages of the sea. He had never
given a thought to his mortal self. He lived unscathed, as though he
had been indestructible, surrendering to all the temptations,
weathering many gales. He had panted in sunshine, shivered in the cold;
suffered hunger, thirst, debauch; passed through many trials—known all
the furies. Old! It seemed to him he was broken at last. And like a man
bound treacherously while he sleeps, he woke up fettered by the long
chain of disregarded years. He had to take up at once the burden of all
his existence, and found it almost too heavy for his strength. Old! He
moved his arms, shook his head, felt his limbs. Getting old... and
then? He looked upon the immortal sea with the awakened and groping
perception of its heartless might; he saw it unchanged, black and
foaming under the eternal scrutiny of the stars; he heard its impatient
voice calling for him out of a pitiless vastness full of unrest, of
turmoil, and of terror. He looked afar upon it, and he saw an immensity
tormented and blind, moaning and furious, that claimed all the days of
his tenacious life, and, when life was over, would claim the worn-out
body of its slave....
This was the last of the breeze. It veered quickly, changed to a
black south-easter, and blew itself out, giving the ship a famous shove
to the northward into the joyous sunshine of the trade. Rapid and white
she ran homewards in a straight path, under a blue sky and upon the
plain of a blue sea. She carried Singleton's completed wisdom, Donkin's
delicate susceptibilities, and the conceited folly of us all. The hours
of ineffective turmoil were forgotten; the fear and anguish of these
dark moments were never mentioned in the glowing peace of fine days.
Yet from that time our life seemed to start afresh as though we had
died and had been resuscitated. All the first part of the voyage, the
Indian Ocean on the other side of the Cape, all that was lost in a
haze, like an ineradicable suspicion of some previous existence. It had
ended—then there were blank hours: a livid blurr—and again we lived!
Singleton was possessed of sinister truth; Mr. Creighton of a damaged
leg; the cook of fame—and shamefully abused the opportunities of his
distinction. Donkin had an added grievance. He went about repeating
with insistence:—“'E said 'e would brain me—did yer 'ear? They are
goin' to murder us now for the least little thing.” We began at last to
think it was rather awful. And we were conceited! We boasted of our
pluck, of our capacity for work, of our energy. We remembered
honourable episodes: our devotion, our indomitable perseverance—and
were proud of them as though they had been the outcome of our unaided
impulses. We remembered our danger, our toil—and conveniently forgot
our horrible scare. We decried our officers—who had done nothing—and
listened to the fascinating Donkin. His care for our rights, his
disinterested concern for our dignity, were not discouraged by the
invariable contumely of our words, by the disdain of our looks. Our
contempt for him was unbounded—and we could not but listen with
interest to that consummate artist. He told us we were good men—a
“bloomin' condemned lot of good men.” Who thanked us? Who took any
notice of our wrongs? Didn't we lead a “dorg's loife for two poun' ten
a month?” Did we think that miserable pay enough to compensate us for
the risk to our lives and for the loss of our clothes? “We've lost
every rag!” he cried. He made us forget that he, at any rate, had lost
nothing of his own. The younger men listened, thinking—this 'ere
Donkin's a long-headed chap, though no kind of man, anyhow. The
Scandinavians were frightened at his audacities; Wamibo did not
understand; and the older seamen thoughtfully nodded their heads making
the thin gold earrings glitter in the fleshy lobes of hairy ears.
Severe, sunburnt faces were propped meditatively on tattooed forearms.
Veined, brown fists held in their knotted grip the dirty white clay of
smouldering pipes. They listened, impenetrable, broad-backed, with bent
shoulders, and in grim silence. He talked with ardour, despised and
irrefutable. His picturesque and filthy loquacity flowed like a
troubled stream from a poisoned source. His beady little eyes danced,
glancing right and left, ever on the watch for the approach of an
officer. Sometimes Mr. Baker going forward to take a look at the head
sheets would roll with his uncouth gait through the sudden stillness of
the men; or Mr. Creighton limped along, smooth-faced, youthful, and
more stern than ever, piercing our short silence with a keen glance of
his clear eyes. Behind his back Donkin would begin again darting
stealthy, sidelong looks.—“'Ere's one of 'em. Some of yer 'as made 'im
fast that day. Much thanks yer got for it. Ain't 'ee a-drivin' yer
wusse'n ever?... Let 'im slip overboard.... Vy not? It would 'ave been
less trouble. Vy not?” He advanced confidentially, backed away with
great effect; he whispered, he screamed, waved his miserable arms no
thicker than pipe-stems—stretched his lean neck—spluttered squinted.
In the pauses of his impassioned orations the wind sighed quietly
aloft, the calm sea unheeded murmured in a warning whisper along the
ship's side. We abominated the creature and could not deny the luminous
truth of his contentions. It was all so obvious. We were indubitably
good men; our deserts were great and our pay small. Through our
exertions we had saved the ship and the skipper would get the credit of
it. What had he done? we wanted to know. Donkin asked:—“What 'ee could
do without hus?” and we could not answer. We were oppressed by the
injustice of the world, surprised to perceive how long we had lived
under its burden without realising our unfortunate state, annoyed by
the uneasy suspicion of our undiscerning stupidity. Donkin assured us
it was all our “good 'eartedness,” but we would not be consoled by such
shallow sophistry. We were men enough to courageously admit to
ourselves our intellectual shortcomings; though from that time we
refrained from kicking him, tweaking his nose, or from accidentally
knocking him about, which last, after we had weathered the Cape, had
been rather a popular amusement. Davis ceased to talk at him
provokingly about black eyes and flattened noses. Charley, much subdued
since the gale, did not jeer at him. Knowles deferentially and with a
crafty air propounded questions such as:—“Could we all have the same
grub as the mates? Could we all stop ashore till we got it? What would
be the next thing to try for if we got that?” He answered readily with
contemptuous certitude; he strutted with assurance in clothes that were
much too big for him as though he had tried to disguise himself. These
were Jimmy's clothes mostly—though he would accept anything from
anybody; but nobody, except Jimmy, had anything to spare. His devotion
to Jimmy was unbounded. He was for ever dodging in the little cabin,
ministering to Jimmy's wants, humouring his whims, submitting to his
exacting peevishness, often laughing with him. Nothing could keep him
away from the pious work of visiting the sick, especially when there
was some heavy hauling to be done on deck. Mr. Baker had on two
occasions jerked him out from there by the scruff of the neck to our
inexpressible scandal. Was a sick chap to be left without attendance?
Were we to be ill-used for attending a shipmate?—“What?” growled Mr.
Baker, turning menacingly at the mutter, and the whole half-circle like
one man stepped back a pace. “Set the topmast stunsail. Away aloft,
Donkin, overhaul the gear,” ordered the mate inflexibly. “Fetch the
sail along; bend the down-haul clear. Bear a hand.” Then, the sail set,
he would go slowly aft and stand looking at the compass for a long
time, careworn, pensive, and breathing hard as if stifled by the taint
of unaccountable ill-will that pervaded the ship. “What's up amongst
them?” he thought. “Can't make out this hanging back and growling. A
good crowd, too, as they go nowadays.” On deck the men exchanged bitter
words, suggested by a silly exasperation against something unjust and
irremediable that would not be denied, and would whisper into their
ears long after Donkin had ceased speaking. Our little world went on
its curved and unswerving path carrying a discontented and aspiring
population. They found comfort of a gloomy kind in an interminable and
conscientious analysis of their unappreciated worth; and inspired by
Donkin's hopeful doctrines they dreamed enthusiastically of the time
when every lonely ship would travel over a serene sea, manned by a
wealthy and well-fed crew of satisfied skippers.
It looked-as if it would be a long passage. The south-east trades,
light and unsteady, were left behind; and then, on the equator and
under a low grey sky, the ship, in close heat, floated upon a smooth
sea that resembled a sheet of ground glass. Thunder squalls hung on the
horizon, circled round the ship, far off and growling angrily, like a
troop of wild beasts afraid to charge home. The invisible sun, sweeping
above the upright masts, made on the clouds a blurred stain of rayless
light, and a similar patch of faded radiance kept pace with it from
east to west over the unglittering level of the waters. At night,
through the impenetrable darkness of earth and, heaven, broad sheets of
flame waved noiselessly; and for half a second the becalmed craft stood
out with its masts and rigging, with every sail and every rope distinct
and black in the centre of a fiery outburst, like a charred ship
enclosed in a globe of fire. And, again, for long hours she remained
lost in a vast universe of night and silence where gentle sighs
wandering here and there like forlorn souls, made the still sails
flutter as in sudden fear, and the ripple of a beshrouded ocean whisper
its compassion afar—in a voice mournful, immense, and faint....
When the lamp was put out, and through the door thrown wide open,
Jimmy, turning on his pillow, could see vanishing beyond the straight
line of top-gallant rail, the quick, repeated visions of a fabulous
world made up of leaping fire and sleeping water. The lightning gleamed
in his big sad eyes that seemed in a red flicker to burn themselves out
in his black face, and then he would lie blinded and invisible in the
midst of an intense darkness. He could hear on the quiet deck soft
footfalls, the breathing of some man lounging on the doorstep; the low
creak of swaying masts; or the calm voice of the watch-officer
reverberating aloft, hard and loud, amongst the unstirring sails. He
listened with avidity, taking a rest in the attentive perception of the
slightest sound from the fatiguing wanderings of his sleeplessness. He
was cheered by the rattling of blocks, reassured by the stir and murmur
of the watch, soothed by the slow yawn of some sleepy and weary seaman
settling himself deliberately for a snooze on the planks. Life seemed
an indestructible thing. It went on in darkness, in sunshine, in sleep;
tireless, it hovered affectionately round the imposture of his ready
death. It was bright, like the twisted flare of lightning, and more
full of surprises than the dark night. It made him safe, and the calm
of its overpowering darkness was as precious as its restless and
dangerous light.
But in the evening, in the dog-watches, and even far into the first
night-watch, a knot of men could always be seen congregated before
Jimmy's cabin. They leaned on each side of the door peacefully
interested and with crossed legs; they stood astride the doorstep
discoursing, or sat in silent couples on his sea-chest; while against
the bulwark along the spare topmast, three or four in a row stared
meditatively; with their simple faces lit up by the projected glare of
Jimmy's lamp. The little place, repainted white, had, in the night, the
brilliance of a silver shrine where a black idol, reclining stiffly
under a blanket, blinked its weary eyes and received our homage. Donkin
officiated. He had the air of a demonstrator showing a phenomenon, a
manifestation bizarre, simple, and meritorious that, to the beholders,
should be a profound and an everlasting lesson. “Just look at 'im, 'ee
knows what's what—never fear!” he exclaimed now and then, flourishing
a hand hard and fleshless like the claw of a snipe. Jimmy, on his back,
smiled with reserve and without moving a limb. He affected the languor
of extreme weakness, so as to make it manifest to us that our delay in
hauling him out from his horrible confinement, and then that night
spent on the poop among our selfish neglect of his needs, had “done for
him.” He rather liked to talk about it, and of course we were always
interested. He spoke spasmodically, in fast rushes with long pauses
between, as a tipsy man walks.... “Cook had just given me a pannikin of
hot coffee.... Slapped it down there, on my chest—banged the door
to.... I felt a heavy roll coming; tried to save my coffee, burnt my
fingers... and fell out of my bunk.... She went over so quick.... Water
came in through the ventilator.... I couldn't move the door... dark as
a grave... tried to scramble up into the upper berth.... Rats... a rat
bit my finger as I got up.... I could hear him swimming below me.... I
thought you would never come... I thought you were all gone
overboard... of course... Could hear nothing but the wind.... Then you
came... to look for the corpse, I suppose. A little more and...”
“Man! But ye made a rare lot of noise in here,” observed Archie,
thoughtfully.
“You chaps kicked up such a confounded row above.... Enough to scare
any one.... I didn't know what you were up to.... Bash in the blamed
planks... my head.... Just what a silly, scary gang of fools would
do.... Not much good to me anyhow.... Just as well... drown.... Pah.”
He groaned, snapped his big white teeth, and gazed with scorn.
Belfast lifted a pair of dolorous eyes, with a broken-hearted smile,
clenched his fists stealthily; blue-eyed Archie caressed his red
whiskers with a hesitating hand; the boatswain at the door stared a
moment, and brusquely went away with a loud guffaw. Wamibo dreamed....
Donkin felt all over his sterile chin for the few rare hairs, and said,
triumphantly, with a sidelong glance at Jimmy:—“Look at 'im! Wish I
was 'arf has 'ealthy as 'ee is—I do.” He jerked a short thumb over his
shoulder towards the after end of the ship. “That's the blooming way to
do 'em!” he yelped, with forced heartiness. Jimmy said:—“Don't be a
dam' fool,” in a pleasant voice. Knowles, rubbing his shoulder against
the doorpost, remarked shrewdly:—“We can't all go an' be took sick—it
would be mutiny.”—“Mutiny—gawn!” jeered Donkin, “there's no bloomin'
law against bein' sick.”—“There's six weeks' hard for refoosing
dooty,” argued Knowles, “I mind I once seed in Cardiff the crew of an
overloaded ship—leastways she weren't overloaded, only a fatherly old
gentleman with a white beard and an umbreller came along the quay and
talked to the hands. Said as how it was crool hard to be drownded in
winter just for the sake of a few pounds more for the owner—he said.
Nearly cried over them—he did; and he had a square mainsail coat, and
a gaff-topsail hat too—all proper. So they chaps they said they
wouldn't go to be drownded in winter—depending upon that 'ere Plimsoll
man to see 'em through the court. They thought to have a bloomin' lark
and two or three days' spree. And the beak giv' 'em six weeks—coss the
ship warn't overloaded. Anyways they made it out in court that she
wasn't. There wasn't one overloaded ship in Penarth Dock at all. 'Pears
that old coon he was only on pay and allowance from some kind people,
under orders to look for overloaded ships, and he couldn't see no
further than the length of his umbreller. Some of us in the
boarding-house, where I live when I'm looking for a ship in Cardiff,
stood by to duck that old weeping spunger in the dock. We kept a good
look-out, too—but he topped his boom directly he was outside the
court.... Yes. They got six weeks' hard....”
They listened, full of curiosity, nodding in the pauses their rough
pensive faces. Donkin opened his mouth once or twice, but restrained
himself. Jimmy lay still with open eyes and not at all interested. A
seaman emitted the opinion that after a verdict of atrocious partiality
“the bloomin' beaks go an' drink at the skipper's expense.” Others
assented. It was clear, of course. Donkin said:—“Well, six weeks ain't
much trouble. You sleep all night in, reg'lar, in chokey. Do it on my
'ead.” “You are used to it ainch'ee, Donkin?” asked somebody. Jimmy
condescended to laugh. It cheered up every one wonderfully. Knowles,
with surprising mental agility, shifted his ground. “If we all went
sick what would become of the ship? eh?” He posed the problem and
grinned all round.—“Let 'er go to 'ell,” sneered Donkin. “Damn 'er.
She ain't yourn.”—“What? Just let her drift?” insisted Knowles in a
tone of unbelief.—“Aye! Drift, an' be blowed,” affirmed Donkin with
fine recklessness. The other did not see it—meditated.—“The stores
would run out,” he muttered, “and... never get anywhere... and what
about payday?” he added with greater assurance.—“Jack likes a good
pay-day,” exclaimed a listener on the doorstep. “Aye, because then the
girls put one arm round his neck an' t'other in his pocket, and call
him ducky. Don't they, Jack?”—“Jack, you're a terror with the
gals.”—“He takes three of 'em in tow to once, like one of 'em
Watkinses two-funnel tugs waddling away with three schooners
behind.”—“Jack, you're a lame scamp.”—“Jack, tell us about that one
with a blue eye and a black eye. Do.”—“There's plenty of girls with
one black eye along the Highway by...”
—“No, that's a speshul one—come, Jack.” Donkin looked severe and
disgusted; Jimmy very bored; a grey-haired sea-dog shook his head
slightly, smiling at the bowl of his pipe, discreetly amused. Knowles
turned about bewildered; stammered first at one, then at
another.—“No!... I never!... can't talk sensible sense midst you....
Always on the kid.” He retired bashfully—muttering and pleased. They
laughed, hooting in the crude light, around Jimmy's bed, where on a
white pillow his hollowed black face moved to and fro restlessly. A
puff of wind came, made the flame of the lamp leap, and outside, high
up, the sails fluttered, while near by the block of the foresheet
struck a ringing blow on the iron bulwark. A voice far off cried, “Helm
up!” another, more faint, answered, “Hard-up, sir!” They became
silent—waited expectantly. The grey-haired seaman knocked his pipe on
the doorstep and stood up.' The ship leaned over gently and the sea
seemed to wake up, murmuring drowsily. “Here's a little wind comin',”
said some one very low. Jimmy turned over slowly to face the breeze.
The voice in the night cried loud and commanding:—“Haul the spanker
out.” The group before the door vanished out of the light. They could
be heard tramping aft while they repeated with varied
intonations:—“Spanker out!”... “Out spanker, sir!” Donkin remained
alone with Jimmy. There was a silence. Jimmy opened and shut his lips
several times as if swallowing draughts of fresher air; Donkin moved
the toes of his bare feet and looked at them thoughtfully.
“Ain't you going to give them a hand with the sail?” asked Jimmy.
“No. If six ov 'em ain't 'nough beef to set that blamed, rotten
spanker, they ain't fit to live,” answered Donkin in a bored, far-away
voice, as though he had been talking from the bottom of a hole. Jimmy
considered the conical, fowl-like profile with a queer kind of
interest; he was leaning out of his bunk with the calculating,
uncertain expression of a man who reflects how best to lay hold of some
strange creature that looks as though it could sting or bite. But he
said only:—“The mate will miss you—and there will be ructions.”
Donkin got up to go. “I will do for 'im some dark night; see if I
don't,” he said over his shoulder.
Jimmy went on quickly:—“You're like a poll-parrot, like a
screechin' poll-parrot.” Donkin stopped and cocked his head attentively
on one side. His big ears stood out, transparent and veined, resembling
the thin wings of a bat.
“Yuss?” he said, with his back towards Jimmy.
“Yes! Chatter out all you know—like... like a dirty white
cockatoo.”
Donkin waited. He could hear the other's breathing, long and slow;
the breathing of a man with a hundredweight or so on the breastbone.
Then he asked calmly:—“What do I know?”
“What?... What I tell you... not much. What do you want... to talk
about my health so...”
“It's a blooming imposyshun. A bloomin', stinkin', first-class
imposyshun—but it don't tyke me in. Not it.”
Jimmy kept still. Donkin put his hands in his pockets, and in one
slouching stride came up to the bunk.
“I talk—what's the odds. They ain't men 'ere—sheep they are. A
driven lot of sheep. I 'old you up... Vy not? You're well orf.”
“I am... I don't say anything about that....”
“Well. Let 'em see it. Let 'em larn what a man can do. I am a man, I
know all about yer....” Jimmy threw himself further away on the pillow;
the other stretched out his skinny neck, jerked his bird face down at
him as though pecking at the eyes. “I am a man. I've seen the inside of
every chokey in the Colonies rather'n give up my rights....”
“You are a jail-prop,” said Jimmy, weakly.
“I am... an' proud of it, too. You! You 'aven't the bloomin'
nerve—so you inventyd this 'ere dodge....” He paused; then with marked
afterthought accentuated slowly:—“Yer ain't sick—are yer?”
“No,” said Jimmy, firmly. “Been out of sorts now and again this
year,” he mumbled with a sudden drop in his voice.
Donkin closed one eye, amicable and confidential. He whispered:—“Ye
'ave done this afore'aven'tchee?” Jimmy smiled—then as if unable to
hold back he let himself go:—“Last ship—yes. I was out of sorts on
the passage. See? It was easy. They paid me off in Calcutta, and the
skipper made no bones about it either.... I got my money all right.
Laid up fifty-eight days! The fools! O Lord! The fools! Paid right
off.” He laughed spasmodically. Donkin chimed in giggling. Then Jimmy
coughed violently. “I am as well as ever,” he said, as soon as he could
draw breath.
Donkin made a derisive gesture. “In course,” he said, profoundly,
“any one can see that.”—“They don't,” said Jimmy, gasping like a
fish.—“They would swallow any yarn,” affirmed Donkin.—“Don't you let
on too much,” admonished Jimmy in an exhausted voice.—“Your little
gyme? Eh?” commented Donkin, jovially. Then with sudden disgust: “Yer
all for yerself, s'long as ye're right...”
So charged with egoism James Wait pulled the blanket up to his chin
and lay still for a while. His heavy lips protruded in an everlasting
black pout. “Why are you so hot on making trouble?” he asked without
much interest.
“'Cos it's a bloomin' shayme. We are put upon... bad food, bad
pay... I want us to kick up a bloomin' row; a blamed 'owling row that
would make 'em remember! Knocking people about... brain us indeed!
Ain't we men?” His altruistic indignation blazed. Then he said
calmly:—“I've been airing yer clothes.”—“All right,” said Jimmy,
languidly, “bring them in.”—“Giv' us the key of your chest, I'll put
'em away for yer,” said Donkin with friendly eagerness.—“Bring 'em in,
I will put them away myself,” answered James Wait with severity. Donkin
looked down, muttering.... “What d'you say? What d'you say?” inquired
Wait anxiously.—“Nothink. The night's dry, let 'em 'ang out till the
morning,” said Donkin, in a strangely trembling voice, as though
restraining laughter or rage. Jimmy seemed satisfied.—“Give me a
little water for the night in my mug—there,” he said. Donkin took a
stride over the doorstep.—“Git it yerself,” he replied in a surly
tone. “You can do it, unless you
are sick.”—“Of course I can do
it,” said Wait, “only... “—“Well, then, do it,” said Donkin,
viciously, “if yer can look after yer clothes, yer can look after
yerself.” He went on deck without a look back.
Jimmy reached out for the mug. Not a drop. He put it back gently
with a faint sigh—and closed his eyes. He thought:—That lunatic
Belfast will bring me some water if I ask. Fool. I am very thirsty....
It was very hot in the cabin, and it seemed to turn slowly round,
detach itself from the ship, and swing out smoothly into a luminous,
arid space where a black sun shone, spinning very fast. A place without
any water! No water! A policeman with the face of Donkin drank a glass
of beer by the side of an empty well, and flew away flapping
vigorously. A ship whose mastheads protruded through the sky and could
not be seen, was discharging grain, and the wind whirled the dry husks
in spirals along the quay of a dock with no water in it. He whirled
along with the husks—very tired and light. All his inside was gone. He
felt lighter than the husks—and more dry. He expanded his hollow
chest. The air streamed in, carrying away in its rush a lot of strange
things that resembled houses, trees, people, lamp-posts.... No more!
There was no more air—and he had not finished drawing his long breath.
But he was in jail! They were locking him up. A door slammed. They
turned the key twice, flung a bucket of water over him—Phoo! What for?
He opened his eyes, thinking the fall had been very heavy for an
empty man—empty—empty. He was in his cabin. Ah! All right! His face
was streaming with perspiration, his arms heavier than lead. He saw the
cook standing in the doorway, a brass key in one hand and a bright tin
hook-pot in the other.
“I have locked up the galley for the night,” said the cook, beaming
benevolently. “Eight bells just gone. I brought you a pot of cold tea
for your night's drinking, Jimmy. I sweetened it with some white cabin
sugar, too. Well—it won't break the ship.”
He came in, hung the pot on the edge of the bunk, asked
perfunctorily, “How goes it?” and sat down on the box.—“H'm,” grunted
Wait, inhospitably. The cook wiped his face with a dirty cotton rag,
which, afterwards, he tied round his neck.—“That's how them firemen do
in steamboats,” he said, serenely, and much pleased with himself. “My
work is as heavy as theirs—I'm thinking—and longer hours. Did you
ever see them down the stokehold? Like fiends they
look—firing—firing—firing—down there.”
He pointed his forefinger at the deck. Some gloomy thought darkened
his shining face, fleeting, like the shadow of a travelling cloud over
the light of a peaceful sea. The relieved watch tramped noisily
forward, passing in a body across the sheen of the doorway. Some one
cried, “Good-night!” Belfast stopped for a moment and looked at Jimmy,
quivering and speechless with repressed emotion. He gave the cook a
glance charged with dismal foreboding, and vanished. The cook cleared
his throat. Jimmy stared upwards and kept as still as a man in hiding.
The night was clear, with a gentle breeze. Above the mastheads the
resplendent curve of the Milky Way spanned the sky like a triumphal
arch of eternal light, thrown over the dark pathway of the earth. On
the forecastle head a man whistled with loud precision a lively jig,
while another could be heard faintly, shuffling and stamping in time.
There came from forward a confused murmur of voices, laughter—snatches
of song. The cook shook his head, glanced obliquely at Jimmy, and began
to mutter. “Aye. Dance and sing. That's all they think of. I am
surprised that Providence don't get tired.... They forget the day
that's sure to come... but you....”
Jimmy drank a gulp of tea, hurriedly, as though he had stolen it,
and shrank under his blanket, edging away towards the bulkhead. The
cook got up, closed the door, then sat down again and said
distinctly:—
“Whenever I poke my galley fire I think of you chaps—swearing,
stealing, lying, and worse—as if there was no such thing as another
world.... Not bad fellows, either, in a way,” he conceded, slowly;
then, after a pause of regretful musing, he went on in a resigned
tone:—“Well, well. They will have a hot time of it. Hot! Did I say?
The furnaces of one of them White Star boats ain't nothing to it.”
He kept very quiet for a while. There was a great stir in his brain;
an addled vision of bright outlines; an exciting row of rousing songs
and groans of pain. He suffered, enjoyed, admired, approved. He was
delighted, frightened, exalted—as on that evening (the only time in
his life—twenty-seven years ago; he loved to recall the number of
years) when as a young man he had—through keeping bad company—become
intoxicated in an East-end music-hall. A tide of sudden feeling swept
him clean out of his body. He soared. He contemplated the secret of the
hereafter. It commended itself to him. It was excellent; he loved it,
himself, all hands, and Jimmy. His heart overflowed with tenderness,
with comprehension, with the desire to meddle, with anxiety for the
soul of that black man, with the pride of possessed eternity, with the
feeling of might. Snatch him up in his arms and pitch him right into
the middle of salvation... The black soul—blacker—body—rot—Devil.
No! Talk-strength—Samson.... There was a great din as of cymbals in
his ears; he flashed through an ecstatic jumble of shining faces,
lilies, prayer-books, unearthly joy, white skirts, gold harps, black
coats, wings. He saw flowing garments, clean shaved faces, a sea of
light—a lake of pitch. There were sweet scent, a smell of sulphur—red
tongues of flame licking a white mist. An awesome voice thundered!...
It lasted three seconds.
“Jimmy!” he cried in an inspired tone. Then he hesitated. A spark of
human pity glimmered yet through the infernal fog of his supreme
conceit.
“What?” said James Wait, unwillingly. There was a silence. He turned
his head just the least bit, and stole a cautious glance. The cook's
lips moved without a sound; his face was rapt, his eyes turned up. He
seemed to be mentally imploring deck beams, the brass hook of the lamp,
two cockroaches.
“Look here,” said Wait, “I want to go to sleep. I think I could.”
“This is no time for sleep!” exclaimed the cook, very loud. He had
prayerfully divested himself of the last vestige of his humanity. He
was a voice—a fleshless and sublime thing, as on that memorable
night—the night when he went walking over the sea to make coffee for
perishing sinners. “This is no time for sleeping,” he repeated with
exaltation. “I can't sleep.”
“Don't care damn,” said Wait, with factitious energy. “I can. Go an'
turn in.”
“Swear... in the very jaws!... In the very jaws! Don't you see the
everlasting fire... don't you feel it? Blind, chockfull of sin! Repent,
repent! I can't bear to think of you. I hear the call to save you.
Night and day. Jimmy, let me save you!” The words of entreaty and
menace broke out of him in a roaring torrent. The cockroaches ran away.
Jimmy perspired, wriggling stealthily under his blanket. The cook
yelled.... “Your days are numbered!... “—“Get out of this,” boomed
Wait, courageously.—“Pray with me!... “—“I won't!...” The little
cabin was as hot as an oven. It contained an immensity of fear and
pain; an atmosphere of shrieks and moans; prayers vociferated like
blasphemies and whispered curses. Outside, the men called by Charley,
who informed them in tones of delight that there was a holy row going
on in Jimmy's place, crowded before the closed door, too startled to
open it. All hands were there. The watch below had jumped out on deck
in their shirts, as after a collision. Men running up, asked:—“What is
it?” Others said:—“Listen!” The muffled screaming went on:—“On your
knees! On your knees!”—“Shut up!”—“Never! You are delivered into my
hands.... Your life has been saved.... Purpose.... Mercy....
Repent.”—“You are a crazy fool!...”—“Account of you... you... Never
sleep in this world, if I...”—“Leave off.”—“No!... stokehold... only
think!...” Then an impassioned screeching babble where words pattered
like hail.—“No!” shouted Wait.—“Yes. You are!... No help....
Everybody says so.”—“You lie!”—“I see you dying this minnyt... before
my eyes... as good as dead already.”—“Help!” shouted Jimmy,
piercingly.—“Not in this valley.... look upwards,” howled the
other.—“Go away! Murder! Help!” clamoured Jimmy. His voice broke.
There were moanings, low mutters, a few sobs.
“What's the matter now?” said a seldom-heard voice.—“Fall back,
men! Fall back, there!” repeated Mr. Creighton, sternly, pushing
through.—“Here's the old man,” whispered some.—“The cook's in there,
sir,” exclaimed several, backing away. The door clattered open; a broad
stream of light darted out on wondering faces; a warm whiff of vitiated
air passed. The two mates towered head and shoulders above the spare,
grey-haired man who stood revealed between them, in shabby clothes,
stiff and angular, like a small carved figure, and with a thin,
composed face. The cook got up from his knees. Jimmy sat high in the
bunk, clasping his drawn-up legs. The tassel of the blue night-cap
almost imperceptibly trembled over his knees. They gazed astonished at
his long, curved back, while the white corner of one eye gleamed
blindly at them. He was afraid to turn his head, he shrank within
himself; and there was an aspect astounding and animal-like in the
perfection of his expectant immobility. A thing of instinct—the
unthinking stillness of a scared brute. “What are you doing here?”
asked Mr. Baker, sharply.—“My duty,” said the cook, with
ardour.—“Your... what?” began the mate. Captain Allistoun touched his
arm lightly.—“I know his caper,” he said, in a low voice. “Come out of
that, Podmore,” he ordered, aloud.
The cook wrung his hands, shook his fists above his head, and his
arms dropped as if too heavy. For a moment he stood distracted and
speechless.—“Never,” he stammered, “I... he I.”—
“What—do—you—say?” pronounced Captain Allistoun. “Come out at
once—or...”—“I am going,” said the cook, with a hasty and sombre
resignation. He strode over the doorstep firmly—hesitated—made a few
steps. They looked at him in silence.—“I make you responsible!” he
cried, desperately, turning half round. “That man is dying. I make
you.. “—“You there yet?” called the master in a threatening
tone.—“No, sir,” he exclaimed, hurriedly, in a startled voice. The
boatswain led him away by the arm; some one laughed; Jimmy lifted his
head for a stealthy glance, and in one unexpected leap sprang out of
his bunk; Mr. Baker made a clever catch and felt him very limp in his
arms; the group at the door grunted with surprise.—“He lies,” gasped
Wait, “he talked about black devils—he is a devil—a white devil—I am
all right.” He stiffened himself, and Mr. Baker, experimentally, let
him go. He staggered a pace or two; Captain Allistoun watched him with
a quiet and penetrating gaze; Belfast ran to his support. He did not
appear to be aware of any one near him; he stood silent for a moment,
battling single-handed with a legion of nameless terrors, amidst the
eager looks of excited men who watched him far off, utterly alone in
the impenetrable solitude of his fear. The sea gurgled through the
scuppers as the ship heeled over to a short puff of wind.
“Keep him away from me,” said James Wait at last m his fine baritone
voice, and leaning with all his weight on Belfast's neck. “I've been
better this last week:... I am well... I was going back to duty...
to-morrow—now if you like—Captain.” Belfast hitched his shoulders to
keep him upright.
“No,” said the master, looking at him, fixedly. Under Jimmy's armpit
Belfast's red face moved uneasily. A row of eyes gleaming stared on the
edge of light. They pushed one another with elbows, turned their heads,
whispered. Wait let his chin fall on his breast and, with lowered
eyelids, looked round in a suspicious manner.
“Why not?” cried a voice from the shadows, “the man's all right,
sir.”
“I am all right,” said Wait, with eagerness. “Been sick... better...
turn-to now.” He sighed.—“Howly Mother!” exclaimed Belfast with a
heave of the shoulders, “stand up, Jimmy.”—“Keep away from me then,”
said Wait, giving Belfast a petulant push, and reeling fetched against
the doorpost. His cheekbones glistened as though they had been
varnished. He snatched off his night-cap, wiped his perspiring face
with it, flung it on the deck. “I am coming out,” he declared without
stirring.
“No. You don't,” said the master, curtly. Bare feet shuffled,
disapproving voices murmured all round; he went on as if he had not
heard:—“You have been skulking nearly all the passage and now you want
to come out. You think you are near enough to the pay-table now. Smell
the shore, hey?”
“I've been sick... now—better,” mumbled Wait, glaring in the
light.—“You have been shamming sick,” retorted Captain Allistoun with
severity; “Why...” he hesitated for less than half a second. “Why,
anybody can see that. There's nothing the matter with you, but you
choose to lie-up to please yourself—and now you shall lie-up to please
me. Mr. Baker, my orders are that this man is not to be allowed on deck
to the end of the passage.”
There were exclamations of surprise, triumph, indignation. The dark
group of men swung across the light. “What for?” “Told you so...”
“Bloomin' shame...”—“We've got to say somethink about that,” screeched
Donkin from the rear.—“Never mind, Jim—we will see you righted,”
cried several together. An elderly seaman stepped to the front. “D'ye
mean to say, sir,” he asked, ominously, “that a sick chap ain't allowed
to get well in this 'ere hooker?” Behind him Donkin whispered excitedly
amongst a staring crowd where no one spared him a glance, but Captain
AUistoun shook a forefinger at the angry bronzed face of the
speaker.—“You—you hold your tongue,” he said, warningly.—“This isn't
the way,” clamoured two or three younger men.—“Are we bloomin'
masheens?” inquired Donkin in a piercing tone, and dived under the
elbows of the front rank.—“Soon show 'im we ain't boys...”—“The man's
a man if he is black.”—“We ain't goin' to work this bloomin' ship
shorthanded if Snowball's all right...”—“He says he is.”—“Well then,
strike, boys, strike!”—“That's the bloomin' ticket.” Captain AUistoun
said sharply to the second mate: “Keep quiet, Mr. Creighton,” and stood
composed in the tumult, listening with profound attention to mixed
growls and screeches, to every exclamation and every curse of the
sudden outbreak. Somebody slammed the cabin door to with a kick; the
darkness full of menacing mutters leaped with a short clatter over the
streak of light, and the men became gesticulating shadows that growled,
hissed, laughed excitedly. Mr. Baker whispered:—“Get away from them,
sir.” The big shape of Mr. Creighton hovered silently about the slight
figure of the master.—“We have been hymposed upon all this voyage,”
said a gruff voice, “but this 'ere fancy takes the cake.”—“That man is
a shipmate.”—“Are we bloomin' kids?”—“The port watch will refuse
duty.” Charley carried away by his feeling whistled shrilly, then
yelped:—“Giv' us our Jimmy!” This seemed to cause a variation in the
disturbance. There was a fresh burst of squabbling uproar. A lot of
quarrels were set going at once.—“Yes.”—“No.”—“Never been
sick.”—“Go for them to once.”—“Shut yer mouth, youngster—-this is
men's work.”—“Is it?” muttered Captain Allistoun, bitterly. Mr. Baker
grunted: “Ough! They're gone silly. They've been simmering for the last
month.”—“I did notice,” said the master.—“They have started a row
amongst themselves now,” said Mr. Creighton with disdain, “better get
aft, sir. We will soothe them.—“Keep your temper, Creighton,” said the
master. And the three men began to move slowly towards the cabin door.
In the shadows of the fore rigging a dark mass stamped, eddied,
advanced, retreated. There were words of reproach, encouragement,
unbelief, execration. The elder seamen, bewildered and angry, growled
their determination to go through with something or other; but the
younger school of advanced thought exposed their and Jimmy's wrongs
with confused shouts, arguing amongst themselves. They clustered round
that moribund carcass, the fit emblem of their aspirations, and
encouraging one another they swayed, they tramped on one spot, shouting
that they would not be “put upon.” Inside the cabin, Belfast, helping
Jimmy into his bunk, twitched all over in his desire not to miss all
the row, and with difficulty restrained the tears of his facile
emotion. James Wait, flat on his back under the blanket, gasped
complaints.—“We will back you up, never fear,” assured Belfast, busy
about his feet.—
“I'll come out to-morrow morning———take my chance———-you
fellows must———” mumbled Wait, “I come out to-morrow———skipper or
no skipper.” He lifted one arm with great difficulty, passed the hand
over his face; “Don't you let that cook...” he breathed out.—“No, no,”
said Belfast, turning his back on the bunk, “I will put a head on him
if he comes near you.”—“I will smash his mug!” exclaimed faintly Wait,
enraged and weak; “I don't want to kill a man, but...” He panted fast
like a dog after a run in sunshine. Some one just outside the door
shouted, “He's as fit as any ov us!” Belfast put his hand on the
door-handle.—“Here!” called James Wait, hurriedly, and in such a clear
voice that the other spun round with a start. James Wait, stretched out
black and deathlike in the dazzling light, turned his head on the
pillow. His eyes stared at Belfast, appealing and impudent. “I am
rather weak from lying-up so long,” he said, distinctly. Belfast
nodded. “Getting quite well now,” insisted Wait.—“Yes. I noticed you
getting better this... last month,” said Belfast, looking down. “Hallo!
What's this?” he shouted and ran out.
He was flattened directly against the side of the house by two men
who lurched against him. A lot of disputes seemed to be going on all
round. He got clear and saw three indistinct figures standing along in
the fainter darkness under the arched foot of the mainsail, that rose
above their heads like a convex wall of a high edifice. Donkin
hissed:—“Go for them... it's dark!” The crowd took a short run aft in
a body—then there was a check. Donkin, agile and thin, flitted past
with his right arm going like a windmill—and then stood still suddenly
with his arm pointing rigidly above his head. The hurtling flight of
some heavy object was heard; it passed between the heads of the two
mates, bounded heavily along the deck, struck the after hatch with a
ponderous and deadened blow. The bulky shape of Mr. Baker grew
distinct. “Come to your senses, men!” he cried, advancing at the
arrested crowd. “Come back, Mr. Baker!” called the master's quiet
voice. He obeyed unwillingly. There was a minute of silence, then a
deafening hubbub arose. Above it Archie was heard energetically:—“If
ye do oot ageen I wull tell!” There were shouts. “Don't!” “Drop
it!”—“We ain't that kind!” The black cluster of human forms reeled
against the bulwark, back again towards the house. Ringbolts rang under
stumbling feet.—“Drop it!” “Let me!”—“No!”—“Curse you... hah!” Then
sounds as of some one's face being slapped; a piece of iron fell on the
deck; a short scuffle, and some one's shadowy body scuttled rapidly
across the main hatch before the shadow of a kick. A raging voice
sobbed out a torrent of filthy language...—“Throwing things—good
God!” grunted Mr. Baker in dismay.—“That was meant for me,” said the
master, quietly; “I felt the wind of that thing; what was it—an iron
belaying-pin?”—“By Jove!” muttered Mr. Creighton. The confused voices
of men talking amidships mingled with the wash of the sea, ascended
between the silent and distended sails-seemed to flow away into the
night, further than the horizon, higher than the sky. The stars burned
steadily over the inclined mastheads. Trails of light lay on the water,
broke before the advancing hull, and, after she had passed, trembled
for a long time as if in awe of the murmuring sea.
Meantime the helmsman, anxious to know what the row was about, had
let go the wheel, and, bent double, ran with long, stealthy footsteps
to the break of the poop. The
Narcissus, left to herself, came
up gently in to the wind without any one being aware of it. She gave a
slight roll, and the sleeping sails woke suddenly, coming all together
with a mighty flap against the masts, then filled again one after
another in a quick succession of loud reports that ran down the lofty
spars, till the collapsed mainsail flew out last with a violent jerk.
The ship trembled from trucks to keel; the sails kept on rattling like
a discharge of musketry; the chain sheets and loose shackles jingled
aloft in a thin peal; the gin blocks groaned. It was as if an invisible
hand had given the ship an angry shake to recall the men that peopled
her decks to the sense of reality, vigilance, and duty.—“Helm up!”
cried the master, sharply. “Run aft, Mr. Creighton, and see what that
fool there is up to.”—“Flatten in the head sheets. Stand by the
weather fore-braces,” growled Mr. Baker. Startled men ran swiftly
repeating the orders. The watch below, abandoned all at once by the
watch on deck, drifted towards the forecastle in twos and threes,
arguing noisily as they went—“We shall see to-morrow!” cried a loud
voice, as if to cover with a menacing hint an inglorious retreat. And
then only orders were heard, the falling of heavy coils of rope, the
rattling of blocks. Singleton's white head flitted here and there in
the night, high above the deck, like the ghost of a bird.—“Going off,
sir!” shouted Mr. Creighton from aft.—“Full again.”—“All right...
”—“Ease off the head sheets. That will do the braces. Coil the ropes
up,” grunted Mr. Baker, bustling about.
Gradually the tramping noises, the confused sound of voices, died
out, and the officers, coming together on the poop, discussed the
events. Mr. Baker was bewildered and grunted; Mr. Creighton was calmly
furious; but Captain Allistoun was composed and thoughtful. He;
listened to Mr. Baker's growling argumentation, to Creighton's
interjected and severe remarks, while look-' ing down on the deck he
weighed in his hand the iron belaying-pin—that a moment ago had just
missed his head—as if it had been the only tangible fact of the whole
transaction. He was one of those commanders who speak little, seem to
hear nothing, look at no one—and know everything, hear every whisper,
see every fleeting shadow of their ship's life. His two big officers
towered above his lean, short figure; they talked over his head; they
were dismayed, surprised, and angry, while between them the little
quiet man seemed to have found his taciturn serenity in the profound
depths of a larger experience. Lights were burning in the forecastle;
now and then a loud gust of babbling chatter came from forward, swept
over the decks, and became faint, as if the unconscious ship, gliding
gently through the great peace of the sea, had left behind and for ever
the foolish noise of turbulent mankind. But it was renewed again and
again. Gesticulating arms, profiles of heads with open mouths appeared
for a moment in the illuminated squares of doorways; black fists
darted—withdrew... “Yes. It was most damnable to have such an
unprovoked row sprung on one,” assented the master. ... A tumult of
yells rose in the light, abruptly ceased.... He didn't think there
would be any further trouble just then.... A bell was struck aft,
another, forward, answered in a deeper tone, and the clamour of ringing
metal spread round the ship in a circle of wide vibrations that ebbed
away into the immeasurable night of an empty sea.... Didn't he know
them! Didn't he! In past years. Better men, too. Real men to stand by
one in a tight place. Worse than devils too sometimes—downright,
horned devils. Pah! This—. nothing. A miss as good as a mile.... The
wheel was being relieved in the usual way.—“Full and by,” said, very
loud, the man going off.—“Full and by,” repeated the other, catching
hold of the spokes.—“This head wind is my trouble,” exclaimed the
master, stamping his foot in sudden anger; “head wind! all the rest is
nothing.” He was calm again in a moment. “Keep them on the move
to-night, gentlemen; just to let them feel we've got hold all the
time—quietly, you know. Mind you keep your hands off them, Creighton.
To-morrow I will talk to them like a Dutch Uncle. A crazy crowd of
tinkers! Yes, tinkers! I could count the real sailors amongst them on
the fingers of one hand. Nothing will do but a row—if—you—please.”
He paused. “Did you think I had gone wrong there, Mr. Baker?” He tapped
his forehead, laughed short. “When I saw him standing there, three
parts dead and so scared—black amongst that gaping lot—no grit to
face what's coming to us all—the notion came to me all at once, before
I could think. Sorry for him—like you would be for a sick brute. If
ever creature was in a mortal funk to die! ... I thought I would let
him go out in his own way. Kind of impulse. It never came into my head,
those fools.... H'm! Stand to it now—of course.” He stuck the
belaying-pin in his pocket, seemed ashamed of himself, then
sharply:—“If you see Podmore at his tricks again tell him I will have
him put under the pump. Had to do it once before. The fellow breaks out
like that now and then. Good cook tho'.” He walked away quickly, came
back to the companion. The two mates followed him through the starlight
with amazed eyes. He went down three steps, and changing his tone,
spoke with his head near the deck:—“I shan't turn in to-night, in case
of anything; just call out if... Did you see the eyes of that sick
nigger, Mr. Baker? I fancied he begged me for something. What? Past all
help. One lone black beggar amongst the lot of us, and he seemed to
look through me into the very hell. Fancy, this wretched Podmore! Well,
let him die in peace. I am master here after all. Let him be. He might
have been half a man once... Keep a good look-out.” He disappeared down
below, leaving his mates facing one another, and more impressed than if
they had seen a stone image shed a miraculous tear of compassion over
the incertitudes of life and death....
In the blue mist spreading from twisted threads that stood upright
in the bowls of pipes, the forecastle appeared as vast as a hall.
Between the beams a heavy cloud stagnated; and the lamps surrounded by
halos burned each at the core of a purple glow in two lifeless flames
without rays. Wreaths drifted in denser wisps. Men sprawled about on
the deck, sat in negligent poses, or, bending a knee, drooped with one
shoulder against a bulkhead. Lips moved, eyes flashed, waving arms made
sudden eddies in the smoke. The murmur of voices seemed to pile itself
higher and higher as if unable to run out quick enough through the
narrow doors. The watch below in their shirts, and striding on long
white legs, resembled raving somnambulists; while now and then one of
the watch on deck would rush in, looking strangely over-dressed, listen
a moment, fling a rapid sentence into the noise and run out again; but
a few remained near the door, fascinated, and with one ear turned to
the deck. “Stick together, boys,” roared Davis. Belfast tried to make
himself heard. Knowles grinned in a slow, dazed way. A short fellow
with a thick clipped beard kept on yelling periodically:—“Who's
afeard? Who's afeard?” Another one jumped up, excited, with blazing
eyes, sent out a string of unattached curses and sat down quietly. Two
men discussed familiarly, striking one another's breast in turn, to
clinch arguments. Three others, with their heads in a bunch, spoke all
together with a confidential air, and at the top of their voices. It
was a stormy chaos of speech where intelligible fragments tossing,
struck the ear. One could hear:—“In the last ship”—“Who cares? Try it
on any one of us if———-.”
“Knock under”—“Not a hand's turn”—“He says he is all right”—“I
always thought”—“Never mind....” Donkin, crouching all in a heap
against the bowsprit, hunched his shoulderblades as high as his ears,
and hanging a peaked nose, resembled a sick vulture with ruffled
plumes. Belfast, straddling his legs, had a face red with yelling, and
with arms thrown up, figured a Maltese cross. The two Scandinavians, in
a corner, had the dumbfounded and distracted aspect of men gazing at a
cataclysm. And, beyond the light, Singleton stood in the smoke,
monumental, indistinct, with his head touching the beam; like a statue
of heroic size in the gloom of a crypt.
He stepped forward, impassive and big. The noise subsided like a
broken wave: but Belfast cried once more with uplifted arms:—“The man
is dying I tell ye!” then sat down suddenly on the hatch and took his
head between his hands. All looked at Singleton, gazing upwards from
the deck, staring out of dark corners, or turning their heads with
curious glances. They were expectant and appeased as if that old man,
who looked at no one, had possessed the secret of their uneasy
indignations and desires, a sharper vision, a clearer knowledge. And
indeed standing there amongst them, he had the uninterested appearance
of one who had seen multitudes of ships, had listened many times to
voices such as theirs, had already seen all that could happen on the
wide seas. They heard his voice rumble in his broad chest as though the
words had been rolling towards them out of a rugged past. “What do you
want to do?” he asked. No one answered. Only Knowles muttered—“Aye,
aye,” and somebody said low:—“It's a bloomin' shame.” He waited, made
a contemptuous gesture.—“I have seen rows aboard ship before some of
you were born,” he said, slowly, “for something or nothing; but never
for such a thing.”—“The man is dying, I tell ye,” repeated Belfast,
woefully, sitting at Singleton's feet.—“And a black fellow, too,” went
on the old seaman, “I have seen them die like flies.” He stopped,
thoughtful, as if trying to recollect gruesome things, details of
horrors, hecatombs of niggers. They looked at him fascinated. He was
old enough to remember slavers, bloody mutinies, pirates perhaps; who
could tell through what violences and terrors he had lived! What would
he say? He said:—“You can't help him; die he must.” He made another
pause. His moustache and beard stirred. He chewed words, mumbled behind
tangled white hairs; incomprehensible and exciting, like an oracle
behind a veil....—“Stop ashore———sick.———-Instead———bringing
all this head wind. Afraid. The sea will have her own.———Die in
sight of land. Always so. They know it———long passage———more
days, more dollars.———You——”
He seemed to wake up from a dream. “You can't help yourselves,” he
said, austerely, “Skipper's no fool. He has something in his mind. Look
out—say! I know 'em!” With eyes fixed in front he turned his head from
right to left, from left to right, as if inspecting a long row of
astute skippers.—“'Ee said 'ee would brain me!” cried Donkin in a
heartrending tone. Singleton peered downwards with puzzled attention,
as though he couldn't find him.—“Damn you!” he said, vaguely, giving
it up. He radiated unspeakable wisdom, hard unconcern, the chilling air
of resignation. Round him all the listeners felt themselves somehow
completely enlightened by their disappointment, and mute, they lolled
about with the careless ease of men who can discern perfectly the
irremediable aspect of their existence. He, profound and unconscious,
waved his arm once, and strode out on deck without another word.
Belfast was lost in a round-eyed meditation. One or two vaulted
heavily into upper berths, and, once there, sighed; others dived head
first inside lower bunks—swift, and turning round instantly upon
themselves, like animals going into lairs. The grating of a knife
scraping burnt clay was heard. Knowles grinned no more. Davis said, in
a tone of ardent conviction: “Then our skipper's looney.” Archie
muttered: “My faith! we haven't heard the last of it yet!” Four bells
were struck.—“Half our watch below gone!” cried Knowles in alarm, then
reflected. “Well, two hours' sleep is something towards a rest,” he
observed, consolingly. Some already pretended to slumber; and Charley,
sound asleep, suddenly said a few slurred words in an arbitrary, blank
voice.—“This blamed boy has worrums!” commented Knowles from under a
blanket, in a learned manner. Belfast got up and approached Archie's
berth.—“We pulled him out,” he whispered, sadly.—“What?” said the
other, with sleepy discontent.—“And now we will have to chuck him
overboard,” went on Belfast, whose lower lip trembled.—“Chuck what?”
asked Archie.—“Poor Jimmy,” breathed out Belfast.—“He be blowed!”
said Archie with untruthful brutality, and sat up in his bunk; “It's
all through him. If it hadn't been for me, there would have been murder
on board this ship!”—“'Tain't his fault, is it?” argued Belfast, in a
murmur; “I've put him to bed... an' he ain't no heavier than an empty
beef-cask,” he added, with tears in his eyes. Archie looked at him
steadily, then turned his nose to the ship's side with determination.
Belfast wandered about as though he had lost his way in the dim
forecastle, and nearly fell over Donkin. He contemplated him from on
high for a while. “Ain't ye going to turn in?” he asked. Donkin looked
up hopelessly.—“That black'earted Scotch son of a thief kicked me!” he
whispered from the floor, in a tone of utter desolation.—“And a good
job, too!” said Belfast, still very depressed; “You were as near
hanging as damn-it to-night, sonny. Don't you play any of your
murthering games around my Jimmy! You haven't pulled him out. You just
mind! 'Cos if I start to kick you”—he brightened up a bit—“if I start
to kick you, it will be Yankee fashion—to break something!” He tapped
lightly with his knuckles the top of the bowed head. “You moind that,
my bhoy!” he concluded, cheerily. Donkin let it pass.—“Will they split
on me?” he asked, with pained anxiety.—“Who—split?” hissed Belfast,
coming back a step. “I would split your nose this minyt if I hadn't
Jimmy to look after! Who d'ye think we are?” Donkin rose and watched
Belfast's back lurch through the doorway. On all sides invisible men
slept, breathing calmly. He seemed to draw courage and fury from the
peace around him. Venomous and thin-faced, he glared from the ample
misfit of borrowed clothes as if looking for something he could smash.
His heart leaped wildly in his narrow chest. They slept! He wanted to
wring necks, gouge eyes, spit on faces. He shook a dirty pair of meagre
fists at the smoking lights. “Ye're no men!” he cried, in a deadened
tone. No one moved. “Yer 'aven't the pluck of a mouse!” His voice rose
to a husky screech. Wamibo darted out a dishevelled head, and looked at
him wildly. “Ye're sweepings ov ships! I 'ope you will all rot before
you die!” Wamibo blinked, uncomprehending but interested. Donkin sat
down heavily; he blew with force through quivering nostrils, he ground
and snapped his teeth, and, with the chin pressed hard against the
breast, he seemed busy gnawing his way through it, as if to get at the
heart within....
In the morning the ship, beginning another day of her wandering
life, had an aspect of sumptuous freshness, like the spring-time of the
earth. The washed decks glistened in a long clear stretch; the oblique
sunlight struck the yellow brasses in dazzling splashes, darted over
the polished rods in lines of gold, and the single drops of salt water
forgotten here and there along the rail were as limpid as drops of dew,
and sparkled more than scattered diamonds. The sails slept, hushed by a
gentle breeze. The sun, rising lonely and splendid in the blue sky, saw
a solitary ship gliding close-hauled on the blue sea.
The men pressed three deep abreast of the mainmast and opposite the
cabin-door. They shuffled, pushed, had an irresolute mien and stolid
faces. At every slight movement Knowles lurched heavily on his short
leg. Donkin glided behind backs, restless and anxious, like a man
looking for an ambush. Captain Allistoun came out on the quarter-deck
suddenly. He walked to and fro before the front. He was grey, slight,
alert, shabby in the sunshine, and as hard as adamant. He had his right
hand in the side-pocket of his jacket, and also something heavy in
there that made folds all down that side. One of the seamen cleared his
throat ominously.—“I haven't till now found fault with you men,” said
the master, stopping short. He faced them with his worn, steely gaze,
that by a universal illusion looked straight into every individual pair
of the twenty pairs of eyes before his face. At his back Mr. Baker,
gloomy and bull-necked, grunted low; Mr. Creighton, fresh as paint, had
rosy cheeks and a ready, resolute bearing. “And I don't now,” continued
the master; “but I am here to drive this ship and keep every man-jack
aboard of her up to the mark. If you knew your work as well as I do
mine, there would be no trouble. You've been braying in the dark about
'See to-morrow morning!' Well, you see me now. What do you want?” He
waited, stepping quickly to and fro, giving them searching glances.
What did they want? They shifted from foot to foot, they balanced their
bodies; some, pushing back their caps, scratched their heads. What did
they want? Jimmy was forgotten; no one thought of him, alone forward in
his cabin, fighting great shadows, clinging to brazen lies, chuckling
painfully over his transparent deceptions. No, not Jimmy; he was more
forgotten than if he had been dead. They wanted great things. And
suddenly all the simple words they knew seemed to be lost for ever in
the immensity of their vague and burning desire. They knew what they
wanted, but they could not find anything worth saying. They stirred on
one spot, swinging, at the end of muscular arms, big tarry hands with
crooked fingers. A murmur died out.—“What is it—food?” asked the
master, “you know the stores have been spoiled off the Cape.”—“We know
that, sir,” said a bearded shell-back in the front rank.—“Work too
hard—eh? Too much for your strength?” he asked again. There was an
offended silence.—“We don't want to go shorthanded, sir,” began at
last Davis in a wavering voice, “and this 'ere black....”—“Enough!”
cried the master. He stood scanning them for a moment, then walking a
few steps this way and that began to storm at them coldly, in gusts
violent and cutting like the gales of those icy seas that had known his
youth.—“Tell you what's the matter? Too big for your boots. Think
yourselves damn good men. Know half your work. Do half your duty. Think
it too much. If you did ten times as much it wouldn't be enough.”—“We
did our best by her, sir,” cried some one with shaky
exasperation.—“Your best,” stormed on the master; “You hear a lot on
shore, don't you? They don't tell you there your best isn't much to
boast of. I tell you—your best is no better than bad.”
“You can do no more? No, I know, and say nothing. But you stop your
caper or I will stop it for you. I am ready for you! Stop it!” He shook
a finger at the crowd. “As to that man,” he raised his voice very much;
“as to that man, if he puts his nose out on deck without my leave I
will clap him in irons. There!” The cook heard him forward, ran out of
the galley lifting his arms, horrified, unbelieving, amazed, and ran in
again. There was a moment of profound silence during which a bow-legged
seaman, stepping aside, expectorated decorously into the scupper.
“There is another thing,” said the master, calmly. He made a quick
stride and with a swing took an iron belaying-pin out of his pocket.
“This!” His movement was so unexpected and sudden that the crowd
stepped back. He gazed fixedly at their faces, and some at once put on
a surprised air as though they had never seen a belay-ing-pin before.
He held it up. “This is my affair. I don't ask you any questions, but
you all know it; it has got to go where it came from.” His eyes became
angry. The crowd stirred uneasily. They looked away from the piece of
iron, they appeared shy, they were embarrassed and shocked as though it
had been something horrid, scandalous, or indelicate, that in common
decency should not have been flourished like this in broad daylight.
The master watched them attentively. “Donkin,” he called out in a
short, sharp tone.
Donkin dodged behind one, then behind another, but they looked over
their shoulders and moved aside. The ranks kept on opening before him,
closing behind, till at last he appeared alone before the master as
though he had come up through the deck. Captain Allistoun moved close
to him. They were much of a size, and at short range the master
exchanged a deadly glance with the beady eyes. They wavered.—“You know
this?” asked the master.—“No, I don't,” answered the other, with
cheeky trepidation.—“You are a cur. Take it,” ordered the master.
Donkin's arms seemed glued to his thighs; he stood, eyes front, as if
drawn on parade. “Take it,” repeated the master, and stepped closer;
they breathed on one another. “Take it,” said Captain Allistoun again,
making a menacing gesture. Donkin tore away one arm from his side.—“Vy
are yer down on me?” he mumbled with effort and as if his mouth had
been full of dough.—“If you don't...” began the master. Donkin
snatched at the pin as though his intention had been to run away with
it, and remained stock still holding it like a candle. “Put it back
where you took it from,” said Captain Allistoun, looking at him
fiercely. Donkin stepped back opening wide eyes. “Go, you blackguard,
or I will make you,” cried the master, driving him slowly backwards by
a menacing advance. He dodged, and with the dangerous iron tried to
guard his head from a threatening fist. Mr. Baker ceased grunting for a
moment.—“Good! By Jove,” murmured appreciatively Mr. Creighton in the
tone of a connoisseur.—“Don't tech me,” snarled Donkin, backing
away.—“Then go. Go faster.”—“Don't yer 'it me.... I will pull yer up
afore the magistryt.... I'll show yer up.” Captain Allistoun made a
long stride, and Donkin, turning his back fairly, ran off a little,
then stopped and over his shoulder showed yellow teeth.—“Further on,
fore-rigging,” urged the master, pointing with his arm.—“Are yer goin'
to stand by and see me bullied?” screamed Donkin at the silent crowd
that watched him. Captain Allistoun walked at him smartly. He started
off again with a leap, dashed at the fore-rigging, rammed the pin into
its hole violently. “I'll be even with yer yet,” he screamed at the
ship at large and vanished beyond the foremast. Captain Allistoun spun
round and walked back aft with a composed face, as though he had
already forgotten the scene. Men moved out of his way. He looked at no
one.—“That will do, Mr. Baker. Send the watch below,” he said,
quietly. “And you men try to walk straight for the future,” he added in
a calm voice. He looked pensively for a while at the backs of the
impressed and retreating crowd. “Breakfast, steward,” he called in a
tone of relief through the cabin door.—“I didn't like to see
you—Ough!—give that pin to that chap, sir,” observed Mr. Baker; “he
could have bust—Ough!—bust your head like an eggshell with it.”—“O!
he!” muttered the master, absently. “Queer lot,” he went on in a low
voice. “I suppose it's all right now. Can never tell tho' nowadays,
with such a... Years ago; I was a young master then—one China voyage I
had a mutiny; real mutiny, Baker. Different men tho'. I knew what they
wanted: they wanted to broach the cargo and get at the liquor. Very
simple.... We knocked them about for two days, and when they had
enough—gentle as lambs. Good crew. And a smart trip I made.” He
glanced aloft at the yards braced sharp up. “Head wind day after day,”
he exclaimed, bitterly. “Shall we never get a decent slant this
passage?”—“Ready, sir,” said the steward, appearing before them as if
by magic and with a stained napkin in his hand.—“Ah! All right. Come
along, Mr. Baker—it's late—with all this nonsense.”
A heavy atmosphere of oppressive quietude pervaded the ship. In the
afternoon men went about washing clothes and hanging them out to dry in
the unprosperous breeze with the meditative languor of disenchanted
philosophers. Very little was said. The problem of life seemed too
voluminous for the narrow limits of human speech, and by common consent
it was abandoned to the great sea that had from the beginning enfolded
it in its immense grip; to the sea that knew all, and would in time
infallibly unveil to each the wisdom hidden in all the errors, the
certitude that lurks in doubts, the realm of safety and peace beyond
the frontiers of sorrow and fear. And in the confused current of
impotent thoughts that set unceasingly this way and that through bodies
of men, Jimmy bobbed up upon the surface, compelling attention, like a
black buoy chained to the bottom of a muddy stream. Falsehood
triumphed. It triumphed through doubt, through stupidity, through pity,
through sentimentalism. We set ourselves to bolster it up from
compassion, from recklessness, from a sense of fun. Jimmy's
steadfastness to his untruthful attitude in the face of the inevitable
truth had the proportions of a colossal enigma—of a manifestation
grand and incomprehensible that at times inspired a wondering awe; and
there was also, to many, something exquisitely droll in fooling him
thus to the top of his bent. The latent egoism of tenderness to
suffering appeared in the developing anxiety not to see him die. His
obstinate non-recognition of the only certitude whose approach we could
watch from day to day was as disquieting as the failure of some law of
nature. He was so utterly wrong about himself that one could not but
suspect him of having access to some source of supernatural knowledge.
He was absurd to the point of inspiration. He was unique, and as
fascinating as only something inhuman could be; he seemed to shout his
denials already from beyond the awful border. He was becoming
immaterial like an apparition; his cheekbones rose, the forehead
slanted more; the face was all hollows, patches of shade; and the
fleshless head resembled a disinterred black skull, fitted with two
restless globes of silver in the sockets of eyes. He was demoralising.
Through him we were becoming highly humanised, tender, complex,'
excessively decadent: we understood the subtlety of his fear,
sympathised with all his repulsions, shrinkings, evasions,
delusions—as though we had been over-civilised, and rotten, and
without any knowledge of the meaning of life. We had the air of being
initiated in some infamous mysteries; we had the profound grimaces of
conspirators, exchanged meaning glances, significant short words. We
were inexpressibly vile and very much pleased with ourselves. We lied
to him with gravity, with emotion, with unction, as if performing some
moral trick with a view to an eternal reward. We made a chorus of
affirmation to his wildest assertions, as though he had been a
millionaire, a politician, or a reformer—and we a crowd of ambitious
lubbers. When we ventured to question his statements we did it after
the manner of obsequious sycophants, to the end that his glory should
be augmented by the flattery of our dissent. He influenced the moral
tone of our world as though he had it in his power to distribute
honours, treasures, or pain; and he could give us nothing but his
contempt. It was immense; it seemed to grow gradually larger, as his
body day by day shrank a little more, while we looked. It was the only
thing about him—of him—that gave the impression of durability and
vigour. It lived within him with an unquenchable life. It spoke through
the eternal pout of his black lips; it looked at us through the
impertinent mournfulness of his languid and enormous stare. We watched
him intently. He seemed unwilling to move, as if distrustful of his own
solidity. The slightest gesture must have disclosed to him (it could
not surely be otherwise) his bodily weakness, and caused a pang of
mental suffering. He was chary of movements. He lay stretched out, chin
on blanket, in a kind of sly, cautious immobility. Only his eyes roamed
over faces: his eyes disdainful, penetrating and sad.
It was at that time that Belfast's devotion—and also his
pugnacity—secured universal respect. He spent every moment of his
spare time in Jimmy's cabin. He tended him, talked to him; was as
gentle as a woman, as tenderly gay as an old philanthropist, as
sentimentally careful of his nigger as a model slave-owner. But outside
he was irritable, explosive as gunpowder, sombre, suspicious, and never
more brutal than when most sorrowful. With him it was a tear and a
blow: a tear for Jimmy, a blow for any one who did not seem to take a
scrupulously orthodox view of Jimmy's case. We talked about nothing
else. The two Scandinavians, even, discussed the situation—but it was
impossible to know in what spirit, because they quarrelled in their own
language. Belfast suspected one of them of irreverence, and in this
incertitude thought that there was no option but to fight them both.
They became very much terrified by his truculence, and henceforth lived
amongst us, dejected, like a pair of mutes. Wamibo never spoke
intelligibly, but he was as smileless as an animal—seemed to know much
less about it all than the cat—and consequently was safe. Moreover, he
had belonged to the chosen band of Jimmy's rescuers, and was above
suspicion. Archie was silent generally, but often spent an hour or so
talking to Jimmy quietly with an air of proprietorship. At any time of
the day and often through the night some man could be seen sitting on
Jimmy's box. In the evening, between six and eight, the cabin was
crowded, and there was an interested group at the door. Every one
stared at the nigger.
He basked in the warmth of our interest. His eye gleamed ironically,
and in a weak voice he reproached us with our cowardice. He would say,
“If you fellows had stuck out for me I would be now on deck.” We hung
our heads. “Yes, but if you think I am going; to let them put me in
irons just to show you sport.... Well, no.... It ruins my health, this
lying-up, it does. You don't care.” We were as abashed as if it had
been true. His superb impudence carried all before it. We would not
have dared to revolt. We didn't want to, really. We wanted to keep him
alive till home—to the end of the voyage.
Singleton as usual held aloof, appearing to scorn the insignificant
events of an ended life. Once only he came along, and unexpectedly
stopped in the doorway. He peered at Jimmy in profound silence, as if
desirous to add that black image to the crowd of Shades that peopled
his old memory. We kept very quiet, and for a long time Singleton stood
there as though he had come by appointment to call for some one, or to
see some important event. James Wait lay perfectly still, and
apparently not aware of the gaze scrutinising him with a steadiness
full of expectation. There was a sense of a contest in the air. We felt
the inward strain of men watching a wrestling bout. At last Jimmy with
perceptible apprehension turned his head on the pillow.—“Good
evening,” he said in a conciliating tone.—“H'm,” answered the old
seaman, grumpily. For a moment longer he looked at Jimmy with severe
fixity, then suddenly went away. It was a long time before any one
spoke in the little cabin, though we all breathed more freely as men do
after an escape from some dangerous situation. We all knew the old
man's ideas about Jimmy, and nobody dared to combat them. They were
unsettling, they caused pain; and, what was worse, they might have been
true for all we knew. Only once did he condescend to explain them
fully, but the impression was lasting. He said that Jimmy was the cause
of head winds. Mortally sick men—he maintained—linger till the first
sight of land, and then die; and Jimmy knew that the very first land
would draw his life from him. It is so in every ship. Didn't we know
it? He asked us with austere contempt: what did we know? What would we
doubt next? Jimmy's desire encouraged by us and aided by Wamibo's (he
was a Finn—wasn't he? Very well!) by Wamibo's spells delayed the ship
in the open sea. Only lubberly fools couldn't see it. Whoever heard of
ouch a run of calms and head winds? It wasn't natural.... We could not
deny that it was strange. We felt uneasy. The common saying, “More
days, more dollars,” did not give the usual comfort because the stores
were running short. Much had been spoiled off the Cape, and we were on
half allowance of biscuit. Peas, sugar and tea had been finished long
ago. Salt meat was giving out. We had plenty of coffee but very little
water to make it with. We took up another hole in our belts and went on
scraping, polishing, painting the ship from morning to night. And soon
she looked as though she had come out of a band-box; but hunger lived
on board of her. Not dead starvation, but steady, living hunger that
stalked about the decks, slept in the forecastle; the tormentor of
waking moments, the disturber of dreams. We looked to windward for
signs of change. Every few hours of night and day we put her round with
the hope that she would come up on that tack at last! She didn't. She
seemed to have forgotten the way home; she rushed to and fro, heading
northwest, heading east; she ran backwards and forwards, distracted,
like a timid creature at the foot of a wall. Sometimes, as if tired to
death, she would wallow languidly for a day in the smooth swell of an
unruffled sea. All up the swinging masts the sails thrashed furiously
through the hot stillness of the calm. We were weary, hungry, thirsty;
we commenced to believe Singleton, but with unshaken fidelity
dissembled to Jimmy. We spoke to him with jocose allusiveness, like
cheerful accomplices in a clever plot; but we looked to the westward
over the rail with longing eyes for a sign of hope, for a sign of fair
wind; even if its first breath should bring death to our reluctant
Jimmy. In vain! The universe conspired with James Wait. Light airs from
the northward sprang up again; the sky remained clear; and round our
weariness the glittering sea, touched by the breeze, basked
voluptuously in the great sunshine, as though it had forgotten our life
and trouble.
Donkin looked out for a fair wind along with the rest. No one knew
the venom of his thoughts now. He was silent, and appeared thinner, as
if consumed slowly by an inward rage at the injustice of men and of
fate. He was ignored by all and spoke to no one, but his hate for every
man dwelt in his furtive eyes. He talked with the cook only, having
somehow persuaded the good man that he—Donkin—was a much calumniated
and persecuted person. Together they bewailed the immorality of the
ship's company. There could be no greater criminals than we, who by our
lies conspired to send the unprepared soul of a poor ignorant black man
to everlasting perdition. Podmore cooked what there was to cook,
remorsefully, and felt all the time that by preparing the food of such
sinners he imperilled his own salvation. As to the Captain—he had
sailed with him for seven years, now, he said, and would not have
believed it possible that such a man... “Well. Well... There it was...
Can't get out of it. Judgment capsized all in a minute... Struck in all
his pride... More like a sudden visitation than anything else.” Donkin,
perched sullenly on the coal-locker, swung his legs and concurred. He
paid in the coin of spurious assent for the privilege to sit in the
galley; he was disheartened and scandalised; he agreed with the cook;
could find no words severe enough to criticise our conduct; and when in
the heat of reprobation he swore at us, Podmore, who would have liked
to swear also if it hadn't been for his principles, pretended not to
hear. So Donkin, unrebuked, cursed enough for two, cadged for matches,
borrowed tobacco, and loafed for hours, very much at home, before the
stove. From there he could hear us on the other side of the bulkhead,
talking to Jimmy. The cook knocked the saucepans about, slammed the
oven door, muttered prophesies of damnation for all the ship's company;
and Donkin, who did not admit of any hereafter (except for purposes of
blasphemy) listened, concentrated and angry, gloating fiercely over a
called-up image of infinite torment—as men gloat over the accursed
images of cruelty and revenge, of greed, and of power....
On clear evenings the silent ship, under the cold sheen of the dead
moon, took on a false aspect of passionless repose resembling the
winter of the earth. Under her a long band of gold barred the black
disc of the sea. Footsteps echoed on her quiet decks. The moonlight
clung to her like a frosted mist, and the white sails stood out in
dazzling cones as of stainless snow. In the magnificence of the phantom
rays the ship appeared pure like a vision of ideal beauty, illusive
like a tender dream of serene peace. And nothing in her was real,
nothing was distinct and solid but the heavy shadows that filled her
decks with their unceasing and noiseless stir: the shadows darker than
the night and more restless than the thoughts of men.
Donkin prowled spiteful and alone amongst the shadows, thinking that
Jimmy too long delayed to die. That evening land had been reported from
aloft, and the master, while adjusting the tubes of the long glass, had
observed with quiet bitterness to Mr. Baker that, after fighting our
way inch by inch to the Western Islands, there was nothing to expect
now but a spell of calm. The sky was clear and the barometer high. The
light breeze dropped with the sun, and an enormous stillness,
forerunner of a night without wind, descended upon the heated waters of
the ocean. As long as daylight lasted, the hands collected on the
forecastle-head watched on the eastern sky the island of Flores, that
rose above the level expanse of the sea with irregular and broken
outlines like a sombre ruin upon a vast and deserted plain. It was the
first land seen for nearly four months. Charley was excited, and in the
midst of general indulgence took liberties with his betters. Men
strangely elated without knowing why, talked in groups, and pointed
with bared arms. For the first time that voyage Jimmy's sham existence
seemed for a moment forgotten in the face of a solid reality. We had
got so far anyhow. Belfast discoursed, quoting imaginary examples of
short homeward runs from the Islands. “Them smart fruit schooners do it
in five days,” he affirmed. “What do you want?—only a good little
breeze.” Archie maintained that seven days was the record passage, and
they disputed amicably with insulting words. Knowles declared he could
already smell home from there, and with a heavy list on his short leg
laughed fit to split his sides. A group of grizzled sea-dogs looked out
for a time in silence and with grim absorbed faces. One said
suddenly—“'Tain't far to London now.”—“My first night ashore, blamme
if I haven't steak and onions for supper... and a pint of bitter,” said
another.—“A barrel ye mean,” shouted someone.—“Ham an' eggs three
times a day. That's the way I live!” cried an excited voice. There was
a stir, appreciative murmurs; eyes began to shine; jaws champed; short,
nervous laughs were heard. Archie smiled with reserve all to himself.
Singleton came up, gave a careless glance, and went down again without
saying a word, indifferent, like a man who had seen Flores an
incalculable number of times. The night travelling from the East
blotted out of the limpid sky the purple stain of the high land. “Dead
calm,” said somebody quietly. The murmur of lively talk suddenly
wavered, died out; the clusters broke up; men began to drift away one
by one, descending the ladders slowly and with serious faces as if
sobered by that reminder of their dependence upon the invisible. And
when the big yellow moon ascended gently above the sharp rim of the
clear horizon it found the ship wrapped up in a breathless silence; a
fearless ship that seemed to sleep profoundly, dreamlessly on the bosom
of the sleeping and terrible sea.
Donkin chafed at the peace—at the ship—at the sea that stretching
away on all sides merged into the illimitable silence of all creation.
He felt himself pulled up sharp by unrecognised grievances. He had been
physically cowed, but his injured dignity remained indomitable, and
nothing could heal his lacerated feelings. Here was land already—home
very soon—a bad pay-day—no clothes—more hard work. How offensive all
this was. Land. The land that draws away life from sick sailors. That
nigger there had money—clothes—easy times; and would not die. Land
draws life away.... He felt tempted to go and see whether it did.
Perhaps already.. It would be a bit of luck. There was money in the
beggar's chest. He stepped briskly out of the shadows into the
moonlight, and, instantly, his craving, hungry face from sallow became
livid. He opened the door of the cabin and had a shock. Sure enough,
Jimmy was dead! He moved no more than a recumbent figure with clasped
hands, carved on the lid of a stone coffin. Donkin glared with avidity.
Then Jimmy, without stirring, blinked his eyelids, and Donkin had
another shock. Those eyes were rather startling. He shut the door
behind his back with gentle care, looking intently the while at James
Wait as though he had come in there at a great risk to tell some secret
of startling im-portance. Jimmy did not move but glanced languidly out
of the corners of his eyes.—“Calm?” he asked.—“Yuss,” said Donkin,
very disappointed, and sat down on the box.
Jimmy was used to such visits at all times of night of day. Men
succeeded one another. They spoke in clear voices, pronounced cheerful
words, repeated old jokes, listened to him; and each, going out, seemed
to leave behind a little of his own vitality, surrender some of his own
strength, renew the assurance of life—the indestructible thing! He did
not like to be alone in his cabin, because, when he was alone, it
seemed to him as if he hadn't been there at all. There was nothing. No
pain. Not now. Perfectly right—but he couldn't enjoy his healthful
repose unless some one was by to see it. This man would do as well as
anybody. Donkin watched him stealthily:—“Soon home now,” observed
Wait.—“Vy d'yer whisper?” asked Donkin with interest, “can't yer speak
up?” Jimmy looked annoyed and said nothing for a while; then in a
lifeless, unringing voice:—“Why should I shout? You ain't deaf that I
know.”—“Oh! I can 'ear right enough,” answered Donkin in a low tone,
and looked down. He was thinking sadly of going out when Jimmy spoke
again.—“Time we did get home... to get something decent to eat... I am
always hungry.” Donkin felt angry all of a sudden.—“What about me,” he
hissed, “I am 'ungry too an' got ter work. You, 'ungry!”—“Your work
won't kill you,” commented Wait, feebly; “there's a couple of biscuits
in the lower bunk there—you may have one. I can't eat them.” Donkin
dived in, groped in the corner and when he came up again his mouth was
full. He munched with ardour. Jimmy seemed to doze with open eyes.
Donkin finished his hard bread and got up.—“You're not going?” asked
Jimmy, staring at the ceiling.—“No,” said Donkin, impulsively, and
instead of going out leaned his back against the closed door. He looked
at James Wait, and saw him long, lean, dried up, as though all his
flesh had shrivelled on his bones in the heat of a white furnace; the
meagre fingers of one hand moved lightly upon the edge of the bunk
playing an endless tune. To look at him was irritating and fatiguing;
he could last like this for days; he was outrageous—belonging wholly
neither to death nor life, and perfectly invulnerable in his apparent
ignorance of both. Donkin felt tempted to enlighten him.—“What are yer
thinkin' of?” he asked, surlily. James Wait had a grimacing smile that
passed over the deathlike impassiveness of his bony face, incredible
and frightful as would, in a dream, have been the sudden smile of a
corpse.
“There is a girl,” whispered Wait.... “Canton Street girl.———She
chucked a third engineer of a Rennie boat———for me. Cooks oysters
just as I like... She says———she would chuck———any
toff———louder.”
Donkin could hardly believe his ears. He was scandalised—“Would
she? Yer wouldn't be any good to 'er,” he said with unrestrained
disgust. Wait was not there to hear him. He was swaggering up the East
India Dock Road; saying kindly, “Come along for a treat,” pushing glass
swing-doors, posing with superb assurance in the gaslight above a
mahogany counter.—“D'yer think yer will ever get ashore?” asked
Donkin, angrily. Wait came back with a start.—“Ten days,” he said,
promptly, and returned at once to the regions of memory that know
nothing of time. He felt untired, calm, and safely withdrawn within
himself beyond the reach of every grave incertitude. There was
something of the immutable quality of eternity in the slow moments of
his complete rest-fulness. He was very quiet and easy amongst his vivid
reminiscences which he mistook joyfully for images of an undoubted
future. He cared for no one. Donkin felt this vaguely like a blind man
feeling in his darkness the fatal antagonism of all the surrounding
existences, that to him shall for ever remain irrealisable, unseen and
enviable. He had a desire to assert his importance, to break, to crush;
to be even with everybody for everything; to tear the veil, unmask,
expose, leave no refuge—a perfidious desire of truthfulness! He
laughed in a mocking splutter and said:
“Ten days. Strike me blind if lever!... You will be dead by this
time to-morrow p'r'aps. Ten days!” He waited for a while. “D'ye 'ear
me? Blamme if yer don't look dead already.”
Wait must have been collecting his strength, for he said almost
aloud—“You're a stinking, cadging liar. Every one knows you.” And
sitting up, against all probability, startled his visitor horribly. But
very soon Donkin recovered himself. He blustered, “What? What? Who's a
liar? You are—the crowd are—the skipper—everybody. I ain't! Putting
on airs! Who's yer?” He nearly choked himself with indignation. “Who's
yer to put on airs,” he repeated, trembling. “'Ave one—'ave one, says
'ee—an' cawn't eat 'em 'isself. Now I'll 'ave both. By Gawd—I will!
Yer nobody!”
He plunged into the lower bunk, rooted in there and brought to light
another dusty biscuit. He held it up before Jimmy—then took a bite
defiantly.
“What now?” he asked with feverish impudence. “Yer may take
one—says yer. Why not giv' me both? No. I'm a mangy dorg. One fur a
mangy dorg. I'll tyke both. Can yer stop me? Try. Come on. Try.”
Jimmy was clasping his legs and hiding his face on the knees. His
shirt clung to him. Every rib was visible. His emaciated back was
shaken in repeated jerks by the panting catches of his breath.
“Yer won't? Yer can't! What did I say?” went on Donkin, fiercely. He
swallowed another dry mouthful with a hasty effort. The other's silent
helplessness, his weakness, his shrinking attitude exasperated him.
“Ye're done!” he cried. “Who's yer to be lied to; to be waited on 'and
an' foot like a bloomin' ymperor. Yer nobody. Yer no one at all!” he
spluttered with such a strength of unerring conviction that it shook
him from head to foot in coming out, and left him vibrating like a
released string.
James Wait rallied again. He lifted his head and turned bravely at
Donkin, who saw a strange face, an unknown face, a fantastic and
grimacing mask of despair and fury. Its lips moved rapidly; and hollow,
moaning, whistling sounds filled the cabin with a vague mutter full of
menace, complaint and desolation, like the far-off murmur of a rising
wind. Wait shook his head; rolled his eyes; he denied, cursed,
threatened—and not a word had the strength to pass beyond the
sorrowful pout of those black lips. It was incomprehensible and
disturbing; a gibberish of emotions, a frantic dumb show of speech
pleading for impossible things, promising a shadowy vengeance. It
sobered Donkin into a scrutinising watchfulness.
“Yer can't oller. See? What did I tell yer?” he said, slowly, after
a moment of attentive examination. The other kept on headlong and
unheard, nodding passionately, grinning with grotesque and appalling
flashes of big white teeth. Donkin, as if fascinated by the dumb
eloquence and anger of that black phantom, approached, stretching his
neck out with distrustful curiosity; and it seemed to him suddenly that
he was looking only at the shadow of a man crouching high in the bunk
on the level with his eyes.—“What? What?” he said. He seemed to catch
the shape of some words in the continuous panting hiss. “Yer will tell
Belfast! Will yer? Are yer a bloomin' kid?” He trembled with alarm and
rage, “Tell yer gran'mother! Yer afeard! Who's yer ter be afeard more'n
any one?” His passionate sense of his own importance ran away with a
last remnant of caution. “Tell an' be damned! Tell, if yer can!” he
cried. “I've been treated worser'n a dorg by your blooming
back-lickers. They 'as set me on, only to turn aginst me. I am the only
man 'ere. They clouted me, kicked me—an' yer laffed—yer black, rotten
incumbrance, you! You will pay fur it. They giv' yer their grub, their
water—yer will pay fur it to me, by Gawd! Who axed me ter 'ave a drink
of water? They put their bloomin' rags on yer that night, an' what did
they giv' ter me—a clout on the bloomin' mouth—blast their... S'elp
me!... Yer will pay fur it with yer money. I'm goin' ter 'ave it in a
minyte; as soon has ye're dead, yer bloomin' useless fraud. That's the
man I am. An' ye're a thing—a bloody thing. Yah—you corpse!” He flung
at Jimmy's head the biscuit he had been all the time clutching hard,
but it only grazed, and striking with a loud crack the bulkhead beyond
burst like a hand-grenade into flying pieces. James Wait, as if wounded
mortally, fell back on the pillow. His lips ceased to move and the
rolling eyes became quiet and stared upwards with an intense and steady
persistence. Donkin was surprised; he sat suddenly on the chest, and
looked down, exhausted and gloomy. After a moment, he began to mutter
to himself, “Die, you beggar—die. Somebody'll come in... I wish I was
drunk... Ten days... oysters...” He looked up and spoke louder. “No...
No more for yer... no more bloomin' gals that cook oysters... Who's
yer? It's my turn now... I wish I was drunk; I would soon giv' you a
leg up. That's where yer bound to go. Feet fust, through a port...
Splash! Never see yer any more. Overboard! Good 'nuff fur yer.” Jimmy's
head moved slightly and he turned his eyes to Donkin's face; a gaze
unbelieving, desolated and appealing, of a child frightened by the
menace of being shut up alone in the dark. Donkin observed him from the
chest with hopeful eyes; then, without rising, tried the lid. Locked.
“I wish I was drunk,” he muttered and getting up listened anxiously to
the distant sound of footsteps on the deck. They approached—ceased.
Some one yawned interminably just outside the door, and the footsteps
went away shuffling lazily. Donkin's fluttering heart eased its pace,
and when he looked towards the bunk again Jimmy was staring as before
at the white beam.—“'Ow d'yer feel now?” he asked.—“Bad,” breathed
out Jimmy.
Donkin sat down patient and purposeful. Every half-hour the bells
spoke to one another ringing along the whole length of the ship.
Jimmy's respiration was so rapid that it couldn't be counted, so faint
that it couldn't be heard. His eyes were terrified as though he had
been looking at unspeakable horrors; and by his face one could see that
he was thinking of abominable things. Suddenly with an incredibly
strong and heartbreaking voice he sobbed out:
“Overboard!... I!... My God!” Donkin writhed a little on the box. He
looked unwillingly. James Wait was mute. His two long bony hands
smoothed the blanket upwards, as though he had wished to gather it all
up under his chin. A tear, a big solitary tear, escaped from the corner
of his eye and, without touching the hollow cheek, fell on the pillow.
His throat rattled faintly.
And Donkin, watching the end of that hateful nigger, felt the
anguishing grasp of a great sorrow on his heart at the thought that he
himself, some day, would have to go through it all—just like
this—perhaps! His eyes became moist. “Poor beggar,” he murmured. The
night seemed to go by in a flash; it seemed to him he could hear the
irremediable rush of precious minutes. How long would this blooming
affair last? Too long surely. No luck. He could not restrain himself.
He got up and approached the bunk. Wait did not stir. Only his eyes
appeared alive and his hands continued their smoothing movement with a
horrible and tireless industry. Donkin bent over.
“Jimmy,” he called low. There was no answer, but the rattle stopped.
“D'yer see me?” he asked, trembling. Jimmy's chest heaved. Donkin,
looking away, bent his ear to Jimmy's lips, and heard a sound like the
rustle of a single dry leaf driven along the smooth sand of a beach. It
shaped itself.
“Light... the lamp... and... go,” breathed out Wait.
Donkin, instinctively, glanced over his shoulder at the brilliant
flame; then, still looking away, felt under the pillow for a key. He
got it at once and for the next few minutes remained on his knees
shakily but swiftly busy inside the box. When he got up, his face—for
the first time in his life—had a pink flush—perhaps of triumph.
He slipped the key under the pillow again, avoiding to glance at
Jimmy, who had not moved. He turned his back squarely from the bunk,
and started to the door as though he were going to walk a mile. At his
second stride he had his nose against it. He clutched the handle
cautiously, but at that moment he received the irresistible impression
of something happening behind his back. He spun round as though he had
been tapped on the shoulder. He was just in time to see Wait's eyes
blaze up and go out at once, like two lamps overturned together by a
sweeping blow. Something resembling a scarlet thread hung down his chin
out of the corner of his lips—and he had ceased to breathe.
Donkin closed the door behind him gently but firmly. Sleeping men,
huddled under jackets, made on the lighted deck shapeless dark mounds
that had the appearance of neglected graves. Nothing had been done all
through the night and he hadn't been missed. He stood motionless and
perfectly astounded to find the world outside as he had left it; there
was the sea, the ship—sleeping men; and he wondered absurdly at it, as
though he had expected to find the men dead, familiar things gone for
ever: as though, like a wanderer returning after many years, he had
expected to see bewildering changes. He shuddered a little in the
penetrating freshness of the air, and hugged himself forlornly. The
declining moon drooped sadly in the western board as if withered by the
cold touch of a pale dawn. The ship slept. And the immortal sea
stretched away immense and hazy, like the image of life, with a
glittering surface and lightless depths. Donkin gave it a defiant
glance and slunk off noiselessly as if judged and cast out by the
august silence of its might.
Jimmy's death, after all, came as a tremendous surprise. We did not
know till then how much faith we had put in his delusions. We had taken
his chances of life so much at his own valuation that his death, like
the death of an old belief, shook the foundations of our society. A
common bond was gone; the strong, effective and respectable bond of a
sentimental he. All that day we mooned at our work, with suspicious
looks and a disabused air. In our hearts we thought that in the matter
of his departure Jimmy had acted in a perverse and unfriendly manner.
He didn't back us up, as a shipmate should. In going he took away with
himself the gloomy and solemn shadow in which our folly had posed, with
humane satisfaction, as a tender arbiter of fate. And now we saw it was
no such thing. It was just common foolishness; a silly and ineffectual
meddling with issues of majestic import—that is, if Podmore was right.
Perhaps he was? Doubt survived Jimmy; and, like a community of banded
criminals disintegrated by a touch of grace, we were profoundly
scandalised with each other. Men spoke unkindly to their best chums.
Others refused to speak at all. Singleton only was not surprised.
“Dead—is he? Of course,” he said, pointing at the island right abeam:
for the calm still held the ship spell-bound within sight of Flores.
Dead—of course.
He wasn't surprised. Here was the land, and
there, on the fore-hatch and waiting for the sailmaker—there was that
corpse. Cause and effect. And for the first time that voyage, the old
seaman became quite cheery and garrulous, explaining and illustrating
from the stores of experience how, in sickness, the sight of an island
(even a very small one) is generally more fatal than the view of a
continent. But he couldn't explain why.
Jimmy was to be buried at five, and it was a long day till then—a
day of mental disquiet and even of physical disturbance. We took no
interest in our work and, very properly, were rebuked for it. This, in
our constant state of hungry irritation, was exasperating. Donkin
worked with his brow bound in a dirty rag, and looked so ghastly that
Mr. Baker was touched with compassion at the sight of this plucky
suffering.—“Ough! You, Donkin! Put down your work and go lay-up this
watch. You look ill.”—“I am bad, sir—in my 'ead,” he said in a
subdued voice, and vanished speedily. This annoyed many, and they
thought the mate “bloomin' soft to-day.” Captain Allistoun could be
seen on the poop watching the sky to the southwest, and it soon got to
be known about the decks that the barometer had begun to fall in the
night, and that a breeze might be expected before long. This, by a
subtle association of ideas, led to violent quarrelling as to the exact
moment of Jimmy's death. Was it before or after “that 'ere glass
started down?” It was impossible to know, and it caused much
contemptuous growling at one another. All of a sudden there was a great
tumult forward. Pacific Knowles and good-tempered Davis had come to
blows over it. The watch below interfered with spirit, and for ten
minutes there was a noisy scrimmage round the hatch, where, in the
balancing shade of the sails, Jimmy's body, wrapped up in a white
blanket, was watched over by the sorrowful Belfast, who, in his
desolation, disdained the fray. When the noise had ceased, and the
passions had calmed into surly silence, he stood up at the head of the
swathed body, lifting both arms on high, cried with pained
indignation:—“You ought to be ashamed of yourselves!...” We were.
Belfast took his bereavement very hard. He gave proofs of
unextinguishable devotion. It was he, and no other man, who would help
the sailmaker to prepare what was left of Jimmy for a solemn surrender
to the insatiable sea. He arranged the weights carefully at the feet:
two holystones, an old anchor-shackle without its pin, some broken
links of a worn-out stream cable. He arranged them this way, then that.
“Bless my soul! you aren't afraid he will chafe his heel?” said the
sailmaker, who hated the job. He pushed the needle, purring furiously,
with his head in a cloud of tobacco smoke; he turned the flaps over,
pulled at the stitches, stretched at the canvas.—“Lift his
shoulders.... Pull to you a bit.... So—o—o. Steady.” Belfast obeyed,
pulled, lifted, overcome with sorrow, dropping tears on the tarred
twine.—. “Don't you drag the canvas too taut over his poor face,
Sails,” he entreated, tearfully.—“What are you fashing yourself for?
He will be comfortable enough,” assured the sailmaker, cutting the
thread after the last stitch, which came about the middle of Jimmy's
forehead. He rolled up the remaining canvas, put away the needles.
“What makes you take on so?” he asked. Belfast looked down at the long
package of grey sailcloth.—“I pulled him out,” he whispered, “and he
did not want to go. If I had sat up with him last night he would have
kept alive for me... but something made me tired.” The sailmaker took
vigorous draws at his pipe and mumbled:—“When I... West India
Station... In the
Blanche frigate... Yellow Jack... sewed in
twenty men a week... Portsmouth-Devon-port men—townies—knew their
fathers, mothers, sisters—the whole boiling of 'em. Thought nothing of
it. And these niggers like this one—you don't know where it comes
from. Got nobody. No use to nobody. Who will miss him?”—“I do—I
pulled him out,” mourned Belfast dismally.
On two planks nailed together and apparently resigned and still
under the folds of the Union Jack with a white border, James Wait,
carried aft by four men, was deposited slowly, with his feet pointing
at an open port. A swell had set in from the westward, and following on
the roll of the ship, the red ensign, at half-mast, darted out and
collapsed again on the grey sky, like a tongue of flickering fire;
Charley tolled the bell; and at every swing to starboard the whole vast
semi-circle of steely waters visible on that side seemed to come up
with a rush to the edge of the port, as if impatient to get at our
Jimmy. Every one was there but Donkin, who was too ill to come; the
Captain and Mr. Creighton stood bareheaded on the break of the poop;
Mr. Baker, directed by the master, who had said to him gravely:—“You
know more about the prayer book than I do,” came out of the cabin door
quickly and a little embarrassed. All the caps went off. He began to
read in a low tone, and with his usual harmlessly menacing utterance,
as though he had been for the last time reproving confidentially that
dead seaman at his feet. The men listened in scattered groups; they
leaned on the fife rail, gazing on the deck; they held their chins in
their hands thoughtfully, or, with crossed arms and one knee slightly
bent, hung their heads in an attitude of upright meditation. Wamibo
dreamed. Mr. Baker read on, grunting reverently at the turn of every
page. The words, missing the unsteady hearts of men, rolled out to
wander without a home upon the heartless sea; and James Wait, silenced
for ever, lay uncritical and passive under the hoarse murmur of despair
and hopes.
Two men made ready and waited for those words that send so many of
our brothers to their last plunge. Mr. Baker began the passage. “Stand
by,” muttered the boatswain. Mr. Baker read out: “To the deep,” and
paused. The men lifted the inboard end of the planks, the boatswain
snatched off the Union Jack, and James Wait did not move.—“Higher,”
muttered the boatswain angrily. All the heads were raised; every man
stirred uneasily, but James Wait gave no sign of going. In death and
swathed up for all eternity, he yet seemed to cling to the ship with
the grip of an undying fear. “Higher! Lift!” whispered the boatswain,
fiercely.—“He won't go,” stammered one of the men, shakily, and both
appeared ready to drop everything. Mr. Baker waited, burying his face
in the book, and shuffling his feet nervously. All the men looked
profoundly disturbed; from their midst a faint humming noise spread
out—growing louder.... “Jimmy!” cried Belfast in a wailing tone, and
there was a second of shuddering dismay.
“Jimmy, be a man!” he shrieked, passionately. Every mouth was wide
open, not an eyelid winked. He stared wildly, twitching all over; he
bent his body forward like a man peering at an horror. “Go!” he
shouted, and sprang out of the crowd with his arm extended. “Go,
Jimmy!—Jimmy, go! Go!” His fingers touched the head of the body, and
the grey package started reluctantly to whizz off the lifted planks all
at once, with the suddenness of a flash of lightning. The crowd stepped
forward like one man; a deep Ah—h—h! came out vibrating from the
broad chests. The ship rolled as if relieved of an unfair burden; the
sails flapped. Belfast, supported by Archie, gasped hysterically; and
Charley, who anxious to see Jimmy's last dive, leaped headlong on the
rail, was too late to see anything but the faint circle of a vanishing
ripple.
Mr. Baker, perspiring abundantly, read out the last prayer in a deep
rumour of excited men and fluttering sails. “Amen!” he said in an
unsteady growl, and closed the book.
“Square the yards!” thundered a voice above his head. All hands gave
a jump; one or two dropped their caps; Mr. Baker looked up surprised.
The master, standing on the break of the poop, pointed to the westward.
“Breeze coming,” he said, “Man the weather braces.” Mr. Baker crammed
the book hurriedly into his pocket. “Forward, there—let go the
foretack!” he hailed joyfully, bareheaded and brisk; “Square the
foreyard, you port-watch!”—“Fair wind—fair wind,” muttered the men
going to the braces.—“What did I tell you?” mumbled old Singleton,
flinging down coil after coil with hasty energy; “I knowed it—he's
gone, and here it comes.”
It came with the sound of a lofty and powerful sigh. The sails
filled, the ship gathered way, and the waking sea began to murmur
sleepily of home to the ears of men.
That night, while the ship rushed foaming to the Northward before a
freshening gale, the boatswain unbosomed himself to the petty officers'
berth:—“The chap was nothing but trouble,” he said, “from the moment
he came aboard—d'ye remember—that night in Bombay? Been bullying all
that softy crowd—cheeked the old man—we had to go fooling all over a
half-drowned ship to save him. Dam' nigh a mutiny all for him—and now
the mate abused me like a pickpocket for forgetting to dab a lump of
grease on them planks. So I did, but you ought to have known better,
too, than to leave a nail sticking up—hey, Chips?”
“And you ought to have known better than to chuck all my tools
overboard for 'im, like a skeary greenhorn,” retorted the morose
carpenter. “Well—he's gone after 'em now,” he added in an unforgiving
tone.—“On the China Station, I remember once, the Admiral he says to
me...” began the sailmaker.
A week afterwards the
Narcissus entered the chops of the
Channel.
Under white wings she skimmed low over the blue sea like a great
tired bird speeding to its nest. The clouds raced with her mastheads;
they rose astern enormous and white, soared to the zenith, flew past,
and falling down the wide curve of the sky, seemed to dash headlong
into the sea—the clouds swifter than the ship, more free, but without
a home. The coast to welcome her stepped out of space into the
sunshine. The lofty headlands trod masterfully into the sea; the wide
bays smiled in the light; the shadows of homeless clouds ran along the
sunny plains, leaped over valleys, without a check darted up the hills,
rolled down the slopes; and the sunshine pursued them with patches of
running brightness. On the brows of dark cliffs white lighthouses shone
in pillars of light. The Channel glittered like a blue mantle shot with
gold and starred by the silver of the capping seas. The
Narcissus
rushed past the headlands and the bays. Outward-bound vessels crossed
her track, lying over, and with their masts stripped for a slogging
fight with the hard sou'wester. And, inshore, a string of smoking
steamboats waddled, hugging the coast, like migrating and amphibious
monsters, distrustful of the restless waves.
At night the headlands retreated, the bays advanced into one
unbroken line of gloom. The lights of the earth mingled with the lights
of heaven; and above the tossing lanterns of a trawling fleet a great
lighthouse shone steadily, like an enormous riding light burning above
a vessel of fabulous dimensions. Below its steady glow, the coast,
stretching away straight and black, resembled the high side of an
indestructible craft riding motionless upon the immortal and unresting
sea. The dark land lay alone in the midst of waters, like a mighty ship
bestarred with vigilant lights—a ship carrying the burden of millions
of lives—a ship freighted with dross and with jewels, with gold and
with steel. She towered up immense and strong, guarding priceless
traditions and untold suffering, sheltering glorious memories and base
forgetfulness, ignoble virtues and splendid transgressions. A great
ship! For ages had the ocean battered in vain her enduring sides; she
was there when the world was vaster and darker, when the sea was great
and mysterious, and ready to surrender the prize of fame to audacious
men. A ship mother of fleets and nations! The great flagship of the
race; stronger than the storms! and anchored in the open sea.
The
Narcissus, heeling over to off-shore gusts, rounded the
South Foreland, passed through the Downs, and, in tow, entered the
river. Shorn of the glory of her white wings, she wound obediently
after the tug through the maze of invisible channels. As she passed
them the red-painted light-vessels, swung at their moorings, seemed for
an instant to sail with great speed in the rush of tide, and the next
moment were left hopelessly behind. The big buoys on the tails of banks
slipped past her sides very low, and, dropping in her wake, tugged at
their chains like fierce watchdogs. The reach narrowed; from both sides
the land approached the ship. She went steadily up the river. On the
riverside slopes the houses appeared in groups—seemed to stream down
the declivities at a run to see her pass, and, checked by the mud of
the foreshore, crowded on the banks. Further on, the tall factory
chimneys appeared in insolent bands and watched her go by, like a
straggling crowd of slim giants, swaggering and upright under the black
plummets of smoke, cavalierly aslant. She swept round the bends; an
impure breeze shrieked a welcome between her stripped spars; and the
land, closing in, stepped between the ship and the sea.
A low cloud hung before her—a great opalescent and tremulous cloud,
that seemed to rise from the steaming brows of millions of men. Long
drifts of smoky vapours soiled it with livid trails; it throbbed to the
beat of millions of hearts, and from it came an immense and lamentable
murmur—the murmur of millions of lips praying, cursing, sighing,
jeering—the undying murmur of folly, regret, and hope exhaled by the
crowds of the anxious earth. The
Narcissus entered the cloud;
the shadows deepened; on all sides there was the clang of iron, the
sound of mighty blows, shrieks, yells. Black barges drifted stealthily
on the murky stream. A mad jumble of begrimed walls loomed up vaguely
in the smoke, bewildering and mournful, like a vision of disaster. The
tugs backed and filled in the stream, to hold the ship steady at the
dock-gates; from her bows two lines went through the air whistling, and
struck at the land viciously, like a pair of snakes. A bridge broke in
two before her, as if by enchantment; big hydraulic capstans began to
turn all by themselves, as though animated by a mysterious and unholy
spell. She moved through a narrow lane of water between two low walls
of granite, and men with check-ropes in their hands kept pace with her,
walking on the broad flagstones. A group waited impatiently on each
side of the vanished bridge: rough heavy men in caps; sallow-faced men
in high hats; two bareheaded women; ragged children, fascinated, and
with wide eyes. A cart coming at a jerky trot pulled up sharply. One of
the women screamed at the silent ship—“Hallo, Jack!” without looking
at any one in particular, and all hands looked at her from the
forecastle head.—“Stand clear! Stand clear of that rope!” cried the
dockmen, bending over stone posts. The crowd murmured, stamped where
they stood.—“Let go your quarter-checks! Let go!” sang out a
ruddy-faced old man on the quay. The ropes splashed heavily falling in
the water, and the
Narcissus entered the dock.
The stony shores ran away right and left in straight lines,
enclosing a sombre and rectangular pool. Brick walls rose high above
the water!—soulless walls, staring through hundreds of windows as
troubled and dull as the eyes of over-fed brutes. At their base
monstrous iron cranes crouched, with chains hanging from their long
necks, balancing cruel-looking hooks over the decks of lifeless ships.
A noise of wheels rolling over stones, the thump of heavy things
falling, the racket of feverish winches, the grinding of strained
chains, floated on the air. Between high buildings the dust of all the
continents soared in short flights; and a penetrating smell of perfumes
and dirt, of spices and hides, of things costly and of things filthy,
pervaded the space, made for it an atmosphere precious and disgusting.
The
Narcissus came gently into her berth; the shadows of
soulless walls fell upon her, the dust of all the continents leaped
upon her deck, and a swarm of strange men, clambering up her sides,
took possession of her in the name of the sordid earth. She had ceased
to live.
A toff in a black coat and high hat scrambled with agility, came up
to the second mate, shook hands, and said:—“Hallo, Herbert.” It was
his brother. A lady appeared suddenly. A real lady, in a black dress
and with a parasol. She looked extremely elegant in the midst of us,
and as strange as if she had fallen there from the sky. Mr. Baker
touched his cap to her. It was the master's wife. And very soon the
Captain, dressed very smartly and in a white shirt, went with her over
the side. We didn't recognise him at all till, turning on the quay, he
called to Mr. Baker:—“Don't forget to wind up the chronometers
to-morrow morning.” An underhand lot of seedy-looking chaps with shifty
eyes wandered in and out of the forecastle looking for a job—they
said.—“More likely for something to steal,” commented Knowles,
cheerfully. Poor beggars. Who cared? Weren't we home! But Mr. Baker
went for one of them who had given him some cheek, and we were
delighted. Everything was delightful.—“I've finished aft, sir,” called
out Mr. Creighton.—“No water in the well, sir,” reported for the last
time the carpenter, sounding-rod in hand. Mr. Baker glanced along the
decks at the expectant group of sailors, glanced aloft at the
yards.—“Ough! That will do, men,” he grunted. The group broke up. The
voyage was ended.
Rolled-up beds went flying over the rail; lashed chests went sliding
down the gangway—mighty few of both at that. “The rest is having a
cruise off the Cape,” explained Knowles enigmatically to a dock-loafer
with whom he had struck a sudden friendship. Men ran, calling to one
another, hailing utter strangers to “lend a hand with the dunnage,”
then with sudden decorum approached the mate to shake hands before
going ashore.—“Good-bye, sir,” they repeated in various tones. Mr.
Baker grasped hard palms, grunted in a friendly manner at every one,
his eyes twinkled.—“Take care of your money, Knowles. Ough! Soon get a
nice wife if you do.” The lame man was delighted.—“Good-bye, sir,”
said Belfast, with emotion, wringing the mate's hand, and looked up
with swimming eyes. “I thought I would take 'im ashore with me,” he
went on, plaintively. Mr. Baker did not understand, but said
kindly:—“Take care of yourself, Craik,” and the bereaved Belfast went
over the rail mourning and alone.
Mr. Baker, in the sudden peace of the ship, moved about solitary and
grunting, trying door-handles, peering into dark places, never done—a
model chief mate! No one waited for him ashore. Mother dead; father and
two brothers, Yarmouth fishermen, drowned together on the Dogger Bank;
sister married and unfriendly. Quite a lady. Married to the leading
tailor of a little town, and its leading politician, who did not think
his sailor brother-in-law quite respectable enough for him. Quite a
lady, quite a lady, he thought, sitting down for a moment's rest on the
quarter-hatch. Time enough to go ashore and get a bite and sup, and a
bed somewhere. He didn't like to part with a ship. No one to think
about then. The darkness of a misty evening fell, cold and damp, upon
the deserted deck; and Mr. Baker sat smoking, thinking of all the
successive ships to whom through many long years he had given the best
of a seaman's care. And never a command in sight. Not once!—“I haven't
somehow the cut of a skipper about me,” he meditated, placidly, while
the shipkeeper (who had taken possession of the galley), a wizened old
man with bleared eyes, cursed him in whispers for “hanging about
so.”—“Now, Creighton,” he pursued the unenvious train of thought,
“quite a gentleman... swell friends... will get on. Fine young
fellow... a little more experience.” He got up and shook himself. “I'll
be back first thing to-morrow morning for the hatches. Don't you let
them touch anything before I come, shipkeeper,” he called out. Then, at
last, he also went ashore—a model chief mate!
The men scattered by the dissolving contact of the land came
together once more in the shipping office.—-"The
Narcissus pays
off,” shouted outside a glazed door a brass-bound old fellow with a
crown and the capitals B. T. on his cap. A lot trooped in at once but
many were late. The room was large, white-washed, and bare; a counter
surmounted by a brass-wire grating fenced off a third of the dusty
space, and behind the grating a pasty-faced clerk, with his hair parted
in the middle, had the quick, glittering eyes and the vivacious, jerky
movements of a caged bird. Poor Captain Allistoun also in there, and
sitting before a little table with piles of gold and notes on it,
appeared subdued by his captivity. Another Board of Trade bird was
perching on a high stool near the door: an old bird that did not mind
the chaff of elated sailors. The crew of the
Narcissus, broken
up into knots, pushed in the corners. They had new shore togs, smart
jackets that looked as if they had been shaped with an axe, glossy
trousers that seemed made of crumpled sheet-iron, collarless flannel
shirts, shiny new boots. They tapped on shoulders, button-holed one
another, asked:—> “Where did you sleep last night?” whispered gaily,
slapped their thighs with bursts of subdued laughter. Most had clean,
radiant faces; only one or two turned up dishevelled and sad; the
two-young Norwegians looked tidy, meek, and altogether of a promising
material for the kind ladies who patronise the Scandinavian Home.
Wamibo, still in his working clothes, dreamed, upright and burly in the
middle of the room, and, when Archie came in, woke up for a smile. But
the wide-awake clerk called out a name, and the paying-off business
began.
One by one they came up to the pay-table to get the wages of their
glorious and obscure toil. They swept the money with care into broad
palms, rammed it trustfully into trousers' pockets, or, turning their
backs on the table, reckoned with difficulty in the hollow of their
stiff hands.—“Money right? Sign the release. There—there,” repeated
the clerk, impatiently. “How stupid those sailors are!” he thought.
Singleton came up, venerable—and uncertain as to daylight; brown drops
of tobacco juice hung in his white beard; his hands, that never
hesitated in the great light of the open sea, could hardly find the
small pile of gold in the profound darkness of the shore. “Can't
write?” said the clerk, shocked. “Make a mark, then.” Singleton
painfully sketched in a heavy cross, blotted the page. “What a
disgusting old brute,” muttered the clerk. Somebody opened the door for
him, and the patriarchal seaman passed through unsteadily, without as
much as a glance at any of us.
Archie displayed a pocket-book. He was chaffed. Belfast, who looked
wild, as though he had already luffed up through a public-house or two,
gave signs of emotion and wanted to speak to the Captain privately. The
master was surprised. They spoke through the wires, and we could hear
the Captain saying:—“I've given it up to the Board of Trade.” “I
should 've liked to get something of his,” mumbled Belfast. “But you
can't, my man. It's given up, locked and sealed, to the Marine Office,”
expostulated the master; and Belfast stood back, with drooping mouth
and troubled eyes. In a pause of the business we heard the master and
the clerk talking. We caught: “James Wait—deceased—found no papers of
any kind—no relations—no trace—the Office must hold his wages then.”
Donkin entered. He seemed out of breath, was grave, full of business.
He went straight to the desk, talked with animation to the clerk, who
thought him an intelligent man. They discussed the account, dropping
h's against one another as if for a wager—very friendly. Captain
Allistoun paid. “I give you a bad discharge,” he said, quietly. Donkin
raised his voice:—“I don't want your bloomin' discharge—keep it. I'm
goin' ter 'ave a job ashore.” He turned to us. “No more bloomin' sea
fur me,” he said, aloud. All looked at him. He had better clothes, had
an easy air, appeared more at home than any of us; he stared with
assurance, enjoying the effect of his declaration. “Yuss. I 'ave
friends well off. That's more'n you got. But I am a man. Yer shipmates
for all that. Who's comin fur a drink?”
No one moved. There was a silence; a silence of blank faces and
stony looks. He waited a moment, smiled bitterly, and went to the door.
There he faced round once more. “You won't? You bloomin' lot of
yrpocrits. No? What 'ave I done to yer? Did I bully yer? Did I 'urt
yer? Did I?... You won't drink?... No!... Then may ye die of thirst,
every mother's son of yer! Not one of yer 'as the sperrit of a bug.
Ye're the scum of the world. Work and starve!”
He went out, and slammed the door with such violence that the old
Board of Trade bird nearly fell off his perch.
“He's mad,” declared Archie. “No! No! He's drunk,” insisted Belfast,
lurching about, and in a maudlin tone. Captain Allistoun sat smiling
thoughtfully at the cleared pay-table.
Outside, on Tower Hill, they blinked, hesitated clumsily, as if
blinded by the strange quality of the hazy light, as if discomposed by
the view of so many men; and they who could hear one another in the
howl of gales seemed deafened and distracted by the dull roar of the
busy earth.—“To the Black Horse! To the Black Horse!” cried some. “Let
us have a drink together before we part.” They crossed the road,
clinging to one another. Only Charley and Belfast wandered off alone.
As I came up I saw a red-faced, blowsy woman, in a grey shawl, and with
dusty, fluffy hair, fall on Charley's neck. It was his mother. She
slobbered over him:—“O, my boy! My boy!”—“Leggo of me,” said Charley,
“Leggo, mother!” I was passing him at the time, and over the untidy
head of the blubbering woman he gave me a humorous smile and a glance
ironic, courageous, and profound, that seemed to put all my knowledge
of life to shame. I nodded and passed on, but heard him say again,
good-naturedly:—“If you leggo of me this minyt—ye shall 'ave a bob
for a drink out of my pay.” In the next few steps I came upon Belfast.
He caught my arm with tremulous enthusiasm.—“I couldn't go wi' 'em,”
he stammered, indicating by a nod our noisy crowd, that drifted slowly
along the other sidewalk. “When I think of Jimmy... Poor Jim! When I
think of him I have no heart for drink. You were his chum, too... but I
pulled him out... didn't I? Short wool he had.... Yes. And I stole the
blooming pie.... He wouldn't go.... He wouldn't go for nobody.” He
burst into tears. “I never touched him—never—never!” he sobbed. “He
went for me like... like ... a lamb.”
I disengaged myself gently. Belfast's crying fits generally ended in
a fight with some one, and I wasn't anxious to stand the brunt of his
inconsolable sorrow. Moreover, two bulky policemen stood near by,
looking at us with a disapproving and incorruptible gaze.—“So long!” I
said, and went on my way.
But at the corner I stopped to take my last look at the crew of the
Narcissus. They were swaying irresolute and noisy on the broad
flagstones before the Mint. They were bound for the Black Horse, where
men, in fur caps with brutal faces and in shirt sleeves, dispense out
of varnished barrels the illusions of strength, mirth, happiness; the
illusion of splendour and poetry of life, to the paid-off crews of
southern-going ships. From afar I saw them discoursing, with jovial
eyes and clumsy gestures, while the sea of life thundered into their
ears ceaseless and unheeded. And swaying about there on the white
stones, surrounded by the hurry and clamour of men, they appeared to be
creatures of another kind—lost, alone, forgetful, and doomed; they
were like castaways, like reckless and joyous castaways, like mad
castaways making merry in the storm and upon an insecure ledge of a
treacherous rock. The roar of the town resembled the roar of topping
breakers, merciless and strong, with a loud voice and cruel purpose;
but overhead the clouds broke; a flood of sunshine streamed down the
walls of grimy houses. The dark knot of seamen drifted in sunshine. To
the left of them the trees in Tower Gardens sighed, the stones of the
Tower gleaming, seemed to stir in the play of light, as if remembering
suddenly all the great joys and sorrows of the past, the fighting
prototypes of these men; press-gangs; mutinous cries; the wailing of
women by the riverside, and the shouts of men welcoming victories. The
sunshine of heaven fell like a gift of grace on the mud of the earth,
on the remembering and mute stones, on greed, selfishness; on the
anxious faces of forgetful men. And to the right of the dark group the
stained front of the Mint, cleansed by the flood of light, stood out
for a moment dazzling and white like a marble palace in a fairy tale.
The crew of the
Narcissus drifted out of sight.
I never saw them again. The sea took some, the steamers took others,
the graveyards of the earth will account for the rest. Singleton has no
doubt taken with him the long record of his faithful work into the
peaceful depths of an hospitable sea. And Donkin, who never did a
decent day's work in his life, no doubt earns his living by discoursing
with filthy eloquence upon the right of labour to live. So be it! Let
the earth and the sea each have its own.
A gone shipmate, like any other man, is gone for ever; and I never
met one of them again. But at times the spring-flood of memory sets
with force up the dark River of the Nine Bends. Then on the waters of
the forlorn stream drifts a ship—a shadowy ship manned by a crew of
Shades. They pass and make a sign, in a shadowy hail. Haven't we,
together and upon the immortal sea, wrung out a meaning from our sinful
lives? Good-bye, brothers! You were a good crowd. As good a crowd as
ever fisted with wild cries the beating canvas of a heavy foresail; or
tossing aloft, invisible in the night, gave back yell for yell to a
westerly gale.
END